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Important letter from a child to his parents
by Michael Habib
Dear Mom, and Dear Dad, Why have chosen to write you a letter
The reason is quite simple the subject on the other hand
pretty difficult to talk about in person
I came to the point in my life where I felt the need to share secrets with you
that is becoming very heavy to carry
I wish to share it with you
because you are the ones whom with so much love
have decided to bring to the world
the fruit of this love
I thank you
and I thank our Lord
to have given me the gift of life
I'm aware that this might be hard to accept
but I remain confident
that as parents
you will have an opportunity confirming to God
what he expects of all human beings
the fact that he created beings of love capable of unconditional love
I'm proud to be a part of those people
and I do believe in that type of love
especially that type of unconditional love a parent commits himself to
when deciding to bring a child into this world
I myself had a hard time admitting to myself what I'm about to reveal to you
but I feel a great need to do so since you're my parents
and you have a right to know your child into the far reaches of his being
A few years ago I was listening to my friends talk about boys and girls
romantic relationships sexuality
That triggered an inner search of my own person
of what I really wanted for my life. I was so confused.
I had a strong *** attraction towards one side
but the voices in my head kept telling me not to go that direction
by fear of hurting or offending the people who love me
so
I tried denying that part of myself but doing so..
I was denying myself
denying my feelings, denying my needs, my own heart
this created blockages preventing love from circulating
towards myself and automatically towards others
inside of me there were no feeling
of love
no freedom to be my no joy to live
There was only fear, only shame, only anger
only sadness, all leading to a suffering of my soul
this unbearable sufferance eventually led me to three choices
the first one being what I thought at the time as an easy way out
putting an end to my life
The second involved to live for others
which would mean forget about myself, forget who I am
forget my needs
forget my heart
forget about love
and accept to live in the dark for the rest
of my days. The third one
was to embrace the path of self love the path of my heart
to live in peace, love
and harmony first with myself and naturally
with others
I've decided to take this risk of revealing that aspect of my personality
called homosexuality with which I'll have to learn to live
with or without my parents' support
I've taken the decision to face my fears
hoping that you'll make the proper efforts not to judge me on that small part of my being
remember that this part is only my personal sexuality. It is not my total being.
In your eyes I'd like to remain the child
that you always loved
Mom, Dad, there's no need to blame yourselves
or feel that you've failed your role as a parent thinking that it might be your fault if
I'm this way.
Homosexuality has nothing to do with the way in which a parent raises his child.
Being homosexual oriented is not a disease
it's not a sin, not a punishment from God
and it is certainly not a decision
You most probably have your own beliefs regarding homosexuality
and believe me I respect them. I'm also hoping that you won't attempt to
change me
or to take me to see a shrink thinking that he might be able to
"cure me"
I am who I am and I love myself
for who I am
don't questions yourself too much
this is simply one of the different realities in this world that pushes us
to grow
and evolve as loving human beings
We have two choices here
We can either remain under fear's influence by refusing to make an effort
and to take action or we can move forward
under love's influence by accepting our own self-growth
our desire to evolve and embrace change
you can either choose to keep negative beleifs based on fear
that are most often taught by society and religions or..
you could allow yourself
to make your own positive beliefs by listening to the voice of truth
which is located in same place you can hear God whispering to you..
...in your own heart
There's an author
of the name Jonathan Swift who wrote
we have just enough religions to make us hate
criticize and judge each other but we do not have enough spirituality
to help us love and accept one another
without any conditions
So, Dad, Mom here you go
you now know that I'm homosexual
it's now up to you to love me
or to reject me
but as far as i'm concerned, I will no longer need to drag this heavy burden with me
Regardless your decision...
I want you to know that with always consider you as my parents
and myself
as your child
I hope with all of my heart that this challenge brought by
life
will lead us towards stronger bonds which in this way forms
a family. I love you Mom
and I love you Dad