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Jared: So I guess I'm gonna' start running a, uh,
video journal, video blog, vlog, vlogging now.
Um, my name's Jared Fiske.
I probably shouldn't identify myself online,
but we all make bad decisions.
(chuckles) I kinda' wanna' make this a daily journal,
but my life isn't really all that interesting.
a lot of interesting things certainly have happened recently,
but we'll see how it goes.
We'll see who's interested and who's paying attention and who isn't,
but I guess, ya' know, today, July 16th,
I want to be kind of a milestone for me,
uh, I'm getting back to my workout schedule,
will be lifting weights, losing weights—
well, losing weight, not different types of weight,
but yeah,
I'm hoping to, uh, lose— lose more weight,
look better.
Right now, I'm decent-ish,
but there's something to lose.
As long as there's something to lose,
I'm gonna' try to lose it.
I'm borderline insane,
so this morning,
well, afternoon, when I was working out,
I just— I hadn't been lifting weights for
a couple weeks.
I know. I— I— I know.
I make a couple weeks sound like such a long time.
It's— It was probably maybe a month an a half.
I just wouldn't stop lifting,
and then, eventually, it—
it occurred to me
«I think I'm gonna' puke»,
so then I had to stop,
and I showered, and I headed home,
but (exhales) what a day,
and now I've got
drama creeping at my door
through my phone,
and I'm— actually I'm doing alright, ya' know.
I'm just living life. (glass thuds) (sighs)
Ya' know, I'm—
I've had a lot of friends go through
some rough times recently,
but I'm always hoping that I can help them out.
I've also had some friends go through some
depressingly great times.
(Android phone): Droid
Jared: Depressing,
depressingly because
I had to witness this.
I had to witness their happiness.
My frien— I went to Gay Prom in Saint Louis the other night,
no attention from the boys, none,
zip, zero.
Past proms I've gone,
I got plenty of numbers,
at least— at least five,
for those nights,
and I think that was back when I was skinny,
(sighs) and then,
I was handling kind of well.
Okay, I was actually in kind of bad shape,
but, uh and then my friend—
my friend who I'd—
I don't find him attractive, 'cuz he's just not my type.
He's real twink-ish,
but he is really cute.
He is really cute— not— not into him, but he is really cute,
but he had another really, really cute guy hit on him,
and he got his number,
so I was just—
I mean I— I have no reason to feel bad.
I have no legitimate reason to feel bad,
but I do. Well, I did.
I did. I was just kinda' like (exhales),
I need some attention.
I'm an attention *** sometimes. I'll admit it.
I'll— I'll gladly admit it,
because really anyone's an attention ***.
Everyone's an attention ***, rather.
Anyone who says that they aren't,
is a lying ***.
I just kind of like using that line,
but, uh,
yeah, that's prom.
I thought I was looking good,
until I saw the pictures,
explains why,
so I went home.
Actually, I'd— I— my friends drove me home.
We— we— we actually went to Steak 'n Shake,
but me being a
Steak 'n Shake neophyte,
I ordered a milkshake,
and apparently, that takes absolutely forever,
to come out,
and so
yeah, my one friend left, this and that.
You don't care about the details.
I'm just gonna' stop there about that. (drums table)
(door knock) Yeah? Captioned by Taric Alani. youtube.com/user/Taric25
Captioned by Taric Alani. youtube.com/user/Taric25