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- NEITHER OF US ARE OLD ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO RAISE A KID.
- STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL.
WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT,
I HAD TO POSTPONE EVERYTHING.
- WE BOTH WANT TO GO INTO THE MILITARY.
AND IF WE WERE TO KEEP HER,
THEN IT WOULD JUST BE COMPLETELY GONE.
- I CANNOT HONESTLY SAY THAT I AM 100%.
- IT WAS LIKE BEING PUNCHED IN THE GUT.
- IF YOU WERE TO DECIDE TO KEEP HER THOUGH,
I HAVE NO SAY IN IT.
- MY HEART IS TELLING ME TWO DIFFERENT THINGS--
TO KEEP HER AND TO ALSO PLACE HER.
- IT'S SOMETHING I CAN'T PREDICT.
- WE'RE JUST NOT READY RIGHT NOW.
- I DON'T WANT THEM TO HAVE TO SUFFER
BECAUSE I WANNA BE SELFISH.
I'M PREGNANT WITH TWINS.
WITH THE FIRST ADOPTION,
I WAS PRETTY MUCH PUSHED INTO IT.
WHEN I HAD MY FIRST SON,
THE ADOPTION WAS CLOSED BEHIND MY BACK.
IF THAT WERE TO HAPPEN AGAIN,
I'D CALL OFF THE ADOPTION.
I DON'T WANT EVERYBODY TO THINK THAT I DON'T WANT 'EM.
I DO WANT THEM.
- I'M TIRED AND I'M GETTING FRUSTRATED.
- [groans] - BREATHE.
[mimics breathing]
IT'S A VERY HIGH-RISK PREGNANCY.
SHE COULD BLEED OUT QUICKLY.
- COME ON, JESS. YOU GOT IT!
GOOD JOB.
[overlapped encouragement]
[upbeat music]
♪ ♪
- TODAY, I WAS IN CLASS
AND I FELT THE BABY KICKING.
SO I LOOKED DOWN AND I COULD ACTUALLY SEE
LIKE HER LITTLE FOOT AND EVERYTHING
JUST STICKING OUT OF MY BELLY.
I WAS JUST AMAZED.
THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME SHE DID THAT.
YEAH. THAT ONE I'LL TAKE.
[laughing]
I'M MEGAN. I'M 17 YEARS OLD.
WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL, I WAS A BIT OF A TOMBOY.
I ALWAYS LIKED TO JUST DO, LIKE, GUY STUFF.
DID I PUT IT ON THE RIGHT WAY?
I'VE BEEN INTO THE MILITARY FOR THREE YEARS NOW.
[engine starts] [nervous laughter]
I GOT INTO IT MY SOPHOMORE YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL
WHEN I JOINED ROTC.
[laughs]
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH OF A DORK YOU LOOK LIKE.
[both laughing]
[sirens blaring]
[laughing] IT MAKES NOISE TOO.
I'M STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL
AND I'M PREGNANT WITH A BABY GIRL.
AND I'M CONSIDERING PLACING MY BABY FOR ADOPTION.
ZAKK IS THE FATHER OF MY BABY,
AND HE IS ALSO MY BOYFRIEND.
WE MET IN ROTC LAST YEAR.
WE JUST CLICKED.
- ME AND MEGAN HAVE BEEN DATING
FOR JUST OVER A YEAR AND THREE MONTHS.
- SHUT UP. [laughing]
- SHE'S DEFINITELY NOT LIKE ANY OTHER GIRL.
SHE LIKES VIDEO GAMES, DOING PHYSICAL STUFF.
- DUDE. - I LOVE MEGAN.
AND WITH MEGAN BEING PREGNANT,
IT DEFINITELY INTENSIFIED FEELINGS.
- MY PLAN WAS TO FINISH HIGH SCHOOL
AND GO TO BOOT CAMP AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
THERE'S THE FEMALE ONES.
NOW IT'S A BIT IN THE DISTANT FUTURE.
WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT,
I JUST WAS LIKE, THERE'S NO WAY.
THIS HAS TO BE, LIKE, A JOKE. LIKE, THIS ISN'T REAL.
I TOLD ZAKK OVER TEXT MESSAGE.
"DUDE, THE TEST CAME OUT POSITIVE."
HE DIDN'T RESPOND FOR A WHILE,
SO I WAS LIKE, "ARE YOU STILL THERE?"
- I WAS JUST KIND OF SITTING THERE
STARING AT MY PHONE,
NOT KNOWING WHAT TO SAY.
I WAS JUST KIND OF IN SHOCK.
KIND OF LIKE, WELL, MY LIFE HAS REALLY CHANGED NOW.
- I HAD TO POSTPONE EVERYTHING AND DROP OUT OF THE MILITARY.
WE FELT LIKE, WELL, WHAT DO WE DO NOW?
- SO HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
- JUST TIRED TODAY, I GUESS.
YEAH. I GOTTA WRITE THIS ESSAY.
I'M RUNNING OUT OF IDEAS.
- YOU SHOULD WRITE ABOUT ADOPTION.
- [laughs]
ZAKK TOLD HIS PARENTS,
AND ZAKK'S MOM POINTED OUT ADOPTION.
WHEN ZAKK'S MOM FIRST BROUGHT UP THE IDEA OF ADOPTION,
I ALWAYS VIEWED IT AS GIVING UP YOUR BABY
AND YOU DON'T GET TO SEE ANYTHING
OR WATCH HER GROW UP.
BUT EMILY AND PETE,
THE ADOPTIVE PARENTS THAT WE CHOSE,
THEY HAD ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THE ADOPTION PROCESS,
AND ONE OF THE MAIN THINGS WAS THAT WE WANTED AN OPEN ADOPTION.
EMILY AND PETE DO EVERYTHING TO MAKE SURE
THAT THE BIRTH PARENTS ARE IN THE LIFE OF THE CHILD
AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.
- WELL, THE GOOD THING IS
IS THAT WE'RE STILL GONNA BE ABLE TO SEE HER.
I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT, LIKE, LOSING HER FOREVER.
I DEFINITELY WANT AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP WITH THE BABY.
YOU KNOW, I ALWAYS AM GONNA WANNA BE IN HER LIFE,
AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SEE HER GROW UP.
