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Elle: Some of you have heard my story. I've been wanting to be on a roof top and shout
it out. I had a miracle happen to me this week and it just occurred to me, I think it's
connected to when you had me stand up and volunteer. I think that was five weeks ago,
to do the seven steps. I think a lot of things came together but it occurred to me yesterday
that, that may have been the beginning of the journey that I've been through in the
last five weeks. So a lot of you know that I had (I'm saying 'had' as in past tense)
and it was called a synovial Cyst. I realized after I finished reading this, I cannot recommend
this book more: Anatomy Of The Spirit, that I created. It was locked in my lumbar spine
unfortunately... which is the tiny lumbar spine if it had been four or five inches I
would never known it existed and it grew quite big and it squished my spinal cord. So a year
ago I had so much pain I couldn't function and four doctors said no to MRI. Finally on
Christmas Eve I called a surgeon I knew and cried (great to be a female)! They got me
an MRI that night and found this mass. They told me I had to have it removed through my
surgery and that I could have epidurals if, you know to temporarily release some. I believed
this hope that I would heal and I had many people come forward. Many, many people forward.
This is why, this is so big okay.
I spent thousands trying to get out of pain and pass all that and move forward. The epidurals
helped, they did and I thought I was healed and it came back in July. With a vengeance!
And I had a second MRI three weeks ago and it was almost double in size. By last Sunday
I was bed ridden screaming out to God. Friday I caved and went to see a surgeon and I was
supposed to have a surgery next week where they go in and ... you and they place titanium
rods in your spine and cut and drill the bone and remove it surgically and then hope that
the spinal cord doesn't leak and that's another surgery and on and on. It was bleak but I
felt, okay I can do this. Then on Saturday night some stranger sent me on Facebook saying,
'I saw you posted you have a synovial cyst about to be removed. I had it, here's my story.'
I have it if anyone wants to read it. It's like reading a Stephen King novel. I cried
all weekend, realized that I was hopeless. I had got to a point of hopelessness and there
weren't any good options left. Somehow in that darkest hour, I woke up Monday morning
and called the surgeon because I had cancelled the Epidural Friday to have the surgery. I
called and said, 'do you have my spot taken?' Because she had a five week waiting list.
She goes, 'no.' I go, 'don't give it to anyone I will be there.' I literally walked in. I
did the 7 steps right that day. I sat down, went through all her meals, did all the classes
they had, I just went through each thing. I went into that operating room and I grabbed
the surgeon's hand and I literally , he goes, 'what do you want me to do?' ... and he said,
'I can't, I can't see it to find it and even if I could, I could rapture your spinal cord
with the syringe. 'So I just grabbed his hand and I said, 'all I ask is you try and I will
do the rest. I will ask God to work through you and you just have to try.' He said he
would. Long story short, he had me get an appointment on Monday night and he said, "I
can see it!" I go, 'how is that possible?' ... I go, 'is that good or bad?' He goes,
'great! I can see it!' It's not so big now but it will never go away. We had hoped it
would.
I was face down Arnoux and I was doing all the things that you had taught us and I was
just seeing, just going through. Then he goes, 'I'm going in!' He poked me really hard and
goes, 'does that hurt?' I go, 'yes that hurt.' He pulls the syringe out and he squeezed it
and all this goop came out like chicken bits. They say it was like peanut butter, don't
even ask. I couldn't ask. There was no hope of ever releasing the pressure from the cyst.
He said, 'I did it!' Like a little kid, 'I did it!' and he goes 'I'm going back in' He
did four more times and he screwed with all the stuff out and the last one was just (I
hope that's not too gross). He goes Elle, I got it out. And he watched on the screen
this Cyst just fold up and collapse. I got off the table and he goes, 'it's a miracle.'
I said, 'I have no pain!' For the first time in fifteen minutes I didn't feel like someone
who had a pain in my back. I wept. This was Monday night. I had no pain. I didn't have
any.
I'm off the drugs I was on horse doses. I had to get my kidneys checked and no pills
nothing. What I realized in that moment Arnoux, I'm going to bring this all back, is that
I had hope. I had so much hope I didn't know what to do with it. But what I did not have
was faith and I had all this pictures, I had a story. I had a great script. I told everyone,
'I have this synovial cyst.' I'm in a lot of pain and it's never gonna go away, the
doctor said it could never go away so I'm stuck and in pain. It was a story. I decided
to write a new story and that's what I did. I'm good and I can't thank you enough because
I believed. I heard that it was what you cleared me of, if you don't remember, is that my fear
of moving forward. I told everyone I knew that I was a little bird locked in a cage
and that I couldn't fly. I had all this fear and I couldn't move forward and you cleared
all that. What did I create? A little cyst that got really big inside a small little
cage behind my vertebrae. I read in this book that I created my own illness and it's on
Sunday night that I said to myself on that operating table, 'if I created it, I can uncreate
it.' So I knotted out that cyst and this is my story. Thank you to all of you for working
with me and you for teaching me this because it's very empowering. I now know illness comes
to us as a messenger and we should receive it.
Arnoux: So we did the seven steps and you came up on stage as the volunteer to get cleared
in front of everybody. Do you remember what it was that we cleared?
Elle: Yes and this even makes the story better. It was my fear of moving forward in both creating,
opening a practice. That will in my head. That I was speaking, it was my whole life
and it was the very next week I manifested the most amazing practitioner who stepped
forward, kindly contacted me and said, 'come work with me and the fear of opening my own
practice and getting it going.' We are working now together and it's really incredible. All
the other aspects of my life are just unrolling and that one thing was just this pain that
was just saying I can't do anything to come out of pain. I'm no good in pain and I haven't
had one second of pain. Do you know how awesome that is? Chronic pain. That taught me what
chronic pain is. Never judge people with chronic pain again. I'm free. What happened now is
that I am Completely Free and I think that these 7 steps took all the shackles off. It
opened the cage door and the wings popped out and I'm flying.
Arnoux: Congratulations.