Tip:
Highlight text to annotate it
X
Hey, y'all it's me Anna!
So today's episode is called real talk and I'm basically going to be showing you guys that you're not alone
I know that there is a
Lot of times these days that we get to feeling alone anxious worried lonely sad all those
negative emotions
Can just completely overtake us, and it's not a good feeling
But I just want to discredit that for y'all real quick, so I'm going to start off by saying you're never alone ever
Hebrews 13:5 says
He will never leave you nor forsake you He
Loves you and cares for you, so
I wanna remind you that
When you're is 4 o'clock in the morning and
You're up and you're crying and you're upset and you feel alone
No matter what
You have His full attention. He's listening to you. He cares for you. It was so great
Is that he's not going to be that person so while you're trying to tell them everything that you feel or you're laying it down
He's not going to be that person who's checking snapchat or going through Instagram, or Facebook or
Texting their other best friends no He's there He's actively listening and participating in the conversation
Whether you know it or not, and He's a great listener. He takes into account everything to say and
He's not going to be that one who spills all your secrets, He tells other people
what you're feeling what you're thinking He keeps it to himself, and that's such a great thing because
You know He also knows what you're thinking
So whatever you say doesn't surprise Him at all. He's not like oh my God. I can't believe she feels that way
No, He's got he's not surprised by anything. He's actually
Pretty used to how your mind works considering He made you and that comforts me so much when I am in an active prayer
Conversation with God you know because prayer supposed to be a conversation with God it's not like a speech or a one-way street
it's a two-way street and
What I love about that is that God isn't going to sit there and say you know that's not the case
You know that's not how it really is because he knows how your mind works
So instead of discrediting everything that you say all down the list
He's just going to say
Okay, I see how you feel that way 'cause He gets it. He knows you
He knows how you work he gets your psyche, and I think that's the most beautiful things that the person who created the entire universe
like everything that we see and that we don't He created and He
Created you He created me and He cares for us so much that he made us in his image
and I think that's really great, and that's really something and
I'm just gonna go ahead and say I've been through some very dark places, so I'm
completely authorized to talk about this like it's
Not always sunshine and roses with me y'all I have been in some very dark places. I've felt alone
I've been scared. I've been anxious. I deal with anxiety like on the daily y'all okay?
I mean I've been up at 4:00 a.m.. Sometimes crying because I'm like God. I don't I don't know what to do
I'm lost
And I've been at a loss for words sometimes
So I pray and I'll just say Dear God and then I'll just sit there and complete silence
I'll just sit there because I won't know what to say I'll just be weeping and what I think is so great. Is that you know
While we sit there while we cry
We can sit there in the stillness and know that He is good
You know we can sit there and to stillness and in the silence and know that even in this
He hears our every thought unless that friend is going to go and gossip and like that person
He was going to go and turn back around and hurt us
He's just listening. He's just listening
and He doesn't you know and
He knows what's gonna happen. He knows what is going to happen to us in the future and
What, another thing that I think is just so great is that He
Understands, you know He understands how we feel because he's been here. He's been on Earth. He's been rejected. He's been denied
He was crucified
For our sins for our transgressions. You know He bore them on the cross for us and
So He knows what it feels like to take the blame for something He didn't do
He knows what it feels like to be crucified and hurt
Physically mentally emotionally in every sense of it He cried out to his father in
The Garden you know and he just said why, why, why, why, we know that
So it's like we can't say God you don't know how we how we feel we don't like to think He does he knows exactly
how we feel and
That's another thing like when I feel alone when I feel sad or depressed or hurt
What helps me is saying
God, I know you know exactly how I feel because and I'm like what I'm feeling is completely normal and
what you're feeling is completely normal and
It may not be the best feeling in the world it may not be pleasant. It could be downright just
Hurtful
Somebody could have hurt you
you know
Something could have happened in your family or in your friends group that could have killed you and that's one thing about me that I
Think is so important
I've never had a friends group
So I'm also talking to that person who maybe has one or two friends because that's been me my whole life
I've never
Just had this huge group of friends who I went places with
who I did things I never
Really had that in my life. I've always had one or two close friends. I was always without what they thought to call a floater
So I never really had like a group of people that would always be at my house always be pulled up in my driveway
You know always be listening to and caring about me
And I never had that one person or two people who listened and cared and that's it
And there's nothing wrong with that either
I didn't quite know where I belong I still don't really know where I belong, and that's okay. You know
It's okay, you never I mean
There are people older than me who don't know where they belong, and it's fine that's completely okay too
I'm a floater. I like different things and you know what who cares?