THAT'S ALL I REALLY ASK FOR, YOU KNOW?
- I DON'T KNOW, I KINDA HAVE, LIKE, MY MOMENTS
WHERE I'M LIKE, EH.
- WHAT'S "EH"?
- LIKE, I MEAN, I KINDA, LIKE, SECOND GUESS IT SOMETIMES.
LIKE, IF IT'S THE RIGHT DECISION.
I'VE BEEN ON THE FENCE ABOUT THE ADOPTION
SINCE THE BEGINNING.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF, AT THE HOSPITAL OR SOMETHING,
I CHANGED MY MIND
AND DECIDED NOT TO GO THROUGH WITH THE ADOPTION?
- I DON'T SEE WHY YOU WOULD CHANGE YOUR MIND THOUGH.
WE BOTH KNOW THAT WE WANNA GIVE HER A BETTER LIFE.
- MY HEART IS TELLING ME TWO DIFFERENT THINGS--
TO KEEP HER AND TO ALSO PLACE HER.
- NEITHER OF US ARE OLD ENOUGH OR MATURE ENOUGH
TO BE ABLE TO RAISE A KID.
- I KNOW THAT WE DON'T HAVE THE MEANS
TO TAKE CARE OF HER, BUT...
IT'S GONNA BE HARD.
LIKE, I'M OBVIOUSLY GETTING ATTACHED TO HER.
- YOU DON'T THINK YOU'RE GONNA CHANGE YOUR MIND THOUGH
WHEN THE DAY COMES, DO YOU?
- I KNOW THAT I'LL STILL HAVE THAT THOUGHT IN MY HEAD,
LIKE, IS THIS REALLY WHAT I WANT?
- WHY?
- WELL, BECAUSE I WANNA KEEP HER.
- WE'VE GONE THROUGH ALL THIS TROUBLE,
GONE THROUGH THE ADOPTION PROCESS,
AND PICKING A FAMILY.
AND THEN IF YOU WERE TO JUST CHANGE YOUR MIND,
IT WOULD BE LIKE THROWING ALL OF THAT WAY FOR NOTHING.
WE BOTH WANT TO GO INTO THE MILITARY,
MAKE LIFE CAREERS OUT OF IT.
SO IF WE WERE TO KEEP THE CHILD,
THEN WE KNOW THAT WE DEFINITELY WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO DO THAT.
WE ALREADY HAD OUR LIVES KIND OF PLANNED OUT.
AND IF WE WERE TO KEEP HER,
THEN IT WOULD JUST BE COMPLETELY GONE.
- I KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT AND EVERYTHING,
BUT...
WE DON'T REALLY KNOW HOW WE'RE GONNA FEEL AFTER WE HOLD HER.
THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING.
- HEY, IT'S RENEE.
I AM 35 WEEKS PREGNANT.
THE BABIES MOVED A LOT TODAY, ESPECIALLY THE LITTLE GIRL.
IT SEEMS LIKE NO MATTER WHAT I DO,
SHE'S JUST CONSTANTLY JUST KICKING AWAY.
- WHENEVER YOU GO TO HIT-- - I HAVE IT!
- JUST BARELY HIT IT.
THERE YOU GO!
- YAY! [giggles]
MY NAME IS RENEE, AND I AM 19 YEARS OLD.
- LOOK. ALL YOU GOTTA DO--
- I KNOW HOW TO HIT THE BALLS! - WATCH.
JUST--YEAH.
- I'M SEVEN MONTHS PREGNANT WITH TWINS.
A LITTLE GIRL AND A LITTLE BOY...
LOOK, IT DIDN'T EVEN GO HALFWAY UP.
- [laughing] - THANKS FOR YOUR HELP, PSYCHO.
AND ME AND MY HUSBAND
ARE CONSIDERING PLACING THE BABIES UP FOR ADOPTION.
- COME ON.
- THIS IS VERY HARD TO BEND DOWN.
BEING PREGNANT WITH TWINS, YOU GET DOUBLE THE KICKS,
DOUBLE THE CRAVINGS FOR FOOD.
IT'S DOUBLE EVERYTHING.
WHERE DOES IT SHOOT OUT AT?
I FEEL LIKE THERE IS A BOXING GYM IN THERE
AND MY BLADDER IS THE TWINS' PUNCHING BAG.
- MY TURN.
IN. - YOU MISSED TOO.
HA HA.
RANDALL IS THE FATHER OF THE TWINS.
THE FIRST TIME I EVER MET HIM, I WAS 16.
I JUST KNEW RIGHT AWAY THAT WE WERE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.
RANDALL AND I ACTUALLY ONLY KNEW EACH OTHER
FOR FOUR MONTHS BEFORE GETTING MARRIED.
- WHOA, ALMOST HIT MYSELF IN THE FACE WITH IT.
[both laughing]
WHEN I FIRST MET RENEE,
IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.
WE BOTH MAKE EACH OTHER LAUGH.
- I HAD THAT.
[both laughing]
- I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HER.
- THAT WAS FUN. - IT WAS.
- WE WERE PLANNING ON GETTING PREGNANT.
BTU WHEN WE FOUND OUT IT WAS TWINS,
WE KNEW THAT WE WEREN'T GONNA BE FINANCIALLY STABLE.
- IT'S NOT THAT WE DON'T WANNA TAKE CARE OF THEM,
IT'S THAT WE CAN'T.
- YEAH. - I'D LOVE TO.
- I DON'T WANT THEM TO HAVE TO SUFFER
BECAUSE I WANNA BE SELFISH AND KEEP THEM.
- WELL, YEAH. WE'RE JUST NOT READY RIGHT NOW.
FINANCIAL-WISE, WE JUST CAN'T SUPPORT 'EM.
- IF WE WEREN'T TO PLACE THE BABIES,
WE'D PROBABLY BE GOING WITHOUT FOOD
JUST TO PAY THE BILLS.
AND I KNOW FIRSTHAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO RAISE TWINS.
I HAVE TWIN SISTERS.
THEY'RE SIX YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME.
SEEING MY MOM STRUGGLE--
I MEAN, THERE WAS DAYS THAT SHE'D COME HOME CRYING.
SHE FELT LIKE SHE WASN'T DOING A GOOD ENOUGH JOB.
