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Organic chemistry, physics 2,
multivariable calculus,
conversational French,
introduction to
the modern European novel,
uh, tennis--
You took all those classes
in one semester?
Yes.
My textbooks that fall cost
as much as a small car.
But I wanted to graduate
in three and a half years,
and I was interested
in all of them.
It sounds overwhelming.
It was.
I hear the train all night ♪
sound of its wind ♪
blowing through ♪
Corinne?
Corinne,
it's your brother Sam.
What-- what-- what do
they have her on?
She was deranged
when she came in.
The shrink's got her loaded up.
I have a job to do ♪
Mm.
So
It was actually--
It's-- it's actually
a physical book?
Yeah, yeah, with every
student's face in it.
Like a phone book?
No computer?
That's right, young man.
- Yeah, it was great.
- Oh.
- You could
- Mm.
Look up the cute guy
in your
comparative literature class
and call him
when you were drunk.
What cute guy?
How cute?
Some stalks grow high ♪
Not as cute as you.
- I'm not cute.
- You're cute.
- I'm tough.
- You're tough.
I'm a tough guy.
♪
Sorry I called.
No, no.
I'm glad you called.
I'm s--
I'm sorry I don't have
any words of wisdom.
I d--
Yeah.
Gosh, you look so sad.
You look like a little boy.
It's 20 years, Addison.
Just picked up and left.
No good-bye, no
She was just gone.
I know.
I mean, I don't know.
I know what you told me.
No call, no letter
I thought she was dead.
Yeah, but it's good news,
right,
that-- that she's not,
that she's back now?
Corinne.
Can I get you something?
Thirsty.
Hi, Corinne.
Um, I'm
Sam's neighbor,
and we work together also.
I'm Addison.
Here's your water, Corinne.
Here are your meds.
You want to take this for me?
I'm not so sure.
Not so sure?
That this is good news.
He won't stop screaming.
I know babies cry,
but it's been, like, 14 hours.
He won't eat.
He can't sleep.
Hyperactive reflexes,
increased muscle tone.
He's tachypneic.
- Pulse ox is borderline.
- Can't you give him something?
We will, after we diagnose
what the problem is.
Eli's pretty small for 10 days.
Was he premature?
Mm-hmm.
How many weeks?
Um, like, two?
- Are you asking me?
- No.
Sorry.
It's just the screaming.
I-I haven't slept.
It was two weeks.
He came two weeks early.
He looks malnourished
and dehydrated.
Is he eating?
Are you breastfeeding?
No.
Um, uh,
he likes the bottle.
- Pumping or giving him formula?
- Formula.
And why is that?
What?
Uh, most mothers
try to breastfeed
at least for a little while.
Was he having trouble latching or--
Why does it matter?
Just help him.
Denise, I gotta say,
you look pretty good
for someone that gave birth
ten days ago.
This isn't your baby, is it?
Okay, you need to explain
what's going on right now
or we're going to security.
Okay.
Wait.
Uh, his mom
My mom, she's a druggie.
So Eli is your brother?
She gave birth to him,
brought him home,
and then left to score.
He was 2 days old,
but it-- It's been over a week,
and she hasn't come back.
- Did you try to find her?
- No, but--
Do you know if she's okay?
I never know if she's okay.
The first time she left me,
I was 8.
I woke up one morning,
went downstairs,
and there was no one.
The house was empty.
I didn't know what to do,
and-- and I was scared,
but I didn't want to be alone,
so I toasted a frozen waffle
and I got dressed
and I went to school.
She came back a few days later.
She said she got stuck at work,
but she worked in some office,
and so it didn't make
any sense.
But then she acted normal,
so I did, too.
I just-- I didn't want it
to happen again.
But it did.
Of course.
Sometimes, she would tell me
that she was leaving.
Other times,
she'd just be gone.
Eventually,
when it got really bad,
one of my teachers
figured it out.
And that was the first time
I was put in foster care.
After that, it
It was just a lot
of back and forth.
Eli doesn't deserve that.
He should have someone
who can take care of him
Always.
And that can be me.
Hey.
How you feelin'?
Hey.
Ten minutes into
my first session of chemo?
Probably better than
anyone else in here.
Well, you got
the right attitude.
Do you want me
to bring Mason in?
No.
