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This is a song sung by Bhaktivinoda Thakura in Vaisnava humbleness. A Vaisnava is always
meek and humble. So he is describing the life of the people in general, taking himself to
be one of them. The people in general are like the description given here. He says that
"My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find
even a trace of pious activities. Only full of sinful activities. And I am always inclined
to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others
are suffering, and I enjoy.'' Nija sukha lagi' pape nahi dori. "For my personal sense gratification,
I do not care for any sinful activities. That means I accept any kind of sinful activity
if it is satisfactory to my senses.'' Daya-hina swartha-paro. "I am not at all merciful, and
only I see to my personal interest.'' Para-sukhe duhkhi. "As such, when others are suffering
I become very happy, and always talking lies,'' sada mithya-bhasi. "Even for ordinary things
I am accustomed to speak lies.'' Para-duhkha sukha-karo. "And if one is suffering, that
is very pleasant to me.'' Asesa kamana hrdi majhe mora. "I have got lots of desire within
my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride.''
Mada-matta sada visaye mohita. "I am captivated in subject matters of sense gratification,
and almost I am crazy.'' Himsa-garva vibhusana. "My ornaments are enviousness and false pride.''
Nidralasya hata sukarje birata. "I am subdued, or I am conquered by sleep and laziness,''
sukarje birata, "and I am always averse to pious activities,'' akarje udyogi ami, "and
I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities.'' Pratistha lagiya sathya-acarana,
"I always cheat others for my prestige.'' Lobha-hata sada kami, "I am conquered by greediness
and always ***.'' E heno durjana saj-jana-barjita, "So I am so fallen, and I have no association
of devotees.'' Aparadhi, "Offender,'' nirantara, "always.'' Subha-karja-sunya, "In my life,
there is not a beat of auspicious activities,'' sadanartha manah, "and my mind is always attracted
by something mischievous.'' Nana duhkhe jara jara. "Therefore at the *** end of my life,
I am almost invalid by all such sufferings.'' Bardhakye ekhona upaya-vihina, "In my old age I have
no other alternative now,'' ta 'te dina akincana, "therefore by force, I have now become very
humble and meek.'' Bhaktivinoda prabhura carane, "Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his
statement of life's activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord."