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Hey everyone
It's 3 in the morning and I can't sleep
Due to recent happenings
My mind has been a little clustered
Um, Have you ever been in a situation where you had feelings?
Like, feelings you didn't really know what to do with
Nezumi and I have been through a lot in the past few months
and over time, well... I guess I came to see him differently
Don't get me wrong! I've always respected and admired Nezumi for who he was
It's just..I guess...
I find myself drawn to him
For a while it was hard being away from No.6
But now
Now it seems like I couldn't miss it... even if I wanted to.
And it's not that I don't miss mama and Safu
I do!
It's just ....
Since living here with Nezumi I found a sense of home and belonging that I've never known before
and at this point I honestly don't think that there's anything that would make me want to leave Nezumi's side
It's just because of a few things that have happened um...
I'm having feelings.. strange new feelings that I'm not entirely used to
It seems Nezumi knows there feelings better than I do...
It's just he expressed them differently...
and.. with less talking
and I'm just so worried! I'm worried I'll let him down or frustrate him with my lack of experience
I hardly know what it is I'm feeling exactly.. much less do I know what to do about it
It's all just so confusing and scary and I just...I just...
Oh! I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know!!
So yeah, I'm kind of at war with myself right now.
If you guys have any advice to give me, I would really appreciate it
but for now I'll go ahead and answer your questions, ok?
well, I'm not very good and um.. I think if I started dancing at 3 in the morning I would wake Nezumi
and we don't want that... trust me.. we don't want that
Living with Nezumi is always very eventful
I get to learn lots of new things!
Like about new books
and how to cook
Clean
When to speak when I'm spoken to
When to keep silent
When to duck
When to run
When to beg for forgiveness
I learn lots of new things with Nezumi!
Oh how I wish I could answer that!
But Nezumi has still now allowed me to see any of his performances
But if he does I will let you know right away
don't worry! you don't sound mean
I am very much a boy and Nezumi, he's male too
and a very pretty one at that
anyway, that's all for now
If you guys have any other questions just leave them in a comment and I will answer them in next week's vlog
So until then I hope you guys have a wonderful week
Bye