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THE COST IS ASTRONOMICAL. BILLIONS OF DOLLARS SPENT ON
BILLIONS OF DOLLARS SPENT ON THE WAR ON DRUGS.
THE WAR ON DRUGS. >> I DON'T THINK WE HAVE A
>> I DON'T THINK WE HAVE A CLUE OF, JUST THE DEVASTATION
CLUE OF, JUST THE DEVASTATION THAT ADDICTION BRINGS.
THAT ADDICTION BRINGS. WITHIN FAMILIES.
WITHIN FAMILIES. >> SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT.
>> SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT. I DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS, BUT
I DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS, BUT SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT.
SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT. SOMETHING IS MISSING IN ME.
SOMETHING IS MISSING IN ME. ¶ AMAZING GRACE.
¶ AMAZING GRACE. HOW SWEET THE SOUND..
¶I ONCE WAS LOST, BUT NOW I'M FREE.
FREE. >> HI I'M LAVERNE TRIPP AND
>> HI I'M LAVERNE TRIPP AND WELCOME TO BORN TO BE FREE.
WELCOME TO BORN TO BE FREE. EVER WONDER WHY SOME OF US EAT
EVER WONDER WHY SOME OF US EAT TOO MUCH, DRINK TOO MUCH, SHOP
TOO MUCH, DRINK TOO MUCH, SHOP TOO MUCH, SPEND TOO MUCH?
TOO MUCH, SPEND TOO MUCH? WE'RE ADDICTED AND WE KNOW
WE'RE ADDICTED AND WE KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING IS
WHAT WE'RE DOING IS DESTRUCTIVE, BUT WE CAN'T
DESTRUCTIVE, BUT WE CAN'T STOP.
STOP. SOME OF YOU WATCHING KNOW
SOME OF YOU WATCHING KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT
EXACTLY WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT BECAUSE YOU'RE PERSONALLY
BECAUSE YOU'RE PERSONALLY AFFECTED AND SOME OF YOU HAVE
AFFECTED AND SOME OF YOU HAVE TRIED TO STOP AND YOU CAN'T.
TRIED TO STOP AND YOU CAN'T. LIKE ME.
LIKE ME. BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT?
BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT? IT COSTS BILLIONS OF DOLLARS
IT COSTS BILLIONS OF DOLLARS AND I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT, NOT
AND I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT, NOT ONLY IN MONEY BUT THE COST IN
ONLY IN MONEY BUT THE COST IN DREAMS BEING SHATTERED, THE
DREAMS BEING SHATTERED, THE COST IN LIVES BEING SHATTERED,
COST IN LIVES BEING SHATTERED, FAMILIES BEING SHATTERED, BUT
FAMILIES BEING SHATTERED, BUT THERE IS A SOLUTION.
THERE IS A SOLUTION. STARTING THIS WEEK WE'RE GOING
STARTING THIS WEEK WE'RE GOING TO SHOW YOU THE PROBLEM, BUT
TO SHOW YOU THE PROBLEM, BUT WE WANT YOU TO STAY WITH US
WE WANT YOU TO STAY WITH US BECAUSE WE FOUND THE SOLUTION.
BECAUSE WE FOUND THE SOLUTION. BECAUSE DO YOU KNOW WHAT?
BECAUSE DO YOU KNOW WHAT? WE WERE BORN TO BE FREE.
WE WERE BORN TO BE FREE. >> AMERICA THE LAND OF THE
>> AMERICA THE LAND OF THE FREE.
FREE. SOME WOULD CALL IT IRONIC THAT
SOME WOULD CALL IT IRONIC THAT IN A NATION WHERE WE HAVE THE
IN A NATION WHERE WE HAVE THE LIBERTY TO LIVE AS WE CHOOSE
LIBERTY TO LIVE AS WE CHOOSE MILLIONS OF US ARE ENSLAVED BY
MILLIONS OF US ARE ENSLAVED BY ADDICTION, ALCOHOL, DRUGS,
ADDICTION, ALCOHOL, DRUGS, GAMBLING, ***, THESE
GAMBLING, ***, THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE PRISONS
ARE JUST SOME OF THE PRISONS IN WHICH WE LIVE, AND IT
IN WHICH WE LIVE, AND IT AFFECTS ALL OF US TO THE COST
AFFECTS ALL OF US TO THE COST OF A QUARTER TRILLION DOLLARS
OF A QUARTER TRILLION DOLLARS A YEAR.
A YEAR. BUT HOW DO YOU PUT A PRICE TAG
BUT HOW DO YOU PUT A PRICE TAG ON LIVES LOST, FAMILIES
ON LIVES LOST, FAMILIES DISRUPTED AND HUMAN POTENTIAL
DISRUPTED AND HUMAN POTENTIAL WASTED?
WASTED? PLEASE TAKE THE NEXT FEW
PLEASE TAKE THE NEXT FEW MINUTES AND LISTEN TO THE
MINUTES AND LISTEN TO THE BRAVE MEN AND WOMEN WHO TACKLE
BRAVE MEN AND WOMEN WHO TACKLE THE PROBLEM EVERYDAY AND STILL
THE PROBLEM EVERYDAY AND STILL ASK THEMSELVES, WHAT IS THE
ASK THEMSELVES, WHAT IS THE ANSWER?
ANSWER? >> MAN HAS ALWAYS SOUGHT SOME
>> MAN HAS ALWAYS SOUGHT SOME MEANS OF ALTERING HIS MIND IN
MEANS OF ALTERING HIS MIND IN ORDER TO SEEK PLEASURE AND
ORDER TO SEEK PLEASURE AND WE'VE DEALT WITH THIS FOR
WE'VE DEALT WITH THIS FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS.
THOUSANDS OF YEARS. >> WELL THE COST IS
>> WELL THE COST IS ASTRONOMICAL.
ASTRONOMICAL. THERE'S BILLIONS OF DOLLARS
THERE'S BILLIONS OF DOLLARS SPENT ON THE WAR ON DRUGS.
SPENT ON THE WAR ON DRUGS. AND THE SALARIES, THE COURT
AND THE SALARIES, THE COURT EXPENSES, THE OVERTIME, THE
EXPENSES, THE OVERTIME, THE COST OF JUST GOING OUT AND
COST OF JUST GOING OUT AND BUYING DRUGS IS IN THE
BUYING DRUGS IS IN THE BILLIONS..
>> THE COST FOR OUR SOCIETY FOR DRUG ABUSE EXCEEDS 150
FOR DRUG ABUSE EXCEEDS 150 BILLION DOLLARS AND IT
BILLION DOLLARS AND IT INCLUDES SOCIAL COSTS, SOCIAL
INCLUDES SOCIAL COSTS, SOCIAL WELFARE COSTS, COSTS FOR
WELFARE COSTS, COSTS FOR TREATMENT, CRIMINAL SYSTEM
TREATMENT, CRIMINAL SYSTEM COSTS, CRIMINAL JUSTICE COSTS,
COSTS, CRIMINAL JUSTICE COSTS, AS WELL AS HEALTH CARE COSTS
AS WELL AS HEALTH CARE COSTS AND LOST TO WORK PLACE
AND LOST TO WORK PLACE PRODUCTIVITY.
PRODUCTIVITY. >> I DON'T THINK WE HAVE A
>> I DON'T THINK WE HAVE A CLUE OF, JUST THE DEVASTATION
CLUE OF, JUST THE DEVASTATION THAT ADDICTION BRINGS WITHIN
THAT ADDICTION BRINGS WITHIN FAMILIES.
FAMILIES. EVERYONE WHO COMES INTO
EVERYONE WHO COMES INTO TREATMENT IS CONNECTED TO
TREATMENT IS CONNECTED TO SOMEBODY.
SOMEBODY. >> WELL I THINK THERE'S A BIG
>> WELL I THINK THERE'S A BIG STIGMA ATTACHED TO THE WORD
STIGMA ATTACHED TO THE WORD ADDICTION AND NOBODY, QUOTE,
ADDICTION AND NOBODY, QUOTE, WANTS TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH
WANTS TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH PEOPLE WHO HAVE ADDICTION.
PEOPLE WHO HAVE ADDICTION. FOR SOME REASON I GUESS WE,
FOR SOME REASON I GUESS WE, YOU KNOW, A SIN IS A SIN.
YOU KNOW, A SIN IS A SIN. AN ADDICTION IS AN ADDICTION.
AN ADDICTION IS AN ADDICTION. WE TEND TO HIARCHY, WE PUT
WE TEND TO HIARCHY, WE PUT THINGS IN SOME TYPE OF
THINGS IN SOME TYPE OF HIARCHY.
