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I was in a car accident in 1983.
The person who was driving the car crashed into a tree.
He walked away from the accident but my body was crushed
and in the hospital the pain was excruciating.
The right to my face was crushed in, my jaw was pulled off,
I had several injuries with my back
The vertebrae was shattered, discs were flattened and bulged, my feet were shattered.
They thought I would never be able to walk again. I had been feeling from my waist
down. I had some different
issues of course with life working very very hard. The harder you work..
perhaps the more that you can feel fulfilled actually not giving enough joy to
myself. In the hospital room looking at the prognosis
and the excruciating pain there was a sense of hopelessness that
began to fill my mind and
also my heart. You might say that
I was looking for answers. "What's next?"
The power of prayer didn't seem to be working
and you know "Help me
just help me. What's next?" I tend to believe that God listens to us
but the power of prayer comes in many different ways.
What happened in the hospital room on this particular
evening in its true sense of hopelessness
a presence entered the
room. I could feel this loving
presence. I've heard other people say this
in a sense of watching people who
are near-death or dying.
People who are observers that they can see the
individual in the bed lighten up
or sit up suddenly or shout out a person's name
or something like that. It would be the same analogy
a presence entered, a very loving presence.
Maybe you might call it an angel but it did
have a sense of love. Actually it started in the
upper right hand corner of the room and
it started to come forward. I couldn't see anything but I could feel it
started to permeate the room.
The sense of a being in
this dimension and another dimension of openness
and love and the presence as it
filled the room started to
comfort me in telepathy and basically it
was. "If you want to let go it will be okay."
definitely a sense of there would be a transition. It wasn't a sense of this
feeling the presence continued to grow and
get stronger and more loving to the point
in my mind, my heart, my soul,
my being felt very safe and comforted.
That sense that I would be lifted
and alive and when that
fully permeated my sense of
Jessica but also feeling secure
in this love in telepathy
I said "yes" then
instantly at that point I was in
a completely different realm instantaneously.
Then there was
no earth, no hospital room, no pain,
no people. It was all
energy and I was now
a point of light very much
me completely Jessica
and my first thought was
"I did it! I'm dead!" very aware that I was
dead and great joy the pain was gone the
excruciating pain the fact of
what would ever happen to me or of
having a life with hopelessness.
Now it was a realm of perfection
and one of the things that I found
that was interesting I was aware that now there was no time.
I was aware of infinity
that there was no end and it
seemed absolutely completely normal.
There was no up, there is no down, there is no high, there is no low
and everything really did feel
perfect. It all seemed so
Some people might call it I've read "the void" I don't know if I would call
it the void because
there was a presence
all around. A presence
of knowledge, a presence of awareness
but I was me being me and then my next
thought was "Okay
I'm here. I'm dead, what's next?"
and that's when I describe waves
of energy from right
to left started coming
towards me from the edges you might say but there are no edges but
from eternity rolling through
to me, through me. When the energy rolled through me
I became the knowledge. You could
feel it coming, be it, it would pass through
but then you were it and that's something I find very, very
interesting because usually when now back in my body
you gather knowledge and you hear knowledge, you listen to it, you remember it,
you put it in your filing cabinet in your brain
and you'll pull back facts. "I remember this okay I remember that"
This feeling, this sense, this smell, the event.
Perhaps it's a joyful event or maybe a painful event but you're remembering it
and you can remember it in flashes but this was different.
You became the knowledge as
I describe now remembering
it was love a sense of all
love but love in that was knowledge.