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>> THE FAT, PRETTY, BIG GIRL.
THAT WAS MY IDENTITY.
I'VE BEEN CALLED "PORK CHOP,"
"THUNDER THIGHS."
>> I'VE BEEN CALLED "FATTY,"
"FAT ***," "LARD ***."
[ GRUNTING ]
>> I'M READY TO BE THAT HOT
***.
>> COME ON.
>> I'M READY TO BE STRONG, TO BE
LEAN.
I'M GONNA MAKE THIS [BLEEP]
HAPPEN.
>> NOW I'M EXCITED TO BE ABLE TO
LIVE MY LIFE.
I'M READY TO EXUDE THE
CONFIDENCE THAT I TRULY FEEL
NOW.
[ ALL SHOUTING ]
>> NOW THAT I'VE LOST THE
WEIGHT, I FEEL LIKE I CAN
CONQUER ANYTHING.
NOTHING IS STANDING IN MY WAY.
>> OH, MY GOD!
[ APPLAUSE ]
>> SHAFRAZ IS MY EX-BOYFRIEND OF
FOUR YEARS.
HE TOLD ME IF I WAS SKINNIER,
THEN I'D BE PRETTIER.
>> BRITTANY -- I WAS ALWAYS HER
LITTLE, FAT SIDE-CHICK WHO WOULD
GO OUT PARTYING, AND SHE WOULD
LEAVE ME FOR THE V.I.P. LINE.
SHE TOLD ME ONLY SKINNY GIRLS
WERE ALLOWED.
***.
>> YOU ARE AN [BLEEP]HOLE, AND
I'M COMING FOR YOU.
>> YOU CANNOT HURT ME ANYMORE.
>> AND NOW IT'S TIME TO GET
REVENGE.
AN ENTIRE PRODUCTION TEAM...
>> ...PUT TOGETHER WHAT LOOKS
LIKE THE OUTSIDE OF A HOT,
HOLLYWOOD EVENT.
NOT GETTING INTO THE CLUB WILL
BE BRITTANY'S WORST NIGHTMARE.
SHE THINKS THAT SHE IS JUST
EVERYTHING.
>> I HAVE GOT A FULL PRODUCTION
TEAM TO HELP ME WITH THIS
REVENGE.
SHAFRAZ WORKS IN TECHNOLOGY, AND
HIS CAREER IS SO IMPORTANT TO
HIM.
SO WHILE HE THINKS THE CAMERAS
ARE ROLLING ON HIM FOR A TECH
SHOW, THEY WILL REALLY BE
ROLLING ON HIM FOR MY REVENGE.
>> SHAFRAZ, WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL
LIKE YOU'RE QUALIFIED TO BE ON
THIS?
>> I'M SORRY?
>> I'M AT A LOSS.
>> WHAT IS IT YOU WANT?
>> PUTTING WORDS, CONSECUTIVELY,
ONE RIGHT AFTER THE OTHER, IN A
FORM THAT MAKES SENSE.
>> [ SCOFFS ]
>> HELLO, SHAFRAZ.
FEELING VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW?
>> WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?
>> YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT
LOOK.
>> I PAID $600 FOR AN AIRLINE
TICKET TO COME TO MY FRIEND'S
PARTY.
>> IT'S TOO BAD YOU COULDN'T
SPEND THAT, LIKE, ON AN OUTFIT.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
>> HEY, BRITTANY.
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE LEFT OUT?
>> THUNDER THIGHS!
>> IT'S THE INCREDIBLE BULK!
>> ELEPHANT!
>> PORK CHOP!
>> FATTY!
>> LARD ***!
>> ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
I'M IN CONTROL NOW.
>> MY NAME IS ALEXANDRA, I'M
23 YEARS OLD, FROM
WEST NEW YORK, NEW JERSEY, AND
I'M 253 POUNDS.
IN HIGH SCHOOL, I WAS VERY
POPULAR AND EXTREMELY CONFIDENT.
[ Voice breaking ] BUT AT THE
SAME TIME...I WAS VERY SAD
BECAUSE I WAS STILL FAT.
I'VE BEEN OVERWEIGHT EVER SINCE
ELEMENTARY SCHOOL.
I COME FROM A POOR FAMILY.
POVERTY AND OBESITY GO
HAND-IN-HAND.
MY FAMILY DID NOT HAVE ACCESS TO
GOOD FOOD.
PIZZA, BURGERS, CHIPS -- THAT'S
ALL WE COULD AFFORD.
AND SO, BEING OVERWEIGHT JUST
CONTINUED, AND I GOT FATTER AND
FATTER.
AND BY 4th GRADE, YOU KNOW, I
WAS ALMOST 200 POUNDS.
THAT'S, LIKE, A REALLY
FRIGHTENING THING.
I'VE MISSED OUT ON A LOT IN MY
LIFE.
[ Voice breaking ] I MISSED
BEING A BALLET DANCER.
I MISSED, YOU KNOW, HAVING A
BOYFRIEND IN HIGH SCHOOL.
I MISSED BEING ON THE
CHEERLEADING SQUAD.
I WOULD TRY OUT FOR CHEERLEADING
EVERY SINGLE YEAR.
THE CHEERLEADERS THAT ACTUALLY
WOULD MAKE THE TEAM, THEY WOULD
ALWAYS LAUGH AT ME WHEN I WOULD
GO TO TRY OUT BECAUSE THEY KNEW
I WASN'T GONNA MAKE THE TEAM.
I WAS EXCLUDED FROM IT ONLY
BECAUSE I WAS FAT.
I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE A MODEL,
AND IT'S BEEN A DREAM OF MINE.
BUT BECAUSE I'VE BEEN
OVERWEIGHT, I'VE MISSED
OPPORTUNITIES OF BEING EVEN A
PLUS-SIZED MODEL.
AND YOU WOULD THINK THAT IF
YOU'RE A BIG GIRL AND YOU HAVE A
PRETTY FACE, YOU HAVE WHAT IT
TAKES.
IT'S MORE THAN THAT.
YOU HAVE TO BE TONED.
YOU HAVE TO BE HEALTHY.
[ Crying ] IT'S HARD FOR ME
BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, I WORK MY
[BLEEP] *** OFF.
LIKE, I WATCH MY CALORIES, AND I
STILL STRUGGLE.
THIS IS WHAT FEELS LIKE MY LAST
CHANCE.
WHEN I WENT TO COLLEGE, THAT'S
WHEN I BECAME FRIENDS AND
ROOMMATES WITH BRITTANY.
SHE WAS A SKINNY, LITTLE,
PERFECT THING, AND SHE REMINDED
ME THAT I WAS A FAT FRIEND WHO
DIDN'T FIT IN.
EVERYTHING THAT SHE WOULD HAVE
ACCESS TO -- V.I.P. ACCESS, BUT
YOU KNOW, THE FAT FRIEND --
ME -- LEFT IN THE BACK.
WE WOULD GO EVERYWHERE --
PARTIES, VACATION.
AND, YOU KNOW, I WAS ALWAYS HER
LITTLE, FAT SIDE-CHICK --
CARRYING HER BAGS, HELPING HER
GET GUYS.
SHE TREATED ME LIKE BASICALLY I
WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH.
WE WOULD GO OUT PARTYING, AND
SHE WOULD LEAVE ME FOR THE
V.I.P. LINE, AND I WOULD BE LEFT
OUT BY MYSELF.
SHE TOLD ME ONLY SKINNY GIRLS
WERE ALLOWED.
SHE WOULD HURT ME.
SHE WOULD, YOU KNOW, PUT ME
DOWN.
THERE WAS THIS ONE TIME WE WERE
IN MIAMI.
HER AND I WERE RIDING IN A
GO-KART, AND BRITTANY HAD SAID,
"ALLIE'S SO FAT, SHE'S SLOWING
DOWN THE GO-KART!"
THE FINAL STRAW FOR ME WAS WHEN
I WAS WITH BRITTANY, HANGING
OUT, AND SHE SAID, "IF YOU GET
DOWN TO 140 POUNDS, I WILL TAKE
YOU ON VACATION, BUY YOU A
BIKINI.
I SWEAR TO GOD."
IT WAS MORE OF A SLAP IN THE
FACE.
"BECAUSE YOU'RE FAT, YOU'RE NOT
GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME."
SHE REALLY THINKS THAT SHE IS
JUST EVERYTHING.
IF I CAN GET REVENGE ON
BRITTANY, THEN THAT WILL GIVE ME
THE CLOSURE I NEED TO MOVE ON
WITH MY LIFE.
BRITTANY, YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE
CRAP.
I AM SO TIRED OF BEING YOUR FAT
FRIEND.
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR [BLEEP]
AND I'M READY TO MAKE YOU FEEL
THE WAY I FELT FOR THE ENTIRE
FOUR YEARS OF COLLEGE.
