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Hi this is Jamie with FOSDP
We are live here at the Arc Theatre
For the first annual Fearless Women's Conference
This Jamie with FOSDP and I'm here with Author
Of this phenomenal book Christa Black
God love Ugly, you also have the song which I listed too it's phenomenal
l'm so excited
To be, I didn't even think I was going to have chance to talk with you but
To hear her speak you guys, you're so authentic
And transparent you don't see that a lot
When did you start?
You know when was that moment that process that you
Felt that you came to know that you could be real and standup before people and give your true testimony
My very first memories of life were ***
I thought if anybody ever sees who I really am they'll reject me and then you end up
Just performing
And you have to be perfect all the time otherwise it means that you're not gonna
Be loved
so um... a huge part of my healing was
Being healed in areas that I could finally then turn around and go man
I can tell everybody about this and there's no shame involved
because i'm still loved
And so the more that I would actually you know give away all of my secrets
basically I just give all my secrets away but the more I gave them away the more I had no shame
I was still loved and not only that people were always coming up to me going i thought i was the only one
so that's the way that kinda of the enemy works is
when you keep things in secret
and you keep you know you keep things in shame you think O I'm only one who struggles
with this. So i love telling testimony testimony means do it again
And it means when share... my testimony in front of everyone. Yea God do it again do the same things again in somebody else's life
I love that...and you were honest about depression
And I know a lot of America
suffers, has suffered is suffering with depression
but you also touched on that you can be healed you said that society tells us that its
life long process you may never get out of that
Speak to that, that there is healing in that
Well I was told, you know I was in rehab for my eating disorder
And they said well here's your pill
and um...
I took my medication for awhile and you know there
There saying for it was, the medication will help you get to a point
Where you can actually cope
With what you're dealing with and I think that that's fine but a lot of people use
medication solution and it's not the solution it masks the problem so the whole
Point of medication is to get you to a point where you can actually begin to
Deal with the issue
And then actually move past it get healed to where you don't need of it anymore
because for me addiction was kind of my main means of control
And how I managed the pain I would always
Use substance abuse to numb myself. So for me
Dealing with the food addictions and then the drugs and alcohol and then
You know medication would
Would just be another way that I would be trying to fill myself with something
to to get a false sense of security and happiness
It really wasn't solving any problems when I opened the bible it says really
radical promises like
Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is
Freedom total freedom
So I knew that if that promise was available to me
Then it was, it was my inheritance this side of heaven and I wasn't going to stop until I was seeing it manifest in my life
Now what would you say to someone who is still suffering from depression but they're new to the faith
And you have given; you told us in the session which they will see a little bit you won't get to
See all of what happened today i'm sorry but it was really great
but you told us in the session that you can't really
Give love to someone else unless you really loving, loved yourself what
Would you say to someone who's new to the faith? There suffering with depression and
they feel like
They don't see what you; they don't see that end goal of getting healed from that
They don't see what you're saying that
it can happen
Well I would say first of all stop focusing on the depression
You know a negative only produces another negative
so when I would focus on the
Food
I was focusing on the problem and then it always catapulted or if I focused on the
depression then what happened I'd get more depressed
Focusing on the depression focusing on the problem never solves anything
but focusing on the solution changes everything
so if
When I was struggling with depression
It was just that i didn't believe I was lovable
And I was tormented just by fear and anxiety and worry
Self-hatred insecurity and just the depression of
Not being able to get free
and not knowing how to get out
so the more that I started focusing on
The promises on the solution
On who I was in Christ on what he'd done for me
I said it in the message but
So much of our teaching is behavioral modification
And you can't change yourself I couldn't change myself
I had to come into the realization that I wasn't getting free I already was free
I wasn't becoming righteous I already was righteous and once I started viewing
myself as that. I don't have an eating disorder I don't have depression anymore it's been paid for
It's in the ground
It was paid for on the cross he died not for me but as me he died as my
Depression
I started focusing on