AND I THINK IF I WERE TO KEEP THE TWINS,
I'D BE IN THE SAME POSITION.
- WE'RE GIVING 'EM TO PEOPLE
THAT HAVE A STABLE PLACE, CAN PAY THEIR BILLS.
- CHRIS AND SASHA ARE THE ADOPTIVE PARENTS
THAT RANDALL AND I CHOSE FOR THE TWINS.
THEY HAVE TRIED TO HAVE BABIES.
IT'S JUST NOT POSSIBLE FOR THEM.
I REALLY LIKE THE FACT
THAT WE'RE ACTUALLY GIVING CHRIS AND SASHA
THAT OPPORTUNITY. - RIGHT.
- AS SOON AS WE LOOKED AT THEIR PROFILE,
WE WERE JUST LIKE, THIS IS WHO WE WANT.
BEFORE I MET RANDALL...
I WAS 16 WHEN I HAD MY FIRST SON
AND PLACED HIM UP FOR ADOPTION.
MY MOM AND MY STEPDAD DIDN'T GIVE ME THE OPPORTUNITY
TO DECIDE WHO I WANTED TO PLACE THE BABY WITH.
I REALLY HAD NO CHOICE.
THE ADOPTION WAS ORIGINALLY SUPPOSED TO BE OPEN,
AND IT WAS CLOSED BEHIND MY BACK.
IT DOES HURT TO THINK HE COULD HATE ME
FOR PLACING HIM FOR ADOPTION
BECAUSE I'M NOT ABLE TO BE THERE
TO TELL HIM THE TRUTH.
- SHE'S AFRAID WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN
WITH HER FIRST ADOPTION,
IT'S GONNA HAPPEN WITH THIS ONE.
BUT IT'S NOT.
- BECAUSE THE LAST EXPERIENCE,
IF THAT WERE TO HAPPEN AGAIN,
I'D CALL OFF THE ADOPTION.
- SHE HAS YOUR NOSE.
- IN THAT MOMENT,
I FELT GUILTY FOR THINKING OF JUST RAISING HER ON MY OWN.
IT MAKES THE DECISION THAT MUCH HARDER.
- WHAT ARE THE PLANS? - YEAH.
LIKE, HOW OFTEN DO YOU CARE TO LET US SEE THEM?
- I DON'T KNOW.
I MEAN, IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT, YOU KNOW,
WE'VE FIRMED UP ANYTHING WITH.
WHO KNOWS?
- I WONDER IF I'M GONNA GET TO SEE THE BABIES.
IT'S NOT SOMETHING I'LL RISK.
- IF I GO THROUGH WITH THE ADOPTION,
I JUST WANT MY BABY TO KNOW
THAT I LOVE HER SO MUCH
WITH ALL MY HEART.
AND I'M DOING THE ADOPTION BECAUSE I WANT HER TO HAVE
SUCH A GREAT LIFE.
AND I'M ONLY 17,
AND I'M NOT SURE IF I COULD GIVE HER THAT LIFE.
I'M HERE TODAY TO GET A 4D ULTRASOUND
WITH ZAKK AND HIS MOM DEE DEE.
- I'VE BEEN VERY INVOLVED WITH THE ADOPTION PROCESS.
[giggling]
I THINK THIS ADOPTION IS GONNA BE
DEFINITELY THE BEST THING FOR THE CHILDREN,
AND I THINK IT'S GONNA BE
A REAL BLESSING FOR THE ADOPTIVE PARENTS.
- ALL RIGHT. - HI, ZAKK! HOW ARE YOU?
- HEY THERE! - HI!
- GOOD TO SEE YOU. - NICE TO SEE YOU.
- EMILY AND PETE FLEW IN FROM OHIO.
- HOW ARE YOU? - GOOD, HOW ARE YOU?
- GOOD. - HEY, MEGAN.
YOU'RE LOOKING GREAT. - THANKS, YOU TOO.
IT'S IMPORTANT FOR EMILY AND PETE TO BE HERE
BECAUSE IT GIVES US ANOTHER CHANCE
TO BOND WITH THEM.
- ALEX, ARE YOU EXCITED TO MEET YOUR LITTLE SISTER?
- I WAS GONNA SAY, THIS IS GONNA BE EXCITING FOR HIM.
HE CAN SEE HIS FIRST ULTRASOUND.
- YEAH.
- THIS IS OUR SECOND ADOPTION
AND, UM, WE'RE EXCITED TO HAVE A LITTLE SISTER FOR ALEX.
- YEAH, THERE WE GO. - THERE WE GO!
I'M VERY EXCITED.
WE DIDN'T HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY
TO DO THIS WITH OUR FIRST SON.
- LADIES FIRST. - THANK YOU.
SO IT'LL BE COOL TO BE ABLE TO HEAR HER HEARTBEAT
AND SEE WHAT SHE'S GONNA LOOK LIKE.
- YEAH.
- HOW ARE YOU? - I'M GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?
A GIRL. - A GIRL?
- HERE WE GO. - HERE, SIT UP HERE.
- I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING HER FACIAL FEATURES,
AND JUST TO SEE HOW MUCH SHE'S GROWN
SINCE THE LAST ULTRASOUND.
- OPEN AGAIN? SEE THAT?
SHE'S GOT SOME HAIR.
SEE ALL THE SPIKES STICKING OUT?
- SEE, LOOK OVER THERE?
- I THINK IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO GUARD YOURSELF
FROM GETTING ATTACHED.
- YOU CAN'T NOT GET EMOTIONALLY INVESTED
IN AN ADOPTION.
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT A CHILD AND EXPANDING OUR FAMILY.
IT'S AN INCREDIBLE GIFT.
- THERE'S A LITTLE FIST RIGHT THERE.
- A LITTLE BABY. - YEAH.
- YEAH. - THERE'S A BABY.
- SEEMS LIKE SHE MOVES A LOT, RIGHT?
- YEAH. - PRETTY ACTIVE.
- THE FIRST ULTRASOUND,
I WAS TRYING TO STAY UNATTACHED.
NOW I'M NOT TRYING AS HARD NOT TO BOND WITH HER.
- CHUBBY CHEEKS. - [laughs]
- WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME?
[laughter]
- I WASN'T REALLY THINKING ABOUT PLACING HER.
