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My name is dianne sherman and
I want to share information about my near-death experience
which happened in 1981 and
in 1981 I had gone into the hospital to
have an arthroscopic procedure on my left knee
and it was a very sort of straightforward
experience
not life threatening in any way not challenging in any way
and
I had no fear or anxiety about having the experience.
When I went in that day I was very hopeful that the outcome would be
straightforward and wonderful and I had waited 10 years to have the experience
since I'd had an accident and so I remember
being in the hallway that morning on the
gourney waiting to go into surgery
and really being cold
just racking with cold and I've since
understood that experience on a different level but at the time
I had had a pre-op shot but i wasnt in surgery
yet and I remember going into this surgery suite and
one of the nurses was kind enough to give me this wonderful warm blanket
and that seemed to calm my body down and
I just went out before
I went under I was already gone and
I remember waking up
in recovery and there was a lot of commotion going on
in the bed next to me
in recovery and I was sort of curious as to what was going on with the person next to me
but I kind of didn't want to know but did wanna know at the same time
and as I'm looking over at
them I'm seeing the doctors and nurses working on this
person. I'm thinking "Wow there's
a lot going on here" kinda
wondering what it is but it's a curiosity that had no
energy to it it was just
something that someone was experiencing and
it was outside of my realm
but because they were so close I was paying attention
and I was watching them moving back and forth and around this person who was to my
left
and I heard one of them speaking
to the patient and saying their name
and I realized they were talking about me
and I thought "We'll this is so strange how can this possibly be
them talking about me when I'm right here?"
and so now I'm
really kind of curious and I'm saying to
who's ever standing closest to me "Excuse me
I heard my name but I'm right here
and I'm fine I don't understand"
and they're not paying any attention to me and I'm thinking "Well, they're
probably involved with what they're doing and so they're not
hearing what I'm saying" and the next thing I realized is that
I have moved now to the foot if this person's bed
and i'm looking dead on at them
while everybody sort of working on this patient
and I realize as I'm looking
at this patient that it's me
and I don't have any fear about it I'm just sort of
not understanding how could that possibly be me
when I'm here but I'm seeing myself there
and I'm watching and I'm paying attention and
the next thing I realize is I'm now floating
up into the corner of
the room and I'm now looking down
on me in this bed with people working on me
and I'm thinking "How curious is this
how can I possibly be viewing myself from this angle
I don't understand what's happening" but yet I didn't have any fear
I didn't have any anxiety I was just sort of
mesmerized by if but not
overwhelmed by it and I'm
in retrospect I'm wondering how the brain, the mind
handles seeing all of this
and not being terrorized by it at the same time
and I wasn't I had no ill feelings and as I was contemplating that and watching
what was going to this person whose directly in front of me
I'm feeling this energy pulling me
out and away from this room
and as I'm moving out I'm seeing this
blackness that I'm now moving towards
and its surrounding everything I can visually see
is just blackness and as a child
I had a lot of fear being in the dark
and not being able to see any street lights are any light in the room at all
and so this was really big for me to see this blackness in front of me and
there were no other ques around that I could find
and I kept feeling this push into this blackness and
I just remember arching felt like arching my body
to kind of try to pull back from it
but it just kept moving me forward
and as I moved forward
I could feel a lightening inside of myself
and I just kept looking and searching in this blackness for something to
hang on to some glint of something
that felt comfortable iand all right
and as I'm sort of straining to see
what there for me to see I see this little tiny
glimmer of light in the distance
and as I'm looking at that glimmer and focusing more and more on it
it starts to grow and as it starts to grow I can't take my attention off of it
because
it's what I'm drawn to now I'm drawn to this little tiny tiny
glimmer thats out there thats growing
and as it grows in starts to encompass
more of this space where the darkness was
I'm feeling this pull pulling me forward
into it. I'm no longer feeling this from behind I'm feeling this
pull from in front of me into
this glimmer of light
and al of a sudden it starts to grow and
everything is illuminated in this light
including me and I'm overwhelmed by
the feeling of being in
this light. It's everything I can see is the light
and the feeling of it and
in that moment as I'm looking the light starts
to separate and I'm
going forward through the light and its
ias if I'm floating with this
separation of light it's like walls of illuminated light
a brilliance I'd never seen in my life
and a feeling of
such joy and overwhelming ecstasy
being in this illumination of
light and as I'm moving forward
in front of me there appears two rows
one on either side of me
of these hooded beings
and having been raised Catholic my
connection to the visuals of them
made them look like they were in monk's robes with hoods
and they were brown robes and
there is no sense of anything except
floating in between them and this
overwhelming sense of completeness,
cherishness - yes, it's not a real word but feeling cherished
unconditional love,
coming home it was like coming home
and as I'm feeling these feelings
one of these beings steps forward the one on the and on the left steps forward and
he speaks to me
and i'm saying he because he felt male he felt
fatherly, he felt
protective, he felt carrying and kind and loving
and I just felt this sense of connection to him when he spoke to me
a sense of love I had never experienced in my life a sense of
coming home to the very depths of myself.
