Pursuit in the face of consequence

eyes strain, my eys, life spent, lost, you set yourself above, holding all in with fear, in time youll see what you set above, on your tower on high, always standing , laughing, pointing fingers at...

its the same story. the unhappy ending. i play the loser that seems to be winning. i seem to be winning in your eyes. by my action i expose myself, i open to weakness, i fall to my own choices,...

and its felt like lead, too think to let anything else in, it is too heavy to stand. i wont push out, please god this tears me apart on the inside, you quit and you suck and you are still the same.....

i, i just..this will be the last time, if you leave i, just want to fall... this will be the last time, if you leave, i want to close my eyes and imagine what is going on around me as i fall through...

watching... (1) watching my friends make, (2) all the things ive done, (3) you make the same... mistakes...(1) how they make things change, (2) thought i wouldnt make, (3) that you watched me make...

paint this picture, color it with casualties of hope and sorrow, frame it with apathy, i find it hanging on a wall that you disguise as faith and trusting, intent is realized morning moves my head, my...

ive been down, helpless, still. i come here once again, feelings lost, extinction of what used to be, dwelling keeps me from standing on my own. selfless dissection of emotion, emotion i have left...

How can I begin? to tell you how I see this just a name, a list that has a greater meaning and it cries out from a heart thats still beating I can't change that now God's hand, stealing it cries out a...