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Hey everybody.
So... In a couple of weeks I'm going backpacking to Philippines and
I just wanted to tell you why I decided to do that.
You see, the thing is that...
I'm dying.
Ya... I'm dying.
And... When I found it out, I didn't feel it first because...
I'm 35 years old, and, you know... at this age you don't think about death, right? And...
Even if you get thoughts about it once in a while you, you know, you're young, it's
not going to happen any time soon, right?
You think you're gonna live forever.
But...
And, you know, it's so funny because
there are so many movies about people that, for example, went to a doctor and
they found out that
they are going to die. They have maybe one or two month to live and
of course first they are all shocked
and then they start thinking about it and they just realize that
all their life they've been doing things not that they wanted to do
but the things that they "have to", like, of course, you have to go to school,
you have to get job so you could pay bills, all this stuff, right?
And suddenly, all that stuff is not important anymore.
And, all your hard work, and perfect house, and
that new car stereo system that makes your friends jealous, supposedly, and
the noisy *** neighbour, and
all that war in Middle East that you watch on your big screen TV,
your PS4 and iPhone, and
bills and debts,
failing economy, and
"Cola or Pepsi", or
boyfriend fighting with a girlfriend over toilet sit up or down,
all this perfectionism, all that stress about little tiny things that you always put on yourself,
all that thinking about what other people think about you, and
not trying to get yourself embarrassed...
Every single day, all the stress that you put on yourself, all those "important" things...
suddenly they are not really important anymore, right?
And, once in a while you get inspired and you make a vision board or WishList, and
you put all the cool pictures on it, - your dream car, your dream vacation, your dream life partner,
and stuff like this.
And then you get all inspired and pumped up, and
you go to gym and you start eating healthy, and
you do it like for 2 or 3 days.
And then one week later all that feeling becomes dull, there is no really a feeling anymore.
And 2 weeks later it all disappears and you stop doing this just because
you don't have time or energy, right?
And then one day you just find out that... you know...
And... you realize that... You used to Dream! You used to be passionate about things, confident...
You wanted to save the World!
And instead you basically wasted your life working hard, trying to impress people and
make them jealous with your lifestyle and all the new toys that you buy, and
you are angry about things that are not even under your control, so your anger doesn't
really change anything.
And you are living this life of stress, trying to keep this level, so other people would
think that your life is amazing.
After all it's all about image, right? It's what people think about.
And, yeah, you had all those dreams and goals and things that you wanted to have and do.
And you thought that you have plenty of time.
You know, so...
What would you do if you find out that you're dying?
All those characters in the movies, - they first freak out and get depressed.
And then they relax and they stop caring about things because now they don't have time for
all that stuff.
They only have time for things that really matter.
They don't care about what people think about them, they don't care about problems, and
they just have nothing to lose anymore.
And... what if you tomorrow find out that... you know...
For all your dreams, - do you have enough time?
And you know, the thing is that, - you don't know!
We always think that it's going to happen to somebody else, right?
Well, I have another news for you.
I don't know how old you are, but the thing is that...
You... are... dying... too...
And every single day you wake up in the morning, you open your eyes,
and you are one day closer to the day when you're just not going to wake up. Or something happens.
And it might happen tomorrow, it might happen in 50 years...
But it WILL happen.
And the thing is that, - you don't know when!
It always happens unexpectedly. You go on with your life and then...
BOOM, you are dead!
Relax!
What I just said, this last thing, - I hope it made you realize that
I'm talking about death figuratively, like a... in a poetic way.
And I'm sorry for scaring you.
And I know that my mom and my friends that care about me, they watch this video, and
I'm really sorry, but
I really needed you to get the point.
I'm OK. I'm not sick or anything. And I'm not like "dying" dying.
And in fact, I've never been more alive in my entire life!
And you know why? Because I realized that thing, that...
We are going to die anyway!
All that stuff that we care about, - it's not important, because...
Ya, we're all gonna die, right?
It might happen sooner than you think, or maybe not.
And I don't even know what's worse, -
if you die young before you actually could do all those cool things that you were dreaming about,
or when you live a long life and you die old, and you know that you've never done all that stuff and
now it's too late, and all you can do right now is just do some gardening or fishing
and just wait for your death. That's it.
When you're 80 or 90 years old.
And the thing is that I decided not to get till I actually get sick and old, and
I don't want to get this feeling that I'm going to die soon in order to start doing
things in my life.
I don't want to wait till I get cancer or some other sh*t.
NOW is the time!
I'm 35 years old, I'm healthy and strong and I have so much energy!
Now I can enjoy it, right now!
I don't want to work all my life and then have, like, savings, and
when I'm old I'm gonna be one of those people on a cruise ship that
go to, like, different... 20 different countries in 3 days or something,
and you know that they have 20 different medications packed in their suitcase, and they are barely walking,
and they don't even have time to enjoy all this stuff because it's so fast-fast-fast-fast...
And they get so tired...
And also I don't want to be one of those people that (and there are so many people like this), that
have 1 week vacation every year and then you come from that Mexico, after 1 week, and
you feel depressed because now you know that, even if you like your job,
you have to work now for another year before you can go to another vacation, and
you cannot spend there as long as you want just because it's 1 or 2 weeks every year.
And you have to work because you have to pay bills, I understand that.
But I don't want to be like this, it's just not my life.
And I'm going to live right now!
I'm making this decision, this is my choice!
Because now it's not too late, NOW is the time!
And now I can do so many different things, like I said, I'm strong and young, and basically...
Yeah, I'm taking my last money, I'm buying ticket to Philippines and I just go.
For how long? For as long as I feel like.
What am I going to do there? Whatever I feel like.
I don't make any plans. I'm just buying ticket to Manila and I just go there with my backpack
and few things in it, and that's it.
And I'm just going to walk and swim and fly and do whatever I want.
Or I'm just going to spend 2 weeks on a beach just doing nothing.
I'll see, I don't know. I have no plans.
And right now I can do this while I'm still young and crazy.
And what's gonna happen if I run out of money, for example?
Well, I'm just gonna live on a beach and eat bananas.
So, I have a backup plan.
I really don't care about anything.
And some people tried to stop me, but I really don't care.
And I don't want to think.
I just relax and I let it go.