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Zakwan bin Zainuddin
Yes
I offer thee my daughter, Aneesah binti Satriya's hand in marriage with a cash dowry of £88
I accept Aneesah binti Satriya's hand in marriage with a cash dowry of £88
I guess the turning point was
during a program called Shahadatul Haq (Witnesses to the Truth)
which we held at Cardiff some time ago.
One thing I cannot remember was...
Cannot remember? Cannot *forget*
One thing I cannot forget was
when this brother gave a talk
I can't remember if it was Br. Hazwan
or the late Br. Iman
but he mentioned something that really struck me
He said...
..this is in the context of da'wah
he said that
"if you love someone you should want to go to Paradise with that person"
at that time it was put in the context of da'wah and tarbiyah
we love our brothers, we love the people around us
The Believers are brothers, so we should love one another
and because of this love, we want them to be in Paradise with us
when he said that I understood his context and what he meant
but at that same time
I was reminded of this person here
at that time I thought,
"do I really love her?"
like, truly?
If I had truly loved her
I would want her to be with me in Paradise
and then when I remember the things we did before, like chatting with her through YM
I thought "what had my intentions been all this time?"
"All the while had my actions been towards pulling her to Paradise?"
"..if not where am I pulling her to?"
there is no "middle path", there are only the light and dark
if I'm not taking her towards the light then where am I taking her to?
at that time I felt like this cannot go on.
Basically he reasoned out why he thinks that we should get married
and not have to wait until we finish our studies or later
and to me even though at first when I got the proposal
my answer was almost a "no" but..
at that time I was travelling for a Summer trip in Croatia and Malta
yet my mind was wandering elsewhere because I got this long email
and it just *had* to be when I was going to enjoy myself that he occupied me with something serious
so then I did my Istikharah, I asked my mum, I asked my friends
and my best friend Nabeelah because she knows both of us
she explained that it doesn't have to be now, it doesn't have to be later
and in the end Allah (swt) guided me towards a "yes"
Alhamdulillah (Praise be to Allah)
I am very grateful to Allah (swt)
it felt like there were a lot that Allah has shown me since the first year
even during the two years we have not been communicating with each other
well we did communicate a bit but..
still.. we did not share much
communicate only to say "Happy Birthday"
or just "Hi" and "Bye".
I really felt that I've learnt a lot.
Indeed in the ups and downs of life
sometimes what we feel is a disaster is actually all planned by Allah
Allah wanted to teach us something to get better
in order to rectify our intentions, to improve ourselves, to purify our hearts
to become a better human, a better Muslim individual
and so that we will be more prepared
to be a murabbi (raiser, educator) to a new family
which is not a very easy thing to do.
I am very grateful, because I felt that Allah has arranged everything very beautifully
everything falls into place perfectly in the end.