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Letia: Shavasti, I'd like to ask you about those people
that have it all and then lose it all.
Shavasti: Each of the questions that you ask are
so broad in themselves, and what I mean by that is
there could be 100 people in the audience
where that has happened, and if each of them were to come for private session and to
ask that question of me,
I would give a slightly different answer. Or maybe even a
totally different answer to each of them. But there is a general
broad theme
that I've recognized with individuals; having it all then losing it all
often comes from a hidden loyalty. So let's say that you are
the child
of a mother who was never happily married.
Let's say your father died when you were quite young.
Or let's say that your mother gave birth to
a severely disabled or sick
child, and her whole life has been
dominated by being unhappy, being miserable,
struggling with something, being
unhappily married. I have seen many individuals
then sabotaged their own wealth and happiness,
that are unable to say deep in their heart,
"Mother, please bless me if I have the courage
to be happier than you.". That if you're listening to this video,
you might even want to imagine saying that to your mother or your father:
"please bless me if I have the courage
to have more or to be happier than you.".
It brings up a lot for a lot of people. So that's part of it.
Some other can also be transgeneratial in nature.
Let's say your ancestors gained
financially through the losses of others.
Ill-gotten gain. Let's say your ancestors were slave owners,
or let's say your ancestors moved on to land
where the original peoples had been displaced. That's true for many countries
around the world.
And so they can be and ancestral or trans generational guilt
the trickles down through the generations where we deny ourselves
having it all, or take it away,
so we achieve and lose, achieve and lose, achieve and lose
owing to guilt
or a subconscious loyalty to those who have suffered
and those who have suffered can be family members, they can be family
members from a generation or two back,
or from several generations back. Or where we're from a new country
or country that's been populated by another group, by another dominant group,
a feeling of guilt towards those who were displaced
or those who suffered genocide in order to make space
for your ancestors. I'm not suggesting that anyone should feel guilty
for the action so the previous generations. Of course not. But I'm saying
that in the subconscious, these loyalties are there.
So that's the first two. The third one
is, as I've discussed in previous videos,
about not having received enough. If you don't receive enough you can't hold enough.
It can't be held. Because when we are born,
in an ideal situation,
we're born to a mother who feels whole and complete within herself,
and to a father who feels whole and complete
within himself. And their relationship feels whole incomplete,
each of them having their needs met equally. And the child is then held
in what Almass calls merging love. And so we're infused
with the love of mother and father. When that doesn't happen,
we experience
what I call drip-fed-trauma, a little bit each day.
Disappointment after
disappointment after disappointment.
Because our parents have their own traumas. And so do our
grandparents. We've all
witnessed what it is to be in the presence of an inconsolable child.
So that's what happens with the inconsolability:
because it is an unbearable feeling, it becomes locked away.
So our ability to receive
is then limited, because we shut down certain feelings.
And that feeling is that
of separation, of disappointment, of not enoughness.
So that's the third part to the answer.
Then there's another part, as well. What many
overachievers - I don't actually mean
overachievers, but those who will have achieve much more than their peers -
I'm not trying to suggest they achieve too much,
but people use that term, overachievers -
and so what many high achievers have
hidden within them is self-hatred.
"I'm not enough".
"It's never good enough". "I can never
have enough". And so what happens is
the achievement of something becomes
the antidote to try and numb
the worthlessness
and the self-hatred. It's used
as an anesthetic to do that. Having said that,
I'm not saying that great wealth and great achievement
is all because of that. I'm not saying that at all.
So what I want to make clear here is that when I talk about
those who are very high achievers,
what some people would call an overachiever -
I'm not saying anything against that which is achieved.
I'm not saying anything against having a wonderfully successful career,
or earning a very very large salary, or very very high
income. Nothing against that at all.
However, if the creation
of all of that comes from a place
of needing and wanting to fill
the not-enoughness, then many problems can arise.
Either it's never enough,
and so does matter what you've achieved,
it's never good enough. It's always got to be better.
There's always got to be more. Or, it
cannot be sustained. Meaning that the
emptiness, the feeling of imperfection,
the feeling of worthlessness, eventually catches up with you.
And it may not catch up in a conscious way,
but in a subconscious way, and everything that we have created
simply begins to dissolve. We are vibrational beings,
so our chakras that have many dimensions and levels
to them, have vibrations within them.
And it is these vibrations that create
within the reality that we are sitting in. So
if all of that achievement has come from this will
and creating top-heavy
energy and a very well developed soul solar plexus;
if all of that energy has come from that place, of the drive to achieve, to prove
that I'm not empty, to prove that I'm something,
to prove that I'm someone, to prove that
I am worthy; if it's all coming from that place,
there are normally consequences
for that. Either we are like a hamster on a wheel,
and we exhaust ourselves, because more and more and more and more and more.
