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Forest: What's something that seems really easy for everybody else
Forest: but for you, is just a little extra
Forest: because you're transgender.
Ellie: Adjusting your junk in public.
I wonder if the trans-women that fidget with their *** a lot
are also the same women that
before they transitioned
adjusted their junk in public.
Seriously.
Understanding my *** orientation
that's something that's something that's been complicated by being trans
and I don't mean just
am I straight or gay or what am I?
because that's really quite easy
especially in my case since my attraction to people
isn't really genital dependant in the first place.
more along, how they see me.
so.. being attracted to people that see you as something that's totally different from how you see yourself
There are some really cute, wonderful guys that..
Well, one guy.
I think, it really could have been something special
when I was younger
but
I don't...
pre-transition
There you go.
nothing else needs to be said.
People are always worried about their motives for being with a person
but when your trans there's also the..
Some MTF's for example
may have the added complication of wondering
are they attracted to guys?
or are they just attracted to..
having.. arms around them that make them feel
more feminine
or
be.. the way that they're treated.
And then there's the confusion of being
with a female.
(for.. an MTF)
Sometimes there's
certain activities
that you get involved in
and you end up in positions that are not particularly feminine.
and
and you wonder
Am I using my partner?
Visualizing being them..
Do you want to be with them, as much as you want to be them?
It's all.. a whole lot of..
questioning..
But that's relationships in general.
There's always questions.
And trans people just have different ones.
Sometimes.
This is where all the trans-people say "Shut your mouth!"
"You're telling too much!"
Because, I think it's a question we're not really supposed to answer
because it's [sing song style] Nobodies damn business.
And, it's not.
but
It's the answer to the question.
Sex.. sex.. sex.
Sex is.. complicated..
Sex can be a little complicated when you're trans.
MTF and FTM probably both feel that same..
I don't know how we feel it.
How do we feel the..the..
the need for certain sensations that are not anatomically equipped to ever..
to actually.. to feel.
How can we miss it if we've never had it?
but
we certainly do.
We certainly have ways around it for both FTM and MTFs.
.. and then there's surgeries.
But how many of us actually got to experience our first time
the way we really should have experienced it?
or..
You know, it's prom time here.
I hate prom time.
And I was at a hair salon..
prom weekend.
What was I thinking? I totally forgot.
And everyone's in there doing their this and their that.
I didn't do my prom the way I should have.
I think proms are probably compl...
Proms *were* complicated for trans-people
back in.. the day.
I hope they're not so much now, but, I don't know
I think they still are in a lot of places.
And apparently: Being Married
Yeah, that can be a little more complicated sometimes..
when you're trans
But usually not
I mean, really, what's there to get used to?
I'd think about more but.. I got a new webcam
and.. I don't like this HD thing.
You can see everything.
And I've got the settings cranked way down.
I kinda miss my old blurry one.