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GEORGIANA SUFFERS FROM SCHYZOPHRENIA AND HAS DELUSIONS WHICH ARE DISTURBANCES OF THOUGHT.
FOR EXAMPLE SHE THINKS THAT MEMBERS OF HER FAMILY ARE VAMPIRES AND THAT THE DEVIL TRIES
TO TEMPT HER TO EAT FOOD. GEORGIANA ALSO HAS AUDITORY AND VISUAL HALLUCINATIONS WHICH ARE
DISTURBANCES IN PERCEPTION, FOR EXAMPLE SHE HEARS VOICES OTHERS CAN’T HEAR AND PERCIEVES
WATERMELON AS BLOOD. SHE TALKS ABOUT TELEPHONING OTHERS TO CONFIRM THAT THEY WERENT REALLY
WITH HER TALKING TO HER BECAUSE SHE WAS UNSURE ABOUT THAT AND NEEDED TO CHECK. SHE ALSO DESCRIBES
CATATONIC EPISODES WHICH SHE WAS AWARE OF HER ENVIRONMENT BUT DID NOT REACT TO IT AND
EVEN IGNORED HER BASIC CARE NEEDS. >>YOU MENTIONED WHEN WE FIRST MET THAT YOU
HAVE SCHYZOPHRENIA. >>UH HUH
>>FOR PEOPLE THAT DOESN’T KNOW WHAT THAT IS CAN YOU SAY, WHAT IS SCHYZOPHRENIA AS YOU
UNDERSTAND IT? >>ITS UH…OK THIS IS THEY WAY THAT I THINK
I DON’T KNOW IF THIS IS TRUE OR NOT BUT THIS IS THE WAY I THINK, WHEN THINGS GET REALLY
BAD, THAT I THINK IT STARTED FROM THINGS GETTING REALLY BAD THAT I COULDN’T HANDLE IT, I
COULDN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO SO I JUST ESCAPED AND I
WAS ESCAPING SO OFTEN THAT PRETTY SOON I COULDN’T CONTROL IT, I WAS ALWAYS GONE, AND THEN THINGS
GOT DANGEROUS AND I WAS, AT FIRST I WAS COMFORTABLE CAUSE I COULD GET AWAY AND I WOULD STILL BE
OK, AFTER A WHILE I WAS GETTING AWAY, AND I COULDN’T COME BACK AND AFTER A WHILE I
WAS STILL HERE BUT THINGS WERE HAPPENING LIKE IT WOULD IF I WASN’T THERE, THEN IT GOT
OUTTA HAND WHERE I COULDN’T CONTROL COMING AND GOING, BACK AND FORTH, IN MY BODY OUT
OF MY BODY, UH IT WAS NO LONGER IN MY CONTROL AND WHEN THE PRESSURE GOT TOO MUCH, THE STRESS
GOT TOO MUCH, THEN I COULDN’T , I COULDN’T HANDLE IT, AND THINGS JUST SKITZED, I JUST
WASN’T THERE ANYMORE, I WASN’T…IT WAS WORSE THAN THAT , IT WAS…..I UH, I JUST
COULDN’T THINK, I COULDN’T THINK RIGHT, I ALSO THINK MY FAMILY HAD A LOT TO DO WITH
IT. THEY TELL ME YOUR OK, YOUR ALRIGHT, EVERYTHINGS OK, THIS IS WHAT ‘S SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN IN
NORMAL FAMILIES, AND I SAT THERE AND SAID NO.
>>YOU KNEW THAT IT WASN’T >> AND THEY WOULD TELL ME THAT.
>>YOU KNEW SOMETHING WAS VERY WRONG INSIDE >>UH HUH, THEY WOULD TELL ME THAT, THEY WOULD
IMPLY THEY WOULDN’T COME OUT AND SAY IT, BUT THEY WOULD IMPLY, THIS IS A NORMAL FAMILY,
THIS IS HOW FAMILIES FUNCTION, AND YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO ACT JUST LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO. AND
I’D SAY UH UH NO, THIS IS NOT REAL, THIS IS NOT HOW IT’S SUPPOSED TO BE. IM NOT GONNA
GO THROUGH THIS, IM NOT GONNA DO THIS.