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So, you used the word "addiction." I mean was it really as extreme as what you'd consider
addiction with your food issues? Yeah, I mean I think addiction is a really controversial
topic, so I'll just give my sort of definition which is when you're using that thing to avoid
other things in life, so it becomes a crutch that without it you can't move through life.
And so, if that's the definition, then sure it was an addiction for me. The interesting
thing though about it is, you know with a drug or alcohol addiction the commonly accepted
protocol is abstinence. With food addiction, what are you gonna do? This is our fuel. So,
I don't know, I think there's a lot of grey area. But what I do know is that I was absolutely
using food, it was totally a crutch for me. And later on, which we can get to, it was
shopping, and then it was work. You know, workaholism was the next really big one for
me. And again, to me it wasn't just working all the time, in the same way that it wasn't
just about having a big appetite, or eating all the time. It was using it to numb out,
numbing out, using it like a drug in a way to get me out of my experience, yeah.