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My God is not a bully.
My God is not a bully.
My God is not a bully.
My God is not a bully.
My upbringing in church, it was never, you know, "oh, gay is wrong" and I didn't really
know what "gay" was. It wasn't really talked about in my church, you know, so, I never
knew that, oh, it was like an abomination or, you know, things that I learned as I grew
older. But the biggest fear that I had was that, you know, my daddy doesn't go to church,
so he might go to hell, if he doesn't go to church, so "Daddy, come on, go to church with
us on Sunday," you know.
Um, so, as far as learning that gay was wrong, in church, I never learned that growing up
at all. It wasn't until I was older and I, actually, you know I guess you could say I
found about about my sexuality, it all kindof came to light. I was about 18-19 years old,
and I think that just life, and just knowing people, and talking to other people and other,
I guess you could say, church folks, you know, made me feel like what I'm doing was wrong,
or being gay was wrong or being a lesbian is wrong. You're supposed to be with a man
and supposed to procreate and that's just the bottom line.
But it took my own self to pull my own self out of that pit that I was in, to think there
was something wrong with who I loved, or being with women, having a family with a woman.
I had to pull myself out of that, I had to find my own, like, spiritual journey if you
will. Through prayer, listening to other, I guess you could say, people who weren't
so biased, as opposed to being gay or being straight or whatever, and just finding my
own road and it taught me, you know, like God is not a bully. He loves everyone. He
created me so he makes no mistakes, so if this is how I am, then that's just how it
is. And, um, I'm a very spiritual person and I don't necessarily go to church now. I think
it's a lot of judging that happens in a lot of churches, I'm not saying all churches,
but there is a lot of judging that I feel goes on and I just want to have a more one-on-one
spiritual connection with God and nobody can, you know, put terms on our relationship, so
my God is not a bully and I know this and I live by it, and there you go.