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We've known each other years.
We always used to bump into each other
and talk.
We used to have a nice chat, didn't we?
I mean, she's a tidy girl, like.
My ex was giving me
a few hidings here and there.
Dennis is there.
Have a chat with Dennis,
this, that and the other.
Tidy guy.
And that's how we clicked, really.
I've always had a little soft spot for her.
See how it goes from here...
just take it day by day...
help each other out as much as we can.
February 27th, I got out of jail.
But when I moved in here, it was stinking.
This is my bedroom.
I'm gonna put my bed down here.
Put the bed down there.
I got my bedside cabinet.
And lay the carpet.
And put my wardrobes down here.
And my chest of drawers behind the door.
You can't put it in your ear, can he?
That's my first ever Swansea City tattoo.
The proudest ever.
I've been to a few prisons as well...
and I always wear it with pride.
Always walk around with my top off.
I want to get clean.
I'm starting treatment
on the 26th of this month.
Because I tattooed myself in jail,
I had test results done.
I had a letter then from the nurse saying:
"Come down and see me."
"I need to see you urgently."
When I went down, she said,
"I'm very sorry, but
you have got hep. C."
I'm gonna try and get a cupboard...
put a cupboard up on here.
I'm gonna paint the ceiling...
I'm gonna paint that.
It'll probably be tomorrow.
There's bits of blood.
When you're cooking up and that,
you draw the blood into yourself.
When you draw so much in,
there's a little bit of blood left in...
they just squirt it.
There was some on here as well.
My stereo is in my mum's, it is.
- What kind of music do you like?
I like all different types of music.
I got loads of music here.
R&B.
Garage.
R&B.
Fleetwood Mac.
Seven Wonders...
if I live to see the Seven Wonders.
There was an abscess.
I had to go in for an operation on that...
because I missed...
there.
Basically, my veins are kaput now.
That's going into another abscess.
That one's not too bad.
If I wasn't on the ***,
I'd cry my eyes out for my kids now.
Don't get me wrong, I love 'em all to bits.
But...
I can't really see them while I'm in this...
in this predicament.
This is gonna go up in my bedroom.
Other way 'round, babes.
Is that alright?
The other way, babes.
When I was just a little boy,
I asked my mother,
"What shall I be?"
"Shall I be Swansea?"
"Shall I be ***?"
This is what she said to me:
"Take your father's gun."
"And shoot the Cardiff ***."
"Forever will be, my son."
"You'll always be Swansea."
Who are we?
Jack Army!
Who are we?
Jack Army!
Lee Anderson.
In Swansea...
in a shared flat with
smackheads, down and outs.
Alright? This is Clint.
The old famous "Clinty."
This is a friend's, er...
bedsit, as they call it.
He said I could stay here for a couple of days,
so I've made myself at home.
Had to come out, didn't it?
I've started a programme now
with methadone.
It done me a world of good.
For some people, it'll make them worse,
and then they have a habit on top.
They have a *** habit on top
of a methadone habit.
It's people like Clint that are stupid, like.
They think it's the answer, like.
But it's not.
Better out than in, innit?
I want off the ***,
and when I get to that point when it's making me better,
I'll stop using ***
and then eventually,
in a couple of months,
gradually come off the methadone.
[I'll be] a brand new, squeaky clean person again.
With rotten teeth.
I've been on it since
I can remember, 14.
Which is the best part of my life...
Anyway, I'm just doin' about my day to day thing.
C'mon, let's go down the shop now.
- Come along, if you want.
Well, if it's all about him,
he's a ***' idiot.
Before I had the bedsit,
this is where we used to go up
to have a "dig."
"Dig up" means inject your ***
and what have you.
Bish, bash, bosh.
Look, there's pin tops, look, there, where he's standing.
This is where we used to go for a pipe, down here.
This is where we used to go.
We get the needles...
we get the needles from there.
It's our fault why the needles are down there...
they give us things.
Hang on, let me put this camera right now.
It's not our fault the needles are down there.
We clean up what we used to use.
Months ago, when I used to come here, I always used to take...
I always used to take my doings with me,
and put 'em in the sin bin, and take 'em back to the drug project.
The dirty smackheads that are around,
that leave needles about, and then what have you.
We are the clean smackheads,
the user. We are users, not...
smackheads.
Whoa! Watch you don't sit on any *** needles.
I would have thought the *** consumption,
considering that 90% of *** comes from Afghanistan,
how much has come into the country,
considering our British troops? - But it's not all about Afghanistan, really...
Why are we using it, you know?
Yes, I know,
but the documentary's about how there's been such an increase.
Yeah, but they wanna know about Swansea and things.
Why are we using it so much?
And basically, at the end of the day...
Why?
'Cause it's boredom.
I think there are a lot of *** addicts
are using...
the actual...
"Oh, I'm addicted to ***,"
to get away with the way that they're looking,
the way that they talk to people...
and the actual way
that they live their lifestyle.
I like to think that
I've proven them all wrong.
I've been a *** addict
since I was
18 years of age, which is nearly ten years.
Yeah, I'm well known around town for shoplifting
to fund for my habit,
but, fingers crossed,
if someone walked past me in the street,
they wouldn't think I was a dodgy-looking...
