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Dear Brother
A golden bowl, on the right hand
A silver bowl, on the left
Never equal without the other
Those two bowls in each of us;
Those two invisible bowls.
The golden bowl, filled with happiness
Shines with a warm radiance
The overflowing love I've felt since I met you
Couldn't possibly be held in the golden bowl
A golden rapture,
A silver sadness
Let us lay down everything that has passed
So that only you may be held, So that only love may be held,
Let us empty those twin bowls.
Maybe it would be better if you knew?
I had a partial mastectomy.
Five years.
There's no more hope if I have a relapse within five years.
That's why we broke up.
That's why I broke up with a person I still loved.
I don't know if I'll survive or not.
I didn't want to burden my lover's life.
I believed that if I loved him, that is all the more reason to break up.
I think I did the right thing. I won't regret.
Sorry. I shouldn't have told you this after all.
But isn't it curious?
You're not connected by blood, yet somehow you resemble him.
What?
Maybe I'm telling you all this
because you're Takehiko's sister.
Si-sister?
What do you mean, 'sister'?
So you never knew! S-sorry...
I'm...
I'm brother's sister?
How?!
Episode 37 Carousel.
Sorry, I'm sorry.
I naturally thought you were aware of this
and that's why you were exchanging letters with him.
I don't know. I never knew such thing.
You see, Takehiko is...
Dad, Mom...
Yes?
Don't you think she's a little late?
Yes.
Let me pour you another cup.
I'm going for a short walk.
To the station?
Ah, no...
I'll call Tomoko in a moment,
so please don't worry too much.
Ah, hmm. You will do that?
Nothing to worry about.
The other day, you see,
It seems Takehiko made a telephone call.
I think he decided to study in Germany.
Germany?
I see...
Why don't you leave this to me? I think it's time.
It would be better for Nanako too, if we told her everything.
If that's what you want...
Brother, I didn't know what to do.
It was all very confusing.
Lady Saint-Just's death,
Prince Kaoru's love, and her scarred body and heart...
On top of it, the issue between Brother and me...
Everything just happened at the same time, I...
I...
Nanako, can I come in?
Nanako, I'm coming in.
Takehiko is the son of Professor Misonoo's ex-wife.
Dear...
I can't. I think it will definitely hurt Nanako, after all.
She's an innocent child.
If she finds out that I abandoned Takehiko and his mother,
she'll suffer for him.
You didn't 'abandon'...
That's what I've done, whatever the reason was.
Dear...
I wonder if I lack courage?
Maybe I'm afraid that Nanako would hate me?
Let me talk to her.
No, absolutely not. That, you shouldn't.
Dad, good morning!
Yeah, good morning.
I'll get you the newspaper.
No matter what,
I decided to ask him anyway.
I thought It wouldn't be late
even if I start thinking
after I ask dad about the truth.
Dad!
How about a short walk, Nanako?
Huh?
Ah, okay!
It was around here.
It was around here, Nanako. Do you remember?
Yes, I remember.
It's where I met Nanako for the first time.
Where I met dad for the first time...
Nanako, you were frightened when you saw me the first time.
It was all because you kept staring at me!
You didn't even say, "Good afternoon".
Well, because...
And Nanako became my daughter since then.
You really became a irreplaceable daughter.
But dad lied, just once,
to my precious Nanako.
Since I kept my mouth shut, it's the same as lying.
The truth is, I have a son.
Before I married your mother,
I had a son with a woman I lived with.
He's seven years older than you, so he would be your stepbrother.
I'll be honest. I haven't met him for 13 years now,
but I love him as much as I love you.
Just like how I always think about you,
there is never a time when I wouldn't think about him.
I'm sorry, Nanako.
Aside from this, I can assure you that
I'm the dad Nanako always knew.
Nanako.
Do you want to meet Henmi Takehiko, Dad?
Nanako!
I'm glad, I'm so glad!
If Dad, If you said you didn't love my brother,
If you were such kind of person, I wouldn't have known what to do.
Nanako!
Dad!
Dad! Dad!
Nanako...
Brother, the sky was so clear in the morning, but it rained in the afternoon.
But I still went out.
I couldn't just sit still, so I went out.
I had to see you no matter what, I had to...
Yes?
What's wrong? You're soaked through.
On that snowy day,
On that snowy day, I told you!
On that snowy day,
On the last day of cram school...
Well, everyone, you should be able to solve this problem in five minutes.
On the day when we said goodbye to you, who were then a teacher,
I braced myself to talk to you,
Being foolishly nervous...
A question? Okay. Which page?
Bro...Bro...Brother,
Please be my brother!
I didn't want a lover or a friend in you. I just wished that
you would read my letter...
Yeah, that's right. I remember clearly.
Can I say it once more?
