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I know it's like we did something very grand and extravagant and then they went
and tried
to up us pretty much. Like, maybe would could should try like
doing like something more like simple grand but like more simple
in scale
well I had come to the Lord
in August of 2008 and
I was single actually no I was in a relationship
and we broke up because she wasn't a Christian
and I just became a Christian and
our lives were no longer compatible and even after fighting
to keep the relationship together for quite some time, I realized that light
really has no association with darkness
been trying to make my living
and such in Pomona um and was fighting
the move I ended up losing my job decided to change careers couldn't find another job
in my career spent my entire life savings trying to stay out there
and then eventually got to the point where God had litterally taken my money
away
to a point where I could not afford living out on my own anymore
June
June 19 2012 slept on the couch
Here at the Denny house
for 4 months and God plugged me into
This community
It was completely him I had nothing to do with it.
I don't know anybody here when I moved here I had a purpose.
need to be here me to learn what it is to be in community.
Um. I slowly started getting back involved with church
not slowly I actually jumped right in but I always stood in the back of cornerstone
and I didn't talk with anybody weird and I had some
very bitter um I guess
wounds um from the church because I grew up in the church
and I remember I had my church friends and my actual friends and I saw my church
friends on on the scheduled events and mission trips and stuff like that and
never saw them after that no called me no asked me how I was doing
I don't think even though I was in like junior high core leadership team
and all the things growing up as a kid I don't think anyone called me and asked
me if
I how my time with the Lord's been if I'm in the word
If I'm praying if I'm walking with God or anything it was just
always assumed that you are following and no one
really got into my life and asked me How I was doing and asked me how I was
the basic way became invoved in Abide was
it was pretty much through a breakup I had been there three years before
um when I was you know living in Woodland Hills and kind of
playing around just kinda checking out cornerstone here or there.
and then um I kinda faded away got engaged
was in a relationship and then when the engagement broke off I realized that
I really needed to be apart fellowship and when day I just showed up to Abide
middle of April 2012 and
the Lord just I I knew I was home right away
I know I was home just because um
I connected with Daniel and I think Nelson Wong that first day.
and we just talked and I just let it all out everything I've been
two weeks broken up at that point and just
pouring everything out to these guys and they just met with open arms
The hardest time in my life
I look back on it the hardest time in my life 2012 is by far the hardest year of my life
and uh
Abide was there for me
when I first became a Christian
I didn't have any Christian friends I didn't know any
Christians really other than a few people in my family
I felt that one of the things that I was really
missing
in my walk was having other Christians cause I had never really
experience that and so I felt that God was pushing me towards that and so
um I decided that I needed to try to find
um other people my age and Abide seemed like a good way to do that
I was looking for a church in Santa Clarita
where my parents lived and it ended up being much smaller church than I was used to
uh the age gap was from uh maybe mid-sixty's
to as low as junior high
ministry and so I was looking for more people my age the fellowship with
and I had just on whim heard of Francis Chan looked him up on Wikipedia
found out he was in Simi Valley had a friend who
is from Simi Valley so I decided to Google Maps it
uh decided it wasn't too far away came and checked it out
was little sad that Francis Chan had left but I heard Todd speak
and his message was just amazing an
I stayed ever since from there I wanted to get more plugged in
and I just came across Abide and so I've been here ever since
when I came back Lord I started going to collide and originally with Dave Zarino
and my first night there all the sudden I have all these guys and girls
um just talking me wanting to get to know me um
just very friendly very warming very inviting
that's where I met Chaz Myers Dave Zareno Brian Davis
on were still Mike wore masks and me
so after about them being a client for three years and is being a part of the
family
um nothing special just the apartment loving them
my life known working from school and my family and my church family
and just love being around everybody apart everything in one day do you
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and gassed myself and I'm and
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and out is not administer dire leaving maybe we all need to move on to other
things
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and Manning remove any very first way that we should
