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Guru Mahārāj in Gadādhar Pranam,
"He's on the shore of that broad blue ocean."
nīlāmbhodhi-taṭe sadā sva-virahā.
Sva-virahā feeling separation from Himself,
that's how it's expressed.
Kṛṣṇa as Mahāprabhu feeling separation from Kṛṣṇa.
The supreme positive in the mood of supreme negative,
plunging the depths of separation.
Sva-virahā-kṣepanvitaṁ bāndhavaṁ,
in the company of His dearmost friend.
Who is dearmost friend? Gadādhar Paṇḍit.
Śrīmad-Bhāgavatī kathā madirayā sañjīvayan bhāti yaḥ,
and what is Gadādhar Paṇḍit doing to relieve
the anguish of separation in the heart of Mahāprabhu?
Told the tenth stage of separation is death.
So, Mahāprabhu is on the verge of death.
Sañjīvayan, I told before this one ayurvedic medicine,
Prabhupad's kavirāj told me about that,
Kṛṣṇananda Tarkatīrtha Kavirāj,
so, this sañjīvayanit it will bring a dead person back to life.
And, we mean by that the recently dead.
Sañjīva, this rasāyan, this medicine,
can bring someone on the verge of death back to life.
Gadādhar Paṇḍit, Śrīmad-Bhāgavatī kathā madirayā,
is taking Bhāgavat ślokas, and supplying them,
certain medicines are intoxicants
like an intoxicating substance
to bring relieve to the heart of Mahāprabhu.
That's the Bhāgavatī kathā madirayā, madirayā means wine.
So, it's like when someone's feelings are
so destroyed, devastated, heart-broken.
In the absence of their beloved another friend
coming and supplying an intoxicating beverage,
they can drink and get some relief.
In this case, what is the intoxicating beverage?
Bhāgavat ślokas, selecting Bhāgavat ślokas.
This is how perfect Śrīla Guru Mahārāj is.
This is his introduction to his Bhāgavat śloka selections
under the inspiration of the Bhāgavatārka-marīchī mālā
of Bhakti Vinod Ṭhākur,
that came due to the inspiration of Svarūp Dāmodar.
Back to Svarūp Dāmodar,
Mahāprabhura dvitīya kalevara (Śrī C.-C.: Madhya, 11.76),
Mahāprabhu the second.
That Svarūp Dāmodar told Bhakti Vinod Ṭhākur
to collect these thousand Bhāgavat sunrays,
Bhāgavatārka-marīchī arka,
purāṇārko 'dhunoditaḥ kalau naṣṭa-dṛśām eṣa (Śrīmad Bhāgavatam: 1.3.43)
Like an eighteen thousand rayed sun,
collect a thousand of those rays.
Guru Mahārāj was gonna further distil three-four hundred.
But what would be the criterion for selection?
That's all important.
He's giving a hint in this śloka.
As Gadādhar Paṇḍit selects these ślokas
to relieve the anguish of separation from Mahāprabhu.
When in some instances to augment certain sentiments.
He's giving a hint at the selection criteria.
śrīmad-bhāgavatī kathā madirayā sañjīvayan bhāti yaḥ
śrīmad-bhāgavataṁ sadā sva-nayanāśru-pāyanaiḥ pūjayan
And saying those Bhāgavat ślokas
are like or doing this,
that tears are pouring from the eyes of Gadādhar Paṇḍit
like lotus flower offerings unto the pages of the Bhāgavatam
where those ślokas are written.
And once they are spoken and spoken in this particular way
with this particular depth of meaning,
the tears are falling unto the pages
as if they are flower offerings
and washing away the letters.
The letters are washed of the pages.
As if they were never to be spoken again
or known
in that way. Too sacred.
So, that when Śrīnivas Āchārya approached Gadādhar Paṇḍit
for the divine direction,
for Bhāgavat, to hear Bhāgavat,
Gadādhar Paṇḍit said,
"What I want to teach you
my tears have washed away those ślokas.
So, you need to go to Nabadwīp and get a fresh copy."
Of course, Śrīnivas Āchārya goes to Nabadwīp,
by the time he returns
Gadādhar Paṇḍit has left the world.
Why does Kṛṣṇa do that?
Why does Kṛṣṇa do things like that?
If not to take the heart to greater depth,
to have us achieve
a greater depth of heart, feeling, devotion.
The deep heart's core.
Gosvāmi-prabaro Gadādhara-vibhūr-bhūyāt mad-ekā-gatiḥ,
Guru Mahārāj says,
"Let this book to be an offering to that best of Goswāmīs,
Gadādhar Paṇḍit Goswāmī."
Gosvāmi-prabaro Gadādhara-vibhūr-bhūyāt mad-ekā-gatiḥ,
that's the target of the offering of these prayers.
So, what is the position of Śrīla Guru Mahārāj,
that he can express such things?
One day in the afternoon
there is Guru Mahārāj in his chair,
Gurudev's next to him and I came.
Those were happy times.
And I said to Gurudev,
"When Achyutānanda asked Swāmī Mahārāj,
what did Śrīdhar Mahārāj say to you,
he said, 'If I told you, you would faint.'
I want to know what are those things?"
And Guru Mahārāj said, "What?"
And then Gurudev started laughing,
and told him in Bengali,
"Goswāmī Mahārāj wants you to make him faint."
And Guru Mahārāj [said], "Ācha."
And they start talking,
[about] what should they say, fainting śloka.
Then Guru Mahārāj explains this Gadādhar-praṇām,
and what I've said here is bākya-aparādh, an offence.
Can't possibly represent how
His Divine Grace expressed that at that time,
but as he did that to me,
I staggered away from where the two of them were,
against the wall, with my head against the wall
like dragging my head against the wall,
losing consciousness of the world.
And Guru Mahārāj and Gurudev, they are talking.
I came back around fifteen minutes later.
To make me faint, was like,
"This little boy, send the boy away.
Come back.
Later."
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