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I was born on January 19th, 1986 under the sign of Aquarious
A very cold night
Mom said
My parents were young and homeless but they faced their future
they owned anything, just their lives
and a little babyboy in their arms
that boy was me
My parents worked hard for they could have a better life
Me? I didn't know anything abut life
I was so introvertive and shy
it was hard for me to express my feelings
nor say my concerns
Since young I always knew I wasn't a kid
as "normal" as the others
rather...
I never considered myself a boy; actually, I used to behave like a girl
the girl I always wanted to be
that's the right time when I realized there was something wrong in me
nobody told me so
just the bad smacking my dad used to try to correct me
he humilliated me and told me words that I still hate and I can't forget
I was afraid of my parents
but I was more afraid of my dad who was strong and whose
beating and insulting made me hide the girl within
then I knew that something was wrong
and, for my dad to stop beating me,
I had to behave the way my body dictated: Like a boy
Even though I never found myself in him
I had to do what they asked
just because they said so
no explanations
I always had to deal against the girl within
but she wanted to come out
so I repressed her and even hated her
I just let her out
when I was home alone
I had confidants who knew the real me
such as my next-door cousins
they, with their innoncence,
were able to see the girl in me, played with her and even loved her
that was my little, personal world: my cousins and my loneliness
I grew up under the command of a moral society
and under the command of my parents
and even the hardest I tried to hide my secret
I never succeeded
people bruited, but they kept on silence
I met my best friend, Habid, who was like my superhero
he was always next to me
protecting me and looking after me. He was nice and also, the first boy I fell for secretly
I always named her as my best friend, but the girl within was really in love with him
Time passed away
the girl grew up more and more inside of me
but I always dealed with her for not coming out
it was a strong fight
between her and the boy I had to be. It never worked
at college, rumors were more constant and, finally, my friend stopped talking to me because of what people said
I got under depression during my teen years, feeling guilty for my friend's desertion
At home, things got worse
My parents lived under a constant fight and working pressure all the time
my siblings were young and they couldn't understand me, so I just stayed alone
I just didn't want my father to hurt me again
I took the decision of going out of home, so college was the best excuse for doing so
I moved to Queretaro, where no-one knew me and I could behave as myself
not hiding at all
I used to think that, if I was a boy and I liked boys
then I was gay; and I started to play my role of a gay boy
it felt so good to tell everyone
that I liked boys
My friends never judged me and they always supported me
Sadly, my parents didn't do so and they kicked me out of home
it was so hard to face life by my own when I was still under-aged
I gained freedom
I experienced it
I enjoyed it
but I also cried and suffered along the way.
I grew up
Thank to the family I chose, my friends
my real friends
nevertheless
the girl within was always with me, who had already turned into a woman
and, even when my gay life made me happy
there was always something that didn't match at all
gay boys rejected me because I was too girly for them
then I realized again that there was still something wrong with me
but it was never tough for me
I always thought that, being me will make me unique and special and that's how I lived
Time passed by
my parents and me made it up
after living a crazy life
I thought it was time to come back home
my parents never accepted me
but they respected me at least
I got into college again back in Hidalgo
Querétaro stayed in my mind
I met new friends who joined my angels army with those old friends
I had the chance to travel to South Korea
and my life changed at all. I met three angels that changed my life completely.
Alex, Lien and Jorge became one of the best friends I've ever known.
Jorge and had a talk when we were in Busan
a rainy night when we went out clubbing but didn't had fun. But I learnt something
I grew up because of his words
whose made me think and question me, then discover me
I came back to Mexico and I knew more of me
I realized that there's a woman within myself
and that she can't stay locked inside anymore
I accepted myself as transexual, as the girl I've always known I''ve been but never had the guts to live like
Now, I'm not Imanol anymore, the best theater role I've played
Now it's time for the actress to be real
who got the greatest award but now it's her time to be herself: a woman
A woman named Mia... Mia Karenina
Hey guys! This is Mia
and well... the reason of the video
as you guys know
it is to make videos
once in a week
or each two weeks
so we know about each other
and
you know me better
and...
know more about my life
the topic is... well...
as I said at the beginning
the purpose of the video is that you know more about transsexualism
and also, about me, being a ***
my transition from a boy into a girl
and...
and everything related to it, the ups and downs related to
transsexualism
I decided to do so, because
when I first started, I had no-one
to help me out
and little by little I started
doing my research, more and more
and well, now that I know a little more I decided
to do this kind of videos to help
girls like me
male-to-female girls
because the main of the time, it's so hard to find information, not even in the Internet
and well...
when I first started, I didn't know anything
not even like...
how it is about
and, well, Now that I am not
so ignorant about it
I hope these videos may help to the girls like me
and... not only transsexualism stuff but I also want to talk about
other things that I love
girly stuff such as
beauty tips, nails
make up, celebrities, movies, books
whatever the topic you like and suggest be
because, well...
