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This one's called: The night I killed Tommy.
The roach hotel is still there.
And you walk by the desk clerk,
and it's not the same desk clerk of 15 years ago.
but the elevator is the same. And he watches as
you get on with her. Same wire front.
And you turn the handle on the side that points
to the floor desiring,
and the elevator smells like *** and rocks and rises and trembles
slowly,
so slowly upwards you barely feel the movement
and there's the third floor and then you get off
and
She has the key out. Her door opens.
And she puts on a light, unshaded.
And you have
time to see a wall full of roaches slide under the paper.
where the wall had no space uncovered,
there
are now only 4 or 5 roaches, too old or to stupid or bold to move.
and they sit there
waving their feelers at you
and she is already pulling her dress off.
you don't look.
you
switch off the light and then hear a sound like paper being torn.
and they're all out
on the walls again, as you undress.
find the bed, fogle mush.
As her hand reaches your soft ***,
strokes it, strokes it,. You kiss a mouth that smells of a lifetime of wine and
beer.
and then you mount. She grunts and grunts as it is almost a belch. And as the roaches
wave their feelers towards you in the dark
you imagine chrysanthemums and young girls walking
down the street.
and you bring it off, dismount.
use the edge of the sheet, dress in the dark,
as
she stretches there and thinking of - what.
and dressed you turn on the light you find a 10
in your wallet
as the roaches slide under the paper again except for the four or five.
and
you lay the 10 on her belly.
and then look at the fattest roach take off a shoe and flatten
him.
he falls like a stinking chip of life
and she giggles: ah *** you ***, you ***.
you ***, you killed tommy!
back on the elevator,
at slow going down two, but you're
alone.
lobby - you point the arrow.
and then you're on the lobby.
pull back the
huge wire door,
and the clerk looks up from the newspaper.
his look expresses nothing
at all, he's back to his newspaper.
the steps outside are as wide and long as cathedral
steps.
24 steps and you're across the street.
from the pet food shop where the crazy woman keeps
dead meat.
until it is black and stinks as she smiles through the flies.
the pet
shop is still there.
the roach hotel is still there.
as i walk away, i can still
see her still up there.
and now the roaches are on her, on her body,
as she lifts a
wine bottle in the dark room,
and the largest roach of all mounts her ***,
throws in
his roach *** and she says:
Oh Dany, oh Jesus! Dany!