I WAS MORE THINKING ABOUT BEING ABLE
TO HOLD HER FOR THE FIRST TIME WHEN SHE'S BORN
AND SEEING HER GROW UP.
- SHE HAS YOUR NOSE.
- [laughing]
- HERE WE GO. - HERE, SIT UP HERE.
- SEEING THE 4D ULTRASOUND OF THE BABY
DEFINITELY MAKE IT A LOT MORE REAL.
- SHE DOES LOOK REALLY TINY.
- IT MAKES ME KIND OF NERVOUS.
IT MAKES ME WONDER IF SHE'S GONNA FOLLOW THROUGH
WITH THE ADOPTION.
- OH, THIS IS AMAZING.
- IN THAT MOMENT, I FELT A BIT GUILTY
FOR THINKING OF JUST RAISING HER ON MY OWN.
- THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS WITH US.
- YEAH. - THIS IS AWESOME.
- I KNOW THAT I NEED TO SHARE
THAT I'M NOT 100% SURE ABOUT THE ADOPTION.
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT EMILY AND PETE TO THINK
THAT I'M TRYING TO LEAD THEM ON.
BECAUSE THAT'S DEFINITELY NOT MY INTENTIONS.
I DON'T KNOW HOW THEY'LL REACT TO IT.
I DON'T WANNA HURT THEM.
- LADIES FIRST. - THANK YOU.
- CHRIS AND SASHA ARE THE ADOPTIVE PARENTS.
- I KNOW IT'S SO NICE THAT WE CAN GET TOGETHER FOR DINNER.
- I KNOW.
- TONIGHT, CHRIS AND SASHA AND RANDALL AND I
ARE GONNA GO OUT TO DINNER
AND TALK A LITTLE BIT ABOUT THE OPENNESS OF THE ADOPTION.
I FEEL LIKE IT STILL NEEDS SOME REASSURANCE.
I WANT US ALL FOUR TO BE ON THE SAME PAGE.
- SO...HOW HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN? [laughs]
- GOOD! - HOW HAVE YOU BEEN FEELING?
- READY FOR THE BABIES TO GET HERE.
[laughter]
- SINCE WE CAN'T HAVE OUR OWN CHILDREN PHYSICALLY,
WE ACTUALLY HAD A PRIVATE ADOPTION LINED UP,
AND THEN THE BIRTH MOM CHANGED HER MIND.
WE KNEW THAT WE'D ONLY BE ABLE TO AFFORD ONE MORE ADOPTION.
SO IF THIS ONE DOESN'T WORK OUT,
WE PROBABLY WON'T BE ABLE TO ADOPT AGAIN.
- HAVE YOU DECIDED ON BABY NAMES OF SOMEWHAT?
- NO, THE BOY NAME, DEFINITELY NOT.
AND THE GIRL NAME, WE'VE STILL GOT A COUPLE.
BUT WE DON'T KNOW YET.
I'M JUST SUPER EXCITED THAT YOU WANT US
TO BE ABLE TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL ROOM.
- I MEAN, WE WANT YOU GUYS TO LIKE BE ABLE TO SPEND,
YOU KNOW, TIME WITH 'EM IN THE HOSPITAL AS WELL
JUST SO YOU CAN GET THAT EARLY BONDING TIME.
CHRIS AND SASHA, YOU KNOW, THEY'RE GREAT PEOPLE.
BUT IF I FELT LIKE
I WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE TO SEE THE BABIES
AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO,
I WOULD DEFINITELY HESITATE ABOUT THE ADOPTION.
WITH THE FIRST ADOPTION LIKE PRETTY MUCH PUSHED INTO IT
BY MY PARENTS,
IT'S PRETTY MUCH, YOU KNOW,
I JUST HAVE THE BABY AND GIVE IT TO THEM,
NOT EVEN KNOWING WHO THEY ARE, COMPLETE STRANGERS.
AND THEN JUST GOING ON WITH MY LIFE.
- MUST'VE BEEN A REALLY HARD TIME FOR YOU.
BUT AT LEAST THIS TIME,
YOU KNOW IT'S GONNA BE MUCH DIFFERENT.
- WHAT DO YOU GUYS, LIKE-- - WHAT ARE THE PLANS?
- YEAH, LIKE HOW OFTEN DO YOU CARE TO LET US SEE 'EM?
- I DON'T KNOW. I MEAN, I THINK, UM--
IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT, YOU KNOW,
WE'VE FIRMED UP ANYTHING WITH.
- RIGHT.
- OR THAT WE'VE EVEN TALKED ABOUT YET.
BUT I MEAN, YOU KNOW, WE-- IT'S PROBABLY A GOOD IDEA
TO TALK ABOUT IT A LITTLE BIT BEFORE
SO WE ALL HAVE AN IDEA. - RIGHT.
- UM, I DON'T KNOW.
I MEAN, WHO KNOWS, RIGHT?
I MEAN, THERE'S FRIENDS I HAVE IN TOWN
I HAVEN'T SEEN IN A YEAR, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
[laughter]
YOU KNOW, LIFE GETS BUSY, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
AND AS YOU GO, IT'S LIKE, YOU KNOW,
THERE MIGHT BE SOME TIMES WHERE YOU MIGHT BE LIKE,
HEY, JUST SAW YOU A MONTH OR TWO AGO,
BUT THEN THERE MIGHT BE TIMES WHERE IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS.
- YEAH. - A WEEK.
- IT'S LIKE YOU SAID WHENEVER WE FIRST MET.
YOU'RE BASICALLY PERMANENTLY BABYSITTING THEM.
- DID I? - [laughing]
- WHEN WE WERE AT THE MALL, YEAH.
BASICALLY, YOU'RE PERMANENTLY BABYSITTING THEM.
- YEAH, IN A WAY. IN A WAY, YEAH.
- I KNOW IT'S BASED ON OUR SCHEDULES.
LIKE, WE'RE ALL GONNA BE BUSY. - RIGHT.
- I WANNA BE ABLE TO SEE THE BABIES, YOU KNOW,
WHENEVER POSSIBLE.
- WE KNOW THAT CHILDREN NEED THE LOVE OF THEIR BIRTH PARENTS
AND THEIR ADOPTIVE PARENTS.