A sense of
I'm cherished to the very core of my being I had never felt
that kind of love ever and as he's speaking to me he says to me
"You can't stay you have to go back
you have a child" and in that moment
my mind is is going crazy saying
"I have just found this incredible sensation this
divine experience
I feel like I've never felt in my whole life
and I'm being told I can't stay
and in that moment all I can do is say
"No I have to stay you can't send me back"
I'm finally home and finally feeling the connection
the connection I had always yearned before in my life
that I thought would come through marriage,
through a child, through family, through
work that I love but there was nothing in my life experience that
could even come close to the sensation
it was that profound it was that
blissful and he's repeated to me
"You cannot stay you must go back you have a child"
and I'm thinking about my child and I'm thinking
who would take care of her if I didn't go back because
my parents were both dead my exhusband
I didn't feel was the right one for her
and my sister was still alive but
I didn't feel that she had the ability to care for my daughter in an
appropriate way
and as I'm thinking about who could love
and take care and be there for my daughter I'm
realizing that there's no one and in that moment that I had that realization
I was back in my body
and then I woke up and when I awakened and I was in my hospital room
I was out of recovery and
there was this sense that something had happened to me
but I didn't know what I just felt
changed and I was somewhat befuddled in that moment coming
from having anesthesia and having had this experience
and
I realize that
I had been gone a long time as far as being in recovery I was in recovery
for over three hours and
this was supposed to have been a very simple surgery and there was no
explanation as to what had happened and
what had transpired for me
all I knew was that
my surgery
was successful there was a lot more damage supposedly that they had to repair
and yet I wasn't in any state of pain
and the woman who was in the hospital room next to me
who had a lot less surgery than I did or repair
was in severe pain and was struggling and I realized after
I knew what had occurred with me is that that was one of the gifts of
having had the experience was that I wasn't in pain and I never became
in pain and they were able to have me up walking that night on crutches
and it was amazing
and I think it was amazing for the doctors because they've never seen
anybody
come through it so well or start to heal so quickly
and that was
part of the gift and from there
it took quite a while for me to realize what I had experienced
because there was no one at that time who
that I knew of who was talking about near death experiences
I didn't have access to books and authors that may have written
at that time we didn't have computers that were
you know that had Google and what not that you could look things up on
and I went through a series
of experiences that started bringing the
flashes back and the visions of it back and
I worked with mentors and healers and those who
could teach me how to meditate to access
those feelings and those remembrances and also
in meditating
I was able to connect back to source
in the same way almost that I had when I had the experience
and in those awarenesses all the pieces fell together and all of
the memories came together and
it was many years before I had a full understanding of what had
transpired
with me. I came back
with gifts of psychic abilities that I hadn't had before
I became clairsentient and clairaudient and clairvoyant
and I was able to see people
in there essence
as opposed to in their facades and it took me on a path of learning
and discovery to know what to do with those gifts
and it has been an amazing
experience for me to be able to translate for people
the things that they don't know that they want to know about themselves
to findthe places in themselves that they're looking forward to
to understand the things that are blocking them
from moving forward in their lives and to guide them to that connection to
their own heart
and I think my greatest joy
in having had this experience is to let people know that
we are cherished unconditionally
that there is no judgment on us
in any way that the universe loves us
and is supporting us and we are here to
to grow yes but it's about playing
it's about joy it's about loving it's not about
fear it's not about pain it's not about judgment
only those things were created by us and our ego
there isn't anything in reality
other than love and that is the gift
is that we are loved and there's nothing to be afraid of
on the other side and there's nothing to be afraid of in living
either and I think that my story is
live to your best ability have the greatest joy that you can for yourself
and others
know the connection that you feel in your heart
and make that the most important thing that you experience
and see everything through the eyes of
source because in that way everything
is love.
Interviewer: Dianne did you have a heightened sense of clarity or awareness when you were having
this experience?"
Absolutely. Interviewer: "Tell us about it"
I felt connected to everything I knew everything it was like
there wasn't anything outsider of
my awareness.
I felt total clarity about everything, how everything worked, why it worked
what it was comprised of what we were doing
why we were here what it was all about
there was total clarity about everything and everyone. Interviewer: "So, you didn't feel the dulling
effects of
being anesthetized?" oh no not at all there was no sense of
any anesthesia or any..
I was in a totally different place
then the body that had surgery.
Interviewer: "You said it took you awhile recall what happened
why do you suppose that was so?"
"Why'd it take you so long to assimilate and recall this?"
I don't know my guess is for me
I don't know how others have experienced it really but my guess is for me is that
had I gotten it from the get-go
it might have been too big a shock everything that I have experienced in my
life
has been gentle in a way
there seems to be a
modus operandi that my life goes by
and even though I've had some big experiences in my life
they've all come at me in a gentle way so
I think I would have lost my mind had I gotten it immediately
because it was so out of my
realm at that point. Interviewer: "It was too much to
assimilate with what you knew reality to be"
Yes. Interviewer: "In a talk talk that you gave recently you said
that we choose what we're coming in to work on
in other words you're trying to tell us that we
reincarnate?" Absolutely if we so choose
and it is a choice. Interviewer: "And how to learn this from the experience that you had?"