leave the women lead the world yourselves love you you listen to the
world
more time in prayer and the word God me that is
everyone without without exceptions use or
you with an hour earlier are you going to bed now in late warrant an hour
munch on broadway you something not like I'm in my heart I'm praying I mean I
mean undivided set up our time with God
if you're not doing if you are gonna get double that at some more to it as a spy
satellite to al
well that is everyone's first priority to make sure that that is absolute must
that's not happening you can best believe that until now
vision I think for the first couple months I had no idea when I I
alotta people had a lotta questions and they wanted to be like every other
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women in excellence hey and the stem I'm
in Oxnard California Adventure County rescue mission this is where I work
and I just thought I would ask show you what I'm doing when I'm not
and seem a good
going in to talk to you soon and she's that
volunteer coordinator for the rescue mission she's the only woman works at
venture capitalist issue this facility
hand she's like my mother all the men that her hair so
she's great I actually have probably we have over 500 volunteers
month and if anything like a volunteer at the Mission Inn feed the homeless
that's mind in park
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away we are the women happen by I learn
last year when I help those in the background just can
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walls some all the news sometimes it will hurt so bad hun
yeah and that was just the women about their
me please yeah certain parts in it since you've been doing it
and you've been preparing how what has change in your opinion heard change in
how you feel about
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so I didn't know what down trees with memories I green lawns and
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father issues me and I didn't want to be want my
on myself are some way another great alone
but I would have fear that I was going to
treat women this primary reasons
prolonged being relationship a
probably because and in one be back
guy mom rock hard to we have seen
my mom that such as pure it's hard
I mean I've been married and no one has been for years for a long time high
school sweethearts
planet its it harding whether it be a woman or a man to be
transparent about the issues that we bring into relationships in China
people in office it's like she just you have issues because
people that you grew up with the police surround yourself by
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associate my own heart no versus the chain themselves
injury
was on them
know when I thought my relationship with the opposite sex
models more from me
they were there to certain me
as a which is fine marriage is like
the marriage in yeah
romance was love the woman like Christ loved the church so
and sacrificial skin is like answer
I missed our small house kinda big actually
I played with them I do my own shores yeah I'm
releases a national to change my heart warm corners
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yeah so I name with whatever we do
we need to have in mind that we're going to continue
doing that because if we call back to like okay we just the regular guys that
did step before women is excellent is going to reflect
poorly enough not that we're doing it too shine whatever but its
that's the men that we supposed to be some *** uphold that in
allow this to happen to be better morning for us
so that we Penn maintain this till the next
minute women to pick something that keeps you know taking it up
notch I think that would be really be doing the women a disservice
in ourselves and the Lord if tweets are the women have excellent stay
as and and call or this is
work were changing our lives for this is what we're
tryna tune-up our lives for got for and
for this one day and I just think if Libyans 16
where prices going to carry on that work to completion in us
and it's not for completion of the women have excellent states for
completion me well reaches King I think probably that
main thing that's been challenging over these past weeks
my eyes removing some things
makes sense that I didn't know all is actually lingering their
these came in the form bitterness
doubt and also
pride and selfishness I meant sometime forgot they feel like I should make more
and just
other stuff and my what specifically
I don't know on me in the book room watching TV or just one or more
destructions that we have I got a chance to you
really see that there were some pains in my life
that I ET trawl closer to you
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the recent circumstances in my life I was holding on to you
issues and things that were not around just you trust you
others the biggest ups between them
my welcomes and and that's only because
right now I'm in in a situation where to feel like
it's completely in my control or I just knew my checklist that things to do
and that on my own strength by just XY and z.
