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Hello, I'm Coco.
Instead of doing ABC story,
I have decided to do one vlog which is sign for "vlog".
I'm thinking about... tonight is a good night
to do a story in responding to an old blog.
It was from about 2-3 months ago on my blog
that I asked all different readers to ask any questions they have for me.
Basically, any questions.. random ones so I answered to all
in comments and such except one which I forgot to respond.
There are two same questions so these two readers asked
"Knowing you are Usher Syndrome and
soon going to lose all the sights.
"So, I am curious what few things
that you would miss the most when becoming fully blind?"
What would I miss... I was wowed by that which is a very good question.
Hmm, everyday I think about it, seeing things
often and I do notice how I will miss, yes.
These things I will look back thinking how I will miss many different things.
So, I think for tonight I am responding to that.
This vlog is for Rayni and Karina.
I will share a few things, actually I do have many, many things
so I will pick few things to share,
maybe again with more things later on, we shall see.
I wrote the list on journal, went ahead to point one thing out
what I will miss the most when I become fully blind.
First thing is,
I'm thinking...
there are clouds up there, all cloudy and dark to look at.
Along with these lightnings as well as the feel of thunder
and seeing all these white flashes with cloudy and dark, etc.
Would just stare at all night until then the sunrise comes up,
starting to get brighten.
The sunset along with the
rainbow where I'd count all these different colors
such as red, yellow, green, blue and purple by just looking at.
I'd look at by sitting back and enjoy these moments as well
as look at people's faces,
all different kinds with walking around in front of you.
I enjoy by observing them such as
long or short hair even the punk looking,
shaved head, braided hair.
I always do enjoy by observing when it comes to different colors
such as red, black, blond, brown, pink, blue, green..
all these different color of hair.
I also enjoy by observing all these
type of clothes such as
1980's, 90's, currently.. 1960's, the hippie time.
Checking out all these times of clothes
by sitting down and observing all that along
with freckles, F-R-E-C-K-L-E-S, these cute lil' ones on the face.
Once goes fully blind,
would have to ask what the color is rainbow?
I can't since since I will goes fully blind.
*uses tactile hands to communicate*
Oh okay... so it's just simple?
What is color then?
*uses tactile hands to communicate*
Oh.. just different color? Okay...
There are people walking past everywhere
so I would sk how I just feel by stomping on floor, what's that?
*uses tactile hands to communicate*
Oh, just different people walk by, that's all? Okay...
I'd ask what this and that look like...
*uses tactile hands to communicate*
Oh, some are ugly and some are pretty?
Trying to imagine all these things...
I do wonder if I will remember
eight different shades of that color?
Purple? Look at this...
How many different shades are there?
Three or four? Five?
Once goes fully blind,
they'd sign to me "purple" and I'm picturing
Okay.. purple? Hmm..
is that purple like this shirt?
Red, pink, black... would I remember?
Anyway, I seem to be positive, yes.
I am staying on being positive
knowing that I will go fully blind
even though it's difficult, yes and grieving as well.
But.. what should I do?
You want me just go ahead and shoot myself?
No-no. Life is very valuable
by keeping to have new and to gain experiences.
Who knows what will be like in the future.
Maybe, there will be a good future for me. I sure am curious.
But, yes.. it is not very easy for me to let my vision go.
Some Deaf people out there do care about having visions.
So, I will share more what I will miss in the future.
Okay, cut it out. Thanks and good night
to where you are all over the world,
all these different countries.
I love you.