HIARCHY. >> ADDICTION IS AN ADDICTION
>> ADDICTION IS AN ADDICTION IS AN ADDICTION.
IS AN ADDICTION. THE ONLY THING THAT CHANGES IS
THE ONLY THING THAT CHANGES IS THE AGENT, AS FAR AS I'M
THE AGENT, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.
CONCERNED. BECAUSE THE BASIC PRINCIPLES
BECAUSE THE BASIC PRINCIPLES OF MANAGEMENT ARE EXACTLY THE
OF MANAGEMENT ARE EXACTLY THE SAME FOR CHEMICALS AS THEY ARE
SAME FOR CHEMICALS AS THEY ARE FOR GAMBLING OR FOR SEX OR
FOR GAMBLING OR FOR SEX OR WHATEVER.
WHATEVER. >> YOU CAN BE ADDICTED TO
>> YOU CAN BE ADDICTED TO TELEVISION.
TELEVISION. YOU CAN BE ADDICTED TO THE
YOU CAN BE ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET, WHICH IS A BIG ONE.
INTERNET, WHICH IS A BIG ONE. CAFFEINE ADDICTION.
CAFFEINE ADDICTION. I THINK I HAVE THAT ONE.
I THINK I HAVE THAT ONE. I'VE BEEN GOING TO STARBUCKS A
I'VE BEEN GOING TO STARBUCKS A LOT.
LOT. >> I THINK WE'VE ONLY
>> I THINK WE'VE ONLY SCRATCHED THE SURFACE IN
SCRATCHED THE SURFACE IN REALLY BRINGING PEOPLE TO AN
REALLY BRINGING PEOPLE TO AN AWARENESS OF THEIR LIVES AND
AWARENESS OF THEIR LIVES AND OF WHAT'S CONTROLLING THEM.
OF WHAT'S CONTROLLING THEM. >> FROM A LAW ENFORCEMENT
>> FROM A LAW ENFORCEMENT STANDPOINT, WE ARE NOT GOING
STANDPOINT, WE ARE NOT GOING TO WIN THE WAR ON DRUGS.
TO WIN THE WAR ON DRUGS. THE POLICE ARE NOT GOING TO
THE POLICE ARE NOT GOING TO WIN THIS WAR.
WIN THIS WAR. WE CAN'T PUT EVERY NARCOTIC
WE CAN'T PUT EVERY NARCOTIC PERSON IN JAIL.
PERSON IN JAIL. >> WE TREAT THEM.
>> WE TREAT THEM. WE TREAT THEM AND WE TREAT
WE TREAT THEM AND WE TREAT THEM AND WE TREAT THEM AND WE
THEM AND WE TREAT THEM AND WE CONTINUE TO TREAT THEM.
CONTINUE TO TREAT THEM. BUT EVEN THE TREATMENT PHASE
BUT EVEN THE TREATMENT PHASE IS INSUFFICIENT TO BREAK THE
IS INSUFFICIENT TO BREAK THE CYCLE.
CYCLE. >> DOCTOR KARL YOUNG ONE OF
>> DOCTOR KARL YOUNG ONE OF OUR MOST FAMOUS PSYCHIATRIST
OUR MOST FAMOUS PSYCHIATRIST OF ALL TIMES HE HIMSELF SAID
OF ALL TIMES HE HIMSELF SAID HE COULD NOT CURE ALCOHOLISM.
HE COULD NOT CURE ALCOHOLISM. HE SAID THAT MEDICINE DOESN'T
HE SAID THAT MEDICINE DOESN'T HAVE THE ANSWER.
HAVE THE ANSWER. >> WHAT IS IT ABOUT THIS
>> WHAT IS IT ABOUT THIS CULTURE OF ADDICTION THAT
CULTURE OF ADDICTION THAT BRINGS OUR LIFESTYLE TO
BRINGS OUR LIFESTYLE TO CONTROL US?
CONTROL US? MORE COUNSELING?
MORE COUNSELING? MORE POLICE?
MORE POLICE? MORE EDUCATION, MORE
MORE EDUCATION, MORE MEDICATION, MORE CHURCHES, AND
MEDICATION, MORE CHURCHES, AND THE PROBLEM HAS ONLY GOTTEN
THE PROBLEM HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORSE.
WORSE. PERHAPS WE NEED TO LOOK AT
PERHAPS WE NEED TO LOOK AT ADDICTION IN A DIFFERENT
ADDICTION IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT.
LIGHT. ONE THAT EXAMINES THE VERY
ONE THAT EXAMINES THE VERY NATURE OF WHO WE ARE AND WHO
NATURE OF WHO WE ARE AND WHO GOD IS.
GOD IS. >> FOR WHATEVER REASON,
>> FOR WHATEVER REASON, PEOPLE, BECAUSE OF THEIR
PEOPLE, BECAUSE OF THEIR LIFESTYLE, DEVELOP SOME AREAS
LIFESTYLE, DEVELOP SOME AREAS THAT THEY'RE VERY
THAT THEY'RE VERY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH AND IN
UNCOMFORTABLE WITH AND IN ATTEMPT TO RELIEVE IT THEY
ATTEMPT TO RELIEVE IT THEY LOOK FOR OUTLETS.
LOOK FOR OUTLETS. >> I THINK ALL OF THE
>> I THINK ALL OF THE ADDICTIONS HAVE THE EXACT
ADDICTIONS HAVE THE EXACT COMPONENTS THAT THEY ALL
COMPONENTS THAT THEY ALL REPRESENT US TRYING TO FILL A
REPRESENT US TRYING TO FILL A VOID WITHIN OURSELVES, THAT
VOID WITHIN OURSELVES, THAT SOMEHOW WE HAVE SOMETHING
SOMEHOW WE HAVE SOMETHING MISSING INSIDE US AND WE THINK
MISSING INSIDE US AND WE THINK ONLY IF WE HAVE THIS ONE MORE
ONLY IF WE HAVE THIS ONE MORE DRINK, ONLY IF WE HAVE THIS
DRINK, ONLY IF WE HAVE THIS NEW DRESS, ONLY IF WE GET ONE
NEW DRESS, ONLY IF WE GET ONE MORE WIN AT THE HORSE RACES
MORE WIN AT THE HORSE RACES THAT SOMEHOW WE'LL BE
THAT SOMEHOW WE'LL BE FULFILLED AND FILL THIS VOID
FULFILLED AND FILL THIS VOID IN OURSELVES.
IN OURSELVES. AND SO WE'RE CONSTANTLY
AND SO WE'RE CONSTANTLY LOOKING AND WE WANT IT REALLY
LOOKING AND WE WANT IT REALLY FAST.
FAST. I THINK WE HAVE A WHOLE
I THINK WE HAVE A WHOLE CULTURE THAT'S ADDICTED TO
CULTURE THAT'S ADDICTED TO HAVING THINGS REALLY FAST,
HAVING THINGS REALLY FAST, RIGHT AWAY, NOW.
RIGHT AWAY, NOW. AND THAT'S A SPIRITUAL
AND THAT'S A SPIRITUAL PROBLEM.
PROBLEM. >> YOU DON'T JUST START OUT
>> YOU DON'T JUST START OUT BEING AN ALCOHOLIC OR ADDICTED
BEING AN ALCOHOLIC OR ADDICTED TO CRACK.
TO CRACK. I MEAN IT STARTS IN SMALL WAYS
I MEAN IT STARTS IN SMALL WAYS AND IT JUST GROWS.
AND IT JUST GROWS. IT ALSO BECOMES A PHYSICAL
IT ALSO BECOMES A PHYSICAL ADDICTION.
ADDICTION. WE BELIEVE IT STARTS OFF AS A
WE BELIEVE IT STARTS OFF AS A SPIRITUAL NEED THAT YOU TRY TO
SPIRITUAL NEED THAT YOU TRY TO FILL.
FILL. >> BUT PEOPLE KNOW THAT
>> BUT PEOPLE KNOW THAT SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT.
SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS, BUT
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS, BUT SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT.
SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT. SOMETHING IS MISSING IN ME.
SOMETHING IS MISSING IN ME. AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.
AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS. >> ULTIMATELY, OUR APPROACH
>> ULTIMATELY, OUR APPROACH TO HUMAN PROBLEMS HAS TO
TO HUMAN PROBLEMS HAS TO ADDRESS THE SPIRITUAL NEED OF
ADDRESS THE SPIRITUAL NEED OF THE WOMAN OR THE MAN WHO HAS
THE WOMAN OR THE MAN WHO HAS THE PROBLEM.
THE PROBLEM. ULTIMATELY, WE ARE CREATED FOR
ULTIMATELY, WE ARE CREATED FOR INTIMACY WITH GOD.