WHEN IT COMES TO VISITATION, WE HOPE TO BE ABLE TO SEE THEM
THROUGHOUT THE YEAR, AS SCHEDULES ALLOW,
SO THEY'RE ABLE TO SEE THE BABIES GROW UP.
WE'LL MAKE IT-- IT'LL BE, YOU KNOW--
- WE'LL MAKE IT WORK. - WE'LL MAKE IT WORK.
- IT'LL WORK. - WE'LL STILL GET PICTURES.
- RIGHT.
- RANDALL WASN'T THERE TO SEE HOW HARD
MY FIRST ADOPTION WAS.
SO HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW HARD IT IS.
CHRIS AND SASHA SEEM LIKE THEY DON'T WANT ME TO HAVE
ANOTHER BAD EXPERIENCE,
BUT I STILL HAD DOUBTS.
I WONDER IF I'M GONNA GET TO SEE THE BABIES GROW.
IT REALLY SCARES ME.
AM I READY TO GO THROUGH
THE EMOTIONS THAT I WOULD HAVE TO DEAL WITH
IF THAT WERE TO HAPPEN AGAIN?
IT'S NOT SOMETHING I'LL RISK.
I WOULD LOVE TO KEEP 'EM.
- I'M JUST SCARED THAT SHE'S
JUST NOT GONNA DO THE ADOPTION, PERIOD.
- I CANNOT HONESTLY SAY THAT I AM 100%.
- IT WAS UNSETTLING.
- IT WAS LIKE BEING PUNCHED IN THE GUT.
- TODAY, WE FINALLY CAME UP
WITH A NAME FOR THE BABY.
HER NAME IS GONNA BE ALAINA EMILY.
HER MIDDLE NAME IS EMILY AFTER THE ADOPTIVE MOM.
SO I THINK IT'S GONNA BE A REALLY BEAUTIFUL NAME,
AND I THINK IT'S GONNA FIT HER PERFECTLY.
- HERE YOU GO, PAL!
- ALEX, ARE YOU HUNGRY? - COME HERE, BUD.
- WE'RE GONNA GET SOME ICE CREAM.
- I'M HERE AT LUNCH WITH THE ADOPTIVE PARENTS,
AND HOPEFULLY I GET THE OPPORTUNITY
TO LET THEM KNOW THAT I'M NOT
FOR SURE ABOUT THE ADOPTION.
[Alex talks indistinctly] - YUMMY ICE CREAM.
- WELL, WHO WOULDN'T LOVE THAT FACE, RIGHT?
- I AGREE WITH YOU, ALEX. IT'S PRETTY GOOD.
[laughter] - YEAH.
- I WANNA TELL THEM
BECAUSE I WANNA BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH THEM
AND I DON'T WANT THEM TO FEEL AS IF I'M LEADING THEM ON.
I LOVE THE WAY YOU GUYS ARE WITH ALEX,
AND THAT'S LIKE ONE THING THAT I WOULD ALWAYS WANT FOR HER.
BUT...
I'M GONNA BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH YOU GUYS.
THERE IS STILL LIKE THAT LITTLE PART OF ME
THAT'S JUST LIKE, WELL, YOU KNOW,
WILL I REGRET IT OR SOMETHING, YOU KNOW?
I DO WANT THE BEST THING FOR HER.
BUT...
AS FOR BEING 100%,
I CANNOT HONESTLY SAY THAT I'M 100%.
PART OF ME DOESN'T WANNA SEE HER GO.
- OBVIOUSLY, THIS IS A BIG DREAM FOR US.
THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WE--
WE LOOK FORWARD TO.
AND SO YEAH, IT'S DIFFICULT TO HEAR.
WHEN MEGAN SAID THAT SHE WASN'T 100% SURE,
IT WAS LIKE BEING PUNCHED IN THE GUT.
- WOULD WE BE DISAPPOINTED? OF COURSE.
- WE UNDERSTAND LOGICALLY
THAT SHE COULD DECIDE TO PARENT.
AND WHILE--
- THAT'S THE FIRST TIME WE'VE HEARD HER SAY THAT
OUT LOUD THOUGH.
IF THERE'S THINGS THAT WE CAN DO TO MAKE IT EASIER--
IT WAS A LITTLE UNSETTLING.
- IF IT IS THE RIGHT DECISION FOR YOU,
WE LOOK FORWARD TO MOVING FORWARD WITH THE ADOPTION.
BUT--
WE HAVE HAD TWO FAILED MATCHES,
ONE PRIOR TO ADOPTING ALEX,
AND ONE JUST BEFORE MEGAN AND ZAKK.
IT'S A DIFFICULT EXPERIENCE.
- HONESTLY, IT WAS DEVASTATING.
WE WERE ALL SET.
I WAS DEPRESSED FOR A VERY LONG TIME.
- THERE'S A MOURNING PROCESS. YOU FALL IN LOVE.
- I AM A BIT ATTACHED TO HER. - OF COURSE.
- IT'S GONNA BE HARD, AND I KNOW THAT.
- IT'S REALLY A DECISION THAT ONLY YOU TWO CAN MAKE.
- IF YOU WERE TO DECIDE TO KEEP HER THOUGH,
I HAVE NO SAY IN IT.
YOU KNOW, I CAN'T STOP YOU.
IT ALL LIES ON MEGAN BECAUSE SHE IS THE BIRTH MOTHER.
ALL THE RIGHTS ARE GIVEN TO HER.
- AT THE END, IT'S BOTH OF OUR DECISION.
IT'S NOT JUST MINE.
EVEN IF I CHANGE MY MIND,
IT'S NOT JUST MINE TO CHANGE MY MIND.
BECAUSE IT'S YOUR LIFE ALSO.
- WELL, YOU KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA CHANGE MY MIND.
- IF MEGAN DECIDED TO KEEP THE BABY,
I WOULD BE DISAPPOINTED, UM,
BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THEIR LIFE IS GOING TO BE VERY HARD.
- ULTIMATELY, I'M THE ONE THAT CAN MAKE OR BREAK IT.
- I WENT WALKING YESTERDAY.
PROBABLY A BIG BOO-BOO.
UM, I WALKED A PRETTY GOOD DISTANCE.
AND TODAY, I'M DEFINITELY FEELING IT.