Its 2017 y'all we can like different things we can have different interests and
You know God created all of us to be unique. God created all of us to have our own opinions about things
God created all of us to feel a certain way about certain issues and
I
Think that's another thing that is so beautiful. He didn't create us all with you know
As one like-minded person or one like-minded
being or society he created us with all different opinions, and they're all beautiful and
You know they're not always right
but
You know He created us to be our own people to be our own individual and I think that sometimes
that's what leads to a lot of, just, hurt this rejection this pain that we go through in life, but
You know even when this happens even when we feel lonely and anxious and sad actually like when I'm alone
And we have to remember that God knows what's going to happen He holds our future in His very hands
He's been there, and you know what else and this is what
Inspires me the most and helps me through those rough days the most. God
Knows what's going to happen
Nothing surprises Him nothing, nothing at all. There's nothing you could say or do in this minute
That would surprise Him and He knows what you're about to say He knows our future. You know for me
I've been very anxious about my future being in college I'm about to be a Sophomore in college
So I'm stressed out about that, and I'm worried. I'm anxious. I'm sad
I don't know what I'm going to be doing in my life and
I'm going to be really transparent that scares the heck out of me that I don't know
What I'm going to be doing in a couple of years
But what I do know is that
Whatever it is. It's going to be His purpose for me, and that is what keeps me strong and
that should keep you strong too whatever happens. It's God's plan and it's fine
Everything is fine. Take a deep breath
lastly I just want to
Ask you guys if you've ever heard the song "Pieces by Amanda Cook
If not, go look it up after this
It's such a beautiful song it's what got me through this year
One of the lyrics says "you don't give your heart in pieces. You don't hide yourself to tease us," and this is such a great reminder because
So many people give their heart in pieces. They say okay, you can have this little piece and you can have this little piece
but there's
Nobody who loves us like the Lord will not our parents or our friends on our teachers not our peers nobody's going to love us
like the Lord does nobody's going to love us so completely and so wholly and
Nobody's going to love us for who we are
flaw after flaw after flaw after flaw like God does
nobody's going to love us the way He does and
You know He's not going to just say I only love you this much. He loves you
Beyond our understanding
He's the only one who can truly fathom how much he loves us because it is that much this flawed
disgusting ugly sinful person that we are
He doesn't love it
But He loves us and that
Is so beautiful we are His creation sin is disgusting but He came
To right our wrongs. He came to fix it and
that should encourage us, and He
He doesn't hide Himself to tease us He's not going to say "Oh, It's Friday night. Oh, it's early in the morning"
Oh, He's here Friday, Friday night, Saturday night all day Sunday all day Monday, all day Tuesday, all day, all day
Every day 24/7 He's there he's listening to you when you cry, He holds your hand. He's not going to be surfing through Facebook
He's going to be listening to every last word you say and actively working things out for your good
Because he works for the good of those who love him and He wants what's best for you, so next time
When you're like me
and when you feel alone
When you feel like you don't have anybody when you don't know what to say or to talk to just cry out to Him
Even if you don't say anything at all even if you sit in silence even if you crawl for an hour two hours hour-and-a-half
Whatever however long even if you're sitting there crying
He knows what every tear is for and He will dry every single tear
so I just want to remind you guys of that today because that's just so encouraging and it makes me so happy to talk about that and
I'm going to post a link to my blog in the description
Below so be sure to click on that and be sure to like and subscribe
And I love you guys very much have a blessed day