I don't it to be focused on
just transsexualism like saying
I'm someone uncommon
I wanna go furthermore
because I wanna get the attention of, not only transgirls
but also
gay, bisexual, heterosexuals, boys, girls, etc
and...
first of all, I want to explain...
as you have already seen in the video, I was born a boy and I still am legally a boy
to sum-up... I moved to South Korea
and well
when I came back to Mexico
I rediscovered myself as a human being
and I realized that
I am not gay, but ***
and I know that
many guys, mostly my friends may be like
"once you told us that, above your manners, you accepted yourself as a boy...
as a gay boy" and well, yes, one day I said so
but... that time...
I didn't know myself so well
Now I am sure to say that I was born a boy, but I really am a woman
I wanna experience all the process
this takes
so I can be the real person I've always been...
a girl... and
this makes me very, very happy, and well...
my hair is so short by now but today that I was putting on my hair extensions...
and putting on my make-up...
doing my nails...
I notice that this really makes me happy
and I know some guys may take this good, some other bad but
I'll just keep the people that takes this good
with these people that accepts me and loves me the way I am
those who accepts my happiness...
this is my happiness...
being a woman...
and this doesn't mean like
well...
like today I'm looking like a girl and tomorrow I'm gonna switch into a boy...
now...because of the life I have, I can't be a girl fulltime
but I'm improving it
so I learn more about what it's like
but
as soon as possible
I'm going to be a full-time woman
because
a person that switches from boy to girl from time to time
for any purpose is a crossdresser
and I am not a crossdresser. I wanna be a woman
because I am a woman within
because it's true, because I feel it, I like it and this is my happiness
and well... in the next video
next week I'm gonna explain you guys
what a *** really is, also a transsegender...
what is a crossdresser
what is a gay, etc
many concepts that we usually
are not familiar to them, concepts that I can't
even understand by myself
and well...
this video is for all the people that know me
even more to my friends, that's why I decided doing this video
because many of you guys may be wondering what I am doing
when I put on my make up...
or do my nails...
and so on...
and well... this is why :)
because, as I have been saying
since the very first time I was born, I have identified myself as a girl
and I always wanted to be like them
and I knew there was a girl within me
and now that
life gives me the chance of knowing the real me
I have realized that I really am a woman and that
I want to live my life as the girl
I always wanted to be
all this stuff involves sex-reasignment, etc
I wanna do that
there are people that doesn't wanna do so, but I do
and well... basically this is me
with pros and cons
and I hope you like it
you can keep on watching my videos, you can
comment down on the tabs
about...
what you guys want to talk
I have already put the topic for the next video
the next video's topic's gonna be like...
all the different...
the different kinds related
to sexuality
such as transsexualism, transgenderism
crossdressing, gay, lesbian, pansexualism, intersexualism, etc
so that's gonna be the topic for next week
now this video is my
introducing video so you can know more about me
as you can see, this camera is not an HD one
because I record with my laptop camera
but
little by little we will be improving this as good as you require
I am so open to your concerning, reviews...
feedback
positive and negative
I don't bother
and well... I want you guys to know that you can count on me, your friend Mia
Now I'm Mia, I used to be Imanol
But now I am Mia Karenina
I don't like being named Karen. You can call me Mia, Nina or even Karenina
but not just Karen
and well... that's all I guess
Hope you like it
hope you post comments
hope you give thumb up on my video
and tell me what you wanna talk about
this upcoming video
I am open to you guys
at the end of the video there's the contact with me
so you can tell me anything that may concern you, questions, etc
and if you wanna know wether about me
or the *** comunity in general, or even doubts such as
how a transexual is
or "do you know how can I take off my fake nails" or "do you know how to do smoky eyes"
or "do you know how did the soap opera end today?" Lol
I am super open to hear all about you
and well...
this is it, I am Mia and I hope you have enjoyed it, see you soon!
byebye!