INTIMACY WITH GOD. AND IF THAT INTIMACY ISN'T
AND IF THAT INTIMACY ISN'T INTACT, WE CAN'T HOPE TO FULLY
INTACT, WE CAN'T HOPE TO FULLY RESOLVE THE HUMAN PROBLEMS
RESOLVE THE HUMAN PROBLEMS THAT COME ABOUT AS A RESULT OF
THAT COME ABOUT AS A RESULT OF THE LACK OF THAT INTIMACY.
THE LACK OF THAT INTIMACY. SO ULTIMATELY, WHILE WE CAN
SO ULTIMATELY, WHILE WE CAN SEE ADDICTION TO ALCOHOL,
SEE ADDICTION TO ALCOHOL, DRUGS, *** OR GAMBLING
DRUGS, *** OR GAMBLING AS BEING PROBLEMS IN THEIR OWN
AS BEING PROBLEMS IN THEIR OWN RIGHT, THE ROOT OF THOSE
RIGHT, THE ROOT OF THOSE PROBLEMS LIES IN THE
PROBLEMS LIES IN THE INDIVIDUAL'S INABILITY TO
INDIVIDUAL'S INABILITY TO RELATE PROPERLY, FIRST TO GOD,
RELATE PROPERLY, FIRST TO GOD, THEN TO OTHERS, THEN TO
THEN TO OTHERS, THEN TO HIMSELF.
HIMSELF. THAT MEANS ULTIMATELY, THIS
THAT MEANS ULTIMATELY, THIS HAS TO BE ADDRESSED AS A
HAS TO BE ADDRESSED AS A SPIRITUAL PROBLEM.
SPIRITUAL PROBLEM. >> COULD IT BE THAT SIMPLE,
>> COULD IT BE THAT SIMPLE, IS IT POSSIBLE THAT GOD ALONE
IS IT POSSIBLE THAT GOD ALONE HAS THE POWER TO SET US FREE?
HAS THE POWER TO SET US FREE? BEFORE YOU ANSWER, GIVE US A
BEFORE YOU ANSWER, GIVE US A FEW WEEKS TO TELL YOU THE
FEW WEEKS TO TELL YOU THE INCREDIBLE STORIES OF FORMER
INCREDIBLE STORIES OF FORMER ADDICTS AND THE PRINCIPLES
ADDICTS AND THE PRINCIPLES THAT HAVE BROUGHT THEM TRUE
THAT HAVE BROUGHT THEM TRUE FREEDOM.
FREEDOM. IN FACT, THESE PRINCIPLES HAVE
IN FACT, THESE PRINCIPLES HAVE WORKED SINCE THE BEGINNING OF
WORKED SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME.
TIME. >> IN 1938 ALCOHOLICS
>> IN 1938 ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS DRAFTED IT'S
ANONYMOUS DRAFTED IT'S LEGENDARY 12 STEPS FOR
LEGENDARY 12 STEPS FOR RECOVERY.
RECOVERY. ALTHOUGH DIFFICULT TO
ALTHOUGH DIFFICULT TO CALCULATE MANY BELIEVED THE
CALCULATE MANY BELIEVED THE SUCCESS RATE OF THE EARLY A.
SUCCESS RATE OF THE EARLY A. A. GROUPS COULD HAVE BEEN AS
A. GROUPS COULD HAVE BEEN AS HIGH AS 75 PERCENT AT LEAST
HIGH AS 75 PERCENT AT LEAST TRIPLE THE RECOVERY RATE OF
TRIPLE THE RECOVERY RATE OF TODAY'S RECOVERY PROGRAMS.
TODAY'S RECOVERY PROGRAMS. WHERE DID THE 12 STEPS COME
WHERE DID THE 12 STEPS COME FROM?
FROM? COULD THE STEPS IN THE
COULD THE STEPS IN THE PROGRAMS BE RESPONSIBLE FOR
PROGRAMS BE RESPONSIBLE FOR EARLY SUCCESS RATES?
EARLY SUCCESS RATES? WHAT COULD THEY TEACH US IN
WHAT COULD THEY TEACH US IN TREATING ADDICTION IN OUR
TREATING ADDICTION IN OUR CULTURE TODAY?
CULTURE TODAY? *** IS A RECOVERY ALCOHOLIC.
*** IS A RECOVERY ALCOHOLIC. IN KEEPING WITH A. A.'S
IN KEEPING WITH A. A.'S TRADITION OF ANONYMITY ***
TRADITION OF ANONYMITY *** ASKED TO KEEP HIS IDENTITY
ASKED TO KEEP HIS IDENTITY HIDDEN.
HIDDEN. >> IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR
>> IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE, IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE,
LIFE, IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE, TO HELP CHANGE SOMEBODY ELSE,
TO HELP CHANGE SOMEBODY ELSE, YOU NEVER DRINK AGAIN.
YOU NEVER DRINK AGAIN. THAT'S IT.
THAT'S IT. THAT WAS THEIR MESSAGE.
THAT WAS THEIR MESSAGE. IT'S, I WON'T DRINK ANYMORE.
IT'S, I WON'T DRINK ANYMORE. GOD HELP ME.
GOD HELP ME. I'M GOING TO DO MY BEST TO
I'M GOING TO DO MY BEST TO OBEY YOU.
OBEY YOU. AND I'M GOING TO HELP OTHER
AND I'M GOING TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE.
PEOPLE. AND IT CHANGES ALL OF US.
AND IT CHANGES ALL OF US. WE BECOME DIFFERENT PEOPLE.
WE BECOME DIFFERENT PEOPLE. >> WE BEGIN OUR STORY IN
>> WE BEGIN OUR STORY IN 1908, 27 YEARS BEFORE A. A.
1908, 27 YEARS BEFORE A. A. WAS FORMED.
WAS FORMED. A LUTHERAN YOUTH MINISTER FROM
A LUTHERAN YOUTH MINISTER FROM PHILADELPHIA, FRANK, WAS
PHILADELPHIA, FRANK, WAS VISITING EUROPE, NOT AWARE OF
VISITING EUROPE, NOT AWARE OF THE LIFE-CHANGING ENCOUNTER
THE LIFE-CHANGING ENCOUNTER THAT WAS ABOUT TO HIT HIM.
THAT WAS ABOUT TO HIT HIM. HE WAS STILL STEAMING OVER A
HE WAS STILL STEAMING OVER A VIOLENT ARGUMENT WITH HIS
VIOLENT ARGUMENT WITH HIS BOARD OF TRUSTEES.
BOARD OF TRUSTEES. IN ANGER HE RESIGNED AND
IN ANGER HE RESIGNED AND DETERMINED TO TAKE CHARGE OF
DETERMINED TO TAKE CHARGE OF HIS OWN AFFAIRS.
HIS OWN AFFAIRS. BUT THAT CHANGED IN ENGLAND
BUT THAT CHANGED IN ENGLAND WHERE AT A CHURCH CONFERENCE
WHERE AT A CHURCH CONFERENCE FRANK HAD A SPIRITUAL
FRANK HAD A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE THAT WOULD
EXPERIENCE THAT WOULD TRANSFORM THE COURSE OF HIS
TRANSFORM THE COURSE OF HIS LIFE.
LIFE. >> I BEGAN TO SEE MYSELF AS
>> I BEGAN TO SEE MYSELF AS GOD SAW ME WHICH WAS A VERY
GOD SAW ME WHICH WAS A VERY DIFFERENT PICTURE OF THE WAY I
DIFFERENT PICTURE OF THE WAY I SAW MYSELF.
SAW MYSELF. I SAW HOW MY PRIDE, MY
I SAW HOW MY PRIDE, MY SELFISHNESS HAD ECLIPSED ME
SELFISHNESS HAD ECLIPSED ME FROM GOD.
FROM GOD. I WAS THE CENTER OF MY OWN
I WAS THE CENTER OF MY OWN LIFE.
LIFE. IT WAS UP TO ME TO CHANGE.
IT WAS UP TO ME TO CHANGE. I HAD TO BEGIN.
I HAD TO BEGIN. >> FRANK WAS TRUE TO HIS WORD
>> FRANK WAS TRUE TO HIS WORD AND IMMEDIATELY WROTE A LETTER
AND IMMEDIATELY WROTE A LETTER OF FORGIVENESS TO EACH OF HIS
OF FORGIVENESS TO EACH OF HIS TRUSTEES.
TRUSTEES. >> MY DEAR FRIEND, I HAVE
>> MY DEAR FRIEND, I HAVE NURSED ILL FEELINGS AGAINST
NURSED ILL FEELINGS AGAINST YOU.
YOU. I'M SORRY.
