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It's really difficult
to explain or having to explain
to people that I don't really have, that I don't have, a British accent.
What I might have
is a Colonial British accent.
A British colonial accent.
A British colonial accent is
a pattern of speech, or the British colonial
pattern of speech is a pattern of speech
where people who were born and raised
in lands
that'd been former British colonies.
And I was
born and raised in a couple of
British colonies, former
British colonies. I really prefer to know
and believe that I have a pan-American
a pan-American pattern of,
speaking in, speaking English. Because of
the many places that I've been to and
worked in, but
with heavy influences
from
British colonial sources.
Everyone has an accent. So, mine is not so different
from yours, right? So,
I'm also really
bemused, amused by
many people in this country
who would simply associate
a pattern of speech
with which they're
unfamiliar, or in this country
a pattern of speech which you're not familiar with
as a British accent. Anything,
any accent that you find peculiar
you will say, "Hey, it's the
British accent!" Which is kind of amusing
and silly. Peculiarly, there was
once a man who said
that he was born and raised in London
but who speaks with
a very American
pattern of speech or accent.
with slight, some slight British
elements but has never been
but to this day has never been
back to London for 30 years.
And he came and asked
me, "Are you from London?" I think that
someone who's been out of touch with London
should not have the qualification
to judge whether I have a London accent. Which I don't.
I think he's lost touch with London
for so many years that he has
no qualification
to say that I have London accent. I haven't been to London
but once in my lifetime. Just once in my lifetime.
It's a really
enjoyable place and the way
they speak over there
has no semblance to the way I speak.
So, anyway, I know that
many people
say, or in fact most people do not understand us
us as in autistic people,
tend to say that we pick up
on accents or patterns of speech
very easily and then reproduce
those patterns of speech without
understanding the
emotional, or psychological
implications and background to those speeches but
simply reproduce a
a certain pattern of speech out of the blue
which is incongruent to the situation at hand
and that we do not understand the pattern speech that we are reproducing
which I would like to tell you normal people
that you are wrong. It's that
you normal people have mapped
a certain pattern of
speech to certain emotional background
and we who
on born outside
your normal emotional
box, outside your box,
and when, when we pickup on
certain pattern of speech we remap that
to our own you emotional and mental states.
Some people say that
we don't have emotions which may be true but
actually is not true. We do
have emotions, but
emotions are distinctly
different. We
have a different emotional structure
which you normal people
find unusual
or divergent from
what his normal. So when we
reproduce a pattern of speech, we do
have deliberate intentions to
express our mental states that we have mapped
those mental states to the nuances
of certain patterns of speech. And to us
that it's, it is not a strange or incongruent.
It is there that whatever we want to
express in right in that
pattern of speech. You just find it unusual because
your mental mapping is different from mine.
So, you can't say that my
...
that I do not understand the pattern of
speech that I reproduce. You cannot say that.
You cannot. It is really insensitive that
you normal people say
and I do not understand the patterns of
speech that I reproduce. It's very, I think it's offensive
because you say, you're saying that I am,
I am a dumbo.
that my mind
is empty. That I do not understand what I'm
doing. It is a kind of
offensive. You just ...
To me I see the same way you know that
I see the pattern of speech
of normal humans as incongruent.
Why would you use such a pattern of speech
for such an
a mental state or such a
an emotional background. Why I don't ...
but I've learned that
well, I used to question it when I was young
I'm used to find that
a lot of, the people around me, the way they speak
is, the way they express is
different from this, and necessarily ...
not unnecessary, is mismatched with the situation that I see.
That I would not have said
things or expressed things in such a pattern
because it does not match
the mental state or emotional background
that is at hand. So, too I see
that you normal people
do not understand what you are saying.
So, but as I grew older, as I've grown older
I have learned not to question
I've taken it for granted that, Yup,
that I don't find the way people speak,
as most people speak as
matching to their emotional status.
S, I'm saying that you
normal people should not say I don't understand
what I'm, that I don't understand the pattern of speech that
I'm reproducing.
I can't change the way spell those words like color
for example. C-O-L-O-U-R is
how I have to spell it.
I can't change the way I pronounce many words
Can't change my grammatical structure because
they have been my
emotional foundation, have been the foundation of
my mental states which I've built
from young.
I can't change them. Not that I can't change them,
I can, but I would have to spend another 10 years
rebuilding my emotional and mental
framework.
Which I can't afford the time. I can't
afford. Why would I want to
spend another 10 years of uncertain
communication ability
just so that I could satisfy people who are not
happy with the way I pronounce,
the way I spell.
I'm gettin old. I need to enjoy my life.