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>> Carolyn.
>> Okay. let's see.
This was kind of, it was hard for me. I'm not going to lie, this is hard for
me. I, I don't like talking about myself so
much. I would rather take the intention and put
on somebody else as much as I pretend to like to talk.
I think that, that covers up things. But what people thought about me and the
kind of things that I got was that I'm outspoken.
one of my best friends called me organic because I'm very much into what I eat and
how I take care of myself. And I'm trying to go to 100% organic
diet, but it's very hard and costly. So, I'm working on that.
I got confident. my mom called me pampered.
my child called, said that I was a talker my husband said that I loved to shop my
grandmother said that I was a very strong woman.
So, those are some of the things that people perceived me as.
students and a good friend of mine said that, you're Carolyn.
You're just Carolyn, that's who you are. And so, I was like, okay, I'm just kind
of different. so that's what people thought of me, or
that's what I perceived me. for my inside of my box, for the way that
I am, I have two hearts because I, I really do wear my heart on my sleeve.
I am a big softie. I don't show it a lot, but I am.
and there's not much inside, except for I wrote something.
And instead of so much as having the drawers and stuff like that, and then for
my visuals, I brought pictures of my family.
And this is just my immediate family so it's having a couple just to cover my
immediate because it's very large. I have a large family.
So, and these are what are most important to me.
I'm 29 years old I hate doing this, I'm nervous.
I am a mother of three. I've been married for 10 years.
I'm nervous. Whoo.
I love to shop I struggle with being a talker.
I'm not very confident. I act like I'm confident, but I'm really
not. Deep down inside, there's no confidence
in here it's just [SOUND]. I grew up, oh I hate this.
I'm very emotional, so see I get emotional doing this because I'm nervous
so it triggers that. I know what I was going to say.
I'm half Mexican. I come from a split family.
My mom and dad split so I was the only child out of that.
So for me, family is really a core like, I don't want my kids have to go through
what I went through. my voice is shaking.
okay, I have to read my notes because I'm I grew up with a learning disability.
So like, I strive to get the A's now. Like, like, my GPA and my A's, like, that
makes or breaks me. Like, I could get a B on something and I
could have studied my butt off, and I should be proud of myself because like
the struggles that I go through. But it's just not good enough for me, so
I'm constantly at a battle with that. I wear myself very thin.
I'm stretched out, very much so. I'm very much a stressed person.
I may not show it all the time with, hee-hee, smiling and bubbly and all very
colorful, but I am very stressed out a lot of the time.
I have a lot going on in my life and I'm spread out all over the place.
let's see. Okay, let's go onto the back pit/g.
[LAUGH] And then, what I want to be. And what I'm trying to, what I'm striving
to complete or to become I believe is always changing.
But right now, my shorter-term goals are, I want to finish my program and I want to
have my degree. And then for my degree, I would like to
get my bachelors. I am a happy person.
[LAUGH] I am confident, a little bit, and I feel like my confidence, from going to
school and from I'm stepping out of my box and my comfort zone and changing it's
building a little bit more so. And I'm learning how to cope with things
that used to be more of a struggle, like my learning disabilities, and I feel like
it's getting stronger and better. I always want to be a better wife, a
better mother, a better sister, a better friend.
And I think that that's always going to be something that's always going to be a
part of me, like I just want to strive to be the best that I can.
I want to be knowledgeable, like I want to know what I'm talking about and like
someone believes it. Like they don't question what I say or
what I do, especially in my field. I want to be like, I want people to come
to me. I want to, if I have to start at the
bottom and, and earn that respect, I want to be able to know that, you know what?
You can come to me and you know that what I say is the truth and I'm not gong to
take you astray or lead you in the wrong direction.
and I just kind of want to live my dream, my dreams aren't big.
They're just, mostly just happy, healthy, my family.
Keep my loved ones close. And, that's it.
That's all she wrote. [LAUGH] [SOUND] No, stop it.
Yeah, stop it. Yeah.