I'M READY TO PROVE MYSELF -- TO
PROVE TO BRITTANY I AM NOT THAT
FAT GIRL ANYMORE.
>> MY NAME IS NEESHA.
I'M 29 YEARS OLD.
I WEIGH 181 POUNDS.
MY FAMILY IS MY LIFE.
I AM THE OLDEST OF THREE KIDS.
I HAVE TWO YOUNGER SIBLINGS WHO
ARE VERY FIT.
MY SISTER, SHE STRUGGLED WITH
GAINING WEIGHT, AND I STRUGGLED
WITH TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT MY
ENTIRE LIFE.
MY BROTHER, HE WOULD, LIKE, BE
ABLE TO EAT A WHOLE ROW OF OREOS
AND A BIG GLASS OF MILK, AND
THAT WAS HIS SNACK WHEN HE CAME
BACK FROM SCHOOL.
I'D HAVE TWO, AND I'D FEEL
GUILTY ABOUT IT 'CAUSE I KNEW
THAT IT WAS JUST GONNA MAKE ME
FATTER AND FATTER, AND I NEVER
UNDERSTOOD WHY THAT STUFF MADE
ME FAT BUT NOT THEM.
I'M NEVER GONNA BE LIKE THAT
REALLY SKINNY GIRL THAT IT JUST
COMES NATURALLY, YOU KNOW?
I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT I WAS FAT,
REALLY, UNTIL I HIT HIGH SCHOOL
WHEN, OF COURSE, YOU KNOW, BOYS
BECOME A LITTLE BIT MORE THAN
JUST BOYS.
YOU START CRUSHING ON THIS BOY
OR THAT BOY OR WHATEVER ELSE,
AND YOU START, YOU KNOW, PAYING
A LITTLE BIT MORE ATTENTION TO
YOURSELF, AND YOU'RE LIKE, "WAIT
A MINUTE HERE.
MAYBE I SHOULD BE DRESSING A
LITTLE BIT MORE CUTE LIKE THOSE
CHEERLEADERS OVER THERE," YOU
KNOW?
AND THEN THAT'S WHEN I STARTED
REALIZING, "WAIT A MINUTE.
I'M NOT FITTING IN THE SAME KIND
OF CLOTHES AS THEM."
LIKE, I HAVE TO GO SHOP, YOU
KNOW, AT THE PLUS-SIZE STORES.
IT WASN'T A FUN EXPERIENCE.
AS I GOT OLDER, IT JUST GOT
WORSE AND WORSE.
IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL
EMBARRASSED.
IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL ASHAMED.
AND IT WAS SAD.
IT WAS DEPRESSING BECAUSE IT'S
JUST ANOTHER THING THAT PUTS YOU
OUT OF THE BOX OF WHAT EVERYBODY
ELSE IS LIKE IN HIGH SCHOOL.
SO, IT'S ANOTHER THING FOR
PEOPLE TO PICK ON.
WHEN IT CAME TO LOSING WEIGHT, I
MEAN, I FAILED AT THAT MULTIPLE
TIMES.
YOU KNOW, I'D WORK HARD FOR,
LIKE, A LONG TIME, AND THE
WEIGHT WOULD COME OFF VERY
SLOWLY, AND, EVENTUALLY, YOU GET
TIRED OF IT, AND YOU GET BORED,
AND YOU'RE JUST LIKE, "YOU KNOW
WHAT?
I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE."
IN MY THIRD YEAR OF COLLEGE, I
STARTED DATING SHAFRAZ, AND IT
WAS JUST MEANT TO BE.
I'VE KNOWN HIM ALMOST MY ENTIRE
LIFE.
HE IS MY MOM'S BEST FRIEND'S
SON.
AND, YOU KNOW, IT SEEMED LIKE A
FAIRY-TALE KIND OF THING.
YOU KNOW, HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE,
AND I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS THE
ONE.
WE WERE ON THAT PATH TO
MARRIAGE.
WE WERE GONNA, YOU KNOW, HAVE
THIS LIFE TOGETHER.
WE WERE GONNA HAVE KIDS AND ALL
THAT GOOD STUFF, BUT...IT JUST
ALL FELL APART.
WHEN I MET SHAFRAZ, I WAS AT
ABOUT 175 POUNDS, AND HE WAS
VERY PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE AND JUST
WEIRD ABOUT MY WEIGHT.
HE WOULD GO OUT AND POINT OUT
PEOPLE WHO WERE, YOU KNOW,
SMALLER THAN ME AND TALK ABOUT
THEM AS BEING FAT.
AND IT WAS JUST -- I DON'T KNOW.
IT WAS A WEIRD, LIKE, MAYBE
CONTROLLING BEHAVIOR ON HIS
PART.
YOU KNOW, HE WAS TRYING TO SAY
THAT BASICALLY, "NEESHA, YOU'RE
FAT."
WELL, HE EMOTIONALLY ABUSED ME
AND BROKE DOWN MY CONFIDENCE
EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR FOUR YEARS.
IT WAS JUST A REALLY STRESSFUL,
EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER, AND I
TURNED TO ICE CREAM OR PASTA OR
SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO CALM
MYSELF DOWN, AND IN THAT TIME
PERIOD, I ENDED UP GAINING A LOT
OF WEIGHT.
I ENDED UP HITTING 238 POUNDS.
WE WENT OUT BOWLING ONE TIME,
AND THIS GIRL A FEW LANES OVER
WAS -- SHE WAS PROBABLY A SIZE 6
OR 7 OR SOMETHING OF THAT SORT.
NOT FAT AT ALL.
HE WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT THE
FACT THAT SHE HAD A MUFFIN-TOP
GOING ON, AND HE LOOKS AT HER,
AND THEN HE TURNS AROUND, AND
HE'S JUST, LIKE, "OH, MY GOD!
THAT'S SO DISGUSTING!
I CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES ARE
HURTING THIS MUCH BECAUSE OF
THIS!"
I WAS LIKE, "IF YOU THINK THAT
ABOUT HER, WHAT DO YOU THINK
ABOUT ME?"
HE'D BE LIKE, "OH, NO.
IT'S DIFFERENT WITH YOU BECAUSE
I LOVE YOU."
AND THIS IS THE KIND OF, YOU
KNOW, BEHAVIOR THAT CONTINUED
THROUGHOUT OUR ENTIRE
RELATIONSHIP, AND IT WAS
DEVASTATING.
IT WAS HARD TO HEAR.
THE FINAL STRAW FOR ME WAS WHEN
I ASKED HIM TO RATE ME ON A
SCALE OF 1 TO 10, AND HE TOLD ME
I WAS A 6 OR 7.
IF I WAS SKINNIER, I'D BE
PRETTIER.
IF I WAS SKINNIER -- THAT'S WHAT
I'VE BEEN HEARING MY ENTIRE
LIFE, AND TO HEAR IT FROM THE
PERSON THAT YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE
GONNA SPEND THE REST OF YOUR
LIFE WITH?
I REMEMBER SITTING THERE,
THINKING, "YOU KNOW WHAT?
THAT IS IT.
I AM DONE WITH HEARING THIS
STUFF OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE."
FOR FOUR YEARS, I HAVEN'T BEEN
ABLE TO SAY "I LOVE YOU" TO
ANYBODY EXCEPT FOR MY DOG.
IT MAKES ME CRINGE WHEN I TRY TO
SAY IT, AND IT JUST FEELS SO...
UNNATURAL FOR ME TO SAY THE
WORDS "I LOVE YOU."
MY GUARD'S ALWAYS UP.
I CAN'T LET THAT DOWN BECAUSE I
HAVE TO BE ABLE TO PROTECT
MYSELF 'CAUSE I CAN'T LET THIS
HAPPEN TO ME EVER AGAIN.
I FEEL LIKE AS IF I NEED CLOSURE
FROM THIS WHOLE THING TO FINALLY
MOVE ON AND TO MOVE PAST IT --
PUT THIS BEHIND ME AND MAKE HIM
FEEL THE SAME WAY THAT HE MADE
ME FEEL, AND THEN I'LL BE IN A
GREAT PLACE.
I KNOW IT.
SHAFRAZ, YOU MADE ME FEEL
ABSOLUTELY WORTHLESS ABOUT
MYSELF.
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO MAKE YOU
FEEL WORTHLESS.
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO MAKE YOU
FEEL ALL THOSE THINGS THAT YOU
MADE ME FEEL FOR FOUR YEARS.
IT'S YOUR TURN NOW, AND I'M
COMING FOR YOU.
[ GRUNTING ]
>> THIS [BLEEP] ISN'T EASY.
>> I'M SITTING HERE, THINKING
THAT I'M ON TOP OF THIS GAME,
AND THEN NEXT THING I KNOW, I'M
UP THREE POUNDS.
