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we are always discussing
the same subject
I feel the most important discussion
most important exploration
any intelligent human being can make
but you have to be ready for it actually
because I don't feel that such a thing
should be forced
we've already seen the effect of
force
or aggression
but for the discovery of truth
you have to come with your own heart
someone can not come for you
you have to come for your own self
because
in the same way
that no one can see for you
or experience for you
for this you have to
be at the centre of your own experiencing
so that whatever you discover
becomes your own authority
not what you've heard from your parents or from other beings
but what you are clearly seeing and understanding for your own self
and the subject we are talking about
is our own self, our real nature
and to explore and to find out
if what we have been conditioned to believe is our self
is true
is completely true
or
if another reality
something far more
beautiful
and complete
is here to be discovered
so I'll begin to share for my own experience with you
being brought up also with conditioning like every single being
even a Buddha or Christ
would have been brought up in an environment where there is conditioning
nobody is exempt from that
and it seems our conditioning
or education is so deep
that for some people it feels completely impossible
to change from the influence of how we are brought up
but because as I've discovered
that which is
what is the deepest truth inside
is not bound by culture
or fantasy
it is something completely fresh
and can never be imprisoned
it can only be somehow disguised or
eclipsed
or covered up
by a layer of ignorance
and this is why Satsangs, which means gatherings like this
where people come to explore
into this subject
is really an oasis for
those beings who are searching
who have a sense, that life
as I have been conditioned to perceive it
can not be the truth in this way
and for whatever reason there is an urge inside to look more deeply
whatever calls you
where it might seem like an accident
or deliberate search
whatever calls you
will continue to support your discovery
I don't want to talk so much about this
because
if I where to talk only about, discussing it and explaining
you would not discover
discovering is something entirely different
it's not just about learning something
some new informations, not about learning information
but about coming to a direct experience
a recognition inside yourself
which is beyond doubt
sometimes in this type of environment
lots of resistance come up
lots of fears
doubts
agitation
it can even for some people feel suffocating
and why should that be ?
because as soon a genuine
opportunity
to find our true self comes to light
lots of what is not true in us also comes up
in fierce resistance
as though there is some power inside us
that doesn't want to discover the truth
has a lot of resistance
it has a sense of itself as being autonomous and free
and whatever
and so it is as though there is a power inside us
whose mission it seem
is to keep our attention and our mind
fixated only on our physical existence
so you only stay within the
narrow field of conditioning
and we can continue like this
because some say we've been like this not only for many years
but even lifetimes
only changing bodies
but I don't want to put that in front of you right now
what I want to speak about is
the real opportunity to
come into that discovery
and to know for yourself
perhaps in the most direct and beautiful way
to begin to feel and blossom
inside the joy
that you are not able to find externally
I will leave this talk for now ...