I don't want him to see me
Or anyone else in here.
It'll just be too much for him.
Okay.
If that's what you want.
It's what I want.
He's my little boy.
I've been the only constant
in his life.
So if this is scary for me,
then for him
It's what I want.
Blank-o-o-blank-blank-
I-blank-blank.
Come on.
I don't know.
"E"?
I already said there's no E's.
Come on.
Look, can I please
see my mom now?
Well, maybe in a few minutes.
She's, uh, she's still resting.
I really just want
to see my mom.
- I know--
- Hey, guys.
Hey, man.
Hey, Mason.
So
How is your, uh
Give me a minute, okay?
I'll give you a hint.
There's a "K" in there.
So Mason
doesn't know about his mother?
No.
Erica won't
She doesn't want me
to say anything,
and, you know,
I've gone along with that
because he's just a kid.
He's probably not ready to deal
with his mother's death.
I mean, I'm not ready
to deal with it.
Yeah, well losing a parent--
I know how hard that is.
At least he has
you and Charlotte.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Mason, I'll see you later.
All right.
Any ideas?
Why is my mom resting so much?
She's still really tired
from the accident.
The last time I saw her,
she didn't look tired.
She looked fine.
Yeah, but--
I know she wants to see me.
I really want to see her.
Please.
We just have to give it
a little more time.
Hey.
Could I ask you a favor?
You can ask.
I want you to take me
off the surgical rotation
for a couple of days.
I'm researching gliosarcomas
and I have a few leads,
but I-I need more time.
Erica agreed to do the chemo.
Beyond that, I don't think
she's holding out any hope.
Which is realistic, but I'm
not ready to give up yet.
What does that mean?
It means, I need to keep reading
and talking to more docs and
I don't know where you find
miracles these days,
but I would like to try.
Yeah.
You were right.
Baby Eli has
neonatal abstinence syndrome.
We should start
a methadone taper.
Unfortunately, there's more.
He's also got a congenital
cystic adenomatoid
malformation.
It needs to be removed
immediately
or his lungs
are gonna be compromised.
You can't do surgery, right?
He's too weak.
Well, waiting carries
its own risks.
I mean, any little virus
or a cold,
he could become
oxygen deprived.
Who makes this call?
I don't know.
Is there
a father in the picture?
No, just
the baby's sister-- Denise.
- How old is she?
- 19.
And she also went through
hell with the mother, but
But she's trying to do right
by her brother and
She's a little young.
You think she's qualified
to make that kind of decision?
She doesn't have to.
This is Eli's mother--
Melissa.
Did I leave to score drugs
right after Eli was born?
Yes, I did.
But I changed my mind.
Oh, so where were you?
Getting clean.
You went to rehab?
No, ma'am.
I did it myself.
She locked herself
in a motel room for eight days
and detoxed cold turkey.
Well, that would've been great
before she got her fetus
addicted to opiates.
- Okay, Cooper--
- No, you're right.
But I got clean.
Okay, due respect,
you've been clean for what,
eight days?
But you've been
an addict for--
I don't need you to tell me
about addiction.
Okay, I am trying for Eli.
I am doing everything
that I can
because I am gonna be
a good mother to him.
You walked out on him.
No, I didn't.
I left him with Denise.
And I called over and over,
only Denise never answered,
and she never called me back.
So Denise is lying?
She has issues
With me, all right?
And I know why.
There's lot of times I wasn't
any kind of mother to her.
But this is not the same thing.
It isn't.
I went to get clean.
It was miserable.
I-I-I
Day after day, shaking
and sweating
and wanting to die,
but I did it for Eli,
because he is my second chance,
and I am not
gonna screw this up.
How did you find her?
I called her cell phone.
Okay, so what?
She left her newborn
to get high.
But she didn't get high.
She got clean.
And that means something.
You know how hard it is
to detox cold turkey?
Yeah, and it was admirable
that she was able to do it,
but does that mean that she's
able to take care of Eli
- and all the problems he has?
- Denise is.
- She's a kid, Cooper.
- Coop, really?
Does Denise have
an apartment, a job,
somebody to help out with Eli?
You guys, there are plenty
of single,
competent teenage mothers
in the world.
With a sick baby, it's just
Okay, guys, you know what?
We're not gonna solve this.