I'M SORRY. WILL YOU FORGIVE ME?
WILL YOU FORGIVE ME? SINCERELY, FRANK.
SINCERELY, FRANK. >> FRANK BEGAN TO THEORIZE
>> FRANK BEGAN TO THEORIZE THAT A LIFE OF MORAL INTEGRITY
THAT A LIFE OF MORAL INTEGRITY HAD THE POWER TO BRING
HAD THE POWER TO BRING SOCIETAL TRANSFORMATION.
SOCIETAL TRANSFORMATION. EAGER TO TELL OTHERS THE GOOD
EAGER TO TELL OTHERS THE GOOD NEWS, FRANK TOURED ENGLAND
NEWS, FRANK TOURED ENGLAND LEAVING BEHIND SMALL SUPPORT
LEAVING BEHIND SMALL SUPPORT GROUPS IN UNIVERSITIES,
GROUPS IN UNIVERSITIES, CHURCHES AND HOMES.
CHURCHES AND HOMES. MODELED AFTER THE FIRST
MODELED AFTER THE FIRST CENTURY CHURCH THESE GROUPS
CENTURY CHURCH THESE GROUPS WOULD COME TO BE KNOWN AS
WOULD COME TO BE KNOWN AS OXFORD GROUPS AND IGNITED A
OXFORD GROUPS AND IGNITED A MOVEMENT THAT QUICKLY SPREAD
MOVEMENT THAT QUICKLY SPREAD ACROSS THE GLOBE.
ACROSS THE GLOBE. JAMES SPENT 30 YEARS AS AN
JAMES SPENT 30 YEARS AS AN OXFORD MEMBER UNDER FRANK.
OXFORD MEMBER UNDER FRANK. >> HE WAS ALWAYS TALKING
>> HE WAS ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT NEW LANDS, NEW NATIONS,
ABOUT NEW LANDS, NEW NATIONS, A NEW WORLD.
A NEW WORLD. SEE WHAT FRANK WAS TRYING TO
SEE WHAT FRANK WAS TRYING TO DO WAS TO NARROW THE GAP
DO WAS TO NARROW THE GAP BETWEEN WHAT PEOPLE SAID THEY
BETWEEN WHAT PEOPLE SAID THEY BELIEVED AND THE WAY THEY
BELIEVED AND THE WAY THEY LIVED.
LIVED. >> THE PRINCIPLES OF THE
>> THE PRINCIPLES OF THE GROUP WERE SIMPLE AND
GROUP WERE SIMPLE AND REFLECTED FRANK'S CHRISTIAN
REFLECTED FRANK'S CHRISTIAN WAYS.
WAYS. COMPLETE HONESTY, MORAL
COMPLETE HONESTY, MORAL PURITY, UNSELFISHNESS,
PURITY, UNSELFISHNESS, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. >> YOU HAD TO MAKE A DECISION
>> YOU HAD TO MAKE A DECISION TO ENTRUST YOUR LIFE TO GOD'S
TO ENTRUST YOUR LIFE TO GOD'S CARE AND TO STOP FOCUSING ON
CARE AND TO STOP FOCUSING ON THE BIG I..
THE BIG I.. THE SELF, AND THEN THEY WERE
THE SELF, AND THEN THEY WERE TO SAY, WHERE HAVE I FALLEN
TO SAY, WHERE HAVE I FALLEN SHORT?
SHORT? AND WHO HAVE I HARMED?
AND WHO HAVE I HARMED? THAT PROCESS OF
THAT PROCESS OF SELF-EXAMINATION BECAME A
SELF-EXAMINATION BECAME A BIGGY IN THE OXFORD GROUP AND
BIGGY IN THE OXFORD GROUP AND A. A. AND THE NEXT THING WAS
A. A. AND THE NEXT THING WAS THE OXFORD GROUP BELIEVED YOU
THE OXFORD GROUP BELIEVED YOU HAD TO ADMIT THOSE SINS, THOSE
HAD TO ADMIT THOSE SINS, THOSE SHORTCOMINGS TO GOD, TO
SHORTCOMINGS TO GOD, TO YOURSELF AND TO ANOTHER HUMAN
YOURSELF AND TO ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.
BEING. >> IT WASN'T LONG BEFORE THE
>> IT WASN'T LONG BEFORE THE MOVEMENT SPREAD TO THE UNITED
MOVEMENT SPREAD TO THE UNITED STATES.
STATES. AND FOUND ITSELF HEADQUARTERED
AND FOUND ITSELF HEADQUARTERED AT REVEREND SAM'S CHURCH IN
AT REVEREND SAM'S CHURCH IN NEW YORK CITY.
NEW YORK CITY. FRANK FAST BECOMING A
FRANK FAST BECOMING A CELEBRITY TRAVELED EXTENSIVELY
CELEBRITY TRAVELED EXTENSIVELY PREACHING ON THE VIRTUES OF
PREACHING ON THE VIRTUES OF WHAT WAS KNOWN AS--IN 1933 HE
WHAT WAS KNOWN AS--IN 1933 HE BROUGHT HIS MESSAGE TO THE
BROUGHT HIS MESSAGE TO THE INDUSTRIAL CITY OF ACRON OHIO.
INDUSTRIAL CITY OF ACRON OHIO. >> AFTER THE OXFORD GROUP
>> AFTER THE OXFORD GROUP TEAM LEFT ACRON, A LOT OF THE
TEAM LEFT ACRON, A LOT OF THE PEOPLE WHO WERE IMPRESSED BY
PEOPLE WHO WERE IMPRESSED BY IT, INCLUDING MY MOTHER AND
IT, INCLUDING MY MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER, TRIED TO CONTINUE
GRANDMOTHER, TRIED TO CONTINUE TO MEET PERIODICALLY AND SHARE
TO MEET PERIODICALLY AND SHARE THEIR EXPERIENCES WITH EACH
THEIR EXPERIENCES WITH EACH OTHER AND TO REALLY HELP EACH
OTHER AND TO REALLY HELP EACH OTHER CARRY OUT THE OXFORD
OTHER CARRY OUT THE OXFORD GROUP MEANING OF LIFE.
GROUP MEANING OF LIFE. >> SOME OF ACRON'S FINEST
>> SOME OF ACRON'S FINEST CITIZENS ATTENDED THE MEETINGS
CITIZENS ATTENDED THE MEETINGS INCLUDING THE FIRE STONE
INCLUDING THE FIRE STONE MEMBER, THE DAUGHTER IN LAW
MEMBER, THE DAUGHTER IN LAW AND A BELOVED ACRON DOCTOR,
AND A BELOVED ACRON DOCTOR, BOB SMITH.
BOB SMITH. AS WITH EARLIER OXFORD GROUP
AS WITH EARLIER OXFORD GROUP THE SMALL GROUP OF CHRISTIANS
THE SMALL GROUP OF CHRISTIANS IN ACRON STUDIED BIBLICAL
IN ACRON STUDIED BIBLICAL DEVOTIONS AND LOVED AND PRAYED
DEVOTIONS AND LOVED AND PRAYED WITH EACH OTHER AND EXPRESSED
WITH EACH OTHER AND EXPRESSED HIDDEN STRUGGLES ALL EXCEPT
HIDDEN STRUGGLES ALL EXCEPT DR. BOB.
DR. BOB. ALTHOUGH IT WAS QUIETLY KNOWN
ALTHOUGH IT WAS QUIETLY KNOWN BOB SMITH WAS AN ALCOHOLIC HE
BOB SMITH WAS AN ALCOHOLIC HE KEPT HIS STRUGGLES PRIVATELY
KEPT HIS STRUGGLES PRIVATELY FROM THE GROUP UNTIL SPRING OF
FROM THE GROUP UNTIL SPRING OF 1935 AND THEN IN OXFORD GROUP
1935 AND THEN IN OXFORD GROUP FASHION HE OPENED UP AND
FASHION HE OPENED UP AND SURRENDERED HIS PROBLEM TO GOD
SURRENDERED HIS PROBLEM TO GOD AND WITH THE GROUP PRAYED TO
AND WITH THE GROUP PRAYED TO STOP HIS ADDICTION.
STOP HIS ADDICTION. THEIR PRAYER WOULD BE ANSWERED
THEIR PRAYER WOULD BE ANSWERED IN A REMARKABLE WAY.
IN A REMARKABLE WAY. >> THAT'S THE POINT AT WHICH
>> THAT'S THE POINT AT WHICH MY MOTHER GOT A TELEPHONE CALL
MY MOTHER GOT A TELEPHONE CALL ONE DAY FROM A MAN WHO SAID MY
ONE DAY FROM A MAN WHO SAID MY NAME IS BILL WILSON.
