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This is review about life review
Which is a recording that I've downloaded Nfrom Eqafe.com
The description will show you the link
Also where you will find this particular recording
This recording is about
Self-Pride
It was
Quite
Astonishing what I've heard in there
And that's why are making this reviewNbecause I know there are a lot of other people
Who actually
Could benefit from listening to thisNinterview
And so I will share a little bit of myNlife
As to why
It was important for me to hear this
Life Review
So what is a Life Review
Let's get into that first... Well a Life Review is Nactually
Someone who passed away and are showing
Some point which have
Influenced their lives in such a degree
That they would look back at their lives and
Let's say regret it or
Wanted to
Be able to do it again
If they would able to be
If they could turn back the hands of time
Which unfortunately is not so
And which is something that I...
At times also wish that I could do
And so this particular interview isNabout uh... Self-Pride
Uh... Before I get into that aN little bit more uh...
Some might think: Well...
You know... Someone who passed away
Has left that Life Review... What's going on???
What's that kind of ***??
Well you should just listen to it andNactually hear what is being said
Instead of judging the material... You knowN Even people who would look for a
Message in any kind of hollywood movieNwhich is
Just fictional
Would also be able to get
A sense of
For something to change within theirNlives
Even in Disney movies or in pictures... You now...
So don't...
uh... Let that...
Hold you back in...
Looking...
For ways to improve yourself and toNunderstand yourself...
So this particular Vid... uh... recordingNwas about Self-Pride...
uh...
This is something that...
uh... I...
Have really trouble with...
Within my life...
For instance I would always look forNexternal...
Forces or external...
Factors to...
To make sure that I'm could be proud ofNmyself you know...
Get a good looking girl friend or...
Having something to really...
Between quotes "Brag about"... Something thatNreally make me feel good about myself
Something that I thought was
Giving me some Self-Worth...
uh...
But eventually...
Like most things in life...
Such phases will come to pass and...
And when such a phase come to pass there isNsomething that you might
Miss afterwards
Your experience
Only a external factor...
It was caused due to an external factor and it was not you in fact who was actually...
Here as the point of Self-Pride
So... It was just an illusion...
And I know that are a lot of peopleNwho will come to an age where they are...
Looking back in regret and their lives N and looking... Asking themselves what did I...
Do wrong?
What is it that I'm...
Not seeing what is it that I'm missing...
Well this point of Self-Pride has actuallyNbeen...
Shown to me by a lot of people...
And...
uh...
That's my cat...
And a lot of people said to me like... wellNwhy don't you take pride in and things...
You know...
Why it's always so depressing...
Stuff like that and...
I really didn't know it just...
Didn't feel good and when I didNsomething that I thought it would make
me proud of myself...
It actually didn't and only made things worse...
and so what I've come to learn through this Life Review was that...
there is a point at which I haven'tNconsidered...
and that is that I've taken some things
Quite personally
within and completing tasks or doingNsomething
for instance
at school
and very judgmental towards myself
and this point has been involved to suchNa point to such a degree that
that I'm now at a age of
twenty-eight almost twenty-nine
have to correct myself to make sure thatNi will be able to
continue walking
with a process that's actually
not better myself but be moreNcomfortable with me with things that I
do
things that i'd like to do but i didn'tNdo it anymore because
there was always this point that made me feelNmiserable
and what I've discovered through writing some Self-Forgiveness
Not familiar with Self-Forgiveness
uh... there's a lot of material about it
and especially look at the
Desteni material
about self-forgiveness because
There is a point of self-forgiveness which is
something
something that you could find on theNinternet which is
not the same as
the Self forgiveness that i'm talkingNabout so
my perspective is look at the
material Desteni about Self-Forgiveness
so what i actually did with Nself-forgiveness
which is
like giving yourself the opportunityNto
peel off
all the layers
to come to that deeper point
underneath the point
i discovered that
I actually took things quite
personally at a very young age
when i was for instance
just learning how to write
uh... at school you would get grades for it like okay it's it looks
looks good or
uh... looks perfect or you still have to
have to do some work for it to
master it
and uhm...
i've always been aware of that point
it always make me laugh because i was looking at it
sel;f-judgments
and not seeing what
actually the problem was that in that
uh...
so what i did as a kid I was notNwriting very well
in the sense that it was really scratchyN it was really
unreadable
and i get my best in it
and uhm
that was it
really good and uh...
the way that i wrote was just unreadableNor well
barely readable
if you did your best you could actually read what i was writing
but after a time i always got grades forNthat
and
these grades were first like okay
like okay it's okay
but then after a while with was like
this is not good enough
i don't know what the word is inNenglish
just keep it that it was not goodNenough that i have to try harder
so actually got really fed up with thatNbecause i couldn't get it much
better
with the rules that i was given
and um...
what I did was
everytime that i had to uh...
deliver a paper or something that i written to the teacher
I already wrote my grade
underneath it like
it's not good enough
this is bad
this is what i wrote it down
down there
to and provoke
a reaction from my
teacher actually to see
i cannot do in better like this or iNneed more help or something's wrong
or
and just give me more
practical advice said that i and able to
to do is right
because this is my best i can not do itNlike
better than this
and uh... because i really got fed upNwith it but
these ques of me
actually
the situation i didn't know that i wasNdoing it like
for that reason
it's only now that i'm
looking back and actually can see what iNwas doing but in that moment I was just
really fed up with myself and the wholeNschool system and everything that i had
to do at school
so i'd just graded myself
which was: "this is not good enough"
"this is really bad"
and i know that one time
one-time my teacher said you don't
have to do that you must
just
uh... delivered the paper and do not gradeNyourself
because it's not necessary
but with that
actually due to me
I was like
i know already which are giving me soNwhy shouldn't i write it down there
myself
and uh... this interview about Nself-pride actually made me understand
what was the
reason for
this to happen what i didn't consideredNthrough a whole life
throughout all these
years that i've
been here on earth
i didn't look at that point anymore
this was something that i
looking back at
and just laughing about myself how
uh...
stupid it really was to be
like that
stupid in a sense of like
if you would hear such sstory toNsomebody else you might
be laughing about it you know how "HowNsomeone be so judgmental how come someone"
take it that personally?"
but i did that
and it has influenced my whole life
to such a degree that
now i'm twenty-eight almost twenty nine
that i really have to correct myself within the point because
when you get at a point where you feelNstagnated that you see there is no
progress no process anymore for you
really want to change
get the most out of yourself but youNdon't know what you don't know why
this one of the reasons and i actuallyNenjoy listening to the Life Reviews
because
there's a lot of stuff in there that
you haven't considered
and you haven't considered it
understanding yourself and understandingNother people
so
if this points somewhere resonates withNyou
but you cannot take pride in anythingNlike everything is just like
low down
nothing is really lifting you you up
cannot find any completion
fulfillment
this is really the interview to look at
and i'm not quite done with correctingNmyself because this is
I just listen to it yesterday
now making this blog/vlog
but it made a tremendous
uh... difference in the way that i seeNthat i have to give myself direction as
so uh... enjoy
see the link here underneath in the video
it's quite cool
and
if you might have any questions about meNand how i'm
now processing it
you can always leave for question
or look me up
somewhere else you know my name