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Well, it was January 6th of 1990 and at that time in my life I was kind of a workaholic.
I went to work at 2 in the afternoon and I got off at 7 o'clock in the morning.
So, I got off work but the night before I will say that I felt like something wasn't
right and I didn't want to drive home that night because I literally lived 45 minutes
away. I told a friend "I'm feeling really uncomfortable! I don't know I just feel strange
like something is going to happen" So she said " Well, my daughter and my nephew's over
there they can ride with you and it will be alright" So, I felt better and I was tired
and this was my 6th day of working like that.
I went and got them and it started off Billy the guy that was driving then finally I'm
like " Hey we're almost home have you been drinking?"
and he's like We'll I did last night and he said well you know it's o.k because it was
snowing and blowing and it was horrible out. So I had said "Go ahead and pull over and
let me drive." and then I started driving and then I didn't even get a mile up the road
and it was snowing and blowing everywhere and then all of a sudden this truck coming
out the other side and it was just like right there. I *** the wheel and the truck ended
up going around us and I ended up jerking the wheel and we started to go down one side
and Billy helped me flip the wheel and we ended up going down the other side which was
a 20 foot embankment literally crashing through trees. The tree came in and took the whole
top of the car off. The steering wheel went through to the back seat and then for quite
some time I was out.
The next thing I know I opened my eyes and I all I seen was snow and blood everywhere
and we were literally trapped out in Michigan. In a place that there was no traffic, no people
way down in this embankment.
The two girls in the back evidently ( but I didn't even remember them being there ) They
somehow climbed out the back and up this embankment both having broken pelvic.
Then I remember sitting in the car and Billy was talking to me "It's going to be o.k, just
stay awake, stay awake!" The next thing I know there was just snow and blood everywhere.
I went forward and when I did that it just took the whole part of my face .. He told
me later that when he sat me back and looked at me he said my face wasn't even there, it
was just blood.
The next that I remember about that was I remember the EMT coming and I remember hearing
the helicopter because they had to get jaws of life and literally I had one lung punctured
and the other collapsed inside this car. We were stuck in there for 3 hours before they
even got us out. By the time they got out to get help, called for help and then the
jaws of life and helicopter arrived. That in its own they don't know how other than
the cold temperatures..and I remember freezing! and he just kept saying "Stay awake! Stay
Awake!"
I remember a cop coming in and he kept trying to talk to me and I was weaving in and out
of consciousness then and then I remember being put up into the helicopter and that's
where all of a sudden I looked and Billy was screaming "Oh my God Don't let her die!" and
the machine was flat lining
And there I am. I'm looking and I knew what was going on yet I didn't realize yet that
was me. I seen him crying "please save her please save her" and I watched them put the
paddles on over and over again and the next thing it was just like boom I don't remember
anything after that as far as what was going on in the physical.
I remember sitting next to him and watching him work on me..but I didn't realize it was
me. All I knew is like man I can't breathe and I went through an immense amount of fear
at first. You know "I don't want to die! I smoke cigarettes! I had a child out-of-wedlock
I'm going to go to hell! I was terrified beyond terrified and thinking that I just wasn't
worthy so I can't die yet. Then I got to thinking about my children and what would happen there
and then thinking " You were always working anyways!" That type of thing.
Interviewer James Whatley: You were hovering above your body and you heard everything that
was being said and being done to your body right?
Yes! and that transpired throughout the whole comma and the one thing that you have to remember
on that is but where I was at in spirit was the reality and everybody that I seen and
was watching is like I only dreamed of them they were the dream. The physical reality
as we know it was the dream. So it was kind of switched roles yet when my daughters dad
was out fishing and he was nowhere near the hospital but I seen him. I seen him fishing
and talking and I seen many different people. I seen many different people praying for me
yet they weren't right with me. So, it's like you're in multiple places but your dreaming
of them in all those spots. Yet, they were all actually doing these things and I found
that out later too. In my room I seen me laying there and again it was quite awhile before
I realized it was me. I was like an observer. I got to observe everything.
Interviewer James Whatley: So, did you think of them or do you feel maybe it was their
thoughts of you that drew you to them?"
I believe it was probably their thoughts of me that drew me there.
Interviewer James Whatley: So, you're astral body, or soul self, you were picking up what
was going on with them. I see"
And I loved the prayers they were beautiful. I think the angel's and the being's of the
universe and God they really appreciate that because when it's done with the heart it's
enough.
Interviewer James Whatley: How did you feel looking at your physical body and they're
working on you and what's going on there.
I you know it was kind of nonchalant because like I said I did not know that was me especially
at first. I didn't know that was me. Once I realized and once I went deeper into the
coma that's when the reality hit for me. That's when like at first I went through an immense
amount of fear but I had to surrender.
I seen everybody talks about the light..I had the light around the shoulder but for
me there was an invisible ladder and I had to climb and climb to come out and it was
like such a struggle. I seen all my life ps before me but it was slow and the things that
maybe I had felt guilty about or the good, and the bad, everything. I seen it but it
was just small segments of it and I seen it be it good bad or indifferent I had to really
surrender and that was the big thing and that's what the ladder and all this struggle and
now i look at it as our life and how we do that. We climb and we struggle, we think of
this idea and that idea we get so lost.
When I let go finally I got tired and I let go and I said ok god. and I heard literally
"It's not about religion it's about love" And when I let go and I totally surrendered
I was in that love. The beauty, the joy..
Interviewer James Whatley: So, you went into a coma during this time. The medical people
were attending to what hurt with the physical body and to mend the physical body. Were you
able to observe any of that?"
My arm was off they had to reconstruct that. Watching them again like I said they were
like the dream and I'm watching them do stuff but a woman came to me in spirit and that's
when we joined arms like this and literally I could see light energy pulsating from hers
to mine and just filling my entire body but yet we were in spirit and I can still feel
that today.
Interviewer James Whatley: And who do you think this woman was?
We were just talking about this in spirit we really don't have names we go by the heart
buddy! ( Laughs )
Interviewer James Whatley: Exactly!
Shes another part of me and guess what you too.
Interviewer James Whatley: yes, absolutely. There's no accidents as you know. I can see
the joy in you it's wonderful just to feel that radiating from you. Oh, in the coma state
what was your experiences there?
Well, they talk about the garden that was amazing that was kind of like the first step
and it is the colors in spirit. You can't even begin to .. The vibrant, the blue's,
the purple's, they're amazing and it's beautiful.
I was at one point the woman was one of them... many people you see but it's almost like I
was in this table. There was like a round table and there was men there so to speak.
You know cause there's really no gender either by the way but it looked as almost like a
console. I like to call it the white brotherhood is probably what that reminded me of and they
were sitting there and they appeared to all be separate yet they kept forming in and out
of one and then all of a sudden I was drawn in and it was the same thing and I began to
see that were all so unique yet we're a combination and extension of one another and learning
it never stops but you gotta let it all go anyways because literally in the end it all
boils back down to love.