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>> JASON ROY: MY DAD WAS A
SUPERHERO WHEN I WAS A KID.
MY FATHER WAS A PRO POWER LIFTER
AND ALSO A COALMINER.
HE LITERALLY WAS MY SUPERMAN.
HE WAS THE GUY.
WHEN I WAS FIVE, HE AND MY MOM,
DIVORCED AND HE KIND OF DOVE
AWAY FROM THE CHURCH AND INTO A
TOTALLY DIFFERENT LIFE THAT I
DIDN'T KNOW A WHOLE LOT ABOUT.
MY MOM REMARRIED AND WE STARTED
BOUNCING AROUND THE COUNTRY.
I WOULD SEE MY DAD ABOUT ONCE A
YEAR.,
FOR ME, I WAS DEALING WITH A LOT
OF EMOTIONAL JUNK BECAUSE MY DAD
WASN'T AROUND.
AND SO I GUESS AT A CERTAIN
POINT WHEN I WAS 15 I WAS LIVING
IN WILMINGTON, NORTH CAROLINA
AND I DECIDED I WAS GOING TO
LIVE WITH MY FATHER.
SO WE HAD THIS BIG COURT BATTLE,
I JUST NEEDED A NEW LEASE ON
LIFE, WHATEVER.
AND SO THE COURTS AWARDED ME TO
MY FATHER.
AND WITHIN A COUPLE OF WEEKS OF
MOVING THERE, I STARTED NOTICING
JUST SOME WEIRD THINGS THAT JUST
DIDN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME.
HE WAS VERY QUICK TO ANGER, JUS,
LIKE REALLY QUICK TO RIDICULOUS
ANGER.
I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT IT
WAS, BUT SOMETHING WAS OFF.
SO I GUESS, LONG STORY SHORT,
THERE WAS JUST A LOT OF JUST
ABSOLUTE TURMOIL BETWEEN THE TWO
OF US.
AND I WAS SCARED OF HIM BECAUSE
HE WAS A B,IG GUY.
SO EVENTUALLY I GOT TO A PLACE
WHERE I JUST HAD TO BE QUIET.
I ENDED UP MOVING BACK AWAY FROM
MY FATHER AND WHEN I MOVED AWAY
IS WHEN A LOT OF THINGS STARTED
COMING TO LIGHT.
I STARTED FIGURING OUT MY DAD
WAS HEAVILY INTO DRUGS.
HE WAS INTO INTRAVENOUS DRUGS,
HE WOULD TAKE ***, ALL THESE
DIFFERENT, CRAZY THINGS.,
SO MY FATHER GOT LOST IN THAT,
MAN, JUST TOTALLY LOST IN IT.
WHEN I LEFT TEXAS TO GO TO NORTH
CAROLINA AGAIN, I WAS LIKE 18
AND I WAS DONE WITH HIM.
I HAD BECOME A LOT LIKE HIM
BECAUSE I HAD TO BE THAT WAY TO
DEAL WITH IT.,
MEANING I BECAME THE PERSON WHO
WAS NOT SCARED OF ANYBODY EXCEPT
MY FATHER.
I BECAME THE PERSON WHO WOULD
DARE YOU TO FIGHT ME.
I BECAME THE PERSON WHO WOULD
FIND SOMEBODY WHO WAS PICKING ON
EVERYBODY ELSE AND CALL THEM
OUTSIDE AND STEP OUT AND THAT'S
HOW I GOT SCARS IN MY FACE
TODAY.,
THINGS LIKE THAT.
I EVENTUALLY GOT TO A PLACE
WHERE MY PRIDE AND MY ARROGANCE
GOT ME IN THE HOSPITAL.
I WAS PLAYING A BASKETBALL GAME,
PASSED THE BALL DOWN COURT,
TURNED AROUND, LIGHTS WENT OUT,
WOKE UP IN AN AMBULANCE, MY FACE
SHATTERED.,
I SPENT SIX WEEKS WITH MY FACE
BROKEN AND MESSED UP.
THEY HAD TO LET EVERYTHING HEAL
AND THEN THEY TOOK ME BACK IN
AND REBROKE EVERYTHING AND PUT
IT ALL BACK TOGETHER.
AND THAT WAS A MOMENT WHERE I
REALIZED THAT MY LIFE HAD BECOME
ABOUT ME AND LESS ABOUT GOD AND,
ALL THAT STUFF.