I'M REALLY EXCITED TO SEE MY
FAMILY AND FRIENDS RIGHT NOW.
I'VE FINALLY REACHED, LIKE, A
PLACE WHERE I'M HAPPY, WHERE I
FEEL GREAT.
>> ONE THING I KNOW BRITTANY
LOVES IS A V.I.P. PARTY.
TONIGHT, IT'S HER TURN TO BE
LEFT OUT.
>> ALLIE, THEY WON'T LET ME IN!
I'M OUT HERE STANDING BY MYSELF.
>> SHAFRAZ HAS FLOWN ALL THE WAY
FROM TORONTO, CANADA, TO BE A
PANEL GUEST ON A TALK SHOW.
THE HOST IS ABOUT TO TALK
GIBBERISH, AND EVERYONE ELSE IS
GONNA UNDERSTAND IT EXCEPT FOR
SHAFRAZ.
>> IN TERMS OF CHANGES TO -- TO
A NOMINALLY AGGREGATED, UH,
WORKFORCE, ARE THE PITFALLS FOR
I.T. NOW WHAT THEY WERE IN THE
PAST?
>> I'M SORRY.
I'M DRAWING A BLANK HERE.
>> I WANT TO BE HEALTHIER AND
MORE FIT, AND I WANT TO PROVE TO
BRITTANY THAT I CAN GET TO MY
GOAL.
>> IN ORDER TO GET BACK AT
SHAFRAZ, I'M GONNA MAKE IT
HAPPEN, AND I'M GONNA MAKE IT
HAPPEN ONCE AND FOR ALL.
>> FOR ME, IT'S ABOUT LOSING
WEIGHT AND PROVING THAT I AM
WORTH IT.
>> YOU GET TREATED A LOT
DIFFERENTLY WHEN YOU'RE
OVERWEIGHT, AND I'M TIRED OF
THAT.
>> I'M SCARED BECAUSE I'M NOT
SURE, YOU KNOW, IF I CAN DO IT.
YOU KNOW, THERE'S ONE OR TWO
THINGS WHEN YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT.
LIKE, YOU'RE EITHER GONNA CRY IN
THE CORNER, OR YOU'RE GONNA
STAND UP AND LOVE YOURSELF.
>> I'M GIVING MYSELF THREE
MONTHS FOR THIS WEIGHT-LOSS
JOURNEY.
BEING SKINNY ISN'T SOMETHING
THAT, YOU KNOW, IS GONNA COME
EASY FOR ME.
I NEED TO MAKE IT, LIKE, A
LIFELONG THING FOR MYSELF.
[ Voice breaking ] AND I NEED TO
WORK REALLY HARD TO KEEP THE
BODY THAT I WANT.
>> I'M GONNA HAVE TO WORK FOR
IT.
IT'S HARD.
NO ONE'S GONNA HAND IT TO ME.
NO ONE'S GONNA HAND ME A HOT
BODY, YOU KNOW?
I HAVE TO GET THAT.
>> THESE ARE ACTUALLY TEARS OF
HAPPINESS BECAUSE...I'M GONNA
SUCCEED THIS TIME.
>> THREE MONTHS IS NOT A LOT OF
TIME, BUT I HAVE TO MAKE EVERY
MOMENT COUNT.
>> 10 SECONDS!
>> [ GRUNTS ]
THIS [BLEEP] ISN'T EASY.
>> [ GRUNTS ]
BEING HERE EVERY DAY, FIGHTING,
WORKING OUT.
[ SCREAMS ]
IT NEVER GETS EASIER.
THIS JOURNEY IS, LIKE, THE
HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD.
[ SIGHS ]
THIS [BLEEP] SUCKS.
>> I WANT TO GIVE UP, BUT THEN I
REMEMBER THAT I HAVE A TASK AT
HAND, AND THAT'S TO GET REVENGE
ON BRITTANY.
>> HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?
HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?
>> I NEED TO STEP IT UP.
I REALLY, REALLY NEED TO PUSH
MYSELF HARDER AND STOP FEELING
SORRY FOR MYSELF.
>> I'M TIRED OF MY ARMS LOOKING
THE WAY THEY DO.
I'M TIRED OF MY STOMACH LOOKING
THE WAY IT DOES.
I'M TIRED OF BEING UNHEALTHY.
I'M GONNA FINALLY GET BACK AT
SHAFRAZ.
>> YEAH! THERE YOU GO.
>> I LOST 5 POUNDS THIS WEEK,
AND IT'S BECAUSE I'VE BEEN
KILLING IT.
>> I'M SITTING HERE, THINKING
THAT I'M ON TOP OF THIS GAME,
AND THEN NEXT THING I KNOW, I'M
UP THREE POUNDS.
>> WHAT'S GOING ON?
>> I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TALK
RIGHT NOW.
I'M WORKING SO F'ING HARD, AND
HERE I AM, LIKE, NOT LOSING ANY
WEIGHT.
LIKE, IT SUCKS.
>> IT'S TIME TO STEP IT UP.
IT'S INCREDIBLE HOW FAST I'M
IMPROVING.
>> I CAN'T GIVE UP RIGHT NOW.
I'M TOO CLOSE TO THE FINISH
LINE.
I CAN'T LET SOMETHING LIKE THIS,
LIKE, TAKE ME DOWN.
THIS IS MY FOCUS.N.
THIS IS MY WORLD RIGHT NOW, AND
THIS IS WHAT I'M WORKING ON.
I'M GONNA MAKE THIS [BLEEP]
HAPPEN.
>> I HAVE TO FREAKING PUSH
BECAUSE I'M REALLY STRIVING TO
GET OUT OF THE 200s.
I HAVE NOT BEEN OUT OF THE 200s
SINCE I WAS IN 6th GRADE.
[ GRUNTS ]
>> ONE -- THAT'S IT!
>> WHEN I STARTED THIS, I
WEIGHED 254 POUNDS.
THE OLD ALEXANDRA WAS SAD AND
MISERABLE AND HIDING BEHIND A
FAT BODY, AND NOW I'M EXCITED TO
BE ABLE TO LIVE MY LIFE, TO NOT
FEEL LIKE I'M THE FAT GIRL.
I'M READY TO EXUDE THE
CONFIDENCE THAT I TRULY FEEL
NOW.
>> I'M SO SUPER-EXCITED.
I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE HER.
I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THE CHANGES
SHE HAS DONE.
>> SHE'S BEEN WAITING FOR THIS
FOR A LONG TIME.
I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE HER.
>> I HEAR FEET.
[ ALL SHOUTING ]
>> OH, MY GOD!
>> OH, MY GOD!
YOU LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL!
>> I HAVE BEEN OVER 200 POUNDS
SINCE I WAS 12 YEARS OLD, AND
12 YEARS LATER, AT 24 YEARS OLD,
I AM UNDER 200 POUNDS, AND ITLD,
FEELS AMAZING.
MY FUTURE IS GOING TO BE SO
INCREDIBLE, AND I REALLY LOOK
FORWARD TO EVERYTHING THAT'S
GONNA COME AFTER THIS AMAZING
WEIGHT LOSS.
I LOST 60 POUNDS.
>> NICE!
>> LOSING THESE 61 POUNDS -- IT
WAS HARD, BUT IT WAS WORTH EVERY
SECOND OF IT.
AND JUST SEEING EVERYONE HERE
RIGHT NOW, JUST -- OH, IT JUST
MEANS THE WORLD TO ME.
AND I DEFINITELY AM A NEW
PERSON, AND I'VE CHANGED, AND
I'VE FOUGHT FOR EVERY MOMENT,
AND MOVING FORWARD, I WANT YOU
GUYS TO HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE
'CAUSE I NEVER WANT TO BE IN
THE 200s AGAIN, AND I WANT TO
OWN MY LIFE, AND I WILL, AND
THIS EXPERIENCE HAS REALLY
CHANGED ME.
[ Voice breaking ] SO, I JUST
THANK YOU, GUYS, FOR BEING A
PART OF THIS, AND...
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M CRYING.
[ LAUGHTER ]
YOU GUYS MADE ME CRY.
>> I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE
REVENGE, THOUGH!
>> I KNOW!
>> OH, MY GOD!
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>> IT WAS SO AMAZING TO SEE MY
FRIENDS.
THEY REALLY MOVED ME.
THEIR REACTIONS JUST MADE ME
FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED.
>> YOU GOT TO DO IT.
YOU GOT TO DO THE SPIN.
>> OKAY!
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
I WAS REALLY EXCITED TO SHARE
THIS MOMENT WITH THEM, BUT
THERE'S ONE MORE THING THAT I
HAVE TO DO, AND THAT IS GET
REVENGE ON BRITTANY BECAUSE
BRITTANY REMINDED ME THAT I WAS
A FAT FRIEND WHO DIDN'T FIT IN.
