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That Time of Night
That Time of Night by Sergi Páez
The Photoelectric Effect and Travelling in Space-Time by Albert Einstein [Handwritten: "Not yet, genius"]
Oh, Albert, Albert...
You're getting ahead of yourself.
Finally, I find you!
How did you find my room?
I've been searching for half an hour.
The TARDIS is infinite! I've passed hallways, libraries and bathrooms.
I've walked the whole length of the Zoo twice. Why do you keep so many animals?
I'm doing a friend a favour.
He didn't finish the ark in time. Can't sleep?
Isn't it obvious?
Yeah, yes it is. You should have joined me for milk and biscuits.
Come, sit beside me.
Maybe if you'd let me take off this hat. It doesn't even match.
My TARDIS, my rules.
Did you know that there are tiny creatures that live in dust
and feed off your dreams through your hair roots while you're sleeping?
No...
Of course not, there aren't.
You're an idiot.
But there could be! One must be cautious.
What's worrying you?
I woke up all of a sudden.
I had a dream. One of those recurring ones.
One of those so vivid, that it seems like a memory or something.
I woke up and got myself thinking.
It's that time of night, when you toss and turn in bed, Ha, yes.
and you either fix the world or wallow in misery.
And did you fix the world or wallow in misery?
I thought about today.
About Mum and Dad and that whole madness with the Cybermen.
And Mickey. Especially about Mickey.
I understand that he's gone. Now...
Now that you've lost him, you miss him.
No. No. I mean, yes, I miss him.
The thing is, I lost him a long time ago, but it never hit me until now.
What did?
That I was awful to him.
I left. With you.
And he waited for me, for a year. And then I left again.
I didn't realise that while I kept coming and going, he still loved me...
And while I enjoyed myself travelling and living,
he could only die inside a little more everyday,
asking himself if I was going to come back and, of course, if I still loved him.
And do you still love him?
Yes. Well, in my own way. But it's not the same thing.
Distance cools things.
Think that we're like fire for others.
A beacon that keeps them warm and safe in our light.
If we move away, two things are inevitable: Firstly, we grow colder.
Secondly, if the fire is not tended to, it goes out.
That's what all relationships are like.
Consider that you've also changed, Rose. You no longer look for the same things.
With you it'd be different...
What?
Loving you.
I mean, don't misunderstand me...
No, no, no, I get it.
I mean, we're travelling now, and what I'd need to find is someone more like, I don't know....
Like you.
Yeah...
Remember what I was like before I changed? Yeah, I know, I was fantastic.
No, I mean my temperament. My personality.
Yes. I'm not like that anymore.
Same Doctor, different person.
Not just outside changes, the inside too.
That what Time Lords are like.
Imagine what to love must be like for us. Or would be, rather.
You could find the most wonderful woman in the world.
Fall in love, and her with you.
You could even get married and live with her for years and years...
But, at the moment of death...
What if she regenerated into a completely different person,
so much, that she didn't love you anymore?
Someone new, who looks for something different in their partner.
Then you'd love her and she wouldn't love you back, and you'd have to live with that agony.
But that's so sad...
Yeah, it is.
That's why I had such a depressing childhood.
You grew up with Cinderella, The Princess Bride...
For me it was The Angel with the Stone Heart and The Tragedy of Time and the Lady.
There you have another burden of my species...
Love.
Rose, you also regenerated when you travelled.
You've changed, in your own way. And it's understandable that you might not love him anymore,
same as he will one day stop loving you since you moved away from his beacon.
Mickey is in another universe, looking after his grandmother, where he's needed. But...
Rose Tyler, remember that where was once a beacon, embers remain,
and that fire can flare up if you rekindle it.
Well...
You could always fall in love with someone you know won't change,
who will always love you.
No.
That would be cruel. And hard, too.
Cruel and hard, I'd never do it.
But to love, for me, in any form, is hard.
Roses wilt while all I can do is keep running.
I can't allow myself to keep one forever.
Because one day its last petal will fall and its magic will break.
And it will hurt.
Like in Beauty and the Beast.
Like in Beauty and the Beast.
~ Beauty and the Beast ~
Will I ever see him again?
Perhaps.
He's in another universe and the TARDIS can't cross universes just like that.
However, Mickey is a link between the two and you only need one to be able to cross into the other.
A link, like an object, to be able to go back.
And he's more than that. He's Mickey-ricky-mick.
He'll manage to get back one day.
I hope he does. If you don't love me, I'll get him to love me again. And me him.
He'll just have to get used to living in the TARDIS and not get jealous,
because I'm going to stay with you forever.
I don't want to go.
Nor do I, Rose. Nor do I.
Wait, Lawrence! I'm not ready yet!
Geronimo!
To be continued in Mother's Day