We gotta call DCFS.
Well, Melissa's better
than the system.
Denise is better than Melissa.
I am calling social services.
Hey.
How do you feel
about New Zealand?
Right now, anything
farther than the bathroom
seems intimidating.
Why?
There's a doctor there
who's doing
experimental treatments
on gliosarcomas.
They're called
intracranial microcapsules,
which basically just means
that they're--
Sorry, no.
Thank you, but, no.
I can't just get on a plane
and fly halfway
around the world for
Whatever that is.
It might be nothing,
but it might be something,
and the point is, we won't
know until we get on the ground
- and really start--
- Amelia.
I agreed to do chemo.
I'm fighting.
Other than that,
I don't want to do anything
that's gonna sacrifice
time with Mason,
especially getting on a plane
to fly somewhere
for someone to do
a surgery on my brain,
a surgery that I might not
wake up from.
I'm sorry.
I can't.
Three times.
Three times?
Oh, I hate you.
Yes, well, I would
Hate me, too.
Look at you.
- You're all "Violet got
her groove back.
" - Yeah.
Who would've thought my groove
was in this 20-something
paramedic
with these abs
carved out of marble
and this back
Oh, my God, his back.
It's just like you ordered him.
Like you called up a catalog
and asked for those
exact specifications.
I want that catalog.
You know, I've never
done this before.
It's-- it's just sex.
It's just
pure, mind-numbing sex.
Maybe guys are right, you know?
Maybe "no strings attached"
works.
Eh.
Every time
I sleep with someone,
we wind up
in a pit of despair
Together, stuck.
- Stop.
- I'm serious.
Oh.
All this
makes me miss Sam.
Oh, you miss Sam
or you miss sex?
Both.
You know, the irony has been
that the harder
I tried to have a baby,
the less I actually had sex.
It's been months,
which is probably why
I threw myself at Jake.
What?
In Palm Springs.
I drank a bunch of Martinis
and the next thing you know,
I wound up in his bed.
- Addison.
- He turned me down, you know,
which I respect and hate.
Oh, I miss Sam.
Lazy.
What?
Lazy.
It's lazy.
It's--
It's more than lazy.
- You know, it's-- it's infuriating.
- Sheldon--
She's ***, Sam.
She's not medicated.
She's not
even properly diagnosed.
I mean, look,
I understand the pressure
the prison shrinks are under.
I do, but your sister is
just *** on a cocktail
of antipsychotics and sedatives
that would leave
a large circus animal
glassy-eyed and affectless.
Okay, look, there might be
a silver lining here.
Okay, we don't know
what Corinne is like
under all those meds.
And once we get her off them,
you might actually
be able to find your sister
in there somewhere.
You want to take her
off her meds?
- Yeah.
- 'Cause the prison guard said
that when they brought her in,
she was deranged.
"Deranged" is not a diagnosis.
Okay, look, I just want
to get her off the meds
long enough to see
what's going on with her.
Okay?
Can we do that?
Please.
Okay.
So Sheldon
took her off her meds?
Yeah, temp-temporarily.
Well, did she
I-is she any different?
Uh, not much.
Not yet.
Apparently, they had her
pretty zonked out.
We're gonna have to wait
for it all to wear off.
But Sheldon canceled
all his patients,
said he would spend
the day with her,
try to make a real diagnosis.
And then what?
I don't know.
Uh
I just
I don't know.
Did you call your family,
your mom?
No.
I
I'm taking this thing,
like, a minute at a time.
And I can't look ahead.
I just
I don't know.
That's not your job
anymore, you know,
to, uh, take care of him,
to worry about him.
He's my friend.
He'll be your friend
again someday,
but right now,
he's mostly just your ex.
I mean, you still want
a baby, right?
I know you needed a break,
but has anything changed?
No.
I still want a baby.
Then right now, Sam is your ex.
You try to pretend
he's your friend,
and, uh
- And what?
- And you hurt worse.
I know he's having
a tough time right now,
but he has other friends,
and
And I would hate
to see you hurt worse.
I gotta go to the hospital.
I'm I'm putting
my foot down.
We're staying on the bed
next time.
Why?
I'm gonna die from rug burn.
That's why.
Why do we have to
lie down at all?
Oh, you're trouble.
Oh.
