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What's going on? You're on the mic with Cdot. I'm very happy you could make it out to watch
this video. Hopefully, I could give a lifelong source of value. Um, I have to express, this
moment in my life with you, most importantly, because I've been taking a lot of advice(s)
from the studies that, you know, I've been practicing. And, I must say that for the first
time in my life I'm realizing the importance of celebrating... Literally, celebrating even
the smallest successes you have. Excuse me. I'm seeing the importance of celebrating the
most smallest [from the smallest to the biggest] successes you've ever have (had). Like, you
have to celebrate your successes, because well, it boost... it gives you a boost of
confidence, and even though, I'm broadcasting this video to share my moment of success with
you and it is giving me confidence, I am still in a small realm of discomfort, because this
is definitely something I've never done before. I mean, my name is Cdot! You know what I mean?
And, how did I become the person that I am today? Well, first of all my background I
use to be a very very very angry kid; for a lot of very obvious reasons that many people
who are close to me this day, think they know the why(s) and how(s) to my anger, but the
reality is they never understood the real truth. I look at the lives of these individuals
that describe my source of anger, and that explains it all.'m not saying they are ignorant,
but I am saying they don't have the education that take to understand that of an angry kid;
especially a kid in my circumstance. The majority of the people that call themselves having
the ability to understand, let alone, explain myself as a kid were primarily women. And,
women that has inspired me throughout my life. However, when they explain it, they only touch
the surface. The only way you can understand beneath the surface and then have the ability
to explain that of an angry kid is if you've literally studied it. Or, you've literally
experienced um, or if you've literally experienced growing up as a young boy in those specific
situations, and type of lifestyle growing up in that environment. Studied and experienced.
Make sense. So I have received a privileged.... I've received the honor to reflect on how
much I've been through, how much I've accomplished, where I am in my life; I have deserved this
moment to express with you My Moment of Success, and once again, my level of discomfort come
from me actually explaining it! NOw the reason why I'm obliging myself to express my successes
is not in the name of boosting my confidence, although, that is the ultimate result that
I've just so happen to feel. I mean, my teachers, my mentors, my leaders "only" explains the
result, (chuckle) of expressing my success, but for them to explain it to me, and understand
it through explanation is something totally different than actually feeling it; let alone,
feeling the experience for the first time! And, the uncomfortable part comes with what
I've just explained.... I'm Cdot! Nahm saying? We come from the hood. We don't explain our
success and feel confident about it. Nah, not unless its involving... In my nature,
typical things, such as not unless it's involving comparing yourself with someone else, or comparing
yourself with what you have verses what someone else don't have or what you can do.... It's
always competition in terms of explaining someone's or someone's self-success. So, [or]
in my specific case, I very good at explaining myself through rhymes.I've told you in the
most recent video, maybe my 29th or 30th video that, um, I kind of lost my train of thought,
because I just really focused on exactly what my point for this video is, so I'm just going
to jump right into it. Um, this may or may not mean anything to you, but it's awesome
to me! Now, right now you are watching my 31st video and that's a hell of an accomplishment
in it of itself. I've never done videos in my life. If so, somebody else recorded me,
I can care less abut being in front of a camera. Cameras were never really my forte, even though,
I knew with what I loved to do and what I would love to have master would involve myself
being on film, one way or another. So, Over the past thirty video IU've adapted. I'm still
learning to become comfortable in front of a camera eve right now as we speak. However,
there's a reason why I have more swag 31 videos later. There's a reason why I have more swag
in my videos 31 videos in! And the method to my madness with that is just simple, "simple,"
perseverance. And really, I can unquote the word 'simple,' and say simple perseverance.
GO back to my very first video. I don't know the name of it, but you'll see me wearing
all red fitted, for the most part, and a all red shirt sitting there like this, my hat,
yahm saying, like this, I'm rocking my hat like this, and the camera is facing up on
my face, and then you watch that, you might, uh you might see me in another video wearing
a grey ha, a grey fitted, kind of cocked backwards. I think somewhat like this, I cant remember
exactly how I was rocking my hat, I just through on my head. In fact I think I was rocking
it like this, nahm saying, you'll see in the grey fitted. You compare my first few videos.
Go to my third, fourth.... Go to my seventh video. Really! Watch me in my seventh video,
sixth video, fifth video, right? And the you go to my 30th video, which the one before
this one, right now as we speak. I have not put a title on it yet, but my last two videos
were pretty much one and the same. My 29th and my 30th. In my 29th video I'm wearing
a grey shirt, um, in this setting... I ain't talking about my most recent video. I'm wearing
the exact shirt,maybe like a.... I don't know, maybe like a month in half ago. I ain't talking
about that; in a darker atmosphere. I'm talking about you'll see a white wall, all white wall,
behind me right here in this setting, an I'm wearing a grey shirt with a Nike swoosh on
my left shoulder. That video, my 29th and my 30th video. and you will notice a magical...
a magical difference. If you've been following my videos you already know where I stand in
terms of how much I study, why I study. You know that the majority of the things I do,
if not, EVERYTHING I do has a specific purpose to it. Excuse me. Oh yea! MMMMM. Got to love
it baby. That's not orange juice this time, that's coolaid. Cooool Aiiiid. Any who! So,
as I was saying, I don't remember, but Ido remember my point. My success is simply this,
it has everything to do wit. I really... I'm going to do my best to explain this, but it
has everything to with me realizing the difference in how I communicate,what my posture looking
like,my train of thought. That says a lot. That says a lot to you, subconsciously, if
not, consciously. Definitely, subconsciously. And, right now as we speak, realizing how wonderful it is to acknowledge my growth
for the first time, sobering. This means a lot. This means,if you've been following me,
you are proud of me. If you've been following my videos, and realizing my growth, you can
trust me. You realize, I mean exactly what I say. You realize that IU'm still human and
you realize that I'm still real, and you realize that I'm not being penetrated my nothing,
and no one, and you realize that I don't got time to fail. I face temporary defeats, now
I only have time to learn from my mistakes, and you realize that I'm not afraid to grow
from my mistakes. So, if I'm not afraid to grow from my mistakes the I should not be
afraid to express my successes. Nahm mean? I'm proud of myself! I'm happy! You know my
story, you know where I came from. I use to work at McDonalds working 6 in half-
$6.30-$6.35 an hour.