SHE'S NOT GONNA KNOW WHAT TO DO
WITH HERSELF.
>> BEFORE, WHEN I WAS FAT, IT
WAS SAD.
IT WAS DEPRESSING.
I FELT REALLY UNSEEN.
NOW THAT I'VE LOST THE WEIGHT, I
FEEL LIKE I CAN CONQUER
ANYTHING.
NOTHING IS STANDING IN MY WAY.
I LOOK GREAT. I FEEL GREAT.
I'M READY TO GO AHEAD AND CLOSE
THE BOOK ON THE OLD CHAPTER OF
MY LIFE AND START WITH MY NEW
CHAPTER.
>> IT'S BEEN MONTHS SINCE I'VE
SEEN NEESHA.
I'M REALLY EXCITED TO SURPRISE
HER.
>> SHAFRAZ HAS A LOT OF THINGS
THAT HE NEEDS TO WORK OUT IN HIS
LIFE THAT I FEEL DIDN'T MESH
WITH NEESHA'S, AND I FEEL LIKE
THIS HAS BEEN A LONG TIME
COMING.
[ FOOTSTEPS ]
[ ALL SHOUTING ]
>> OH, MY GOD!
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>> WOW!
>> HOLY [BLEEP]
>> THANK YOU.
YEAH, THIS HAS BEEN A REALLY
LONG THREE MONTHS, YOU KNOW?
WHEN I STARTED ALL THIS, I WAS
181 POUNDS.
I'M NOW 141 POUNDS.
YEAH, THERE'S A WHOLE 40 POUNDS
THERE THAT I'VE LOST.
AND I'M LOVING THE RESULTS OF
IT, THAT'S FOR SURE.
>> WHOO!
>> YEAH!
>> OW!
>> I'M LOOKING AROUND THE ROOM
AT ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CAME ALL
THE WAY FROM TORONTO, CANADA, TO
SUPPORT ME, AND I'M SO EXCITED
THAT THEY ALL WERE HERE.
>> IT WAS MIND-BLOWING TO SEE
HER IN A TOTALLY DIFFERENT BODY.
I MIGHT HAVE TO KEEP MY BEST
FRIEND AWAY FROM HER.
[ LAUGHS ]
THIS IS FROM MOM.
>> [ Voice breaking ] AW, MAN!
I'M GONNA START CRYING AGAIN!
CAN YOU READ IT FOR ME?
>> YEAH.
SHE SAID, "YOU ARE THE LIGHT OF
MY EYES.
LEAVE THE PAST NOW AND MOVE
FORWARD.
YOU HAVE A WHOLE NEW YOU TO WORK
WITH NOW AND MANY NEW THINGS TO
EXPLORE IN LIFE.
MAKE LIFE WHAT YOU WANT IT TO
BE.
ALL THE BEST.
CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU.
LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, DAD AND
MOM."
>> AWW!
MY PARENTS ARE HERE.
>> YEAH.
>> IT'S JUST TOUCHING.
YOU KNOW, MY PARENTS PROVIDED,
YOU KNOW, THEIR WORDS OF WISDOM
AND HOW PROUD THEY ARE OF ME FOR
DOING THIS FOR MYSELF AND HOW
HAPPY THEY ARE FOR ME THAT I'M
HAPPY.
AND IT WAS JUST SUCH AN
EMOTIONAL MOMENT.
IT WAS SO -- SO FULL OF LOVE.
WELL, THIS HAS BEEN AN AMAZING
JOURNEY, AND I'M SO HAPPY TO SEE
YOU GUYS, BUT I HAVE ONE LAST
THING LEFT TO DO.
IT'S TIME TO MAKE THIS REVENGE
HAPPEN.
SHAFRAZ'S COMMENTS MADE ME FEEL
BAD ABOUT MYSELF.
I'M READY TO GO AHEAD AND CLOSE
THE BOOK ON THE OLD CHAPTER OF
MY LIFE.
I'VE GOT TO GET BACK AT SHAFRAZ.
>> WHEN I WOULD HANG OUT WITH
BRITTANY, SHE WOULD LEAVE ME FOR
THE V.I.P. LINE.
SO TONIGHT, IT'S HER TURN TO BE
LEFT OUT.
>> YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT
LOOK.
I'M JUST SAYING...
>> SHAFRAZ THINKS THE CAMERAS
ARE ROLLING ON HIM FOR A TECH
SHOW.
THEY WILL REALLY BE ROLLING ON
HIM FOR MY REVENGE.
HE'LL BE CRITICIZED AND MADE TO
FEEL VULNERABLE JUST LIKE HE
MADE ME FEEL.
>> YEAH, I'M LOST HERE.
[ CHUCKLES ]
>> WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE
YOU'RE QUALIFIED TO BE ON THIS?
>> I'M SORRY?!
>> HEY!
>> HI, GUYS!
>> HEY!
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> TODAY IS THE DAY OF MY
REVENGE.
THE PLAN IS ALREADY IN MOTION.
BRITTANY FLEW ALL THE WAY TO
L.A. FROM NEW JERSEY, AND SO
THERE'S NO TURNING BACK NOW.
I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS, I'M NOT
GONNA LIE.
THIS IS, LIKE, MY ONE SHOT TO
MAKE HER FEEL HOW I FELT.
TONIGHT, IT'S HER TURN TO BE
LEFT OUT.
I HOPE SHE FEELS REALLY
EMBARRASSED.
I WANT HER TO FEEL SECOND-BEST
'CAUSE THAT'S WHAT I ALWAYS FELT
AS HER FRIEND.
ONE THING I KNOW BRITTANY LOVES
IS A V.I.P. PARTY.
SO, WITH THE HELP OF THE
PRODUCERS, I HAVE TO PUT
TOGETHER WHAT LOOKS LIKE, FROM
THE OUTSIDE, A HOT, HOLLYWOOD
EVENT.
I'M TALKING FULL-ON CLUB WITH
RED CARPET, PRESS, AND A
BOUNCER.
THERE'S CAMERAS HIDDEN IN
TWO-WAY MIRRORS, THERE'S CAMERAS
HIDDEN IN CARS -- IT'S GONNA BE
FANTASTIC.
>> YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO ARRIVE
WITH HER AND SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR
ALEXANDRA'S PARTY.
THIS IS SCOTT.
HE'S GOING TO BE PLAYING OUR
DOORMAN.
>> NICE.
>> THIS IS DAN.
HE'S GONNA BE PLAYING THE CLUB
PROMOTER.
ALL OF YOUR NAMES ARE ON THE
LIST.
HE'S GONNA LET THE TWO OF YOU IN
AND NOT LET HER IN.
THERE'S A TON OF CELEBRITIES IN
THERE.
YOU GOT A TABLE RIGHT NEXT TO
RIHANNA.
LIKE, THERE'S A LOT GOING ON IN
THERE.
[ LAUGHTER ]
>> YEAH, YEAH.
SHE THINKS IT'S A HUGE PARTY, SO
IT'S ALL SET UP.
IT'S READY.
>> BUT HOW HARD SHOULD WE PUSH
HER?
>> LET HER KNOW THAT, YOU KNOW,
SHE JUST ALMOST MEETS THE
STANDARD, BUT NOT QUITE GOOD
ENOUGH.
>> WE'RE USED TO A SMALLER,
THINNER VERSION OF YOU.
>> OH, MY GOD!
>> BRITTANY MADE ME FEEL LIKE I
WAS HER FAT FRIEND, AND I ALWAYS
FELT LEFT OUT.
NOW BRITTANY'S GONNA BE THE ONE
LEFT OUT.
JUST WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT,
WHEN SHE FEELS EXACTLY HOW I
FELT, I WILL ARRIVE IN A
LIMOUSINE AND CONFRONT BRITTANY.
>> LIMO'S GONNA PULL UP, SHE'S
GONNA BE STARING AT IT, AND
EVERYBODY'S GONNA BE STARING AT
IT, AND OUT WILL JUMP...YOU.
[ LAUGHTER ]
>> SHE NEVER STUCK UP FOR ME.
SHE EMBARRASSED ME.
SHE WOULD LEAVE ME TO GO HANG
OUT WITH HOT GUYS.
NOW IT'S MY TURN TO MAKE HER
FEEL HOW SHE ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL
OVER ALL THESE YEARS.
>> ARE YOU EXCITED?
>> I'M SO EXCITED!
IT'S NERVE-RACKING, BUT
EXCITING.
BRITTANY IS GONNA BE HERE VERY
SHORTLY.
I'M SCARED. I'M NERVOUS.
IT'S REALLY SCARY.
I'M NOT SURE HOW SHE'S GONNA
REACT.
I'M NOT SURE WHAT IS GONNA
HAPPEN.