NAME IS BILL WILSON. I'M A DRUNK FROM NEW YORK.
I'M A DRUNK FROM NEW YORK. AND I NEED HELP.
AND I NEED HELP. >> ON THE OTHER SIDE OF TOWN
>> ON THE OTHER SIDE OF TOWN IN THE MAY FLOWER HOTEL
IN THE MAY FLOWER HOTEL ANOTHER ALCOHOLIC WAS MAKING A
ANOTHER ALCOHOLIC WAS MAKING A SIMPLY FOR HELP.
SIMPLY FOR HELP. A WALL STREET STOCKBROKER AND
A WALL STREET STOCKBROKER AND SUPPOSED HOPELESS DRUNK, BILL
SUPPOSED HOPELESS DRUNK, BILL WILSON ATTENDED SAM'S OXFORD
WILSON ATTENDED SAM'S OXFORD GROUP IN NEW YORK.
GROUP IN NEW YORK. THROUGH HIS INFLUENCE, BILL
THROUGH HIS INFLUENCE, BILL WILSON DISCOVERED A LIFE
WILSON DISCOVERED A LIFE WITHOUT ALCOHOL THROUGH THE
WITHOUT ALCOHOL THROUGH THE PRINCIPLES OF REPENTANCE,
PRINCIPLES OF REPENTANCE, FORGIVENESS AND HELPING OTHER
FORGIVENESS AND HELPING OTHER DRUNKS.
DRUNKS. BUT NOW ON A BUSINESS TRIP TO
BUT NOW ON A BUSINESS TRIP TO ACRON, AND AWAY FROM THE DOZEN
ACRON, AND AWAY FROM THE DOZEN OF DRUNKS HE WAS TRYING TO
OF DRUNKS HE WAS TRYING TO CURE, BILL WILSON HAD THE
CURE, BILL WILSON HAD THE SUDDEN URGE TO HAVE A DRINK.
SUDDEN URGE TO HAVE A DRINK. HE SCANNED A NEARBY CHURCH
HE SCANNED A NEARBY CHURCH DIRECTORY HOPING TO BE
DIRECTORY HOPING TO BE DIRECTED TO AN ALCOHOLIC IN
DIRECTED TO AN ALCOHOLIC IN NEED, HIS ONLY HOPE OF STAYING
NEED, HIS ONLY HOPE OF STAYING SOBER.
SOBER. HE CALLED THE REVEREND.
HE CALLED THE REVEREND. >> SOMEHOW FROM HIM HE GOT IN
>> SOMEHOW FROM HIM HE GOT IN TOUCH WITH A LADY, HIS FEELING
TOUCH WITH A LADY, HIS FEELING WAS, IF I DON'T WORK WITH A
WAS, IF I DON'T WORK WITH A DRUNK I'LL DRINK.
DRUNK I'LL DRINK. AND SO SHE GRASP THAT AND SHE
AND SO SHE GRASP THAT AND SHE SAID, I'VE GOT SOMETHING FOR
SAID, I'VE GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU.
YOU. DR. BOB.
DR. BOB. >> SHE IMMEDIATELY SCHEDULED
>> SHE IMMEDIATELY SCHEDULED A MEETING BETWEEN BILL AND DR.
A MEETING BETWEEN BILL AND DR. BOB AT HER GATE LODGE HOME,
BOB AT HER GATE LODGE HOME, HOPING THE TWO COULD HELP EACH
HOPING THE TWO COULD HELP EACH OTHER.
OTHER. WITHIN TWO MONTHS DR. BOB
WITHIN TWO MONTHS DR. BOB WOULD HAVE THE LAST DRINK OF
WOULD HAVE THE LAST DRINK OF HIS LIFE.
HIS LIFE. THROUGH THIS FRIENDSHIP,
THROUGH THIS FRIENDSHIP, ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS WAS
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS WAS FORMED AS THE TWO PASSED ON
FORMED AS THE TWO PASSED ON THE GOOD NEWS TO OTHERS.
THE GOOD NEWS TO OTHERS. A FEW YEARS LATER THE 12 STEPS
A FEW YEARS LATER THE 12 STEPS WERE WRITTEN, INCORPORATING
WERE WRITTEN, INCORPORATING THE VERY THEMES THAT BILL AND
THE VERY THEMES THAT BILL AND BOB DISCOVERED THROUGH THE
BOB DISCOVERED THROUGH THE OXFORD GROUPS.
OXFORD GROUPS. THE VERY SAME PRINCIPLES THAT
THE VERY SAME PRINCIPLES THAT FRANK AND COUNTLESS OTHERS
FRANK AND COUNTLESS OTHERS FOUND IN THE BIBLE.
FOUND IN THE BIBLE. IN THIS BOOK LIE THE
IN THIS BOOK LIE THE PRINCIPLES OF BROKENNESS,
PRINCIPLES OF BROKENNESS, SURRENDER, CONFESSION,
SURRENDER, CONFESSION, FORGIVENESS, PRINCIPLES OF
FORGIVENESS, PRINCIPLES OF HEALING, OF FREEDOM.
HEALING, OF FREEDOM. AS BILL WILSON ONCE SAID--
AS BILL WILSON ONCE SAID-- >> WE NEVER APOLOGIZED TO
>> WE NEVER APOLOGIZED TO ANYONE FOR DEPENDING ON OUR
ANYONE FOR DEPENDING ON OUR CREATOR.
CREATOR. WHO INVENTED A. A.?
WHO INVENTED A. A.? IT WAS GOD ALMIGHTY WHO
IT WAS GOD ALMIGHTY WHO INVENTED A. A...
>> ¶ IT'S THE STAINS AND PAINS THAT BROUGHT ME THIS GAIN.
THAT BROUGHT ME THIS GAIN. ¶OF A CLEAN WAY OF LIVING IN
¶OF A CLEAN WAY OF LIVING IN SER REIN TEE.
SER REIN TEE. ¶BELIEVING IN A POWER GREATER
¶BELIEVING IN A POWER GREATER THAN ME, SET ME FREE FROM THE
THAN ME, SET ME FREE FROM THE STAINS AND PAIN.
STAINS AND PAIN. >> I NEVER WANTED TO DO
>> I NEVER WANTED TO DO ANYTHING BUT SING.
ANYTHING BUT SING. THAT'S ALL I EVER WANTED TO
THAT'S ALL I EVER WANTED TO DO.
DO. SANG MY FIRST SONG PUBLICLY
SANG MY FIRST SONG PUBLICLY WHEN I WAS TWO AND A HALF
WHEN I WAS TWO AND A HALF YEARS OLD AND I'VE BEEN
YEARS OLD AND I'VE BEEN SINGING EVER SINCE.
SINGING EVER SINCE. MY FIRST DRINK WAS 16 YEARS
MY FIRST DRINK WAS 16 YEARS OLD.
OLD. WASN'T LONG AFTER THAT FIRST
WASN'T LONG AFTER THAT FIRST DRINK I GOT DRUNK MY FIRST
DRINK I GOT DRUNK MY FIRST TIME.
TIME. AND I HUGGED THE CO MODE
AND I HUGGED THE CO MODE THROWING UP FELT MY BONES WERE
THROWING UP FELT MY BONES WERE COMING OUT OF MY CHEST.
COMING OUT OF MY CHEST. I SAID GOD IF YOU DON'T KILL
I SAID GOD IF YOU DON'T KILL ME I WON'T EVER DO THIS AGAIN.
ME I WON'T EVER DO THIS AGAIN. I DON'T KNOW WHEN I DRANK BUT
I DON'T KNOW WHEN I DRANK BUT I CERTAINLY DID.
I CERTAINLY DID. >> HE HID FOR A WHILE BUT
>> HE HID FOR A WHILE BUT THEN IT LED TO MARIJUANA.
THEN IT LED TO MARIJUANA. HE MAINTAINED A LITTLE BIT,
HE MAINTAINED A LITTLE BIT, YOU KNOW WITH THE MARIJUANA,
YOU KNOW WITH THE MARIJUANA, THEN HE SNORTED ***.
THEN HE SNORTED ***. THEN ALL OF THESE DRUGS
THEN ALL OF THESE DRUGS CHANGES YOUR BE HABITS.
CHANGES YOUR BE HABITS. AND I SAW HIM SLOWLY, SLOWLY
AND I SAW HIM SLOWLY, SLOWLY GOING DOWN.
GOING DOWN. AND THEN WHEN HE STARTED DOING
AND THEN WHEN HE STARTED DOING THE ROCK ***, IT TOTALLY
THE ROCK ***, IT TOTALLY CHANGED HIS BEHAVIOR, TOTALLY,
CHANGED HIS BEHAVIOR, TOTALLY, TOTALLY.
