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Mom, I know I let you down And though you say the days are happy
Why is the power off and I'm *** up And Mom, I know he's not around
But don't you place the blame on me As you pour yourself another drink
Maybe we took this too far
[Verse 1] I went in headfirst, never thinking about
who what I said hurt In what verse, my Mom probably got it the
worst, the brunt of it But as stubborn as we are, did I take it too
far, Cleaning Out My Closet And all them other songs, but regardless I
don't hate you Cause Ma, you're still beautiful to me, cause
you're my Mom Though far be it for you to be calling, my
house was Vietnam Desert Storm and both of us put together can
form an atomic bomb Equivalent to Chemical Warfare, and forever
we can drag this on and on But, agree to disagree, that gift for me up
under the Christmas tree Don't mean *** to me, you're kicking me out,
it's 15 degrees and It's Christmas Eve "little prick, just leave"
Ma let me grab my *** coat Anything to have each other's goats, why we
always at each others throats Especially when dad, he *** us both, we're
in the same *** boat You'd think that it'd make us close (nope)
Further away that drove us But together, headlights shine, a car full
of belongings Still got a ways to go, back to grandma's
house it's straight up the road And I was the man of the house, the oldest
So my shoulders carried the weight of the load
Then Nate got taken away by the state at 8-years-old And that's when I realized you were sick and
it wasn't fixable or changable And to this day we remained estranged and
I hate it though, but
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[Verse 2] Cause to this day we remain estranged and
I hate it though Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbaby's
growth But I'm sorry Mama for Cleaning Out My Closet,
at the time I was angry Rightfully maybe so, never meant that far
to take it though, cause Now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not
making jokes That song I no longer play at shows and I
cringe every time it's on the radio And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
And all the medicine you fed us and how I just wanted you to taste your own
But now the medications taken over and your mental state's
But Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo All you did, all you said, you did your best
to raise us both Foster care, that cross you bare, few may
be as heavy as yours But I love you Debbie Mathers, oh what a tangled
web we have cause One thing I never asked was where the ***
my deadbeat dad was *** it I guess he had trouble keeping up
with every address But I'd have flipped every mattress, every
rock and desert cactus Own a collection of maps and followed my kids
to the edge of the atlas Someone ever moved them from me, that you
could bet your *** If I had to come down the chimney dressed
as Santa, kidnap 'em And although one has only met their grandma
once you pulled up In our drive one night, as we were leaving
to get some hamburgers Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged
you And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness
Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths, and
I saw your headlights as I looked back, and I'm mad I didn't get the chance
To thank you for being my mom and my dad, so Mom, please accept this
As a tribute I wrote this on the jet, I guess I had to get this off my chest
I hope I get the chance to lay it 'fore I'm dead
The stewardess said to fasten my seatbelt, I guess we're crashing
So if I'm not dreaming, I hope you get this message
That I'll always love you from afar, cause you're my Momma
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[Bridge: Nate Ruess] I want a new life, one without a cause
So I'm coming home tonight, well, no matter what the cost
And if the plane goes down, or if the crew can't wake me up
Just know that I'm alright, I was not afraid to die
Oh even if there's songs to sing, my children will carry me
Just know that I'm alright, I was not afraid to die
Because I put my faith in my new girl, so I never say goodbye cruel world
Just know that I'm alright, I am not afraid to die