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I mean, rarely do I feel like God is absolutely not there, but in 2004 I lost my mother to coke addiction, and I remember while she was … her health was steadily declining, steadily declining, and I would pray for God to make a change in her - she would go to rehab, or she would get better, or she would stop using, and it never happened. And I was like, “You know what? Forget this.” I stopped praying for a minute. She was in the hospital the last time, she lost consciousness for the last time, and I told God … I remember I was praying there in the hospital. I was like, “You know what? Fine. If you can’t answer any of my other prayers, then just kill her now. Just take her up to the next world.” She died that night. So, it wasn’t that God wasn’t there. It was just that I was asking for things … like, him to change somebody else’s will, which he’s not going to do. I wasn’t asking the right thing. So, I mean, did I feel like God wasn’t there at the time? Yeah. But it turns out he really was.