Huh?
Please be my brother!
After all, you're my real brother!
So mean. You're really mean!
Dad told me
that Takehiko knew
I was his sister, from the very beginning!
You're really so mean!
Sorry. I was planning to tell you sooner or later.
When? When was it?
Ah, no, that's...
You're really mean!
Ah, I'm sorry.
Suppose...
Suppose I never knew
and continued writing to you
and then...
and then didn't feel satisfied with just letters,
and really...
if I really fell in love with you, what would you have done?
Well, I never actually had a boyfriend,
but if I had one, I'm sure I would be very possessive.
But you know, I knew you were my sister right from the beginning...
We're not related by blood.
You never know what would've happened if I got serious!
No, that's why, see...
Ah? What the...?
You got me.
It's raining again!
Rain?
Yes, it's raining again.
I think every time I faced an important day,
it always rained.
Rain, huh?
Now that I think of it, it was raining then, too...
Yes?
N-nothing.
It was raining on that day, too.
I was standing in the rain to see my father, who
got remarried after abandoning my mother and me,
just one last time.
That was when I saw you for the first time. You were so lovely.
Who are you? Who are you?
Your hands were all muddy, and you were holding a red shovel.
And you looked at me with your lovely eyes.
Who are you?
It was barely five minutes.
Bye-bye, Come play again!
Come play again!
Such a long time ago, on a rainy day...
I still remember, even if you might have forgotten.
Misonoo Nanako.
I remember, because since then, I knew I had a sister.
Who are you? Who are you?
-Nanako... -Yes?
No, can I call you "Ms. Nanako" from now on?
I'd prefer just "Nanako".
Brother.
Mr. Henmi Takehiko, who was indeed Nanako's real brother...
A really, really awesome brother.
Cherished by Lady Fukiko, and loved by Prince Kaoru,
and those mysteriously shining dark brown eyes,
reflecting how boyish you are still.
Brother,
Nanako feels so lucky to be your sister.
Really, very lucky.
You see, because you can't fall in love with your brother no matter how awesome he is.
It's a bit frustrating, though.
I'll keep writing, as I did until now.
Nope, I want you to pamper me even more than now.
And one day,
One day, Nanako will definitely meet again
with those mysterious dark-brown eyes, nowhere to be found...
After drafting the letter,
I wrote my own bittersweet, but temporary conclusion,
a mixture of happiness and sadness.
Best regards.
P.S. Of course, I wouldn't post this letter to you.
I'm not sending it!
Yes, this is Henmi.
Hello?
It's you.
I'm sorry.
No problem.
I called, because I had to apologize for just one thing.
Well, I have mountains of things to talk with you.
I thought Misonoo knew, so I thoughtlessly told her
that she is your real sister.
I'm sorry. I've done a useless thing.
Kaoru!
I want to see him...
I miss him!
Rei, I miss him!
Rei, Rei!
The merry-go-round!
Let's try the merry-go-round once more!
-Do you see anything? -Huh?
I can see it. I can see!
Beyond the merry-go-round, beyond the spinning sky...
I can see it. I can see!
Well, what do you see?
My future!
What would unfold from now!
One round, I see tomorrow's myself. Two rounds, myself of the day after.
Three rounds, and...
Well, what will you be tomorrow?
I'll be loving Takehiko even more than today!
The day after, even more than tomorrow!
And the next day, I'll love you even more than the day before!
That's great. Then let's stop the merry-go-round at a good point.
You can't stop it, absolutely not!
Well, I'm in big trouble then!
But now, Rei,
No matter how many times the merry-go-round spins,
I can't see a thing beyond it anymore.
Professor, we have a guest.
Send him in.
Yes, sir.
-Please come in. -Yes.
Thank you for sparing your time for me today.
So you're going to enroll in Schoenberg Graduate School?
Yes.
So I assume you need a recommendation and a reference?
Yes. Your support will be an honour.
Very well. I'll contact you as soon as everything is in order.
-Is that all? -Yes. Thank you very much.
Excuse me...
I'll take my leave here.
Oh, right.
Really, Thank you very much.
Ah, it's nothing.
Please excuse me.
The station!
May I see you off at the station?
Sure!
Well then, shall we go?
-How much? -Yes?
-I'm talking about your height. -185 cm.
-I see... -Yes.
Well, I didn't see you for 13 years, I guess that much is acceptable.
Well then, I should leave that way.
Please excuse me.
Takehiko!
Be strong!
Be strong...!
Yes, Father!
I dreamt an awesome dream last Sunday
But when it saw you,
Surprised, the dream just flew away
I would never lose
So just for you
I have rushed and tried so hard
This feeling of love, staying in my heart
bewildered by the mischievous fairies' game
dances to and fro, always capricious