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Moment of Reflection
TESTIMONY ON A PRAYER
"Reverend Fr:
I'm not going down the many details, but tell me what seems essential,
with a burning desire that the Father, through my testimony,
can attract Merciful to His love many souls who also want to do this same experience.
I'm Religious, by God's grace, and a nurse by profession.
Did a year in March 1984 I had the great fortune to do my annual retreat
with a certain priest and lecturer,
instrument that God used to show me, or rather, to point the way to happiness.
Among all PAI, through him, told us in the holy retreat, I will focus on what touched me most.
It was about the Personal Prayer.
Mr. Father encouraged us to do, besides the prayer of our community, one hour of personal prayer.
Bailed us that anyone who could,
for a year, give an hour a day to the Lord, your life would become altogether.
I confess that I believed this statement.
Today, thanks to the merciful Love of God for me, I can witness it firsthand.
Upon leaving my retreat, the only purpose I did was give an hour daily to the Lord, no matter what.
But, as in my professional career I am subject to a work schedule,
during the day, I can not take an hour so longed.
I decided to ask my permission to Superior to get up an hour earlier than the community
which, by God's grace, I have been granted.
At first, I confess it took me having to get up very early
and yet the most difficult was the feeling of timelessness.
Every day, the same was repeated.
I felt two opposing forces fighting fierce enemies as:
first, my Lord want to give an hour a day;
and second, it seemed to me he was there to lose time.
But as truly believe in the affirmation of Mr. Padre
and I really wanted to give FATHER one hour daily, continued.
I began by invoking the Holy Spirit and do acts of abandonment to God,
acts of God's presence, worship, faith and love, etc..
This, I confess, without feeling the slightest attraction for PAI.
At this time, I tried to give myself totally to the Father with all my faculties,
defects, memories of my many infidelities, not being the most part, able to concentrate,
accustomed as he was to give vent to my fantasy.
From here, after two months
I started to get a little bit inside me and see me full of defects,
the roots of many infidelities that before, not even them did I realize.
I just felt empty. I felt that was not the way that I wanted PAI,
but could not find an exit.
I began to feel an urgent need to repair, to express my love for God and donation total immolation.
All that the Father may require of me is nothing
compared with His Infinite Mercy for me, miserable sinner.
The recognition of my misery before the holiness of a GOD MERCIFUL,
birthed in me the desire to allow more time for personal prayer
and again excused myself to get up even a little earlier (30 minutes)
which again was given me by God's grace.
Currently, I get up at 4.30 am. the morning.
The certainty that I have that my body is the Temple of the Holy Trinity,
makes me live continuously in thanksgiving and adoration.
FATHER I know, to repair my miseries and my brothers,
wished to be reduced to nothing, take upon myself all the sufferings of the world,
give the last drop of my blood like my beloved Jesus at Calvary.
Now I understand St. Teresa of Avila, when he said:
"Oh my God, suffer or die."
I also understand the happiness of the Apostles and Saints in their affliction,
troubles, sufferings of all kinds because of the name of Jesus.
Although I feel even more sinful than before
I feel a happiness, peace and joy capable of challenging the world to do this same experience,
so that all of us, particularly consecrated souls,
we can be truly happy in the Merciful Love of God.
Is this my craving and devouring.
I urge you to not be afraid to forsake entirely in the hands of the Father.
He is not left outdone in generosity.
For our part, just enough to want and believe that He, our Father is doing everything;
we just need to be docile.
This experience is possible for all people who are willing to desinstalarem up
and abandons himself totally in the arms of the Father for what He wants,
like St. Paul on the road to Damascus:
After the horse falls below makes a single question:
"Lord what wilt thou have me to do."
Since July 14, 1984, I added another half hour to the time he had.
Currently I get up at 4 o'clock in the morning.
Sister N.N.
NOTE: asking him these days, the Priest, if, after 1984,
continues with this time of personal prayer daily, Sister replied forcefully:
"By the grace of the Merciful Lord have continued until this year 2012
and keep alive the firm resolve to be faithful to the end of my life. "
And repeat: I am happy, I am happy, I am happy!
My brothers and sisters, indeed, as St. Francis de Sales in our Video
"Introduction to the Devout Life"
not all people may imitate this Sister,
however we all ask for more this great gift the Lord's Prayer.
+ The Blessing of God Almighty, Merciful and Compassionate, Father, Son and Holy Spirit
descend upon you and remain forever. - Amen.