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OSHO TALKS
silence shared in words
OSHO International Foundation presents:
OSHO: Rediscovering Your Joyfull Self
Satyam, Shivam, Sundaram #16
My talking to you has not the ordinary purpose that talking serves: indoctrination --
that is not the purpose of my talks.
I don't have any doctrine:
my talking is really a process of dehypnosis.
Just listening to me, slowly, slowly you will
be free of all the programs that the society
has forced you to believe in.
OSHO
I am becoming more and more conscious
of the barriers I have built up in myself over the years
against being a joyful, self-loving, open being.
It feels like the wall in me is getting stronger and stronger
the more I am aware of it, and I can't come through.
Do I first need more courage?
My beloved beautiful Master,
could you please help me with your understanding?
Para: It is the same question again.
I have been answering Amita,
but I have also answered you --
although you have phrased your question in a different way.
A few small details are different;
otherwise
it is the same problem.
I will discuss those small differences in detail.
You say, "I am becoming more and more conscious of the barriers
that have built up in myself over the years against being a joyful,
self-loving, open being.
It feels like the wall in me
is getting stronger and stronger the more I am aware of it,
and I can't come through."
The first thing to understand is
that the wall is not becoming stronger;
it is only that your awareness is becoming clear.
There is no reason at all
why the wall should become stronger when you are becoming more aware.
It is simply when you bring the light in your dark house,
you start seeing the cobwebs and the spiders...
Not that they have suddenly
started growing because you have brought light in;
they have always been there.
Just you are becoming aware,
alert.
But don't think that they are growing.
Your light
has nothing to do with their growth.
Yes, it reveals their presence.
Your growing awareness is revealing the presence
of your prison walls.
And you say,
"I am aware of it and I can't come through."
Because these walls are not true walls --
they are not made of bricks or stone,
they are made only of thoughts.
They cannot prevent you.
You just have to know the secret of how to come through them.
If you start struggling with your thought processes,
which constitute the prison walls,
then you will get into a tremendous mess.
One can even go insane.
That's how people go insane:
they are surrounded by so many thoughts
and they are trying hard to come out of the crowd
and they go on getting deeper and deeper into the crowd.
And then naturally
a breakdown follows.
Their nervous system cannot sustain
so much pressure and so much tension.
They have opened Pandora's box.
It was all hidden there,
they were blissfully unaware of it.
Now they have brought a meditative awareness
and suddenly they see
a great crowd,
so thick
that the more they try,
the more they feel their impotence against
the walls that are surrounding them.
If you start fighting with them then there is no way.
You will sooner or later --
tired, tattered --
find yourself slipping from your sanity.
But if you use a right method,
instead of a breakdown you will have a breakthrough.
The right method to deal with all that you feel you are surrounded with
is to be just a witness -- not
to fight, not to judge, not to condemn.
Just remain silent and still,
purely witnessing whatever is there.
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