AND THE DOCTOR SAID, YOU'RE
LUCKY TO BE ALIVE.
YOU COULD HAVE DIED INSTANTLY.
BY THE GRACE OF GOD YOU'RE STILL
HERE.
IF I WERE YOU, I WOULD DO
SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE
SPECTACULAR TO HONOR THAT.
IT WAS LIKE, WHAT DO I DO NOW,
YOU KNOW?
TH,AT'S WHEN MUSIC BECAME THE
WHOLE FOREFRONT OF MY LIFE.
WHAT'S AMAZING IS THAT GOD USED
MY MUSIC WHICH I STARTED WRITING
ABOUT MY DAD -- IF YOU LISTEN TO
OUR FIRST RECORDS, YOU CAN HEAR
, LOT OF FATHER STUFF IN THOSE
RECORDS.
HE USED THOSE SONGS, ME CRYING
OUT TO GOD GOING, GOD, I DON'T
UNDERSTAND WHY MY DAD HAS TO BE
THIS WAY.
I DON'T GET IT.
IT'S NOT FAIR.
WHY CAN'T I HAVE A DAD WHO'S
JUST THERE FOR ME?,
AND GOD USED THOSE SONGS TO TAKE
MY FATHER'S LIFE AND TWIST IT
UPSIDE DOWN.
HE STARTED CALLING ME AND GOING,
SON, IT JUST SOUNDS LIKE YOU'RE
TALKING ABOUT ME.
ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ME?
AT FIRST I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO
DEAL WITH THAT.
I WAS LIKE, NO, MAN, I LOVE YOU,
IT'S ALL GOOD.
AND THEN OVER TIME, I GOT TO THE
,
POINT WHERE I FINALLY HAD TO
JUST SIT DOWN WITH HIM AND GO,
DAD, LOOK, YOU CRUSHED ME.
IT TOOK EVERYTHING INSIDE OF ME
TO STILL BE ABLE TO STAND UP
SQUARE AS A MAN AND FACE-OFF,
WITH HIM, WITH LIFE IN GENERAL.
AND I THINK, REALLY, FOR ME WHAT
HAPPENED IN MY LIFE THAT ALLOWED
ME TO GET TO THE PLACE WHERE MY
FATHER AND I CAN SEE EYE TO EYE
NOW IS THAT I ACCEPTED MY FATHER
FOR WHO HE WAS, NOT FOR WHAT I
WISHED HE WOULD BE.
I THINK WHEN I KIND OF
READJUSTED MY LIFE AND
RECO,GNIZED THAT I COULDN'T PUT
MY DAD ON THIS MASSIVE PEDESTAL,
I HAD TO PUT GOD THERE, WHEN I
GOT GOD AS MY DELIVERER, GOD AS
MY HEALER, GOD AS MY REFUGE AND
I TOOK DAD DOWN OFF OF THAT AND
I WENT, DAD IS MY EARTHLY
FATHER,, I LOVE HIM AND I'LL DO
ANYTHING FOR HIM, BUT, YOU KNOW,
HE'S NOT MY DELIVERER.
HE WILL NEVER BE THAT.
IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW HARD --
THERE'S NO WAY HE CAN EVER
BECOME THAT IN MY LIFE, YOU
KNOW.
AND I THINK THAT WHEN I GOT
THERE, WHEN I GOT TO THE PLACE
WHERE I FINALLY SAID, OKAY, MY,
DAD IS WHAT HE IS, FOR THE FIRST
TIME IN MY LIFE I WAS ACTUALLY
ABLE TO BREATHE.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I
WAS ACTUALLY ABLE TO LET GO OF
ALL THE HURT AND THE ANGER.
AND, TODAY, IN TWO DAYS I'LL BE
IN MY HOMETOWN HANGING OUT WITH
MY FATHER AND TALKING ABOUT HIS,
GRANDKIDS, MY SON, MY DAUGHTER.
AND JUST LOVING HIM AND LOVING
HIM THROUGH LIFE.
MY DAD LOVES JESUS.
HE'S GOT A LOT OF MISTAKES, A
LOT OF HEARTBREAK.
HE'S HAD A LOT OF OPPORTUNITIES
THAT HE'S MISSED.,
THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT I'M NOT
GOING TO MISS THOSE
OPPORTUNITIES.