You kids
got a hall pass?
I'm the only one
you have to worry about.
Should I
Uh, if I'd brought him in
earlier, would he be okay?
Oh, Denise.
It is not your fault.
I just want to protect him,
you know?
I know you do.
Why are you here?
Denise, she just wants
to be with her baby.
Mommy-- Mommy's here, Eli.
And I am
never leaving again, ever.
Liar.
You're a liar.
You're gonna do to him
exactly what you did to me.
- And he is gonna end up
exactly like I did - No, no.
Bouncing around,
scared and alone.
- I am clean now, okay? - Okay, okay,
come on.
You can't do this here.
You--
I got clean.
Oh, right, until Eli cries
or you have a bad day at work
or some guy dumps you.
That's all it's gonna take.
Look, I will not
let you hurt him.
You are damaged
and you're bad--
- I have-- I have a problem, okay?
- Denise and Melissa, we're going outside.
For the first time in my life,
I have a reason to fix it.
Oh, so I wasn't worth it?
Oh, my God.
What-- What--
- Get Dr.
Montgomery.
- What is-- What is happening?
- Eli's crashing.
- His sats are dropping.
What does that mean?
- His oxygen is low.
He's having
trouble breathing.
- Intubate.
Don't.
Don't.
Well, he's not getting air.
We have to intubate.
No, we can't.
Intubating will
increase air trapping
in the damaged area
of the lungs.
It'll make things worse.
We need to get him
to the OR now.
No, but Dr.
Freedman said
that he's not strong enough
for surgery.
- Let them do their job.
- You don't know what you're talking about.
- Surgery might kill him, but not doing surgery will kill him.
- This is completely your fault.
- Denise! Enough!
- It always is!
Move out of the way.
Now!
I don't want to die.
But you must die.
All right,
time for all monsters
to get off the table.
Dinner is ready.
I'm not hungry.
I just want to see my mom.
I made you mac and cheese.
That's your favorite, right?
Charlotte, I really
just want to see my mom.
I know you do,
but visiting hours
are over for tonight.
But you're in charge there.
You can take me.
Well, your mom's still resting.
She's not this tired.
Everyone keeps saying that,
but she's never this tired.
Tell me what you think
of the mac and cheese.
This isn't right.
It's not how my mom makes it.
Well, there's macaroni
and there's cheese.
I don't want this.
I want to see my mom!
Mason,
I know you're upset,
and you've been through a lot,
and you're worried
about your mom,
but that does not mean
that you can act like you
Mason?
Mason.
Mason!
Thank you.
How's Eli?
Uh, Addison's
still working on him.
She's isolated
the main bronchus,
but she hasn't done
the lobectomy yet.
But that kid's a fighter.
I think he'll be okay.
Hey, man, I know that,
uh, we disagree
about Melissa and Denise,
but let's not let it
become a thing, okay?
It's not.
It's not a thing.
You sure?
Yeah, it's just
My my mind is on Eli,
I'm walking down the hall,
and I see Violet
making out with her boyfriend.
- Oh.
- It's annoying.
Yeah.
Well
Yeah, well what?
Well, I mean,
you guys are separated, right?
Yeah, but that doesn't mean
that I want to see her
fooling around with someone
that I have to work with
in my workplace.
Well, I mean,
you might not want to,
but isn't that, like,
the next step?
I mean, you move on,
she moves on.
Okay.
Let's just say that
you and Charlotte split up,
and she starts dating
some hot male nurse.
Would you be cool with that
just 'cause you had
a few nights of unattached fun?
I don't know how I would feel.
Yes, you do.
Ah, speak of the devil.
Hello.
I turned my back
for one second, Coop.
One second, and he was gone.
- What?
- Mason.
What? Where are you?
He just ran out the front door.
Now I'm out lookin' for him.
Well, how long has he been gone?
And how far did he get?
I'm trying to figure that out.
Okay, I'm calling--
I'm calling the police.
Give me five minutes to look.
If I can't find him by then,
I'll call.
Are you feeling better?
Clearer?
A-a little.
Corinne, have you ever
been formally diagnosed?
Schizophrenic
Manic depressive
Paranoid delusions
Every jail,
every nuthouse,
a different shrink
had a different idea.
I'm thirsty.
You're just coming down
off the haloperidol.
