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Well! So I started working at
Guildford Borough Council,
where Peter worked
and that was Destiny.
Father God had brought
Peter and myself both to the
Ground Maintenance Department
on Guildford Borough Council
and ah late 94,
late September probably.
I decided that.
I was a good man
and I had a good conscientiousness,
quiet a bit above average,
I still made mistake like anyone else though.
but you know, I did have that was quite different in me.
I was different from others.
When I worked on the building site I did not
join in all the bragging or sexist remarks to women
and stuff like that.
It was just my conscientiousness
thought that was not a good thing to do.
ah but um, I started to have a
calling in side of me!
and it was powerful and it was like.
ah! No! Just before the Calling! Sorry.
I got a bit ahead of myself there because of
short term memory loss.
What I did in late September 94.
I decided I wanted to make better
in my life than already was
and be a much better person
and I set about doing that straight away
and I was stood in the tractor yard
and the tractor drivers were moaning like heck about the boss
You know! I admired him!
and I thought he was a good man our Boss.
He had 40 people to organise
every day
and find work for every day,
even in the winter months when
it was slow.
He done it every day,
he was a good man, eh was a lovely man,
really nice to get on with,
Mic Ross was his name was.
And Peter liked him too
and they were standing there slagging him off
and they just turn to me to get me to join in,
like they do!
You think he is terrible at his job,
don’t you as well!
and I said no I think he is really good
at his job!
and they just disappeared!
away from me and did not
ever want to talk to me again about those sort of things,
which I was quite happy about.
So I started to change
and you know I was going to keep progressing
and then a couple of weeks after that!
I started to have this calling inside of me!
Like really a big, not an impulsion exactly?
But a great need inside of me to find something?
and it was very confusing!
Because I did not know what it was?
and it got stronger!
and I though well is it within me
I've got to find something,
or without of me?
and between then and Christmas of 94,
it got stronger and stronger and stronger!
and in the end toward Christmas 94,
I thought I am going to have to go out into the world!
and leave this job and maybe
go to some temple somewhere
out in Tibet or something!
Because I must of know it was
sort of spiritual!
and try to seek the answer,
whatever this is calling me,
I've got to find the answer!
to what it really is calling me
and I did not know where to find the answer.
I have no clue where to find the answer.
But I had been with this girls 2 years nearly,
getting on for two years
and you know it was in a rut,
she had her hang-ups about not being about,
not trust not being able to show her love to me
and being quite jealous at times,
because she did not trust.
Ah because she had been betrayed
in an earlier relationship!
and I started to think,
well I loved he with all my heart,
I really did!
I absolutely love her,
never stopped loving her.
Uh but I for the first time
and I never spoke to anyone about my problems
or asked for advice.
But I turned to Peter,
because I trusted him to give good advice
and that was the fist time I had ever turned to him
and I said I am thinking of
this relationship with this girl.
And you know! what is your advice?
And he said!
"Well my advice is!"
"There is not hurry give it time!"
Which I thought was good advice.
Ah and then the fist Miracles of God began
in the new year!
Ah the first Saturday of the New Year 1995.
I was in there! and this.
I'd decided we were having a party in my room
in my bed-sit in Guildford,
Guildford Park Avenue.
And we were there having a party
and it suddenly dawned on me!
That I had made my decision,
I was going to end this relationship with her.
But I lover her to bits!
and when I decided that,
it was like something reach in
to my chest through my rib cage
and plucked out my heart!
It hurt me so much to say!
Yes I am going to give her up,
because my brain over ruled my heart.
Because my heart loved her to bits!
So! I decided to give her up,
but I wanted to stay friends with her
and I decided, I'd would take a few months to do that.
To finish that relationship
and gentle ease it away,
because I knew she would not want to end it!
So! Um, I did that and made that decision
and I did not tell her this
for a long time that I was ending the relationship,
I just moved us further apart slowly.
Then on the Monday,
The fist Miracle of God happened!
And I got up
and where I had worked on the farms
and everything form many years,
got a lot of duct in my eyes,
I had quite red veins in my eyes
and really blood shot in the mornings!
So! I got up this morning
and I just looked up in the mirror in the bathroom
and my eyes!
I could not believe it!!!
There where pure pure white!!!
and they where like really red,
every morning without fail,
for many years and the white of my eyes they had gone
pure white!!!
There was not one capillary vain in them.
Not One!!!
They were pure white!
and all day long, I could not understand it?
My mind was boggling
I kept looking in the mirror in my tractor
all day long
Going! how could this be!!!
What’s happened?
You know! I thought it was some sort of
freak phenomena!
Not for a minute did I think it was God!
I thought it was some sort of freak phenomena
happening to me.
So! The was the first Miracle of God!
And later I thought, well I think this is?
I'm seeing clearly!
That what the message was through that.
It was a rejuvenation of my eyes.
Anyway time went on a month or two
and um? March time,
and it was a nice sunny day
and this is the second Miracle of God that happened with me!
I went and sat in the garden
for my lunch break
and I sat there and the sun was out,
but there was thin vaporous clouds.
You could see the sun through them!
But it was enough in the early spring to sort of block.
Because I had my shirt off,
Wanting to get bit of a tan
and I laid there
and a cloud was coming along to block the sun!
I just thought come on sun burn through that cloud!
and I was astonished!!!
Because as the cloud along into the ark of the sun,
The cloud come along!
The ark of the sun, eat the cloud away!
and it was a long cloud
and as the cloud kept coming
it kept eating it away as it touched it!
and it just completely eat the
whole cloud away!!!
Which was quite long and vaporous.
So it was quite amazing.
I say there flabbergasted!!!
Because I knew the sun could not do that!
But not for a second did I think Father God
was doing it!
Not then?
Later on I realised he did!
And then a few minute later,
another one come along!
I thought come on sun burn thought! The same thing happened!!!
And none of the other clouds,
There was load just like this,
floating around in the sky.
None of them were disappearing at all!
Just the ones that were going to
block my bit of sun!
and then a few minutes later another come along
and I thought the same thing,
come on sun burn though!
and it disappeared again!
In the ark of the sun!
It just eat away as it touched the ark of the sun!
It was absolutely astonishing!
I could not believe it!
My mind was boggling!!!
I was just going,
How could this happen, how could this happen!!!
What’s happening?
You know! I know that could not happen!
Why did it happen?
I just could not understand it at all?
Not for a second did I think it was Father God!
Anyway!
There was. In the Christmas of 94,
my girlfriend started dancing
and she was a beautiful dancer!
To night club music.
She was absolutely in the rhythm and tempo
and it inspired me
and I wanted to learn to dance!
So ever night for half and hour I use to dance.
We used to go out clubbing
once or twice a week.
And I wanted to learn,
I was so awkward so terrible,
but every night I kept practicing
and over the next three months, I got good!
Good enough to have a spiritual experience!
And I will go on to talk about that,
next weekend in the next video! :)
Bless you!
Thanks you for listening! Love and Light Shep!