- I WANT A CHEESESTEAK WITHOUT ONIONS
WITH AMERICAN CHEESE.
I FEEL LIKE RANDALL IS A STRONGER PERSON
WITH THE ADOPTION.
- EXTRA CHEESE WITH ONIONS.
- RIGHT NOW, IT SEEMS LIKE HE'S TAKING IT
A LOT EASIER THAN I AM.
- WHERE TO START IN THIS THING?
MAN, HERE GOES NOTHING.
- YOU SEEN ME LIKE RIGHT AFTER THE FIRST ADOPTION.
LIKE...
HAVING GONE THROUGH THE FIRST ADOPTION.
I MEAN, I KNOW I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING.
- YEAH?
- BUT LIKE...
IT'D REALLY BE HARD.
- WE'RE IN THE SITUATION WE'RE IN, SO--
WE JUST GO WITH IT.
YOU OKAY?
- I'M FINE.
- YEAH, I CAN'T SEE THIS.
I'M NOT AN EMOTIONAL PERSON.
I JUST DON'T LIKE SEEING THE ONE I LOVE THE MOST CRY.
IT HURTS.
I--
- RANDALL IS TRYING TO HOLD BACK THE EMOTIONS.
AND I DON'T BLAME HIM.
ADOPTION IS NEVER EASY.
THE FIRST ADOPTION, THIS ADOPTION.
LIKE, WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT YOU CAN'T BE THE PARENT
THAT YOU WANNA BE--
NOBODY SHOULD THINK IT'S EASY. IT'S NOT.
I DON'T WAN EVERYBODY TO THINK THAT I DON'T WANT 'EM.
LIKE, I DO WANT THEM.
I WOULD LOVE TO KEEP 'EM.
- I KNOW SHE'S HURTING, BUT IT'S WHAT'S GOTTA BE DONE
BECAUSE IT'S BEST FOR THE BABIES.
I'M TIRED AND I'M GETTING FRUSTRATED.
I'M JUST SCARED THAT SHE'S NOT GONNA DO THE ADOPTION, PERIOD.
- I JUST WANNA BE THE ONE HOLDING HER.
- WE'RE REALLY ANXIOUS ABOUT
WHETHER SHE WILL MAKE THE DECISION.
- TO SEE THEM HOLD THEM AND INTERACT WITH THEM,
IT'S VERY DIFFICULT.
- [laughing]
- I AM SCARED THAT, YOU KNOW, IF I AM TO CHANGE MY MIND...
THAT RANDALL WOULD RESENT ME.
- DUDE, IT'S SO HARD TO WALK IN THE SAND THOUGH.
- THAT'S 'CAUSE WE'RE IN SHOES.
- THOMAS IS ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS.
I TALK TO HIM ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING.
MY SENIOR YEAR HASN'T BEEN AS FULL AS IT COULD BE
IF I WASN'T PREGNANT.
I JUST CAN'T DO EVERYTHING THAT EVERYBODY'S DOING,
ESPECIALLY PROM.
I DIDN'T PICTURE I WOULD HAVE THAT KINDA DRESS.
- IT DID LOOK LIKE A WEDDING DRESS.
- I WAS TRYING TO HIDE THE BABY.
[laughter]
MAN, IT SUCKS BEING 17 AND PREGNANT.
- WHEN THE DAY COMES AND
I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE TO ALAINA,
I'M GONNA BE REALLY SAD
AND IT'S GONNA TOTALLY BREAK MY HEART.
THE NIGHT I WENT INTO LABOR,
I HAD JUST GOTTEN BACK FROM ZAKK'S HOUSE.
MY WATER ACTUALLY BROKE.
OKAY, WELL, NOW WE NEED TO HURRY UP
AND GET TO THE HOSPITAL.
BECAUSE NOW IT'S LIKE, DUDE, MY WATER BROKE.
CONTRACTIONS WERE SO STRONG AND EVERYTHING,
AND IT WAS SO STRONG I DIDN'T EVEN CARE
OF THE PAIN OF THE EPIDURAL GOING INTO MY SPINE.
I WAS JUST LIKE,
PLEASE GIVE IT TO ME NOW,
'CAUSE THE PAIN OF THE CONTRACTIONS ARE WORSE.
AND AFTER THAT, IT'S ALL KINDA LIKE A BLUR.
[heavy breathing]
[Alaina crying]
I JUST COULDN'T STOP LOOKING AT HER.
I'M JUST LIKE, YOU'RE PERFECT.
THAT'S--I JUST REMEMBER LOVING HER FROM THE BEGINNING.
- HMM?
IT WAS JUST ME AND MEGAN.
SO WE HAD SOME PRIVACY AND TIME TO RELAX.
THE FIRST TIME I HOLD ALAINA,
I DON'T KNOW IF YOU CAN SAY YOU JUST--
I FELL IN LOVE RIGHT AWAY,
BUT...
YEAH.
[door closes] - HI, GUYS.
- HI. - HEY, MEGAN.
- SHE KEPT US UP ALL NIGHT.
- BABIES DO THAT.
- WHEN I FIRST MET ALAINA, I WAS OVERWHELMED WITH JOY.
YOU ARE VERY POPULAR, AREN'T YOU?
- MEETING HER, IT'S VERY EXCITING.
AND IT'S--IT'S WONDERFUL. SHE'S REALLY BEAUTIFUL.
I CAN KINDA SEE THE FACE FROM THE ULTRASOUND.
- YEAH.
WE'RE FULLY COMMITTED,
VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH LITTLE ALAINA ALREADY.
- EVERY PERSON THAT SEES HER IS JUST LIKE,
"OH, SHE HAS YOUR LIPS."
- I CAN SEE THAT. - YEAH.
- WHEN I SAW THEM HOLDING ALAINA,
IT WAS KINDA LIKE I JUST WANTED TO BE THE ONE HOLDING HER.
IT MADE ME THINK A LITTLE BIT MORE
ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT IT WAS REALLY
THE ADOPTION I WANTED TO GO THROUGH WITH.
- WHAT I WANT IS I WANT TO DO THE ADOPTION.
WHETHER OR NOT MEGAN DECIDES TO MAKE THAT SACRIFICE,
IT'S SOMETHING I CAN'T PREDICT.
