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Laraine. Almost 23. Daughter, sister, aunt, friend.
Sometimes it's hard to believe that my entire undergraduate academic career is behind me.
Eighteen years of schooling... done.
The thought is at once exciting and daunting. For the past six months I have been in delightful limbo
straddling that space in between college and what some might call
real life.
I am always working to stay afloat
swimming between the currents of two different cultures
always trying to find a comfortable balance between individuality
and community. I still have a reading list that is as overwhelming as it is
ambitious.
I still spend more time looking at cookbooks than actually cooking.
I like candles. And little lights.
I can now wear bold lipstick without
caring what anyone else thinks.
These are my owls
and this is my pen.
I am still learning to make expectations meet realities.
Sometimes i feel great
and sometimes I feel inadequate. And those are both legitimate feelings.
I know that I will get a job as a nurse this year. And I look forward to it, and I will greet it
with a sigh of relief.
But I don't regret what came
before it: the waiting
and the rejections.
Because I'm hoping that that was the character building stuff, that it will make
everything else that comes after all the sweeter. And also because of this
because for the first time in a long time, I feel creative again.
And I was getting up
in the middle of the night again to write lists that I was excited about. And I was reminded of what I love to do: create.
So this is me now.
And this is 2013.
And I'm ready to move forward.