Here.
Have some water.
Sam, come in.
All right.
Hey, Corinne.
Corinne has given me
permission to include you
in her sessions
and to disclose
what she's sharing.
Isn't that right, Corinne?
Mm.
Sure.
Bathroom.
Sure, sure.
It's out the door,
down the hall, on the right.
Okay? Easy.
Thank you.
I was wondering
what you remember.
You-- you grew up
with Corinne.
For purposes of diagnosis
What I remember.
Uh, okay.
I, uh, I remember her being
You know, the life of the party
until she was
the death of it.
Can you explain that?
Uh, she was wild.
She was wild.
She was, uh, she was funny,
she was loud.
Always dancing on tables
Uh, until she would
fall off the tables.
She, uh
She almost burned
the house down.
Intentionally?
No.
She was-- I think she said,
she was making popcorn
and the oil caught fire.
I remember her saying that
she thought it looked cool.
So instead of trying
to put the fire out,
she started fanning the flames
to make it bigger.
Luckily, I knew where
the fire extinguisher was.
Was she drunk or high?
I never could tell.
You know, she was just
She was just wild.
And then
A-and then what?
And then she would turn.
You know, all of a sudden,
she would think
the whole world
was against her.
I put out her fire,
like, literally.
I-I stopped her
from burning down the house,
- and--
- And?
And she cried for,
like, three days straight.
She, uh,
she threatened suicide.
She accused me of hating her
and
Of wanting her dead.
She was not easy to live with.
I thought it was good ♪
I thought it was right ♪
She's my sister,
and I love her.
But when you say that
she's in there somewhere
When there's absence
of light ♪
I don't know
how I feel about that.
Look, it's, uh,
it's been a long day.
Do you mind if I
just take her home
and we can
continue this tomorrow?
Sure.
All right.
I appreciate it.
Yeah.
Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
ooh ♪
Coop.
I found him.
Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
ooh ♪
You know, when I was a
A little bit older
than you are,
my cousins used to go
hang out at the river
with their friends.
And I was just desperate to go.
But every time
I asked my daddy,
he said no,
I wasn't old enough.
So one weekend I snuck out,
hitched a ride, and went to see
what all the fuss was about.
And you know what?
My daddy was right.
It was a whole lot of
Well, big kid stuff
That I wasn't ready for.
So what I'm trying
to tell you is,
sometimes, when you really
want to do something--
Is my mom dead?
And I'm down ♪
Because no one's
letting me see her,
and when my nana
went into the hospital
♪
She never came out.
♪
Oh, honey.
Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
ooh ♪
Hey.
Oh, hey.
What's up?
Nothing.
I, uh
Well I saved
a baby today.
Oh.
Oh, yeah?
That's good.
Yeah.
And I was at home,
I couldn't sleep,
and I saw your light on.
I wanted to, uh
I wanted to make sure
you were okay.
Mm.
Mm.
Where's Corinne?
She's asleep.
- Yeah?
- Mm-hmm.
Mm.
Mm.
I'm sorry.
How did Charlotte lose Mason?
Mason was very upset,
and he just slipped out the door
when she wasn't looking.
I need to see him.
Okay, Charlotte's bringing him.
Now.
Mom.
I thought you were dead.
I'm not.
Of course I'm not.
Mwah.
Are you gonna be okay?
Yes, baby.
Mommy's gonna be just fine.
Hey.
Hey.
You don't have to leave,
you know.
Nothing's changed, Sam.
I mean
Nothing's changed, so
I do have to go.
Look, I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to--
No, no, don't be sorry.
I'm not sorry.
I just have to go.
I'm gonna check on you, too.
I'm worried about you.
I wish I could say
you didn't have to be.
But honestly, I'm a little
worried about me, too.
You don't like me very much.
Oh.
Well, I don't really
know you.
Uh, the only thing
I know about you is that
the first thing you did
after your baby was born
was leave to get high, so
I was jonesing.
He was screaming.
I
I-I just had to get away,
and drugs are how
I've always done that.
And, uh
Now it's gonna be different?
How do I answer that?
I want to say yes,
that I would die
before I'd hurt Eli
the way I hurt Denise.
But you're gonna tell me,
I'm an addict
and addicts slip.
What do I say to that?
It's true.