>> OKAY, THEY'RE ON THEIR WAY.
EVERYONE IN THEIR PLACES.
CAMERA'S SET.
>> I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GONNA DO
THIS.
I'M WATCHING THE MONITORS.
>> ALL RIGHT, OUTSTANDING.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
>> BRITTANY ARRIVES, AND I'M SO
EXCITED THAT THIS REVENGE IS
FINALLY UNDERWAY.
NOT GETTING INTO THE CLUB WILL
BE BRITTANY'S WORST NIGHTMARE.
RANDY AND LIZ ARE MY
ACCOMPLICES, AND THEY ARE GOING
TO BE PERFECT BECAUSE THEY KNOW
FIRSTHAND EXACTLY HOW BRITTANY
TREATED ME.
>> HOW MANY IN YOUR PARTY HERE?
>> THREE.
>> HEY, GUYS.
>> HOW YOU DOING?
>> SHOULDN'T BE MUCH LONGER FOR
YOU GUYS.
>> ALL RIGHT, GO AHEAD AND STEP
OVER WHEN YOU'RE READY.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
>> YOU GUYS -- YOU'RE ON THE
LIST?
>> YEAH.
>> WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
>> BRITTANY.
>> GOT YOU.
THREE RIGHT NOW -- YOU THREE CAN
GO NOW.
>> THANK YOU.
>> ALL RIGHT.
>> WHAT ABOUT HER?
>> SHE CAN JUST HOLD UP.
>> I ONLY CAN TAKE IN THREE
RIGHT NOW.
>> REALLY?
>> YEAH.
>> ALL RIGHT, WE'LL BE BACK.
>> WE'LL BE RIGHT BACK.
>> YEAH, THERE'S A BUNCH OF
CELEBRITY-TYPES IN THERE
TONIGHT.
>> I HOPE WHEN I GO IN, I CAN
FIND THEM.
THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO
SEPARATE FROM THEM.
>> YEAH, SORRY ABOUT THAT.
I MEAN, I GET THE GO-AHEAD FROM
THE DOOR, THEY LOOK, AND THEY
TELL ME WHO TO CALL IN AND A LOT
OF IT'S BASED ON APPEARANCE AND
BASED ON DRESS, AND I DON'T HAVE
A WHOLE LOT OF CONTROL OVER
THAT.
>> AS BRITTANY'S STANDING
OUTSIDE ALL ALONE WHILE ALL MY
FRIENDS ARE INSIDE, MAYBE SHE'S
STARTING TO FEEL EXACTLY HOW I
FELT YEARS AGO.
>> OKAY, TWO OF YOU?
>> US TWO.
>> YOU TWO ARE CLEAR TO GO IN.
>> YEAH, YOU GUYS LOOK PRETTY
GOOD TONIGHT.
>> I DON'T BELIEVE THIS [BLEEP]
[ LAUGHS ]
>> THIS IS RIDICULOUS.
>> I GOT A BOSS HERE THAT --
SEE, THIS IS A HIGH-CLASS PLACE.
HE'S JUST REALLY PARTICULAR ON
WHO HE LETS IN.
YOU CAN GO. YOU'RE WITH HIM?
>> YEAH.
>> THANK YOU!
>> OH, MY GOD!
SHE LOOKS SO SAD!
>> I'M JUST GONNA CALL MY
FRIEND.
>> YOU'RE GONNA GIVE HER A CALL?
I UNDERSTAND.
>> THIS IS RIDICULOUS.
>> YEAH, THREE OF HER OTHER
FRIENDS WENT IN.
WE'RE JUST WAITING ON ONE.
>> MY PHONE'S RINGING, IT'S
BRITTANY, AND I AM IN SHOCK, BUT
I ANSWER.
>> ALLIE.
[ LOUD MUSIC PLAYING ]
>> [ Shouting ] HEY, GIRL!
WHERE ARE YOU?
>> THEY WON'T LET ME IN.
CAN YOU COME TO THE DOOR,
PLEASE?
EVERYBODY LEFT ME OUTSIDE.
CAN YOU COME OUTSIDE, PLEASE?
>> OH, MY GOD!
WHAT DOOR ARE YOU AT?
I'M COMING. WHERE ARE YOU?
>> I SAID I'M OUT HERE, STANDING
BY MYSELF.
CAN YOU TELL SOMEBODY TO COME
OUT HERE SO I CAN SPEAK TO THEM?
>> I DID.
I ALREADY CALLED MY BOSS.
>> OKAY, I'M COMING!
>> I TRIED TO EXPLAIN ABOUT THE
STANDARD -- THAT YOU MAKE THE
CALL ON WHO GETS IN AND WHO
DOESN'T GET IN.
>> MY NAME'S ON THE LIST.
HE LET MY THREE FRIENDS IN
WITHOUT ME.
I'M NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT'S
WRONG WITH...
WHY CAN'T I GET LET IN?
>> YOU KNOW, TO BE HONEST WITH
YOU, YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT
LOOK.
I MEAN, THIS IS L.A.
>> [BLEEP]
>> THESE TWO RIGHT HERE?
>> SEE, THAT'S ANOTHER -- THAT'S
ANOTHER GREAT LOOK.
THAT'S ANOTHER GREAT LOOK, RIGHT
THERE.
>> ROOM FOR TWO MORE?
>> YEAH, WE GOT TWO MORE. SURE.
COME ON IN.
>> I'M ONLY HERE TILL FRIDAY.
I ONLY CAME HERE JUST FOR THIS
PARTY.
>> IT'S NOT ONLY THE OUTWARD
LOOK, IT'S JUST HOW YOU CARRY
YOURSELF.
>> SO, YOU'RE SAYING MY FRIENDS
ARE DRESSED BETTER THAN ME?
>> THAT'S SO [BLEEP] UP.
>> THE THREE --
>> THAT'S YOUR OPINION.
>> I'M JUST ASKING.
>> YEAH, YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING
TO CHANGE INTO OR ANYTHING, DO
YOU?
I HAVE, LIKE...A CERTAIN
STANDARD.
>> I FLEW OUT HERE FROM NEW YORK
JUST FOR HER PARTY.
>> YOU'RE FROM NEW YORK?
>> YES, I JUST CAME HERE TODAY.
>> DO YOU WEAR THAT IN NEW YORK?
I MEAN, YOU GO TO A CLUB?
>> YES.
>> YOU DO?
>> YES.
>> LIKE, ARE YOU FROM UPSTATE
NEW YORK OR THE CITY?
>> NO, THE CITY.
>> 'CAUSE, LIKE, IN A FARMING
COMMUNITY OR SOMETHING, I MEAN,
THAT MIGHT BE -- YOU DON'T HAVE
THE RIGHT LOOK.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
I MEAN, YOU KNOW, IT'S A CLUB.
>> I'VE NEVER BEEN HERE BEFORE.
>> YOU GOT TO HAVE THAT SPARKLE,
YOU KNOW?
THAT SHIMMER.
>> [ LAUGHS ]
>> SEE, LIKE, FOR INSTANCE,
LIKE, CHECK THIS GUY OUT.
YOU SEE HOW THAT GOES, AND THIS
WHOLE -- THE WHOLE VIB--
LET THOSE GUYS IN RIGHT NOW.
SEND THEM ON IN.
>> OH, MY GOD!
>> IT'S THAT WHOLE KIND OF RAW
EXCITEMENT.
I GUESS THAT'S WHAT WE'RE GOING
FOR.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
>> I PAID $600 FOR AN AIRLINE
TICKET TO COME TO MY FRIEND'S
PARTY THAT I HAVEN'T SEEN IN
FIVE YEARS FROM COLLEGE.
>> THAT'S A LOT OF --
600 BUCKS?
IT'S TOO BAD YOU COULDN'T SPEND
THAT, LIKE, ON AN OUTFIT.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
I'M JUST SAYING --
>> I DON'T EVEN WANT TO HEAR IT.
>> HE'S GETTING MEANER AND
MEANER, AND I REALLY FEEL THIS
IS THE BEST MOMENT TO MAKE HER
REALIZE HOW I'VE ALWAYS FELT.
I'M ABOUT TO REVEAL MYSELF AND
CONFRONT BRITTANY.
>> I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANY WAY
WE'RE GONNA LET YOU IN.
WE GOT A V.I.P. COMING IN.
WE GOT TO CLEAR THIS AREA.
>> NO PICTURES FROM THE CAMERAS.
>> YOU'RE NOT GONNA BELIEVE IT.
I MEAN, HONESTLY, THIS'LL MAKE
IT WORTH YOUR WAIT.
>> HONESTLY, I DON'T REALLY
CARE.
>> REALLY?
>> I DON'T CARE ABOUT
CELEBRITIES.
>> I THINK YOU'LL CARE ABOUT
THIS ONE.