I'VE GOT A 7-YEAR-OLD BOY THAT
I'M GOING TO LOVE.
I'M NOT GOING TO BE THE SAME MAN
MY FATHER WAS.
AND THERE'S HOPE BECAUSE OF
THAT.,
♪♪ I WAS STANDING IN THE POURING
RAIN ONE DARK NOVEMBER NIGHT ♪♪
♪♪ FIGHTING OFF THE BITTER COLD
WHEN SHE CAUGHT MY EYE ♪♪,
♪♪ HER FACE WAS TAUT AND HER EYS
WERE FILLED ♪♪
♪♪ THEN TO MY SURPRISE
SHE PULLED OUT A PHOTOGRAPH ♪♪
♪♪ AND MY HEART JUST STOPPED
INSIDE ♪♪
♪♪ SHE SAID, HE WOULD HAVE BEEN
THREE TODAY ♪♪,
♪♪ I MISS HIS SMILE ♪♪
♪♪ I MISS HIS FACE ♪♪
♪♪ WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY? ,
♪♪ BUT I BELIEVE ALWAYS, ALWAYS♪
♪♪ OUR SAVIOR NEVER FAILS ♪♪,
♪♪ EVEN WHEN ALL HOPE IS GONE ♪♪
♪♪ GOD KNOWS YOUR PAIN ♪♪
♪♪ AND HIS PROMISE REMAINS ♪♪
♪♪ HE WILL BE WITH YOU ALWAYS ♪,
♪♪ HE WAS LIVING IN A BROKEN
WORLD DREAMING OF A HOME ♪♪,
♪♪ HIS HEART WAS BARELY KEEPING
PACE ♪♪
♪♪ WHEN I FOUND HIM ALL ALONE ♪♪
♪♪ REMEMBERING THE WAY HE FELT
WHEN HIS DADDY SAID GOODBYE ♪♪
♪♪ FIGHTING JUST TO KEEP THE
TEARS ♪♪,
♪♪ AND ALL THE ANGER LOCKED
INSIDE ♪♪
♪♪ HE'S BARELY HOLDING ON TO
FAITH ♪♪
♪♪ BUT DELIVERANCE WAS ON ITS
WAY ♪♪,
♪♪ 'CAUSE I BELIEVE ALWAYS,
ALWAYS ♪♪
♪♪ OUR SAVIOR NEVER FAILS ♪♪
♪♪ EVEN WHEN ALL HOPE IS GONE ♪,
♪♪ GOD KNOWS YOUR PAIN ♪♪
♪♪ AND HIS PROMISE REMAINS ♪♪
♪♪ HE WILL BE WITH YOU ♪♪
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♪♪♪♪
♪♪ WELL, FRIEND, I DON'T KNOW
WHERE YOU ARE ♪♪
♪♪ AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU'VE
BEEN ♪♪
,♪ MAYBE YOU'RE FIGHTING FOR YOR
LIFE ♪♪
♪♪ JUST ABOUT TO THROW THE TOWEL
IN ♪♪
♪♪ BUT IF YOU'RE CRYING OUT FOR
MERCY ♪♪
♪♪ IF THERE'S NO HOPE LEFT AT
ALL ♪♪
♪♪ IF YOU'VE GIVEN EVERYTHING
YOU'VE GOT ♪♪
♪♪ AND YOU'RE STILL ABOUT TO
FALL ♪♪,
♪♪ HOLD ON ♪♪
♪♪ HOLD ON ♪♪
♪♪ HOLD ON ♪♪
♪♪ 'CAUSE I BELIEVE ALWAYS,,
ALWAYS ♪♪
♪♪ OUR SAVIOR NEVER, HE NEVER
FAILS ♪♪
♪♪ EVEN WHEN ALL HOPE IS GONE ♪,
♪♪ GOD KNOWS YOUR PAIN ♪♪
♪♪ AND HIS PROMISE REMAINS ♪♪
♪♪ ALWAYS ♪♪,
♪♪ ALWAYS ♪♪
♪♪ HE WILL BE WITH YOU ALWAYS ♪♪
♪♪ HE WILL BE WITH YOU ALWAYS ♪,
♪♪ HE WILL BE WITH YOU ♪♪
♪♪♪♪
♪♪ WHEREVER YOU ARE, WHEREVER
,
YOU'VE BEEN ♪♪
♪♪♪♪,
♪♪♪♪,