But this time
I'm gonna do everything
I can for that boy.
Do you have any idea
how lucky you are
to even have that choice
to make?
Eli could've died
from the drugs you were doing
when you were pregnant.
His lung condition
could've killed him
right after he was born.
DCFS could've taken him
when you were gone.
You could've had a bad reaction
when you were detoxing.
I mean, frankly,
it is a miracle
you're both even here
right now.
And most parents
Believe me,
they don't get miracles.
I know.
I screwed up.
But I am making a choice,
and this time,
I am choosing Eli.
Good.
I hope so.
I mean, being a parent,
a good parent,
that is an all-day,
every day job--
Every single day.
I am not kidding myself.
I know it's going to be
a fight every day,
like you said.
And I'm
I'm gonna fight.
And what about Denise?
Maybe I don't know.
Maybe it's too late
for us.
I don't know.
I mean, I hope that it's not,
but I learned on Denise.
And this time, I am gonna
do it right with Eli.
I-I know that I left once.
And I'm sure there is
a better way
to do what I had to do, but
At least this time, even though
I did the wrong thing,
it was for the right reasons.
It really was.
Look, I believe
in second chances.
I do.
But I don't know if I can
trust this woman.
She's been sober
for eight days.
It's not enough time.
Not by a long shot, right?
Well, maybe Melissa
doesn't have to raise Eli
all by herself, you know?
Maybe she can ask for help.
Denise cares, right?
She does, but I mean,
you should see
these two people together.
Well, you should see me
and Pete together, you know?
But kids are an exception.
If there's one thing
that Pete and I agree on,
it's-- it's Lucas.
That's it, just Lucas?
Well, look, if you're
asking me if it's over,
I don't know.
I-- Back when we were together,
you know,
Pete was an ***.
And now that we're apart,
he's
He's actually more of an ***.
You know, he-- No, he--
He refuses to let me be happy
with anybody else.
Okay, but seeing you
with Scott--
That has gotta be weird for him.
What are you doing?
What do you mean?
You're defending him.
No, I get
where he's coming from.
He's coming from a place where
he wants me to be miserable.
No, he is hurt.
He is the one who wanted
to see other people.
I hated the idea.
I cried.
And then I thought about it
logically,
and I thought, you know what?
Pete's right.
He wants to be happy,
I want to be happy,
and neither of us
should interfere with that.
Aren't you interfering
with his happiness
by being in a relationship
with somebody he works with?
Oh, the thing with Scott,
it's not a relationship.
It-- It's-- It's sex.
It's exactly the same thing
that he's doing.
The-- the only difference is that
it's someone he-- he--
he-- he sort of knows
and sometimes sees.
But, Coop
It's not going anywhere.
Well, maybe you should
tell Pete that.
How long are you gonna
keep Mason in the dark?
Well, you saw how he reacted
when he thought I
I can't tell him.
With all due respect,
last night, Mason dumped
the dinner I made him
on the floor,
ran out the door,
and scared the hell out of me
because he is worried
about you.
Now he's smart
and he needs some answers.
And this is only
gonna get worse.
If you don't tell him bef--
He's never gonna forgive you.
And he'll hate me and Cooper,
the only people
he'll have left.
Erica, I know why
you're lying to him.
But you're lying to him.
It's too much.
I can't tell him.
Not yet.
Oh, I just can't.
I told you Eli was a fighter.
So's his mother.
What is it with you
and Melissa?
I mean, it's like,
from the very get go,
you've just been on her side.
Violet abandoned Lucas.
Is that really
what's bothering you?
It was a big deal, Cooper,
and this has nothing to do with
who Violet is sleeping with.
Look, when she walked out,
it was just me and Lucas.
And he couldn't talk yet,
but his eyes said it all.
"Where's mommy?
You're not my mommy.
"
When Violet came back,
I was so angry at her,
but she did come back,
and I gave her another chance.
And whatever I think about her,
she is an incredible mother.
Lucas would be
much worse off without her.
Dr.
Freedman.
I had to call.
I've spoken with Melissa
and Denise.
I'm aware of the situation.
There is no situation.
Unless Melissa
starts using again.
There's no way to know
if that will happen.
But Melissa did make a choice
to get clean for her child.
Dr.
