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Hey guys, my name is Ky. I'm one of the collaborators for the "Begin Transmission" youtube collab
channel.
Uh... I'm 31 years old, my family is of Hispanic descent, directly from Spain. I grew up in
a small island called Puerto Rico, which is an American Territory.
I've been living in the America for the last 20 years.
And I identify as a transman, well... I identify as a Man, I just happen to be a transman,
because I was born a woman.
I'd rather not have a label, uh... the, while I do fit into the binary, in my own perception,
uh... I'm not a big fan of the binary, heh. ... for many
reasons.
I'm currently not dating anyone, but I've dated men primarily throughout my life. There
was a period of about 7 years...? where I claimed to be a
lesbian. But... I dated maybe four girls, if you count "a couple
dates" as dating.
To this day I would qualify as a "Gold star gay" because I've never had sex with a girl.
So there you go.
I live on the east coast, near Washington DC, and I've been out for a couple of years,
but I am only now starting my chemical and medical transition.
The way I came to realize I was a man who likes men... is a little bit complicated.
I wasn't only just "someone who liked men", but my puberty was kind of late, and I really
didn't want to think about attraction, because that would
mean dealing with the fact that I didn't feel comfortable in my
body.
So when I was 16 I feigned attraction to men as a way of trying to fit in, but I didn't
start dating until much later though I did start uh... *awkward
chuckle*... so I started hanging out online when I was in my
mid-teens, and I started... uh.. "cybersexing" with men when I was very young.
People get offended when I say how young I was so I won't say it.
But, that's how I first discovered sexuality. Um, through the internet.
And, in fact, I've tried every variation of coupling that exists. As a man with men, as
a man with women, as a woman with men, as a woman with women.
And, the only way that I felt I was able to feel fully immersed in the experience and
actually enjoyed it was if myself and my partner were men.
My attraction to men was dominant, but in order to figure out...
there was a long journey of self-discovery where I tried a lot of different things, not
just varied sex couplings, um, and the only way that it worked
where I enjoyed the interaction and kept seeking the
interaction, was when I was a man and my partner was a man.
So, all of the long term relationships that I've had have been with men under the guise
that I was also a man.
I've dated a few people, uh, using the pretense of femininity, and they were always men. And
it just never felt right.
So... after many years of telling myself that I was just pretending to be a
man, um I, I honestly stopped putting aside that idea, that notion
that I was actually a man and just pretending, cuz that was the
only thing I liked...
And that's kind of how I came to the realization that I was male, much later than I realized
that I was into men.
I, I don't like the term "Gay", and the reason that I don't like the term "Gay" is because
we really shouldn't be denoting, or using titles as
a way of separating ourselves from each other.
Uh, Now that DOMA has gone away, and "gays" are allowed to get married in many states,
I don't see any reason why we should continue to say "Straight
couple" or "Gay couple".
We should just be couples. People who love each other.
Um, I don't think the need to create even an invisible barrier between couples should
matter, I don't think it should be there.
I've stopped using the term gay when I identify myself, even though I do use that term when
speaking to other people, when I don't want to go into
the whole story.
Um, I'm attracted to masculinity, in its myriad forms of expression.
Feminine masculinity, butch masculinity, you know... I find butch masculine women attractive,
in a weird way.
Even though I probably couldn't date them. *chuckle*
So, my attraction is to people who have masculine traits (regardless of gender).
[This is a postgender way of thinking, which is not the norm...