TOTALLY. >> COULDN'T HELP IT.
>> COULDN'T HELP IT. I HAD BEEN HIGH FOR TWO YEARS
I HAD BEEN HIGH FOR TWO YEARS EVERY DAY 24 HOURS A DAY.
EVERY DAY 24 HOURS A DAY. I WOULDN'T GO TO BED UNLESS
I WOULDN'T GO TO BED UNLESS THE JOINTS WERE ROLLED FOR THE
THE JOINTS WERE ROLLED FOR THE NEXT DAY.
NEXT DAY. I HAD TO HAVE AT LEAST 20
I HAD TO HAVE AT LEAST 20 JOINTS ROLLED.
JOINTS ROLLED. I WOULD USE THE PIPE AND DIP
I WOULD USE THE PIPE AND DIP IT IN THE BAG AND SMOKE.
IT IN THE BAG AND SMOKE. I WAS SITTING IN THE HOTEL IN
I WAS SITTING IN THE HOTEL IN NASHVILLE AFTER RECEIVING AN
NASHVILLE AFTER RECEIVING AN AWARD.
AWARD. MALE VOCALIST OF THE YEAR.
MALE VOCALIST OF THE YEAR. SONGWRITER OF THE YEAR.
SONGWRITER OF THE YEAR. I SAT THERE WITH THE TROPHIES
I SAT THERE WITH THE TROPHIES AND A BOTTLE OF JACK DANLS AND
AND A BOTTLE OF JACK DANLS AND SAID IS THIS IT?
SAID IS THIS IT? >> HE TOLD ME HE WAS GOING
>> HE TOLD ME HE WAS GOING FOR A LOAF OF BREAD AND HE
FOR A LOAF OF BREAD AND HE WOULD BE GONE FOR THREE DAYS.
WOULD BE GONE FOR THREE DAYS. I LAID IN MY BED AT NIGHT, I'M
I LAID IN MY BED AT NIGHT, I'M SORRY.
SORRY. I'VE LAID IN MY BED AT NIGHT
I'VE LAID IN MY BED AT NIGHT WHEN HE WOULD LEAVE.
WHEN HE WOULD LEAVE. AND I WOULD CRY OUT TO GOD.
AND I WOULD CRY OUT TO GOD. AND I WOULD SAY, GOD, DON'T
AND I WOULD SAY, GOD, DON'T LET HIM GET KILLED TONIGHT.
LET HIM GET KILLED TONIGHT. DON'T LET HIM GET CAUGHT BY
DON'T LET HIM GET CAUGHT BY THE COPS.
THE COPS. DON'T LET THE COPS KNOCK ON MY
DON'T LET THE COPS KNOCK ON MY DOOR TONIGHT AND SAY HE'S
DOOR TONIGHT AND SAY HE'S DEAD.
DEAD. >> THAT NIGHT I GOT ON THE
>> THAT NIGHT I GOT ON THE BUS WE ROAD FROM BIRMINGHAM,
BUS WE ROAD FROM BIRMINGHAM, ALABAMA TO LOUISIANA AND
ALABAMA TO LOUISIANA AND SINGING THE NEXT DAY WITH GOV
SINGING THE NEXT DAY WITH GOV ER DAVIS.
ER DAVIS. WE SANG A LOT WITH GOVERNOR
WE SANG A LOT WITH GOVERNOR DAVIS.
DAVIS. I DIDN'T DO ANY DRUGS.
I DIDN'T DO ANY DRUGS. I WENT STRAIGHT TO MY BUNK.
I WENT STRAIGHT TO MY BUNK. THE FIRST TIME I PRAYED IN THE
THE FIRST TIME I PRAYED IN THE LONG TIME AND THE PRAYER I
LONG TIME AND THE PRAYER I PRAYED IS THIS.
PRAYED IS THIS. GOD, IF YOU'RE REAL, IF
GOD, IF YOU'RE REAL, IF HEAVEN'S REAL, IF HELL IS
HEAVEN'S REAL, IF HELL IS REAL, IF EVERYTHING I WAS
REAL, IF EVERYTHING I WAS TAUGHT AND I ONCE BELIEVED IN,
TAUGHT AND I ONCE BELIEVED IN, IF THAT'S TRUE, PLEASE HELP
IF THAT'S TRUE, PLEASE HELP ME.
ME. AND I WENT TO SLEEP.
AND I WENT TO SLEEP. THE FIRST TIME I'VE BEEN TO
THE FIRST TIME I'VE BEEN TO SLEEP WITHOUT DRUGS IN TWO
SLEEP WITHOUT DRUGS IN TWO YEARS.
YEARS. WHEN I WOKE UP THE NEXT
WHEN I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING STILL IN MY BUNK ON
MORNING STILL IN MY BUNK ON THE BUS, I HEARD A VOICE,
THE BUS, I HEARD A VOICE, WHETHER IT WAS INSIDE OF ME OR
WHETHER IT WAS INSIDE OF ME OR OUTSIDE, I DON'T KNOW, BUT I
OUTSIDE, I DON'T KNOW, BUT I HEARD A VOICE SAY TO ME, ASK
HEARD A VOICE SAY TO ME, ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE.
AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE. I KNEW THAT VOICE.
I KNEW THAT VOICE. I HEARD THAT VOICE WHEN I WAS
I HEARD THAT VOICE WHEN I WAS A KID.
A KID. BUT I HADN'T HEARD IT IN A
BUT I HADN'T HEARD IT IN A LONG TIME BECAUSE I HAD
LONG TIME BECAUSE I HAD HARDENED MY HEART SO HARD.
HARDENED MY HEART SO HARD. AND I STARTED ARGUING WITH IT.
AND I STARTED ARGUING WITH IT. I SAID THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME
I SAID THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME TO ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME.
TO ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME. I CAN'T STOP DRINKING AND
I CAN'T STOP DRINKING AND DRUGGING AND LYING AND DOING
DRUGGING AND LYING AND DOING ALL THE THINGS.
ALL THE THINGS. HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING ELSE.
HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING ELSE. AND FINALLY I JUST KIND OF GOT
AND FINALLY I JUST KIND OF GOT QUIET.
QUIET. I SAID, WILL YOU FORGIVE ME?
I SAID, WILL YOU FORGIVE ME? I DIDN'T THINK HE WOULD.
I DIDN'T THINK HE WOULD. THE ONLY WAY I KNOW TO
THE ONLY WAY I KNOW TO DESCRIBE IT IS LIKE AN AL
DESCRIBE IT IS LIKE AN AL FANTASTIC'S FOOT WAS ON MY
FANTASTIC'S FOOT WAS ON MY CHEST AND IT CAME OFF.
CHEST AND IT CAME OFF. THE CHAINS CAME OFF.
THE CHAINS CAME OFF. I FELT I WAS WASHED INSIDE OUT
I FELT I WAS WASHED INSIDE OUT AND I KNEW GOD HAD FORGIVEN ME
AND I KNEW GOD HAD FORGIVEN ME OF EVERY SIN I HAD EVER
OF EVERY SIN I HAD EVER COMMITTED.
COMMITTED. I WAS SO HAPPY.
I WAS SO HAPPY. GOT HOME THE NEXT DAY.
GOT HOME THE NEXT DAY. GOT IN MY CAR, STARTED TO
GOT IN MY CAR, STARTED TO TOWN, INSTEAD OF GOING TO TOWN
TOWN, INSTEAD OF GOING TO TOWN I TURNED AND STARTED TOWARDS
I TURNED AND STARTED TOWARDS THE DRUG DEALER'S HOUSE.
THE DRUG DEALER'S HOUSE. I TRIED TO PRAY.
I TRIED TO PRAY. I TRIED TO THINK OF
I TRIED TO THINK OF SCRIPTURES.
SCRIPTURES. MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT I GOT
MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT I GOT HIGH.
HIGH. SAME THING HAPPEN THE NEXT
SAME THING HAPPEN THE NEXT DAY.
DAY. AFTER I GOT HIGH THE NEXT DAY
AFTER I GOT HIGH THE NEXT DAY THERE'S NO HOPE FOR ME.
THERE'S NO HOPE FOR ME. AFTER I GOT HIGH THE NEXT DAY
AFTER I GOT HIGH THE NEXT DAY I HAD A BOTTLE OF SLEEPING
I HAD A BOTTLE OF SLEEPING PILLS AND WENT TO THE OFFICE
PILLS AND WENT TO THE OFFICE AND LOCKED THE DOOR AND GOT A
AND LOCKED THE DOOR AND GOT A GLASS OF WATER AND DECIDED I
GLASS OF WATER AND DECIDED I WOULD KILL MYSELF.