Freedman, we've been
through this together
a lot of times, and you know
we like to keep a child with its
mother if at all possible.
But if your instincts say
that it's to Eli's detriment,
then we can explore
other options.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
I need to talk to you.
Just a minute.
No, I need to talk to you now.
Shainie,
can I give you a call back?
Yeah, thanks.
What's so important?
I have a lead
on a way
to treat Erica's gliosarcoma.
It involves getting
on a plane to New Zealand,
Erica already said
she didn't want to do that.
This one involves getting
on a plane to Seattle.
I think my brother Derek
can help us.
People can do awful things,
but they can also change.
You don't know my mother.
No, I don't.
But I do know that
being a parent is hard.
And it is easy
to make mistakes,
even when you're trying
to do the right thing.
Is that why
you're giving her Eli,
because you think
it's been hard for her?
I think it's been hard
for your mom.
I think it's been hard for you.
And it's-- it's sad.
But hopefully, it can be
a reminder to both of you
That with Eli,
it has to be different.
He's gonna need a lot of care
while he's recovering.
Your mom's gonna need help
Being a mom.
I
I know it must not
seem fair to you,
but you are a family.
And you have to look out
for one another.
Hey.
Lucas wanted to know
if his truck could fly,
and, uh, it can't,
so I got him a new one.
I thought he could
leave it at your house.
No stairs.
You know it's just sex.
With Scott, it's just--
It's just sex.
It's a distraction.
I'm sorry, Violet.
I'm just
Not evolved enough to want
to hear about your sex life.
No, I wasn't gonna
give you details.
I just wanted you to know
that it wasn't serious.
Okay.
I just--
I still don't like it.
Well, you're the one
that walked away,
so you shouldn't care.
I know I shouldn't care,
but I do.
You do?
Yeah.
Well, maybe that means--
You don't have to interpret
my feelings, Violet.
I just
I care.
Is he really gonna be okay?
I resected the damaged
part of Eli's lung.
In time, healthy tissue
will grow in its place.
Thank you.
You can do this, Melissa.
I know.
It's all about Eli now.
♪
Maybe not all.
I-I thought that you--
Bailed?
Yeah.
Close your ♪
I'm
I-I'm s--
I know, mom.
I know.
I'm sorry.
Good-bye ♪
Then do better with Eli.
Okay?
Do better.
And let you know ♪
Hey.
How's it going
with your sister?
Pretty much the same.
It'll take a while
for the meds to wear off.
You took her off everything?
No.
No, I kept her on
a milesedative,
because, uh, we don't know
what to expect when
We just don't know
anything yet.
Where I go ♪
Keep me updated, okay?
Thanks.
You, you keep her
at your house?
No, no, she's in my office
Staring at the walls.
That's hard.
Yeah, it's
Hard.
You're always close ♪
Hey.
Hey.
Oh ♪
I hope you know ♪
Okay.
Shoulda seen that coming.
Didn't.
Should've.
Jake.
When you're, uh, when you're
ready to meet more surrogates,
you let me know.
Close my eyes ♪
I know it's complicated,
and it's scary,
and we can't promise you
that this will work.
But one thing I can promise
is that this gives you
a little hope.
Isn't that what you said
about chemo?
What we said about chemo was
that it would buy you some time.
Right.
And what you told us was that
you didn't want
whatever time you had left
ruined by what chemo
does to your body.
But this surgery,
it has the potential to be
more than just a treatment.
We're not talking about
buying you time anymore.
We're talking about curing you.
I know you don't want
to tell Mason
that, at some point,
this tumor will kill you.
If you're open to this,
you may not have to.
Oh ♪
I hope you know ♪
when I go ♪
you're always close ♪
Hey.
Oh ♪
You hungry?
You know ♪
where I go ♪
It reminds me.
You remember that house
we used to go to
in the summers?
It was in North Carolina
Right on the beach.
You won't be alone ♪
Uh, yeah, I remember.
I hope you know ♪
Your house reminds me of that.
When I go ♪
you're always close ♪
oh ♪
As we go ♪
you won't be alone ♪
I pushed myself to the limit
that semester.
Maybe even past the limit.
I was stressed.
Didn't sleep.
Got an incomplete
in that tennis class.
Had to take it over.
And in retrospect?
I loved every minute of it.
♪