Because in that moment in time you get all the information
and one of the things that I realize is that we have soul groups
and as groups there is a meeting of the minds about what the soul group wants to
incarnate to work on
what is the life experience and
I've played that out in my life. I've seen it
work Interviewer: "So in other words you're saying that we choose the people that we
will meet in our lives?"
Yes we choose
because we have agreed before we've incarnated that we will be in each
other's experiences in a certain way
I think it's similar to when you meet somebody new
for the first time and you think there's something very familiar about them you know you feel a
comfort with them and I
I think that's because their part of our soul group. Interviewer: "So, Dianne you said that
you were kind of in an idyllic place. Why would you choose to come to a
place
In other words this world, in other words waking up, why would you come
to a place that is less than ideal?" Well
it's not that it's less than ideal it's a different process
on the other side you have such great love
but you don't have challenge in any way you don't have the different experiences
that we create for ourselves here
and you don't have that human quality
that we have here thats so delicious when it's really good
we don't have that experience on the other side. Interviewer: "You said that
we are God in spirit and that
our higher self is our connection to God?"
We are God in human form. Interviewer: "Oh, I see okay.
and it is our spirit that is our
connection, or conduit, our higher self to
God or universe. Interviewer: "But you didn't know this
before you had this experience?" no I did not I always knew that we..
having been raised Catholic the understanding was
we were created in the image and likeness of God
I didn't know that we were part of God we were God in human form
God experiencing God's self
Interviewer: "Now that could upset some
traditionally religious people so how did this
set with you how did you accommodate this insight into your life?"
It was a challenge in the beginning because there
is that sense of such reverance with God
how could I be apart of that but
having gone back and
reread parts of the Bible and other religious texts
I realized that that is to me what God has always said to us thats what Jesus was
saying to us
not that we were separate from him but that we were part of him.
Interviewer: "I remember in your talk recently you said that ego wants to separate
from God can you tell us your understanding of what ego is?"
Ego is the part of our brain
that wants to be in control to protect us and
it has gone too far in that it separates us
from.. it wants to separate us from our connection to
source to God it wants to be the one in control in charge
and our job is to lose our minds so we can step out of the ego
and just have the connection which emanates from the heart
Interviewer: "I remember that Aldous Huxley the great writer philosopher
he said that..made a comment that our brains and our nervous system
are like a reducing valve in other words
that we are originally omniscient but our awareness
must be reduced in order to function in a three-dimensional world
otherwise that super consciousness would confuse us
is that kind of what you're referring to when you said that you really had
to take some time to process what you've experience?" yes
because as was said we do know everything
We've just forgotten and somebody once told me that it's going through the
birth canal that
disconnects us and I don't know now true that is but
I know that
the desire to be connected
with source and to stay grounded in human form
has been a challenge for all of us and
there's that fine line between being egotistical
you know I'm all-powerful that's what the ego battle is is
the ego thinks it doesn't need God its all-powerful
and we have to trust that we are in our hearts
a form of God that it's our connection through love to God
and that the ego has no part in this and not to listen to all the negativity
you know it's like when we pay attention to our brains it's a stream
of negativity coming at us most of the time
you'll never hear spirit speaking that way to us
spirit is only speaking at a fluff its only too hard connection
use it eagle drive of when me crossover
could use tells huckabee
well you're in spirit form on the other side you're not in human form
egos part love the brain mechanism my understand so what this is about the
body that
this is all with you Rehovot party well they
ego is running it you know to the brain
the ego is is trying to run the body saying
that the humanness is everything you don't need cot you just need
yourself you know I can't help but think that
way having a near death experiences Chi
no worries and there to experience seems to who have it have a cosmic
shots for over others who must try
our over how to live sign
I you come back with her
with her insights that do not have if you hand
complete their I agree I think that doesn't mean that there are people out
there who are having the insights without
I that was the obviously the only way I was going to get the insights was to
have that experience in
and I have had I had come to a crossroads my life before the experience
where I had been asking for help
because things were not going well in my life for lottery since
and I felt very alone and I remember being in church
I don't know how far I am
the timetable was between when I had gone to church having this
pleading session had at the altar with got that
I think it was the only way I was going to find out that life was
magnificent it wasn't what I thought it was
that there was a different way to experience it and a different mindset
have about it welfare
that sounds like a perfect point wish to stop this interview but
can you think of anything else that you'd like to share with you it's about
you're near death experience which is learnt from
I think something that's important to know is had
we came in has creators we had an agenda
and the sooner we get to working on them
the more films were going to be and
and living life from your own creation knowing that you can
even if you don't know how trusting that leave the state
to create just go for those feelings
and stop paying attention to the negative things around you that are
burdensome to you
pay attention to your heart and the things that you are
wanting the joy the this feeling the love
the connection to creatures in people and
all things wonderful heat into the things that give you joy
not to the things that you're free to have
and that you worry about trust in life
okay Diane thank you so much for sharing your experience with the audience
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