that get things done and its part B as
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and my husband I think maybe half a dozen times Adams long
on our model to get ever cleaned out the refrigerator
he's always done clean kitchen floor he
he has said she in many times that that
hmm many men say oh I'm gonna I'm gonna vacuum today because I help her out
mistresses I'm here to its my house
we help each other and so it's it's it's *** working together it's not
huge on my job its ours together and so that's
I i think thats whats hot does have a happiness because he has not changed I
he understands what you talking about about sharing and I think so many times
it kinda this is a man john has John and I think
presley learned it its team efforts in
I don't know a lot about all mine but you know I use the lag
million and submitted to them a lot in out by
am selling them during time I mostly
good night at work but now when born in price and then you get convicted by the
Holy Spirit
is iPod sure you're OK you know you can stop you in every truck
I would allow them to pursue you mean
as being
better a quote unquote more police and I really
him I feel I am there'd be times or I'd
cough being this upstanding
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in it's been a lot of broken ***
lot of ops 2 calls spiritual battles
because it it puts on a false impression that I've got everything together all
the time
that and tight-knit I know what
what I'm doing you know and everything is fine when
I'm that's not always the case were broken people
and we don't always have everything together
and it seen I know best I know which way this relationship should go and I'm not
gonna trust in the Lord and I'm just gonna put my head down put my nose to
the grindstone
and say I don't care what God says and
I'm just going to make this relationship work typically have
been in situations where I'm able to me
on really pretty women like maybe it's on the set or somewhere
in my life that time don't really know
that I'm a believer and you know I use to
almost keep that away from them in a way
at first because I was insecure
at the fact that maybe they wouldn't like me because have my
live for Christ and now it's the complete opposite
misled him in the sense that I send the wrong signals
am and immature
and I'm really knowing how to be a man the new like a man
I sediments signals
then
they thought that I was interested when I was in or
that that was going somewhere where I was just taken
so far min moving on and
when you come in Christianity changes the whole game
if your gonna go out with somebody you gotta think about marriage
and marriage is a forever thing so you just can't try on
people you know i mean make the world as
I think at times so I can be
goofy and takes in likely
and and have a tendency to digest
speak my mind not feel too enticing
and they believe might hurt a lot of you out there
sewn apologize so the women out there
in not leading accurately not displaying krigsten
as I should and justifying my speech
test making jokes where
pay should be more gentle and its
just spilling cinema now I'm just kinda brushing our test
jokes and sarcasm and it's not something local
in leading the way when I apologize
for not making my intentions clear when I do hang out with you guys
you girls mean a lot
to me and and I've never had any sisters
I love he you girls has
my sisters and not clear what that means more than a time
i preciate heat any each and every one of you
to give me the chance no to experiment in
having sisters this event
is to show you how got the max must be
we want to show you how we're supposed to read
so they you have the opportunity
to see you at and see notes before going over to Mike
use a scissor and tax ok praise and thank him for
each and every one of you look to the Lord Jesus
all lace because he's here everything and he's not gonna eat your ***
you no matter what
as men here we are so incredibly lucky to be able to call you guys sisters
in so I I've been personally so encouraged by
a out will you've been with me
with us is as men on how you been courage does how you help us to become
stronger leaders are you encourage us to take leadership positions
and how you do everything that you possibly can to help our
growth with the Lord I'm appreciate your heart's in terms of service per share
your heart's in terms of ministry
in terms the way that you treat one another just to be able to hang out with
you
and spend time together and pray with you and live life together to be able to
learn
see you in heaven someday be able to look back in see all the wonderful
things
we did hear men's ministry it is concern myself with one
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encourage girls
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and that you just includes to office on
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and I'ma likewise man you kinda all in our example gnarly even encouraged us
and
on relay and that's been really cool no longer about
um what we do you know who we are and I think that's the biggest thing that's
the one thing that
the I was to leave tomorrow the one thing that I want more
everyone mountain has it matters who you are who you are
Minturn what you do and however what you do doesn't necessarily determined by
you alright my heart I'm what
women was luck on
God is working for all of us and
guidance morning us in using the seabed
to workout those stubborn areas in all our lives
and their wrote this happening
for being more than in group in shape for once again
it's in God's timing night got my
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I called it a thing to bring him out like
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worship praise and prayer can be me
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