- ARE YOU AWARE THAT ONCE PAPERS ARE SIGNED
THAT THE BABY'S TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU?
YOU'RE NOT SIGNING 'EM TODAY?
- I DON'T WANNA REGRET SIGNING THE PAPERS.
I WANNA BE SURE OF MY DECISION
AND NOT HAVE ANY DOUBTS.
- FIRST, YOUR HEART BREAKS FOR MEGAN,
KNOWING HOW DIFFICULT IT IS FOR HER.
- ALL RIGHT, YOU READY? - YEP.
- AT THE SAME TIME, WE'RE REALLY ANXIOUS
ABOUT WHETHER SHE WILL MAKE THE DECISION.
THE SCARIEST THING IS THAT I HAVE TO MAKE A DECISION
FOR ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.
- HEY, IT'S RENEE.
I AM 38 WEEKS PREGNANT.
ACTUALLY ABOUT TO HEAD OUT THE DOOR
TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL.
BUT TODAY'S THE BIG DAY.
TODAY, I AM BEING INDUCED.
SASHA AND CHRIS ARE GONNA BE TAKING US TO THE HOSPITAL.
- [laughing]
- REALLY DIDN'T WANNA WORRY ABOUT TAKING THE BUS.
I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR TODAY.
DEFINITELY READY.
I THINK WE'RE ALL READY.
SO WE'RE GONNA GO GET INDUCED.
HAVE A COUPLE BABIES.
IT IS...
- HERE, I'LL ZOOM IN ON THE TIME.
- ALMOST 3:00.
- ARE THE PAINS HURTIN'?
- YES.
- THERE SHE GOES AGAIN.
- [deep breathing]
[groans]
- BREATHE. [mimics breathing]
- HOPING EVERYTHING GOES OKAY.
HOPING FOR A VERY HEALTHY DELIVERY.
- CONSIDERING SHE'S PREGNANT WITH TWINS,
IT'S A VERY HIGH-RISK PREGNANCY.
SHE COULD BLEED OUT QUICKLY DURING BIRTH.
THEY'RE TRYING TO HURRY IT UP,
BUT THEY'RE ALSO WAITING TO SEE WHAT RENEE'S BODY DOES.
[overlapped talking]
- MOVE THE CHASSIS. - PUSH, PUSH!
YOU GOT IT! YOU GOT IT! [Renee grunts]
[babies crying]
- SO WE HAVE MR. JASE LOGAN AND MS. ABIGAIL GRACE.
BEING ABLE TO HOLD THE BABIES FOR THE FIRST TIME
WAS AN AMAZING FEELING.
- [laughing]
WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE IT.
I DID CRY LIKE A LITTLE GIRL.
- HI, JASE. - SASHA!
- H-H-HI.
- THIS IS JUST ANOTHER QUICK VISIT, BUT--
- THERE'S M-- LITTLE GIRL, LITTLE BOY.
- HI!
- WHEN I FELT THEM,
I FELT LIKE MY HEART WAS COMPLETELY FULL.
I JUST--MY-- I WAS LIKE, I'M FULL.
I'M DONE, I'M COMPLETE. IT WAS AWE--
- IT WAS COMPLETE. - YEAH, IT WAS AWESOME.
- HE'S ALL BUNDLED UP.
TO SEE THEM, HOLD HIM, AND INTERACT WITH THEM,
IT'S VERY DIFFICULT.
AND, YOU KNOW, I AM SCARED THAT, YOU KNOW,
IF I AM TO CHANGE MY MIND
THAT RANDALL WOULD RESENT ME.
- IF THEY DID DECIDE TO PARENT,
I-I CAN'T EVEN--
- YOU CAN'T EVEN FATHOM. - I CAN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT.
- YEAH.
- IT WOULD JUST BE EMOTIONALLY DEVASTATING.
[indistinct chatter]
- I MEAN, IT'S A LOT TO THINK ABOUT.
AND...
YOU KNOW, WE STILL HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TO THINK
IF THIS IS WHAT WE REALLY WANNA DO.
SO--
- WHEN I LEFT THE HOSPITAL, I WAS STILL CONFUSED.
I'VE HAD HER FOR TEN DAYS.
BUT I HONESTLY DIDN'T MAKE A DECISION
UNTIL THIS MORNING.
- SO WHAT'S UP?
- I GUESS WE'RE CALLING EMILY AND PETE.
- WHY ARE WE CALLING EMILY AND PETE?
- BECAUSE WE'RE GONNA KEEP HER.
- SO YOU'VE DECIDED THAT'S WHAT YOU WANNA DO.
- MM-HMM. - WHY?
- BECAUSE SHE'S MY DAUGHTER.
- AND?
- AND I'M GONNA RAISE HER.
[Alaina fusses]
- SO BASICALLY, THERE'S NO REAL GOOD REASON FOR KEEPING HER.
- I WANNA RAISE HER MYSELF.
- HOW ARE YOU GONNA DO THAT WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A JOB
AND YOU'RE STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL?
- BY GETTING A JOB.
- BUT...
AFTER WE HAD ALREADY HAD EVERYTHING SET
WITH EMILY AND PETE...
THEN YOU JUST DECIDE THAT YOU'RE GONNA KEEP HER.
- I WANNA RAISE HER.
- [deep breath]
[line trilling]
YOU CAN SAY HI.
- HEY, ZAKK.
YOU WANT ME TO PUT YOU ON SPEAKER SO PETE CAN HEAR YOU?
- SURE.
- OKAY, WE'RE BOTH HERE.
- UH, I'LL LET MEGAN TALK TO YOU.
- UM, SO I GUESS WE'RE GONNA KEEP ALAINA.
- OKAY.
OKAY. WE--WE UNDERSTAND.
WE, UM--
- WE APPRECIATE THAT YOU GUYS CONSIDERED US,
AND, UM...
- I'M REALLY SORRY.
- NOTHING FOR YOU TO BE SORRY ABOUT.
- YEAH.
- I FEEL TERRIBLE BECAUSE I KNOW EMILY AND PETE
HAVE INVESTED A LOT EMOTIONALLY AND EVERYTHING INTO THIS,
AND I KNOW THAT IT BREAKS THEIR HEART
THAT I'VE DECIDED TO KEEP HER, AND I WISH THAT IT DIDN'T.