WOULD KILL MYSELF. JUST BEFORE I TOOK THE PILLS
JUST BEFORE I TOOK THE PILLS THE TELEPHONE RANG AND I
THE TELEPHONE RANG AND I PICKED IT UP AND IT WAS A GUY
PICKED IT UP AND IT WAS A GUY I SANG WITH.
I SANG WITH. WE HAD DONE A LOT OF BAD
WE HAD DONE A LOT OF BAD THINGS TOGETHER AND I HADN'T
THINGS TOGETHER AND I HADN'T TALKED TO HIM IN A YEAR
TALKED TO HIM IN A YEAR BECAUSE HE GAVE HIS HEART TO
BECAUSE HE GAVE HIS HEART TO JESUS.
JESUS. WE DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO
WE DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO TALK ABOUT.
TALK ABOUT. HE CALLED ME.
HE CALLED ME. HOW YOU DOING?
HOW YOU DOING? I'M DOING FINE.
I'M DOING FINE. I DON'T THINK ANY OF US WANT
I DON'T THINK ANY OF US WANT TO ADMIT WE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT
TO ADMIT WE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
TO DO. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I WAS TOTALLY A WRECK.
I WAS TOTALLY A WRECK. I SURRENDERED TO GOD AND MEANT
I SURRENDERED TO GOD AND MEANT TO SERVE HIM ALL MY LIFE AND
TO SERVE HIM ALL MY LIFE AND NOW I GOT HIGH AND FIXING TO
NOW I GOT HIGH AND FIXING TO KILL MYSELF AND SOMEONE CALLS
KILL MYSELF AND SOMEONE CALLS AND SAYS HOW YOU DOING?
AND SAYS HOW YOU DOING? AND I SAY I'M FINE.
AND I SAY I'M FINE. CRAZY, INSANITY.
CRAZY, INSANITY. HE SAID HOLD IT.
HE SAID HOLD IT. DON'T YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU'RE
DON'T YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU'RE DOING WRONG?
DOING WRONG? I SAID NO.
I SAID NO. YEAH I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
YEAH I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WRONG, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT
WRONG, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
TO DO. HE SAID, DON'T YOU KNOW YOU
HE SAID, DON'T YOU KNOW YOU DON'T HAVE ANY POWER OVER
DON'T HAVE ANY POWER OVER DRUGS?
DRUGS? YOU DON'T HAVE ANY POWER OVER
YOU DON'T HAVE ANY POWER OVER ALCOHOL OR FLESH OR THE WORLD?
ALCOHOL OR FLESH OR THE WORLD? HE SAID YOU DON'T HAVE ANY
HE SAID YOU DON'T HAVE ANY POWER OVER ANYTHING.
POWER OVER ANYTHING. I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW POWERLESS
I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW POWERLESS I WAS.
I WAS. AND THE ONLY WAY I KNOW TO
AND THE ONLY WAY I KNOW TO DESCRIBE IT, IT FELT LIKE
DESCRIBE IT, IT FELT LIKE SOMEONE WRAPPED A BLANKET
SOMEONE WRAPPED A BLANKET AROUND ME AND I KNEW I FOUND
AROUND ME AND I KNEW I FOUND THE KEY TO OVERCOMING.
THE KEY TO OVERCOMING. IT WAS FAITH.
IT WAS FAITH. KNOWING I WAS POWERLESS BUT
KNOWING I WAS POWERLESS BUT KNOWING IF I SURRENDERED TO
KNOWING IF I SURRENDERED TO HIS POWER HE WOULD GIVE IT TO
HIS POWER HE WOULD GIVE IT TO ME.
ME. >> AND OUR MARRIAGE IS SO
>> AND OUR MARRIAGE IS SO STRONG NOW AND SO HEALTHY NOW.
STRONG NOW AND SO HEALTHY NOW. I HAVE SUCH A GOOD HUSBAND.
I HAVE SUCH A GOOD HUSBAND. HE'S TOTALLY CHANGED.
HE'S TOTALLY CHANGED. INSTEAD OF BEING MEAN AND
INSTEAD OF BEING MEAN AND VIOLENT AND ALLOWING THE DRUGS
VIOLENT AND ALLOWING THE DRUGS TO CONTROL HIS LIFE, HE NOW
TO CONTROL HIS LIFE, HE NOW LET'S GOD CONTROL HIS LIFE.
LET'S GOD CONTROL HIS LIFE. ¶HEALING'S HERE RIGHT NOW.
¶HEALING'S HERE RIGHT NOW. HEALING'S HERE RIGHT NOW.
HEALING'S HERE RIGHT NOW. ¶THERE'S NO NEED TO WAIT FOR
¶THERE'S NO NEED TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER PLACE OR TIME.
ANOTHER PLACE OR TIME. ¶HEALING'S HERE RIGHT NOW.
¶HEALING'S HERE RIGHT NOW. >> WE LIVE IN A CULTURE OF
>> WE LIVE IN A CULTURE OF ADDICTION.
ADDICTION. WE ALL SOMEONE WHO'S ADDICTED
WE ALL SOMEONE WHO'S ADDICTED IN SOME WAY OR DEALING WITH
IN SOME WAY OR DEALING WITH SOME LIFE-CONTROLLING ISSUE
SOME LIFE-CONTROLLING ISSUE THAT KEEPS THEM FROM BEING THE
THAT KEEPS THEM FROM BEING THE PERSON GOD INTENDED THEM TO
PERSON GOD INTENDED THEM TO BE.
BE. WHETHER IT'S A HARDCORE
WHETHER IT'S A HARDCORE ADDICTION LIKE DRUGS OR
ADDICTION LIKE DRUGS OR *** FOR PERSONALITY
*** FOR PERSONALITY FLAW LIKE ARROGANCE OR
FLAW LIKE ARROGANCE OR STUBBORNNESS THEY COME AT A
STUBBORNNESS THEY COME AT A GREAT COST NOT ONLY TO THOSE
GREAT COST NOT ONLY TO THOSE WITH THE PROBLEM BUT ALSO TO
WITH THE PROBLEM BUT ALSO TO THE ONES THEY LOVE.
THE ONES THEY LOVE. OVER THE NEXT 12 WEEKS WE'LL
OVER THE NEXT 12 WEEKS WE'LL PRESENT SOLID FOUNDATIONAL
PRESENT SOLID FOUNDATIONAL PRINCIPLES HELPING THOSE TO
PRINCIPLES HELPING THOSE TO OVERCOME ANY ADDICTION.
OVERCOME ANY ADDICTION. WE'LL DISCUSS THESE PRINCIPLES
WE'LL DISCUSS THESE PRINCIPLES WITH OUR PANEL OF RECOVERING
WITH OUR PANEL OF RECOVERING ADDICTS FROM SEVERAL DIFFERENT
ADDICTS FROM SEVERAL DIFFERENT WALKS OF LIFE.
WALKS OF LIFE. WE'LL ALSO BRING YOU MANY
WE'LL ALSO BRING YOU MANY INCREIBLETOES O EOPL
INCREIBLETOES O EOPL WHO HAVE DISCOVERED THE SECRET
WHO HAVE DISCOVERED THE SECRET TO OVERCOMING THEIR
TO OVERCOMING THEIR LIFE-CONTROLLING ISSUES.
LIFE-CONTROLLING ISSUES. WHETHER IT'S STRUGGLING WITH
WHETHER IT'S STRUGGLING WITH DRUGS, ALCOHOL, CIGARETTES,
DRUGS, ALCOHOL, CIGARETTES, ***, GAMBLING,
***, GAMBLING, SHOPPING, OVER EATING, DIETING
SHOPPING, OVER EATING, DIETING OR SOME OTHER COMPULSION, THEY
OR SOME OTHER COMPULSION, THEY ALL FOUND HOPE IN THE MIDST OF
ALL FOUND HOPE IN THE MIDST OF THEIR PAIN.
THEIR PAIN. >> EVEN IN MY ADDICTION, I
>> EVEN IN MY ADDICTION, I CAN REMEMBER WHEN I HIT BOTTOM
CAN REMEMBER WHEN I HIT BOTTOM I WOULD PRAY AND THANK GOD
I WOULD PRAY AND THANK GOD THAT I WAS BROKE, THAT I HAD
THAT I WAS BROKE, THAT I HAD NO MONEY, BECAUSE THAT WAS THE
NO MONEY, BECAUSE THAT WAS THE ONLY WAY I WOULDN'T USE.
