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Who am I to think that my problems are original? All my friends are equals, does that mean
they have the same pains as me? I hurt, I bleed, I don't understand. I crave an answer,
a solution to the chaos. All I hear are stories of troubled souls and how I should fix them,
how I am to make a difference to that soul, when mine is broken? I know I am not alone
and that intimidates me. When I see my friends, I wonder what they deal with? And how they
don't show pain? I know people go through more pain than me. But why do other matters
take precedence over dealing with pain?
I desire peace, wanting to stop the insanity of this circle. I do things I know are wrong,
and I expect to be different. I desire to be original, but I do the same things. Insanity.
Finding a solution is hard, believing in that solution is difficult, but not impossible.
I envy these people who have this rock hard faith, I also wonder if they judge me for
mine? I wonder who sees me, and I wonder who understands me, I know of at least one. He
knows me by name. I want to meet him, but I am afraid of what He'll say.
I understand religion, but can't comprehend faith. I am supposed to be selfless, but I
don't know how. I know pain is temporary, but I know that the thought of pain lasts
forever, and forever is along time. Why is it that pain defines us? Why can't happiness
and love define our lives? What I am trying to say is: I wish to drop this shield covering
my love, but if you were to see my soul, would you judge me for the cracks on my heart?
My heart hurts, I don't want to be a cliché and yet I am one. I desire to change the world,
but I know that task is impossible. My youth, my time, and my passion don't matter to the
world and that scares me, but who are we not to face are fears? I yearn to be me, but I
don't know if some one has all ready been in my situation and yet I live my life making
choices that affect the world. This world is heavy
and my arms are tired. I understand nothing, and crave every thing. My question is simple,
"Who am I?"