- SO NOW WHAT?
- I CAN GIVE HER A GOOD LIFE.
I MEAN, IF I CAN GIVE HER A GOOD LIFE,
THEN WHY CAN'T I DO IT?
- THE MAIN THING THAT I WOULD WANT ALAINA
TO KNOW IN THE FUTURE IS JUST
I WANTED WHAT I BELIEVED WAS BEST FOR HER
WITH THE ADOPTION.
I JUST THOUGHT THAT SHE WOULD HAVE A MUCH BETTER LIFE
WITH THE ADOPTION.
BUT EVEN IF I AM IN THE MILITARY
AND I'M GONE AND MEGAN STAYS HERE,
I STILL WANNA BE IN ALAINA'S LIFE
AS MUCH AS I CAN.
THERE'S JUST A LOT OF FRUSTRATION RIGHT NOW.
I JUST GOT A LOT OF THOUGHTS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD.
- I KNOW THAT RAISING ALAINA ISN'T GONNA BE ALL EASY.
BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE I HAVE THE SUPPORT FROM MY FAMILY
AND I FEEL LIKE I CAN DO IT.
I'D DO ANYTHING FOR HER.
I JUST CAN'T IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT HER.
- SIGNING THIS, THIS IS A REALLY BIG DEAL.
YOU NEED TO KNOW THAT THIS IS THE DECISION YOU WANNA MAKE,
THAT YOU HONESTLY BELIEVE THAT THIS IS THE DECISION
THAT'S BEST FOR YOU AND BEST FOR THE BABIES.
- YOU GOT EVERYTHING FIGURED OUT?
- YES, MA'AM.
- RENEE AND RANDALL SIGN
THE OFFICIAL CONSENT DOCUMENTS TOMORROW.
SO WE'RE--WE'RE HOPEFUL.
- THEY'VE BEEN WAITING A LONG TIME
FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY.
- HOW ARE YOU? - GOOD.
- IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU GUYS. HOW YOU FEELING?
- AWESOME. - GOOD?
- AMAZING. A LOT BETTER.
- SIGNING THIS, THIS IS A REALLY BIG DEAL.
YOU NEED TO KNOW THAT THIS IS THE DECISION YOU WANNA MAKE,
THAT YOU HONESTLY BELIEVE THAT THIS IS THE DECISION
THAT'S BEST FOR YOU AND BEST FOR THE BABIES.
"I HEREBY VOLUNTEER AND UNCONDITIONALLY CONSENT
"TO THE ADOPTION OF THE ABOVE NAMED CHILD.
"I UNDERSTAND THAT BY SIGNING THIS CONSENT,
"I INDICATE MY INTENT TO PERMANENTLY GIVE UP
"ALL RIGHTS TO SAID CHILD.
"I'VE READ AND UNDERSTAND THE ABOVE
AND I AM SIGNING IT AS A FREE AND VOLUNTARY ACT."
OKAY.
SO IF YOU GRAB YOUR PEN...
OKAY.
YOU'RE GOING TO FILL IN THE FOLLOWING INFORMATION FOR ME.
- THIS IS ONE IN A MILLION, YOU KNOW?
YOU DON'T ALWAYS FIND AN ADOPTIVE COUPLE
THAT ACTUALLY LETS YOU INTO THEIR FAMILY,
THAT ACTUALLY WANTS YOU TO BE A PART OF THAT FAMILY,
AND JUST, YOU KNOW, EXPAND THEIR FAMILY.
AND TO HAVE THAT IS DEFINITELY AN AMAZING FEELING.
WHEN I WOKE UP, I LOOK AT THE CELL PHONE
AND THERE IS FIVE MESSAGES FROM SASHA AND CHRIS--
ALL PICTURES OF THE BABIES.
- THAT'S SO NICE.
- IT'S LIKE I THINK I JUST GOT PROOF
THAT I'M NOT GONNA HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT NOT GETTING PICTURES.
[laughs]
MOST PEOPLE, IT WOULD BE HARD
TO SIGN THOSE FINALIZATION PAPERS.
UM, BUT FOR ME, I KNOW THAT I'M COMPLETING A FAMILY.
I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE I'VE GIVEN CHRIS AND SASHA
THE GIFT OF A LIFETIME.
- 2013.
- RENEE AND RANDALL HAVE BLESSED US
WITH, UM, THESE TWO BEAUTIFUL ANGELS.
I WOULD REALLY WANT THEM TO KNOW THAT
YOU'RE A PART OF OUR FAMILY NOW.
- IT'S JUST, UM--
WE'RE JUST SO-- SO HAPPY.
SHE'S BLESSED US WITH SOMETHING WE COULD NEVER HAVE,
AND THE WORDS "THANK YOU"
DON'T EVEN BEGIN TO SAY WHAT WE FEEL.
WE LOVE THESE BABIES, WE LOVE THEM.
AND THEY'VE REALLY TRULY, TRULY BLESSED US
AND CHANGED OUR LIVES.
- SINCE I DECIDED
TO KEEP ALAINA,
MY PARENTS ARE BEING
VERY SUPPORTIVE.
MY MOM HELPS ME A LOT WITH ALAINA.
AND ZAKK IS DEFINITELY BEING HELPFUL ALSO,
AND HE SEES ALAINA A LOT.
RIGHT NOW, I'M LOOKING FOR A JOB,
AND I'M GONNA JOIN THE ARMY RESERVES.
I DON'T REGRET MY DECISION AT ALL.
BUT I DO THINK THAT IT'S A BIT HARDER
THAN I EXPECTED IT TO BE.
I HOPE THAT I CAN JUST BE THE BEST MOM FOR HER.
- HEY, IT'S RENEE.
UM, IT'S BEEN...
GOING ON THREE WEEKS SINCE THE BABIES HAVE BEEN BORN.
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN GREAT SO FAR.
I MEAN, I PLAN TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL
AND START WORKING ON MY NURSING DEGREE.
I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR THAT.
AS FAR AS THE OPENNESS WITH THE ADOPTION,
IT SEEMS LIKE SASHA SENDS US PICTURES ALL DAY EVERY DAY,
WHICH IS AWESOME.
I LOVE BEING ABLE TO SEE THE BABIES
IN THEIR NEW OUTFITS.