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I don't think there was one day where I just woke up and thought, oh, this is a part of my life. It was always part of my life, it just gradually it was kind of like, oh, I've seen things in the world, I've observed different things, and I have a sense of God really is in everything, everything happens for a reason. And as middle school progressed, I got more into it. I decided to be more involved in Shabbat with my mom or my grandparents. And then as I was leaving high school, I got really into it. I started attending temple more. I go to Shabbat. I go to the onegs. I go to all these things, morning Shabbat. I try to just get involved. I think I felt an actual switch, or all of a sudden I just became more observant, is a year ago, or a year and a half ago. All of a sudden, I can back to live with my parents for about 10 months, and that's when I think, well, this is me. I was going everywhere to try to get away and I just realized being a Jew is not just something, you know, you go to church on Sunday and the rest of the week you do what you want. But as long as you attend church ... it's a lifestyle, like anything else.
I think definitely when I was still in middle school, in that transition when I was still progressing, I kind of had some times where I was like, wow, maybe he's not there, and what if I'm just making all this up and maybe it's just something I want to believe in. But I think after that, I kind of have this mentality of everything works out, no matter what. So, I know a lot of people don't think so because there loved ones die and bad things happen, but I feel like even the smallest things now, I notice God. I'll be driving on the freeway and I'll be like, oh, I'm running 10 minutes late, but then something else will happen and all of a sudden I'll be on time. And a little thing like that, you appreciate the tiniest things. So, to everyone it's like, well, that's just luck. I really look at it like, well, he helped me out. Maybe I couldn't get a class for school, and something else went by and I got a class somewhere else. Just everything worked out. The smallest thing, I feel God has taken care of it. I don't have to worry or stress about it for weeks on end. I just kind of let it go. And I think he takes care of it. That's my part of meeting him halfway.