I REALLY DO. HONESTLY.
I MEAN, CHECK IT OUT.
RIGHT HERE. CHECK IT OUT.
>> HEY, BRITTANY.
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE LEFT OUT?
OBVIOUSLY, I'VE SET ALL OF THIS
UP.
NONE OF IT'S REAL.
ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE ACTORS, AND
THERE'S BEEN HIDDEN CAMERAS ON
YOU SINCE YOU'VE GOT HERE.
I GOT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING.
I ALWAYS FELT LIKE I WAS YOUR
FAT FRIEND.
YOU SHUT ME DOWN BY LEAVING ME
AT PARTIES, AND I REMEMBER YOU
LEAVING ME TO GO IN V.I.P. AND
HANG OUT WITH GUYS, AND I FELT
LIKE YOU WERE EMBARRASSED BY ME,
AND HONESTLY, YOUR ACTIONS PROVE
THAT.
YOU MADE FUN OF ME, AND I LIVED
WITH THAT EVERY SINGLE DAY.
I ALWAYS FELT LIKE I WAS LEFT
OUT AROUND YOU, AND I WANTED YOU
TO FEEL THAT FOR ONE MINUTE, AND
I WANTED YOU TO KNOW WHAT IT
FEELS LIKE TO BE NOT GOOD ENOUGH
FOR ME.
I'M TELLING HER ALL THESE
THINGS, AND I HOPE SHE'S
STARTING TO UNDERSTAND EXACTLY
HOW SHE MADE ME FEEL.
EVERYBODY, PLEASE EXCUSE US.
I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE A MOMENT
WITH BRITTANY.
PLEASE HEAD INSIDE.
YEAH.
[ CHUCKLES ]
I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW FOR
ONE SECOND HOW IT FELT LIKE TO
BE SECOND BEST.
>> I UNDERSTAND, BUT --
>> TO BE THE FRIEND LEFT BEHIND,
TO NOT BE INCLUDED.
HONESTLY, BRITTANY --
>> YOU LOOK SO GOOD.
>> I'VE BEEN WORKING SO HARD FOR
THE PAST 3 1/2 MONTHS.
I'VE LOST 61 POUNDS.
NOT FOR YOU! NOT FOR YOU.
>> OF COURSE NOT FOR ME.
YOU'RE DOING IT FOR YOURSELF.
>> FOR ME! FOR ME.
I JUST REALLY WANTED YOU TO KNOW
HOW I FELT, AND I NEVER GOT TO
TELL YOU, SO I JUST WANTED YOU
TO UNDERSTAND WHERE I WAS COMING
FROM.
>> I NEVER WANTED YOU TO FEEL --
>> I KNOW, AND I JUST --
FOR ME, THIS WAS CLOSURE.
RIGHT NOW, I'M HEALTHY INSIDE
AND OUT.
SAY YOU'RE SORRY.
>> I'M SORRY.
I REALLY AM, AND FOR YOU TO EVEN
FEEL THAT WAY IS LIKE --
>> THANK YOU, GIRL.
>> YOU KNOW, I DON'T EVER WANT
YOU TO FEEL THAT WAY.
>> IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS, AND SHE
FINALLY APOLOGIZED.
IT JUST MEANS THE WORLD TO ME.
>> YOU SHOULD NEVER FEEL THAT
WAY.
I LOVE YOU FOR YOU.
>> BRITTANY, THAT MEANS SO MUCH
TO ME, GIRL.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
>> I NEVER MEANT TO MAKE ALLIE
FEEL LESS OF A PERSON.
YOU KNOW, I WAS REALLY SORRY FOR
IT.
YOU LOOK GREAT, THOUGH, 'CAUSE I
HAD NO --
I SERIOUSLY WAS LIKE, "WHO THE
HELL IS THAT?"
I JUST HOPE THAT, YOU KNOW, WE
CAN START OVER FRESH, YOU KNOW,
LIKE WHEN WE FIRST MET IN
COLLEGE.
>> I AM SO READY TO MOVE ON WITH
MY LIFE.
I'VE LOST 61 POUNDS.
I'VE CONFRONTED MY FEARS.
I'VE CHANGED BOTH MENTALLY AND
PHYSICALLY.
I HAVE A WHOLE NEW LIFE AHEAD OF
ME.
>> SHAFRAZ HAS FLOWN FROM
TORONTO, CANADA, TO BE A PANEL
GUEST ON A TALK SHOW CALLED
"TECH TALK."
HE'LL BE CRITICIZED AND MADE TO
FEEL VULNERABLE JUST LIKE HE
MADE ME FEEL.
>> I'M JUST CONCERNED.
>> WHAT IS IT YOU WANT?
>> JUST PUTTING WORDS IN A FORM
THAT MAKES SENSE.
>> [ SCOFFS ]
>> GUESS WHAT I DID TODAY.
I RAN MY FIRST EVER 10K IN
1 HOUR AND 28 SECONDS.
[ CLUCKS TONGUE ]
THE FACT THAT I HIT, LIKE, AN
HOUR -- I'M SO STOKED RIGHT NOW.
SEE YOU LATER!
>> THERE ARE THESE JEANS THAT I
COULD NOT EVEN PULL PAST MY
KNEES WHEN I GOT HERE
EIGHT WEEKS AGO.
AND I JUST PUT THEM ON JUST NOW,
AND THEY LITERALLY FRICKING FIT,
SO I JUST WANTED TO SHOW YOU
GUYS.
THESE ARE THE JEANS THAT I COULD
NOT FIT BEFORE AND NOW I CAN
FIT IN THEM -- IN THEM!
AND I'M SO EXCITED.
>> IT'S HAPPENING. IT'S REAL.
I'M SITTING WITH MY SISTER THE
NIGHT BEFORE THE REVENGE ON
SHAFRAZ, AND I AM A BALL OF
NERVES.
'CAUSE AT FIRST, IT WAS LIKE THE
REVENGE IS OUT IN THE DISTANCE,
WHATEVER.
YOU KNOW, I COULD FOCUS ON
WORKING OUT, WHATEVER ELSE.
I DIDN'T REALLY HAVE TO THINK
ABOUT THAT.
AND NOW IT'S HERE, AND IT'S
MAKING ME NERVOUS.
I'M HONESTLY FEELING LIKE MAYBE,
YOU KNOW, I SHOULDN'T DO THIS.
I SHOULD JUST, YOU KNOW, FORGIVE
AND FORGET AND MOVE ON.
>> WHAT MADE YOU CHANGE YOUR
MIND?
>> I'VE GROWN SO MUCH IN THESE
THREE MONTHS, YOU KNOW?
LIKE, BY GETTING THE CONFIDENCE
THAT I'VE GOTTEN, IT'S LIKE AS
IF, YOU KNOW, ALL THE THINGS
THAT HE SAID AND DID THAT HELD
ME BACK FROM BEING, LIKE, YOU
KNOW, NEESHA -- IT DOESN'T APPLY
ANYMORE.
I'M VERY NERVOUS ABOUT THE FACT
THAT I HAVE TO CONFRONT, YOU
KNOW, SOMEBODY WHO EMOTIONALLY
ABUSED ME FOR FOUR YEARS.
I GUESS IT'S TIME FOR HIM TO,
LIKE -- TO KNOW THAT THAT'S NOT
ACCEPTABLE BEHAVIOR AND THAT HE
CAN'T DO THAT TO PEOPLE.
>> NOW THAT YOU'VE COME THIS
FAR, THERE'S SOMEONE THAT YOU
NEED TO SAY BYE TO.
WE'RE GONNA WATCH THIS TOGETHER.
>> THIS WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY IS
GONNA BE HARD BECAUSE OF THE
FACT THAT I STRUGGLED WITH IT
MY ENTIRE LIFE, AND HERE I AM,
IN THE FINAL PUSH OF IT.
I'M GONNA SUCCEED THIS TIME.
SHAFRAZ, YOU KNOW WHAT?
YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE AS IF I
WAS LESS OF A HUMAN BEING
BECAUSE I WAS FATTER -- THAT I
DESERVED TO BE TREATED WITH THE
DISRESPECT THAT YOU TREATED ME
WITH.
IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO PAY.
I GUESS I KIND OF, LIKE, FORGOT,
YOU KNOW, HOW I FELT ABOUT THE
WAY HE HAD KIND OF TREATED ME.
IT'S A REALLY GOOD THING MY
SISTER WAS THERE TO REMIND ME
WHY I NEEDED TO DO THIS, WHY I
NEEDED TO CLOSE THAT CHAPTER IN
MY LIFE SO I COULD FINALLY MOVE
ON.
HE'S NOT BETTER THAN ANYBODY
ELSE.
I NEED TO TEACH HIM THAT.
[ CHUCKLES ]
>> I KNEW YOU'D BE ABLE TO DO
IT.
>> IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS SINCE
I'VE SEEN SHAFRAZ, SO HE HAS NO
IDEA THAT I'VE BEEN PLANNING A
REVENGE.
SHAFRAZ HAS FLOWN ALL THE WAY
FROM TORONTO, CANADA, TO
SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA TO BE A
PANEL GUEST ON A TALK SHOW
CALLED "TECH TALK."
SHAFRAZ WORKS IN TECHNOLOGY, AND
WHILE HE THINKS THE CAMERAS ARE
ROLLING ON HIM FOR A TECH SHOW,
THEY WILL REALLY BE ROLLING ON
HIM FOR MY REVENGE.
>> HE'LL BE THE THIRD PANELIST
ON OUR SHOW, "TECH TALK."
>> WE'VE HIRED ACTORS TO PLAY
OTHER TECH EXPERTS ON THE PANEL,
AND HE THINKS THAT THESE ARE
C.E.O.s AND PEOPLE WHO ARE
REALLY HIGHLY QUALIFIED IN HIS
FIELD.
>> DAN'S GONNA START ASKING SOME
CIRCULAR QUESTIONS THAT DON'T
MAKE ANY SENSE, BUT EVERYBODY
ELSE SEEMS TO HAVE THE RIGHT
ANSWERS TO.
AND SHAFRAZ, AT THIS POINT,
EVERY ANSWER HE GIVES IS GONNA
BE WRONG.
AND SHAFRAZ'S WHOLE WORLD IS
GONNA KIND OF START UNRAVELING
AROUND HIM.
HE THINKS HE'S ON THIS NATIONAL
TECHNOLOGY PROGRAM LOOKING LIKE
A COMPLETE BUFFOON.
>> THIS IS PROBABLY THE BEST WAY
TO HAVE HIM FEEL EXACTLY HOW I
FELT BECAUSE HIS EDUCATION AND
CAREER AND THINGS, YOU KNOW,
THAT COME WITH ACADEMIA WERE
WHAT WAS SO IMPORTANT TO HIM.
SHAFRAZ HAS NEVER BEEN ON ANY
KIND OF TELEVISION SHOW BEFORE,
SO I THINK HE'LL BE NERVOUS AND
UNSURE.
HE'LL BE CRITICIZED AND MADE TO
FEEL VULNERABLE JUST LIKE HE
MADE ME FEEL.
>> THE FINAL SEGMENT OF OUR SHOW
ARE GONNA BE VIEWER CALL-INS.
>> I WILL BE THE CALLER, AND MY
QUESTION WILL BE DIRECTED AT
HIM, AND IT'S GONNA ADDRESS,
YOU KNOW, ISSUES WITH PEOPLE'S
WEIGHT.
I'M GONNA ASK HIM A QUESTION AND
THEN ASK HIM IF HE RECOGNIZES MY
VOICE.
>> AND AT THAT POINT, YOU WILL
REVEAL YOURSELF, COME AROUND THE
CORNER, AND TELL SHAFRAZ WHAT
YOU WANT TO TELL HIM.
>> HONESTLY, I'D LIKE TO HAVE
HIM ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT THAT
THIS ENTIRE PROCESS MADE HIM
FEEL JUST AS BAD AS I FELT.
>> FEEL VULNERABLE -- YOU WANT
HIM TO FEEL VULNERABLE.
>> YEAH.
'CAUSE WE WERE ALREADY IN A VERY
VULNERABLE POSITION.
I MEAN, IT WAS A RELATIONSHIP.
IT'S SOMEBODY, YOU KNOW, WHO I
TRUSTED WITH EVERYTHING, AND HE
BROKE THAT DOWN.
HE BROKE ME DOWN AND MADE ME
FEEL AS IF I NEEDED TO HIDE
MYSELF EVEN MORE BEHIND MORE AND
MORE LAYERS OF FAT.
BUT NOW I FINALLY SHED THAT.
IN A PERFECT WORLD, THIS WHOLE
REVENGE WOULD PLAY OUT LIKE I
WOULD WALK IN, HE'S GONNA SEE
ME, AND HIS JAW WILL DROP.
>> YOU'VE GOT A FEW HOURS TO GET
YOURSELF TOGETHER, OKAY?
>> ALL RIGHT, LET'S MAKE THIS
HAPPEN.
>> LET'S DO IT.
>> ALL RIGHT.
>> ALL RIGHT.
>> OH, I'M JUST EXCITED RIGHT
NOW.
[ LAUGHS ]
THE ENTIRE REVENGE IS GONNA TAKE
WHAT HE MADE ME FEEL IN
FOUR YEARS IN THOSE FEW MINUTES.
SO THAT WAY HE CAN TRULY
UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE OF
SOMEBODY WHO IS BEING JUDGED
CONSTANTLY.
ALL RIGHT, LET'S DO THIS.
>> EVERYBODY READY?
HE'S COMING IN. HERE WE GO.
>> SHAFRAZ WALKS IN AND MEETS
ALL THE ACTORS AND THE CREW FOR
THIS FAKE SHOW.
I GET TO WATCH THIS WHOLE THING
GO DOWN FROM A MONITOR, AND IT
IS SO NERVE-RACKING.
>> I'M THE HOST OF THE SHOW.
THIS IS SCOTT. THIS IS GRANT.
SHAFRAZ.
>> READY IN 5, 4, 3, 2...
>> OKAY, GUYS, LET'S JUMP RIGHT
INTO THIS.
THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE
CELLPHONE, AS A MODEL, GROWN
EXPONENTIALLY OVER THE PAST
SEVERAL YEARS -- WITH THAT AS
THE MODEL, WHERE DO YOU SEE
TECHNOLOGY GOING IN THE FUTURE?
WHAT'S THE NEXT BIG THING?
SHAFRAZ, HOW ABOUT YOU ON THAT?
>> I THINK THE CLOUD IS GONNA BE
A HUGE PART OF THE INDUSTRY
GOING FORWARD, AND WITH THE
GROWTH OF MOBILE COMPUTING, THE
TWO INTERACTING TOGETHER IS
GONNA BE A BIG PART OF THINGS.
>> SHAFRAZ DOESN'T KNOW THIS,
BUT THE HOST IS ABOUT TO TALK
NONSENSICAL GIBBERISH, AND
EVERYONE ELSE IS GONNA
UNDERSTAND IT EXCEPT FOR
SHAFRAZ.
>> NOW MORE THAN EVER, TECH
SPECIALISTS -- THEY'RE
LEVERAGING FUNCTIONAL
THIRD-GENERATION MOBILITY IN A
GREATLY REDUCED WORKFORCE.
AND I THINK WE'D ALL AGREE.
AND WILL THIS NEGATIVELY IMPACT
RESPONSIVE LOGISTICAL HARDWARE
DEVELOPMENT OVER THE LONG TERM?
>> YES.
>> MOST DEFINITELY.
>> SHAFRAZ?
>> AGREED.
>> WHY?
>> [ SCOFFS ]
SORRY, I'M DRAWING A BLANK HERE.
>> THIS IS SO AWKWARD, JUST LIKE
HE MADE ME FEEL.
I LOVE IT.
>> O...KAY.
>> [ CHUCKLES ]
>> SCOTT, YOU WANT TO PICK THAT
UP?
>> THE CHALLENGES ARE AS WE
STREAMLINE AND REDUCE WORKFORCE,
IT CREATES ADDITIONAL
RESPONSIBILITIES OR POTENTIAL
GAPS.
>> IN TERMS OF CHANGES TO A
NOMINALLY AGGREGATED WORKFORCE,
ARE THE PITFALLS FOR I.T. NOW
WHAT THEY WERE IN THE PAST?
SHAFRAZ?
>> UM, I THINK WHEN YOU'RE
TALKING ABOUT HARDWARE
DEVELOPMENTS, UM, WHAT YOU'RE
GONNA SEE IS...
COULD YOU REPEAT IT -- WHAT YOU
ASKED?
>> SORRY?
>> YEAH, I'M LOST HERE.
[ CHUCKLES ]
I'M NOT SURE.
>> LET ME GIVE YOU JUST A
MINUTE.
JUST GATHER YOURSELF FOR A
SECOND BECAUSE -- YEAH, WE DO
THIS LIVE TO TAPE, SO...
IN TERMS OF THE INFRASTRUCTURE
AND WIRELESS DATA, ARE THEY MORE
OR LESS LIKELY TO EXPRESS OR
EXPERIENCE CHANGES NOW KEEPING
IN MIND THAT KIND OF
INFRASTRUCTURE PLACEMENT?
YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?
>> MM-HMM.
>> SO, HOW WOULD YOU...
>> UM...
CAN YOU REPEAT THAT?
>> I'M SORRY. I JUST --
I KNOW WE'VE GOT DEAD AIR HERE.
