You will never know what it is - With English subs

One year ago, I wrote and recorded this text and published in on youtube. The voice was modified and no video was uploaded so I can remain anonymous. Now, i'm not afraid to be who I am, I decided to choose my own happiness over a dumb society. 2013 has been a banner year for gay rights, history has been made and I am proud to be a part of this change. You will never know what it is to feel judged, not to be normal, not be accepted. To tell yourself that you may be wrong, but you gotta stay strong. To be deprive of the right to equality and freedom. All the things I will be forced to face to be happy.You will never know how it feels to be called gay, how it feels to hear people say ''Gay is not normal''. To be called a weirdo. To have to defend myself because my opinions are different. To hear people say ''this is so gay''. Gay is not a synonym for ***. If you wanna say that something's *** because you don't like it or because it's ugly, well just say it's ***. The End. Whenever I see people using the word gay as a synonymous to the lesser You will never know what it is to feel like you don't belong in the society, pretending to be someone else to please everyone around even if you lose who you are. Not be able to walk hand in hand down the street with the person you love without attracting eyes, without feeling judged. To see so much blood poured on the wrists of young teenagers who are tired of being bullied and humiliated on social networks, just because they are different. You will never know how it feels to no longer be able to carry such a heavy secret, how it feels to come out of the closet without knowing how your friends and family will react. To be afraid to show your true colors, to say openly that you're different and be afraid to see people you love not accept it. Not be able to wear the clothes you want because it looks a little too gay. You will never know how it feels to not be able to put yourself in a relationship with the person you love on social networks so it doesn't affect your professionnal life and to avoid being the gossip of the week at the office. To know that your family will never accept your lifestyle because they don't understand or because they are simply ignorant. Not be able to invite your girlfriend in family dinners so they can maintain their reputation. To see parents educate their children by telling them that two girls, two guys kissing is disgusting, that it is not normal. That they are committing a sin. Then we wonder why young kids bully others, look at yourself in the mirror first. You will never know how it feels to be asked ''do you have a boyfriend'' ? having to love someone secretly because it's not easy to say it out loud to be ask ''how does it feel to love someone of the same sex as you'' ? I never read somewhere that love is between a man and a women. You fall in love with a person, love knows no gender. Not being able to shout out the world that you are in love, but having to hide. You will never know how it feels to not have the same rights as everyone. To hear people say that a child with two moms or two dads isn't normal. Not easily be able to adopt. But I see tons of parents who neglect their children everyday but that's okay. To see that still some governments say no to gay marriage as hundreds of heterosexual divorce each year. Why stop and prevent us to marry then ? Not be able to be legally married in some stats while two heterosexual who just met each other have the right to marry without questionning their relationship. You will never know how it feels to not be able to donate blood, by telling us that we change *** partners too often. Then tell me why a heterosexual person having unprotected sex every night with a different partner has the right. Tell me. To hear people say that homosexuality is a disease, that it is treatable. To hear people say that you go against God will and that you try to redefine the real definition of marriage. To think that your friends juged your lifestyle while they are fully supporting . To hear people say it's a phase, that it will go away. Having to convince your girl friends that you're not in love with them. Tired of being ask who's the boy, who's the girl in the relationship ? When people say that I had the choice. Really ? Do you remember the exact day you decided to be straight. ? To explain to people that you're not gay because you had bad experiences with guys in the past. That you don't hate guys. I want guys in my life, I just don't want them in my bed. You will never know how it feels to see such a closed society on marriage equality. Tell me what difference it makes that two people who love each other decides to get married. Nothing in your life will be destroyed or changed. The day you'll have a good explanation, then I'll listen. The gas prices will not increase because of them, you won't lose your job, you'll probably never know that a gay marriage has been celebrated. so tell me, what does it change in your life. ? You will never know how it feels to know that life won't be easy for you because in 2013 still, homophobia is too present in our society. You will never know what it feels like, because you, unlike me, you're not gay. I am no longer afraid to defend those who are bullied because of their homosexuality. I am no longer afraid to open myself about what I thing with those who have learned to accept me. I'm not afraid to defend equality even with those who don't know my true identity. To show my support for gay marriage. To say loud and clear that homophobia must come to an end. You will never know what it is to defend who you are, to have written a text like this to defend and protect who you really are. You will never know what it is but I can tell you that with some people encourage you, who helps you getting up when you're down, because of them I am proud to be who I am today and accept that I am GAY. It does get better. I still think that every human has the right to be different and it will build our world to grow together and accepte that we are all different and still beautiful. I believe in this crazy idea that everyone is equal and free to marry to person they want. Nobody will know who I am, I certainly won't change the way you think but I hope that this little 5 minutes of your time will actually change the way you act everyday and hoping that one day we will no longer see hateful and homophobic behavior towards people who are brave enough to show their true colors to the world, because between you and me, even in 2013, being gay is not always okay.