ONLY WAY I WOULDN'T USE. >> WHILE THIS SERIES ALONE
>> WHILE THIS SERIES ALONE ISN'T THE ANSWER TO OVERCOMING
ISN'T THE ANSWER TO OVERCOMING ADDICTIONS, IT CAN BRING
ADDICTIONS, IT CAN BRING AWARENESS TO THE ISSUES
AWARENESS TO THE ISSUES CONTROLLING YOUR LIFE AND
CONTROLLING YOUR LIFE AND POINT YOU IN THE RIGHT
POINT YOU IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION TO FIND HELP.
DIRECTION TO FIND HELP. THROUGHOUT EVERY PROGRAM WE'LL
THROUGHOUT EVERY PROGRAM WE'LL PROVIDE INFORMATION THAT WILL
PROVIDE INFORMATION THAT WILL CONNECT YOU TO A NEARBY
CONNECT YOU TO A NEARBY ORGANIZATION WHERE YOU CAN
ORGANIZATION WHERE YOU CAN CONTINUE YOUR ROAD TO
CONTINUE YOUR ROAD TO RECOVERY.
RECOVERY. AND BUILD RELATIONSHIPS WITH
AND BUILD RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE WHO CARE FOR YOU AND
PEOPLE WHO CARE FOR YOU AND CAN BRING YOU HOPE.
CAN BRING YOU HOPE. SO WON'T YOU JOIN US ON THIS
SO WON'T YOU JOIN US ON THIS JOURNEY?
JOURNEY? AS WE SHOW YOU HOW TO
AS WE SHOW YOU HOW TO DISCOVER, CONTEMPLATE AND
DISCOVER, CONTEMPLATE AND BREAK THE CHAINS OF YOUR
BREAK THE CHAINS OF YOUR ADDICTION.
ADDICTION. REMEMBER, YOU WERE BORN TO BE
REMEMBER, YOU WERE BORN TO BE FREE.
FREE. >> WELL I HOPE YOU HAVE BEEN
>> WELL I HOPE YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN SOME HOPE, BECAUSE
GIVEN SOME HOPE, BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT WE NEED.
THAT'S WHAT WE NEED. IF WE LOSE OUR HOPE WE'VE LOST
IF WE LOSE OUR HOPE WE'VE LOST EVERYTHING.
EVERYTHING. LET NEW HOPE ARISE IN YOU.
LET NEW HOPE ARISE IN YOU. YOU'VE WATCHED MY STORY.
YOU'VE WATCHED MY STORY. AND LET'S BELIEVE TOGETHER AND
AND LET'S BELIEVE TOGETHER AND AGREE TOGETHER RIGHT NOW.
THAT FOR THE NEXT 13 WEEKS WE'LL GROW.
WE'LL GROW. THE ONE WHO CREATED US HAS A
THE ONE WHO CREATED US HAS A PLAN FOR US AND THAT PLAN IS,
PLAN FOR US AND THAT PLAN IS, WE WERE BORN TO BE FREE.
WE WERE BORN TO BE FREE. >> HAVE YOU BEEN INSPIRED TO
>> HAVE YOU BEEN INSPIRED TO START YOUR JOURNEY TO
START YOUR JOURNEY TO RECOVERY.
RECOVERY. PLEASE CALL OUR TOLL-FREE
PLEASE CALL OUR TOLL-FREE NUMBER.
NUMBER. PA FNE C HEL IND A R
PA FNE C HEL IND A R GROUP IN YOUR AREA.
GROUP IN YOUR AREA. OR YOU CAN VISIT OUR WEBSITE.
OR YOU CAN VISIT OUR WEBSITE. AND CLICK ON THE BORN TO BE
AND CLICK ON THE BORN TO BE FREE.
FREE. THERE YOU CAN SEARCH OUR
THERE YOU CAN SEARCH OUR ONLINE DATA BASE OF RECOVERY
ONLINE DATA BASE OF RECOVERY GROUPS NEAR YOU.
GROUPS NEAR YOU. WHEN YOU CALL, OR VISIT OUR
WHEN YOU CALL, OR VISIT OUR WEBSITE, REQUEST YOUR FREE
WEBSITE, REQUEST YOUR FREE COPY OF THE SELF HELP BOOKLET,
COPY OF THE SELF HELP BOOKLET, YOUR DYNAMIC JOURNEY TO
YOUR DYNAMIC JOURNEY TO FREEDOM.
FREEDOM. IN IT YOU'LL FIND OUT LINE OF
IN IT YOU'LL FIND OUT LINE OF THE RECOVERY PROCESS FEATURED
THE RECOVERY PROCESS FEATURED IN THIS SERIES.
IN THIS SERIES. TAKE THE FIRST STEP ON YOUR
TAKE THE FIRST STEP ON YOUR JOURNEY TO FREEDOM BY
JOURNEY TO FREEDOM BY CONTACTING US, FIND A LOCAL
CONTACTING US, FIND A LOCAL RECOVERY GROUP AND GET YOUR
RECOVERY GROUP AND GET YOUR FREE COPY OF THIS INSPIRING
FREE COPY OF THIS INSPIRING BOOKLET.
BOOKLET. CALL NOW BECAUSE YOU WERE BORN
CALL NOW BECAUSE YOU WERE BORN TO BE FREE.
TO BE FREE. >> WHEN I WAS A KID I THOUGHT
>> WHEN I WAS A KID I THOUGHT IF I COULD CONTROL THINGS THAT
IF I COULD CONTROL THINGS THAT I WOULD BE SAFE.
I WOULD BE SAFE. BUT THEN AN ADDICTION CAME, I
BUT THEN AN ADDICTION CAME, I WOULDN'T ADMIT IT.
WOULDN'T ADMIT IT. THAT I HAD LOST CONTROL.
THAT I HAD LOST CONTROL. OF COURSE IF WE DID LOSE
OF COURSE IF WE DID LOSE CONTROL WE WOULDN'T BE
CONTROL WE WOULDN'T BE ADDICTED.
ADDICTED. >> I WAS PRETTY MUCH A SOCIAL
>> I WAS PRETTY MUCH A SOCIAL DRINKER AND IT WAS ACCEPTED IN
DRINKER AND IT WAS ACCEPTED IN THE CIRCLES I RAN IN SO I
THE CIRCLES I RAN IN SO I PRETTY MUCH WAS IN CONTROL I
PRETTY MUCH WAS IN CONTROL I THOUGHT. , x>> I WAS TRYING TO
THOUGHT. , x>> I WAS TRYING TO THAT THING THAT I THOUGHT BUT
THAT THING THAT I THOUGHT BUT IN ACTUALITY IT WAS
IN ACTUALITY IT WAS CONTROLLING ME.
CONTROLLING ME. ¶AMAZING GRACE.
¶AMAZING GRACE. HOW SWEET THE SOUND.
HOW SWEET THE SOUND.
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¶I ONCE WAS BOUND, BUT NOW I'M FREE.
FREE. >> I BELIEVE BEHIND ALL FORMS
>> I BELIEVE BEHIND ALL FORMS OF ADDICTED BEHAVIORS,
OF ADDICTED BEHAVIORS, ADDICTION TO ***,
ADDICTION TO ***, CHEMICALS, ALCOHOL, ANY FORM
CHEMICALS, ALCOHOL, ANY FORM OF BONDAGE, IF YOU WILL, I
OF BONDAGE, IF YOU WILL, I BELIEVE THERE'S A LEGITIMATE
BELIEVE THERE'S A LEGITIMATE DESIRE, A DESIRE FOR INTIMACY,
DESIRE, A DESIRE FOR INTIMACY, A DESIRE FOR CONNECTION, A
A DESIRE FOR CONNECTION, A DESIRE, I THINK DESIRE IS
DESIRE, I THINK DESIRE IS BEHIND LIFE-DOMINATING
BEHIND LIFE-DOMINATING BEHAVIOR, AND THE DESIRE WILL
BEHAVIOR, AND THE DESIRE WILL NOT LEAVE JUST BECAUSE THE
NOT LEAVE JUST BECAUSE THE PERSON HAS REPENTED OF THAT
PERSON HAS REPENTED OF THAT BEHAVIOR.
BEHAVIOR. >> I BELIEVE THAT THE
>> I BELIEVE THAT THE MATERIALISM WE HAVE IN OUR
MATERIALISM WE HAVE IN OUR CULTURE REALLY CAN'T, AS I
CULTURE REALLY CAN'T, AS I SAID EARLIER, FILL THAT VOID
SAID EARLIER, FILL THAT VOID INSIDE OURSELVES.
INSIDE OURSELVES. THAT WE NEED SOMETHING WITH
THAT WE NEED SOMETHING WITH MUCH MORE MEANING WHICH ONLY
MUCH MORE MEANING WHICH ONLY GOD CAN FILL.