all the promises all the things that he'd done
and he said that I was going to have joy
he said that I was gonna have peace he said that I was loved and that I was gonna have relationship
The more I focused on the solution my
life began to look that way because I was having experiences with those things I was believing
And they were manifesting in my life
Can I ask you a question
You've had so much success you've written for
you written for Jordin Sparks you've worked with the Jonas Brothers you've sold more
than Three Million in platinum record sales
During those times did you suffer with
depression. Was this before you got the success
Because a lot of times people feel like when they get to the dream things will get better
That's such a lie...[right] you kind of spoke to that
Today in your speaking and was really clarifying for me. I watched a movie last night that talked
about that
You spoke about that today and then someone else talked about that two days ago so that's three times that
i've heard
Someone say that
Because we think that once we get
The dream is fulfilled, once we get that house the car were going to be happy
You talked about how you sold the records worked with some of the greatest
Jordin Sparks the Jonas Brothers
So you've have experienced what success is
and a lot of the times we feel like even me sometimes
Once I get what I've been praying for my life will be better speaks to our
audience tell
them how that's not
Necessarily true
And how they can because sometimes I think we can come to hear you today
And still walk away
Face a problem tomorrow and not have those same feelings
So is that clear [yea] speak to our audience about how to
Work through those feelings? Well I think the biggest thing
That... helped me work through or solve that problem because
you know i'm a visionary so i'm always looking to the next thing and then I get
there and it wasn't enough. There would always be something up
Ahead that I would want and then always something and so
you know to realize that that the journey
is actually the destination
The process that you're in right now is the goal
So you're your current journey of going I'm walking out my freedom from
depression
Your current journey of i'm in the midst of walking out of my eating disorder walking out my
anger walking out, that is the goal
You only have grace for today that's it
There is only grace for today and so many times we're looking forward to that
next thing
When really
If we just look at what's in our hands right now and we're faithful with what what's
In our hands and we realize that I just have grace for today
then
Every single day becomes in fullness
I live in fullness now because I live every moment. The journey that I'm on right
now this is the destination
Christa right here
This moment is the destination of my life. So you stop
having expectations of yourself
you know going O I need to be more. I need to do this its like this is where I am
Right now. I'm
going to live it in fullness
I'm going to live it as in all the promises that can
and I wrote God love's Ugly. When I wrote that song
I didn't write it
Experiencing it
I wrote it in faith, I wrote it going know this is true and I'm going to sing it until it is true manifesting
In my life and so I was still in the process of learning what it meant to be loved into
Wholeness when I wrote that song
but now when I sing it I have
A lot of authority in that area
because I'm living it. Saying it until it became part of my mainframe until it became a part of
my being
Until when I sing it now
I'm already free. I'm here to get you free
Your awesome, ok so
I've got the book
and I want our audience to get the book. Tell them what they can expect?
from this book? Why should they buy "God Loves Ugly"?
Well I wanted a very
practical book with
practical steps towards getting people free from anything, from fear anxiety
worry I mean those things are just as much
Bondage somebody who looks in the mirror and goes I hate what I see every single day that's
just as much bondage as depression addiction eating disorders cutting
whatever it is
So i wanted to write a book that very
practically
moved people from point A to point B
and I break things down I mean you heard me speak. I want it to be very visual I want it to
be very simple I want to give people practical things that they can apply to their life
because I want people's lives
To not go 'O, I just read a book it was fabulous but they take it and
there's things that they're doing
on an on-going process
To walk into the fullness of that freedom. So it's a book but it's also kind of a
it's also study guide, it's also at the end of each chapter there's your
turn sections and now it's like your life not going to change unless you take the
Reigns and you do these things because it will change your life
It's all about being very intentional toward living in the fullness of freedom
Well I could talk to you all day, your just wonderful
I want to thank you for being humble in taking the time to speak with me
I pray that you guys will go out there and get
this book
It's very very good and she's really really real which is rare
You don't find that often
Hey guys, so I know you enjoyed Christa Black?
Wasn't she wonderful?
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