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My childhood, well, as a child I was a naughty little prat,
who always did what others forbade him.
BEKIM Life=Party
In 2005 I went to Czech Republic to participate in a race in Prerov.
It was on April 17th and during the qualifications I fell of my bike on a triple wave.
“Come on, Bekim!”
I felt straight on my head and after this I remained still on the ground.
I didn't lose consciousness, but I couldn’t move my legs even though I felt them.
I was able to touch my legs partially still while laying in the ambulance,
but soon I was out of breath.
I had trouble breathing therefore they had to transport me to the hospital in Olomouc by helicopter,
where they did all examinations and X-rays.
They found out that my 4th vertebra is broken and it totally crushed my 5th.
It pushed my spine, leaving my body paralyzed.
After 4 days in hospital I began to move my arms partially,
it was great feeling because I could feed myself.
Anyway, it took me long, such as eating soup for 2 hours.
However, you learn slowly, you need to be patient and stay positive.
“Grandma, I’m moving my arms. Martina lift up my legs
my *** still works.”
“That’s important.”
“Goddamnit!” “Take it easy…”
They had to put two screws in my head and attached a 7.5 kg weight,
so my spine wouldn’t be so swollen and they could start to operate.
The operation stated after 5 hours and when
I woke up I didn’t know what was going on.
I could feel my body, but I couldn’t move.
When I first saw my parents, they started crying.
I felt bad, because I don’t like to see people crying.
I wanted to caress my mom and dad, but I couldn’t.
I told the nurse to untie my hands, but she answered:
“Bekim, you’re not tied down, you’re paralyzed from the neck down.”
My first reaction was: tattoo me completely,
because I won’t feel anything.
But I do feel and it hurts.
My life changed dramatically.
You need to learn to sit again,
to ride the wheelchair.
"now i'll do it on my own!"
You need to control your basic needs,
, which were once just a routine.
“It’s my first time on the toilet ***.
My ***’s hanging down and I have there catheter, too.”
You consider to go to a toilet as a routine,
but when I wake up I try to get up, but I can’t.
I have to find my wheelchair,
get in it and only after this I can move on.
“During the qualifications I went completely rigid.
i had goose bumps and I knew I would fall,
but I didn’t want to stop.
Almost as if I knew it.
When the ramp went down I knew I’d fall somewhere.”
You need positive energy, which I think I’ve got.
I try to move forward, inch by inch. I’m kind of successful,
I can walk a bit on my own, move my hands better...
I’m not completely self-sufficient,
I always need someone’s help, but I'm still trying.
For all I have achieved I thank my family, my mom, dad, sister.
Thank you. I have to thank my friends,
who pulled me back into my old way of life.
“Let’s go, panorama.”
“Szia.” “Ciao, bambino.””
“Ciao, bambino.” “See ya.”
There were a few parties.
Of course you can also have fun in a wheelchair.
I tried many things in the wheelchair,
which I probably wouldn’t if I can walk.
I met a lot of new people, who I'm glad to know.
Because I have found out that many people are crying about stupid,
useless things, which are not important.
Like if they have an extra gram of fat or something similar,
I don´t do it, I think about more important things in my life.
I attended many rehabilitations and work outs,
I work on myself every day.
I went for rehabilitation to Piestany,
where they really helped me.
I am thankful for everything, all little improvements,
since this happened to me.
It’s a step forward. I believe I’ll walk one day,
may be not the same as I used to,
but may be with some crutches.
I think I will make it.
When something like this happens you have to stay strong and don’t give up.
You need to have healthy mind and lots of exercise.
Waiting for a miracle is useless,
even though every one of us is waiting for it.
You need to stay in a good shape, work out every day,
take care of your body and push yourself forward.
You have to take life as it is and not too seriously.
Life is one big party…