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And I don't know if I was holding my breath or not I just have no
idea but after a few minutes or whatever time it was, whatever time frame it was
I ceased being aware
of the fact that I was in trouble and there was this undertow
and I was in a state...
I was in a state of in the water
and unable to get out. I'm in the water and I can't get out
and then I'm drowning and I really felt like I was drowning.
The panic that grabbed me
when it was happening to me was gone and I was in
a state that...
I was asking myself, "Why didn't I call for help?" and it was dark
you know then and then I began to see
these pictures of me.
These little frames of me and
I was seeing me look at these pictures of me
and when that happened I kept saying
and I don't know if I said, "Oh God." but I said, "I'm really sorry I didn't ask for help." I
said I'm..
I kept repeating "I'm sorry I didn't ask for help." I meant to call out for
help
and it was as if I was apologizing
for drowning, for not trying to
get help to save myself and
somehow
those pictures..
The pictures stopped going by and the whole thing was
me again and not struggling but when I looked up I could see
the water.
I could see the top of the water. I wasn't up yet but I could see the top of
the water
and I stopped being afraid because I said, "We'll if that's the top of the water
I'm okay." and I swear I don't remember struggling,
or coughing, or gasping
but as soon as I... and that was the top of the water.
I got back to it and I started swimming and
I went back to my..where my folks were and they said..my father said, "It's a beautiful day."
and my mother said, "Did you have a good swim?" and I said, "It was great."
It was me
watching me it was me watching me but I could see
me watching me. I could see you know the me
looking at these frames of me, little
frames away from me, too far from me. I couldn't do anything with them they
were just there for me.
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