*** – excuse my French –
and consider me to look like a typical smackhead...
like you see off you know?
I can't see any reason
why I can't turn my life around.
We having a dig, are we?
Positive mental attitude,
as I put underneath.
You know, I wake outta bed in the morning,
and I thought: "I'll see the sign." It's on the wall, like.
So I'll look at that and think: "Right!"
"P. M. A."
"P. M. A."
"Positive mental attitude."
So, at the end of the day:
positive mental attitude.
What am I gonna do today?
Straight to the chemist, they'll have my methadone.
Positive mental attitude. There's one!
Number two: um...
Go and score a *** bag!
Positive mental attitude, yeah?
My spelling's not too good, though. Sorry.
I just want to be a part of my kids and my ex-wife.
You know, I just want the chance to be a daddy, yeah?
I love my babies.
I said to myself:
"P. M. A."
I'm gonna stop
using any type of drug
before I get in touch with my children ever again.
Because it wouldn't be fair on my children if I was to go:
"Oh, that's my daddy, that is."
"Ah, but your daddy's a junkie!"
My old man's never been on the streets...
homeless.
He's just been a junkie and a drug dealer most of his life.
And a burglar, and...
in and out of jail.
He's not selling drugs at the moment or committing crime,
but he's still using drugs.
"Please don't litter or urinate on the stairs."
They'd want to put with that: "Or use needles."
That's for them to have a "boot."
Smoke the *** on the foil.
That's probably two days, between three.
- So how many do you drink a day?
About 12 each.
Come in.
Come on, Celine!
No! You can't have a joint!
- Of course we can. - Yeah, you can.
Where's my can? Hang on, let me have a can.
Can you just get one between me and you?
Why?
I put it on top of there!
Right by you!
Four cans, Dad!
Four cans, Dad!
Yeah, no it is. Sorry, I've picked yours up.
Dad, come here.
Dad, just come here a sec!
It's in your hand.
It's not! I just opened it.
Yeah, and you got one in the fridge, kid. Come here.
Yes you have. That one in the fridge is yours, Daddy.
That's Carlo, my sister's boyfriend.
This is my sister, Libby.
My old man, Sean.
Dad's mate, Darren.
And my missus, Amy, who you've met already.
Well, I've known her for years, but
we recently got to meet on the streets.
Yeah, we met drinking in town.
In town! Drinking in town.
- In the last four years, everyone has said there's been a lot more *** in Swansea.
- Is that true?
Lots of it!
You gotta go back to the 60s,
you gotta take it from the 60s, really.
You could do chemists, and...
it'd be amazing!
You know, it'd be wooden...
Shh! Shut up!
People these days...
They're growin' up around it.
everybody's doin' gear, 'cause everybody's doin' it.
You know, people just don't care!
You know, now, 'cause
their mother or their father or their brother or their cousin is doin' it,
they're all doin' it! - It don't make no difference
about your mother or your father,
it's about you.
It's your brain.
Look at the kids now. Ten, 20 years ago, it's different.
Look at them now!
No, hang on. I'm not saying it's the parents' responsibility.
What I'm saying is,
if you're 'round people doing it.
If your mother and your father, or your aunt and your uncle,
or anybody that's around you 24/7, is on ***,
obviously you're gonna take it.
I'm not blaming you or Mammy, Dad.
I'm just saying I got sucked into
the wrong circle.
Right! Hang on now.
How did you get sucked into it?
I never used in front of you.
Your mother never used in front of you.
As a kid, I did catch you
dosed-up on the toilet with the works in your arms.
*** like that. Yeah?
Started smoking *** and drinking,
then I went to smoking dope,
then I went to smoking dope with you.
Seeing you smoking dope once I'd started smoking dope.
But that's part of it, innit? Drink and drugs.
That's the circle you're in.
He shouldn't have been, should he?
Not now! I got an abscess.
I've never laid a finger on him.
I think once I hit you, didn't I?
One time.
And that was in another house.
How long was you homeless for, Carlo?
I'm lucky at the moment. I've got a girlfriend with a flat.
God knows what's gonna happen if she kicks me out.
Well, if you were a bit nicer,
you wouldn't be worrying, would you, love?
How may times have you been into detox
and rehab and whatever?
I've been to the detox about...
Ten, 12 times?
ten, 12 times.
I didn't stay that long.
My mother and father split up...
- That's how his mother got clean. - when I was 13.
My mother got clean.
I stayed with Dad.
Not my fault, I said.
Look at her sticking her oar in.
In and out of detox, rehab, whatever.
Jeremy Kyle
Let me tell you something now. She's one ***.
Dad, give it out now, will ya?
Don't speak about her like that.
Alright, she's not a ***.
I didn't mean to insult dogs. I'm sorry.
It's a long story.
No, it's not. It's a short story.
If I have a minute
with my son,
Amy seems to think that...
that little bit of love, in that minute,
she's losing.
She won't allow us to have five minutes together.
You're the same though, Sean.
Quiet, hurry up, 'cause you've got one minute now, right...
I used to beat you when you were a little baby.
All I'm saying is the truth; she's one evil person.
It's a chaotic family I got, innit?
Excuse me. You've got a loving family.