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I don't know anyone in particular who I can write this to...
So I let the Wind carry this letter to someone...
Or perhaps even bury it in the sand...
I am standing at the tallest place I could find...
Seconds away from freefall...
Head facing the ground!
Outcast on a cold night...
I am unable to feel anything but an awful helpless numbness...
I look down into the Warm, Earthy World...
Into a nest of lover's beds, baby-cribs, meal tables...
All the solid commerce of Life in this Earth...
And feel sorely apart...
Enclosed in a wall of glass...
I want to kill myself...
To crawl back abjectly into the womb...
I looked around where I found it...
No clue where it came from...
The letter struck me...
The human brain is a strange thing...
And when something strikes deep and hard into it...
It'll manifest itself as an obsession...
In whatever form... For whatever reason...
I slowly began to feel...
He was right...
There's something more elusive to Life...
Than the succesion of shapes, we see frozen into matter...
My Life slowly became uneventful, eccentric and reclusive...
Isolation and preoccupation with death...
Led to a deep fascination towards it...
While I will exit this reality...
My consciousness will always be in the present...
Balanced between the infinite past, and the indefinite future...
Moving intermittently between realities, along the edge of time...
Having new adventures and meeting new, and rejoining old friends...
When I rested...
I would think more and more inward...
And go mad...
So I tried to keep myself pre-occupied, with my new found obsession...
Suicide...
Maybe in one, the effect of despair...
In one of madness...
In one of fear...
Or in one of magnanimity...
Mine is in one of ardent curiosity...
To know the Wonders of the other World...
As I learnt more and more about it...
I was drawn to it...
Like moth, to an electric bulb...
Life is just an interlude...
In a melody so vast and eternal...
That human ears can't appreciate the tonal range of symphony...
Death is a reboot...
That unveils infinite possibilities...
While reality encompasses just one...
And it is these possibilities...
That I go looking for...