Because it doesn't matter how much we try to put into that empty hole -
it's an abyss, it never be satisfied. Or
we simply cannot sustain it. Or we have all the money in the world,
and we're alone. Without
any meaningful relationships through which we connect
to life, to people, to hearts, et cetera.
Now some would take everything that I've said
and then use that to speak against those who've got money,
or wealth, et cetera, but this applies to everybody. None of this is new.
None of this only applies to those who've achieved a lot.
This apllies to those on low incomes or no incomes as much as it does
to people on very very high incomes. There are many on low incomes that are
very envious of those
with very very high incomes. And so the problem
is essentially universal. But when we begin to find
that place that feels so empty, and we face
that which we've been running from our whole life,
be that emptiness,
be that a sense of worthlessness, be that shame,
be that self-hatred, be that the belief that ultimately
I'm all alone; once that has been
faced and met, all of the life force
energy that's locked away in the abyss, keeping those terrible feelings at bay,
can be released. And that is a lot
of life force energy. And with that life force energy,
our magnificence, the magnificence
of the human being, and the magnificence of the human heart,
and the magnificence of human creativity,
suddenly flourishes. And then it doesn't matter how much we have,
we always feel enough. Because not all of us want the same thing.
For you, 'enough' could be a log cabin on a mountain somewhere.
For me, 'enough' could be a penthouse suite
in the middle of the big city. I personally wouldn't want that, but I'm
giving that as an example.
For some people its a location,
for some people it's the countryside, for some people it's the mountains,
for other people it's the beaches.
Or the perfect relationship. And so having it all
is about everything around us
being enough. And it's about what can we let
in. And whatever isn't coming in:
I can assure you that shame is standing in the way.
Where have we been shamed? Where have we felt
shame? If they really knew
who I was, they wouldn't love me.
If they really knew how I felt, they wouldn't like me.
Many individuals with great wealth have difficulties
in knowing the quality of their friendships.
"Are they my friend because I'm wealthy? Are they my friend
because I'm a movie star? Are they my friend because
I'm a prince or a princess? Are they my friend because
I'm a politician? Are they my friend because I have more than them?
Or because I'm female? Or because I'm white? Or because I'm black? Or because
I'm Chinese? Or
because I'm good at maths?".
When we achieve a lot, often there can be a question mark
of "am I liked for who I am?".
And that is a question that's always present
if what we are doing,
we are doing that in order to compensate for the emptiness.
If we come from our own innate magnificence,
feeling complete and fulfilled with what it is that we do,
then our heart is open and it is shining. And it is from that place
we have a greater discernment
for who it is that we connect with, for the friends that we make.
And then it's always enough. Then it is always
enough. So can we have it all?
Yes. When we understand
that we are enough.
That we are enough. That you are enough. That I am enough.
That each person is enough. But that
isn't a mental process. You can do
all at the affirmations that you wish:
it doesn't work.
This inner kind of work is beyond the realm
of the mind. It's rather amusing
that the mind thinks it can become enlightened. It cannot.
Enlightenment sits outside of the mind.
It is not even within the realm of the mind. The heart is not even within the
realm of the mind.
There are many teachers and many teachings out there
that are talking about clear thought. Yes, it's very good not to have junk in your
head,
and to be thinking about problems
that are not even your business, of course. Of course, I'm not speaking about,
not speaking against
clearing up your thoughts. But what i'm saying is,
don't try and get your mind to do something
that it cannot possibly do. The mind
does not live in the realm of the heart. The mind
does not live in the realm of spirit. Our enoughness,
our completeness, our magnificence does not
lie within the realm of the mind. It is not a concept.
You cannot affirm it with saying "I love myself"
or saying these mental affirmations. Better that than to have mental clutter,
I agree. And so
the invitation here is to cease
trying to get your mind to do something that it will never be able to do.
It cannot achieve something that is
within the kingdom of the heart. And the heart is a kingdom.
It is a very rich place. It contains
everything that we are. And it contains everything that
is. And all of our magnificence and all that we are capable
of achieving. And when we achieve from that place,
it's enough no matter what we do, no matter what we do,
no matter what we do. Because the greatest wealth
is the wealth of the heart. There is no
greater wealth than that. When you feel wealth in your heart,
look what happens to your wealth! And it is shared,
with generosity.
So that's what I would like to share. Letia: Thank you Shavasti.