ALL RIGHT.
CAMERA, STOP DOWN FOR ONE
SECOND.
SHAFRAZ, WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL
LIKE YOU'RE QUALIFIED TO BE ON
THIS PANEL?
>> I'M SORRY?!
>> I'M JUST CONCERNED BECAUSE
IT'S --
I'M AT A LOSS.
>> WHAT IS IT YOU WANT?
LIKE, YOU WANT FROM A
BUSINESS-PERSPECTIVE ANSWERS,
OR...
>> I'M JUST -- AS A HUMAN BEING,
JUST FROM CLARITY.
YOU KNOW, JUST ASSEMBLING
WORDS -- PUTTING WORDS,
CONSECUTIVELY, ONE RIGHT AFTER
THE OTHER IN A FORM THAT MAKES
SENSE.
>> MM-HMM.
>> I HOPE HE FEELS HOW I FELT --
JUDGED, VULNERABLE,
UNCOMFORTABLE IN HIS OWN SKIN.
YOU COULD JUST SEE SO MUCH ANGER
IN HIS EYES, THAT HE WAS JUST
LIKE, "OH, MY GOSH.
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS
HAPPENING RIGHT NOW."
WELCOME TO MY REVENGE.
>> I'M NOT QUITE SURE HOW TO --
YOU KNOW, WE'RE GONNA GO TO THE
PHONES.
LET'S START ROLLING.
START ROLLING, PLEASE.
AND NOW IT'S TIME TO TAKE SOME
CALLS.
FIRST UP, WE'RE GONNA TAKE A
CALL FROM ANAHEIM HILLS,
CALIFORNIA, AND, SHAFRAZ, THIS
IS GONNA BE FOR YOU.
>> HI. WHAT ARE YOU THOUGHTS ON
HOW TECHNOLOGY ADVANCEMENTS HAVE
CONTRIBUTED TO THE OBESITY
PROBLEM IN THE UNITED STATES?
>> UM...I THINK MAYBE...
[ CHUCKLES ]
UM...
>> DO YOU RECOGNIZE THIS VOICE?
>> I DO NOT. [ CHUCKLES ]
>> HELLO, SHAFRAZ.
FEELING VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW?
>> DO YOU RECOGNIZE THIS VOICE?
>> I DO NOT. [ CHUCKLES ]
>> HELLO, SHAFRAZ.
>> [ CHUCKLES ]
>> FEELING VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW?
>> YES, I AM.
>> I HOPE YOU ARE BECAUSE THAT'S
HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL FOR
FOUR YEARS, AND I WANTED YOU TO
HAVE A TASTE OF IT.
WHEN I TURNED AROUND THE CORNER
AND I SAW SHAFRAZ, I COULD JUST
SEE HIS EYES, LIKE, TEARING UP A
LITTLE BIT, BUT HE WAS TRYING SO
HARD TO FIGHT THOSE THINGS BACK.
AT THE SAME TIME, THOUGH, I
THINK IT WAS REALLY IMPORTANT
FOR HIM TO HEAR WHAT HIS ACTIONS
AND WORDS PUT ME THROUGH AND,
YOU KNOW, HOW BADLY THEY
AFFECTED ME.
I SET THIS WHOLE THING UP.
NONE OF IT'S REAL.
THIS IS NOT "TECH TALK," AND
THESE GUYS ARE ALL ACTUALLY
ACTORS.
BUT THESE CAMERAS ARE REALLY
ROLLING.
GENTLEMEN, WOULD YOU GUYS EXCUSE
US FOR A MOMENT SO WE CAN TALK?
THANK YOU.
SO...I'D LIKE TO GIVE YOU A
CHANCE TO RESPOND.
>> NOTHING I HAVE TO SAY.
>> ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, HUH?
>> NOTHING.
>> IT'S NOT OKAY TO TREAT PEOPLE
THAT WAY.
IT'S NOT OKAY TO MAKE FUN OF
OTHER PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY WHEN
YOU YOURSELF ARE SO NOT PERFECT.
YOU KNEW I WAS SO INSECURE ABOUT
MY WEIGHT, BUT YOU STILL --
YOU WOULD POINT OUT FAT PEOPLE
EVERYWHERE THAT WE WENT AND MAKE
FUN OF THEM, AND YOU MADE ME
FEEL AS IF I WAS JUST WORTHLESS.
YOU'D FIND GIRLS THAT WERE
SKINNIER THAN ME AND POINT OUT
THEIR MUFFIN TOPS AND SAY,
"THAT'S THE MOST DISGUSTING
THING I'VE EVER SEEN!
OH, MY EYES ARE BURNING!"
AND HOW COULD YOU POINT OUT
THINGS LIKE THAT IN OTHER PEOPLE
AND THEN NOT EXPECT ME TO FEEL
INSECURE WHEN I'VE GOT, YOU
KNOW, A FULL-ON SPARE TIRE
AROUND MY WAIST?
HOW IS THAT LOVING AND
SUPPORTING ME?
>> HOW MUCH OF WHAT YOU ACTUALLY
SAID WAS TRUE?
>> EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT
HAPPENED.
>> REALLY?
>> MM-HMM.
HAVE I MADE MY POINT AT ALL?
>> YOU'VE MADE YOUR POINT.
>> LIKE, DO YOU HAVE NO RESPONSE
AT ALL FOR THAT?
>> CAN YOU JUST SAY "I'M SORRY"
FOR THE THINGS THAT YOU'VE SAID?
>> I AM SORRY.
>> THIS RELATIONSHIP THAT WE
HAD, YOU KNOW, IT LEFT ME WITH
SO MUCH BAGGAGE THAT I'VE BEEN
CARRYING AROUND FOR THE PAST
FIVE YEARS.
RIGHT NOW, I'M CLOSING A CHAPTER
IN MY LIFE.
I'VE LOST 40 POUNDS, AND I FEEL
ABSOLUTELY AMAZING, AND I'M
READY TO JUST FORGIVE YOU AND
LET THIS WHOLE THING GO AND MOVE
ON WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT THE
BAGGAGE OF SHAFRAZ AND THE
THINGS THAT HE SAID TO ME
WEIGHING ME DOWN ANY LONGER.
WELL, I'M GONNA HEAD OFF RIGHT
NOW.
>> TAKE CARE.
>> YOU TOO.
>> I GUESS A LOT OF THE THINGS I
SAID...REALLY IMPACTED HER IN A
NEGATIVE WAY, AND FOR THAT, I AM
SORRY.
>> I GET TO START, LIKE, MY NEW
LIFE.
I GET TO CLOSE A CHAPTER OF MY
OLD LIFE AND THEN MOVE FORWARD
NOW.
TIME FOR ME TO START DATING.
[ LAUGHS ]
THIS IS DEFINITELY A
LIFE-CHANGING EXPERIENCE.
I GOT A HEALTHY, VERY FIT, LEAN
BODY.
REMEMBER TO BREATHE.
[ CHUCKLES ]
BUT THEN I ALSO GOT CLOSURE FROM
A PAST RELATIONSHIP, AND IT TOOK
ME FROM BEING THIS ANGRY,
CONFUSED PERSON BACK INTO THE
NEESHA I USED TO BE, AND I THINK
I'M READY TO START LOOKING FOR
LOVE.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>> I'M EXCITED TO BE ABLE TO
LIVE MY LIFE, TO NOT FEEL LIKE
I'M THE FAT GIRL.
>> NICE. I LIKE THAT. SEXY.
>> THIS JOURNEY HAS FINALLY
ALLOWED ME TO GET A FOOT INSIDE
OF THE PLUS-SIZED MODELING
WORLD.
I'M IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA.
I'M TOTALLY CONFIDENT.
I'M WORKING IT.
IT'S WHERE I BELONG.
[ CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS ]
>> MY BEST FRIEND, HE'S LIKE,
"WE SHOULD MAKE A FAN PAGE AND
SEE HOW MANY LIKES WE GET FOR
HOW BIG VANESSA IS."
>> NANCY STARTED POSTING RUDE
THINGS ONLINE ALL THE TIME, AND
CYBER-BULLYING IS, LIKE, A BIG
THING.
KIDS KILL THEMSELVES OVER STUFF
LIKE THAT.
>> PRODUCERS HIRED AARON TO WORK
P.R. FOR JENNI PULOS.
>> YOU BLEW IT! YOU BLEW IT.
>> HI, AARON.
ARE YOU FEELING HUMILIATED?
>> WHAT?!
>> NANCY THINKS SHE'S INVITED TO
BE A HOT EXTRA IN A TOO SHORT
MUSIC VIDEO.
SHE MADE ME FEEL DISRESPECTED,
I'M GONNA MAKE HER FEEL
DISRESPECTED.
>> TO GET MORE REVENGE, GO TO
oxygen.com.